Feb 7
Ive been doing drawings of how I picture myself fully healed from metaplasty and they're all really rough so I'm not posting them yet but I feel so much joy looking at them and something so right about picturing myself post op.
It took me so long to admit, but I want to have a cock and I want balls, and I want the feeling of longing to be one of content and satisfaction with my body. I've spent so long fantasizing about having a penis when I get off, but not usually in daily life. It surprised me how badly I actually want it
I have a lot of anxiety around it, yeah, but it's something I want. Need, to feel comfortable and confident in my body
