he’s not sure of what to say of if he should say anything at all, but it doesn’t matter since she takes the opportunity of the silence that has settled between them to speak what was on her mind.
“don’t let me in with no intention to keep me.”
(and they symbolize dedicated love.)
it’s only a few seconds after that he realizes he’s been holding his breathe since joy had turned to him. his world slowly collecting itself back together with a single breath.
fear and confusion wants to push him away, but the true emotions that he had been fighting back for so long tell him otherwise. “i–,” but he still stops himself, “want you.”
song jaeho was no liar, but he knew that loving someone did no good.
Why are you so afraid to be loved?
“Do you really?” She begins and already her voice is cracking. “B-because this doesn’t seem like something someone who wants me would do to me.”
These last two years, Joy has prided herself in the strength she found entirely on her own. Life has, by no means, been easy by herself but she’s learned so much-- has become so much happier than she ever was back in her own home-- and she wasn’t going to give up that independent happiness for anything.
But then Jaeho comes into her life with smiles so bright she could actually feel him lighting up her life. He walks into her life unannounced and suddenly she just wants to be around him all the time; him who makes her deepest darkest fears vanish just with his hugs and him who makes her feel alive simply by looking at her.
“You can’t just embed yourself so deep in my life and then suddenly want...o-out.” She takes a deep breath then because she cannot even look at him anymore, at least, not with the tears in her eyes. He knows the reasons behind her words-- she has told him about the abandonment issues she has had to deal with because of her relationship with her brother and she had trusted him enough to think that he wouldn’t turn out to be like them.
By the time she speaks again, her fingers have curled into her palms as she fails trying to wipe at her traitorous tears. Perhaps she has known for a long time what Jaeho means to her but it had taken the last two weeks of losing him for what she already known to resonate within her. “If you want out, please tell me now....please tell me before I fall even more in love with you than I already am.”
“Jaeho-yah, I think I love you a lot more than I want you and I j-just....”
I am right by your side, what are you afraid of?
