- Journal Entry -

Written 5/24/25

Today, I think I truly started believing in the gods. Forming a ritual for Apollo, I burned incense, made khernips, lit his candles and prayed. Everything felt as it usually did until I began meditating afterwards. About a minute in, something changed. I felt the a warmth set around me. It sounds a little silly to even the person, who was formerly a complete atheist, writing this.

The words spoken in the prayer were in hopes that my cat has a swift and non-problematic recovery after her vet visit yesterday. She had many teeth pulled and got spayed. The amount of comfort that this has brought me is hard to wrap my head around. I'm not used to "feeling" things and if I did, I would usually chalk it up to a coincidence. So far, this is the only time that I'm not sure if I will or want do that.

Out of the very few things I've posted, this is the hardest. I'm always the one to say something is a coincidence, always trying to find an excuse. Truthfully, though, I really want this to be some sort of sign. Any other time, I'd question it, but I've been more open lately.

(p.s. I've wanted to believe in the gods, which is why I began worshipping. It was in hopes that I will get some sort of sign. That is why I have had trouble with my faith until now.)