#midagecrisis

When you have lots of things in your mind and least of priority in heart. We often come up as confused state of mind where heart and mind does not want to match. The heart says, ‘Yes! you are going correct’ but again, brain says, “ Please, Stop it !”. 

If you are an Indian girl born in small town and joint family in India. And alone daughter, the priorities of giving attention to self or relatives is only thing one can do. The own desire and dreams are distant things which is more often -blurred vision. And above all if you are happy and satisfied with your own way of life, marriage age becomes the only priority of parents and relatives. God, help our Indian relatives to mind their own business. I love a guy but he is confused on every step to make decisions and to express his feelings. Now, that a big confusing thing to a girl again. That in India every decision are done by mother not by the guy himself. So, multiple parts of confusing your own desire that how you wanna live. 

For few years, I have live alone and now when the decision has been put by parents for marriage. I am getting bit paranoid on how to match by thought with same guy. As of date, i have excepted myself on living alone and happy person. Now, things will change, so I am over worried. My anxiety attacks are high, I am stressed from past 3 weeks. I have turned as insomnia.