#mid-size reader

You can tell it’s going to be a bad confidence day before you even put the dress on.

It starts small—standing in your underwear, hair half-done, makeup barely started, staring at your reflection like it personally offended you. The mirror feels too honest tonight. Too sharp. Every curve looks louder than usual, every soft place feels like it’s taking up more room than it should.

The dress is beautiful. You know it is. Deep color, fitted just enough, chosen specifically because Bucky once murmured, “You look unreal in that one,” into your hair.

Chapter 5

Masterlist

Lee only woke up a few times to reposition and once to take his meds. He had truly forgotten that Y/n was staying with him until he saw her lying on the couch. He didn’t mean to stare at her, but he couldn’t look away. He couldn’t even begin to explain how adorable he thought she looked covered up with a blanket as she cuddled the excess material. It wasn’t until then that he noticed that she was wearing his sweatshirt. That sight made his stomach flutter. Lee shook his head and felt like he was crazy to like someone he had met four days ago. He felt like she really understood him. He tried not to open up too much in fear of scaring her off, but it was safe to say that Lee was starting to fall for Y/n. He had doubts that it was just because she was so kind and caring towards him, but he only had doubts to keep his expectations low in case she never felt the same. He drifted off to sleep and awoke to the smell of something sweet. Since he stopped drinking, Lee was like a hound dog with anything sweet.

He slowly got himself standing and entered the kitchen with more caution than before. The sight before him is something that he had longed for. Y/n stood in front of the stove cooking breakfast. As she cooked she hummed a tune that Lee was not familiar with. She was so lost in thought she didn’t hear Lee enter the kitchen. He crutched over to her and put a hand on her shoulder. She let out a small shriek as Lee startled her. Had she been anyone closer when she had jumped she may have knocked him over.

“Oh jesus Lee, you scared the hell out of me!” She held her hand over her chest and could feel her heart thumping.

“I’m sorry Darlin’, I didn’t mean to startle you.” He gave her an apologetic look

“It’s alright Lee, just make yourself known next time-shit!” She hurriedly turned back to the stove thinking she may have burnt their breakfast. Luckily she had gotten to it just in time. Lee made his way to the table to prevent distracting her anymore. He felt bad that he couldn’t help her by setting the table and doing any dishes. He was brought out of his thoughts when Y/n put a plate of french toast in front of him. She put powdered sugar on top and some bacon on the side. He didn’t waste time putting syrup on top and digging in. Y/n sat a cup of coffee and some sugar on the table. She wasn’t sure if he would like anything that she made, but by the lack of groceries in his kitchen, she didn’t have many options. But she assumed by the lack of time it took for Lee to finish his plate that she had done a good job. They sat in silence as they ate and drank their coffee.

“Darlin’, that was the best breakfast I have ever had, and I mean that.”

“Thank you, Lee, but it wasn’t anything special. We definitely need to get you to a store soon. You don’t have much food left.” She finished her plate and gathered the dishes to wash them. Lee admired her from his seat. She was still in her pajamas but wasn’t wearing his sweatshirt. He watched as she washed every dish and cleaned the counters of the mess she had made while cooking. Her clothing left little to the imagination as they hugged her form. From behind she seemed to be plumper than one would think, and Lee was in heaven. He quickly shooed the inappropriate thoughts away before he got himself into trouble. He stood himself up and headed back to his chair.

“Darlin’, I could use some fresh air. Do you want to go to the store in the next town over? They usually have a greater variety of things than the general store here in town.” He was nervous about leaving the house, but he felt stuffy being confined to the first floor of his home.

“That sounds great! Do you want to get a shower before we go?” She knew that he would have a difficult time, but he would have to get used to it.

“If we could make it happen that would be great.” Lee was very nervous about venturing up the stairs, but he wasn’t alone. But he also didn’t want to depend on Y/n too much.

Lee made his way over to the stairs. Y/n told him to sit on the stairs facing her, and as he pulled himself up each stair, she held his leg. He was surprised by how quickly he got up the stairs. Y/n helped stand him up and followed him into his room. She watched as he went to his closet and dresser to grab his clothes. She looked around his room in curiosity. He had a large king-size bed that was partially made. It appeared that Lee stuck to one side of the bed and didn’t spend time making it in the morning. He laid his clothes on the edge of the bed and sat down putting his crutches to the side. He had started to get red in the face as he took his shirt off. Y/n could see the blush across his face and walked into the bathroom to give him some time alone. She turned on the water to heat it up and found a towel to use and grabbed an extra one just in case.

She returned to see Lee looking at the ground as he ran his calloused hand across his face. Her eyes wandered down his body. He had very broad shoulders and dark hairs that littered his chest. He was all around a large man and not in a bad way. He as one would say has more cushion for the pushin’. Y/n didn’t have to use her imagination for the rest of it, because she had already seen him naked and was not going to complain about seeing that again. She wanted to make him as comfortable as possible, but to say she was attracted to him was an understatement. He looked up and caught her staring at him.

“A picture would last longer, Darlin’.” He chuckled. Catching her staring at him gave him a newfound confidence.

