sometimes the best you can do is just be really really stubborn about staying alive. like reverse psychology almost... life can try its fucking hardest to make me want to die but I AINT LETTING GO. FUCK YOU. i dont care if my brain screams and throws a fit the entire time through getting better Im dragging it by its heels. joy cannot motivate me yet so spite will

special kind of hell/heaven to being extremely persistent. like yeah i guess i vowed to not kill myself and im not going back on that promise so ill just keep living in spite of my brain hating every second of that. Just gonna try to be alive and do nice things even though i hate myself super bad because i decided i wanted to get better and im not giving up on that. remember, humans are persistent hunters. the mental illness may be getting the best of me now but i will outlive it. and that is a threat

haha yaaayy horror yay one of my favorite genres yippee i love engaging with horror. (suddenly serious)Something is in my house