“I’m sorry Lee. I didn’t mean to make you uncomf-”

“It’s alright Darlin’, I’m just teasing.” He didn’t want to upset her. “Uh, can you help me get undressed?”

She nodded and quickly walked over to him. She kneeled down to help him remove his socks. Lee was trusting his gut when he put his hand under her chin and pulled her up to him. He slowly leaned in and gave her a small peck on the lips. He went in for a second when he felt her lean into him. She returned his kiss and moved herself onto the bed with him. Lee slid himself onto the bed more and pulled her with him. Lee’s hand had found its way to the back of her neck and the other on her thigh. Y/n had one hand on Lee and the other holding herself up. Y/n could tell that Lee had some experience because of the way he held her and caressed her face. Lee thought the exact opposite and felt that he was out of practice. This continued on for a few minutes until they broke away to catch their breaths, they were both red in the face and became nervous.

“Um, the water should be ready.” Y/n ushered Lee into the bathroom. She was hesitant at first but she knew she had to help him with his pants. She quickly removed them without looking too much and helped him enter the shower. Lee was able to wash himself and Y/n walked into his bedroom to give him privacy. Y/n was in shock of what had just occurred, she didn’t think Lee would like her let alone make such an unexpected move.

Lee felt somewhat embarrassed, he hoped that he didn’t go too far and make her uncomfortable. He was surprised in himself that he actually kissed her. He had planned to apologize in case he had upset her. He also would be lying if he said that what just happened didn’t make him extremely hard. He turned on the cold water to make it go away. He felt like a teenager having an erection after just kissing Y/n, but Lee hasn’t had any physical touch, besides his own, in a few years. He turned off the water and dried himself before tying the towel around his waist.

Y/n walked into the bathroom after hearing the water shut off. Seeing Lee in nothing in a towel did not help the situation at all. Neither spoke at this point, Y/n helped Lee out of the shower, and she stood by as he shaved and brushed his teeth. They moved into the bedroom where Lee quickly put on deodorant and sat down in the same spot as before.

“Look Y/n, I’m sorry for overstepping I don’t know-”

“You don’t need to apologize, Lee.”

“So I didn’t cross the line at all?”

“No Lee, I guess it just caught me off guard is all.”

“Okay, that’s good. Um can you help me bandage up my incision?”

Y/n agreed and grabbed some of the supplies that the hospital had sent home with Lee. She made sure the area was dry and applied a bandage to protect it. She then helped him get his socks on and put his underwear and pants around his ankles. He stood up and dropped the towel as Y/n pulled up his pants, she tried her best not to look. Lee put on his shirt and was ready to go. Y/n helped him back down the stairs and got him settled. She grabbed her stuff to get ready.

“Darlin’, can we talk?”

“What about?”

“I think it’s pretty obvious that I like you. But I don’t want to make you uncomfortable.” Y/n walked closer to him as he talked.

“Lee, to be honest with you. I like you too.” When those words left her mouth, Lee was unprepared for the fluttering he felt in his chest. “I think we should just take things slow for now, and get to know each other better, especially while you are healing.”

“Of course Darlin’, you are the one in charge.” Lee smiled up at her and grabbed her hand. He pulled her swiftly into his lap, to sit on his uninjured leg. She let out a little shriek and clung to him in fear of falling.

“Lee, I’m going to hurt you. Let me up.” He only tightened his grip around her waist and began pressing kisses along her cheek and neck. “Lee, I’m too big to be in your lap right now.”

Lee stopped his movements and gave her a confused look.

“You are not too big, you are absolutely perfect the way you are, and I want you right here in my lap.” He resumed his actions before she stopped him.

“Can I at least go shower first?”

“I guess so Darlin’, don’t take too long.” He said with a sigh.

Y/n gently got off of Lee and grabbed her things to head upstairs. Lee remained in his chair and read through another newspaper while he waited.

A/N: Hey guys sorry it took me so long to post things I have been thinking about this story and I want it to be more inclusive of those who feel like they are plus sized but aren’t really, more of a mid-size I guess. I say this because I have body dysmorphia and I can relate better to plus size stories, but I would not fit with that label per say. 

Chapter 6

Masterlist

Y/n ran up the steps and to Lee’s bathroom. She tried to be quick with her routine and only ever moved this quickly when she was running late for work. She had to use Lee’s products as she hadn’t been able to get her own. She made an attempt to shave her legs and only nicked herself once on the knee. She made no effort to apply any makeup; didn’t want to make Lee wait too long. Once she was done, she tidied up the bathroom, gathered the dirty towels, and put them in Lee’s laundry hamper. She chose to wear a white sundress with tiny blue flowers.

Lee got excited as he heard Y/n come down the stairs. He quickly stood up and had a large grin plastered on his face. His eyes followed her every move as she walked down each step. He only stared for a moment or so before Y/n pulled him out of his trance.

“Darlin’ you look gorgeous.”

“Thank you Lee, you look quite handsome yourself.”

“Are you ready to go?”