#mentalisation

Following on from my last post about what therapy taught me about relationships, here is what it taught me about managing emotions. (The treatment that I had was Mentalisation Based Therapy which you can read all about through this blog.) To start off I should explain what I mean when I talk about ‘managing’ or ‘regulating’ emotions. For me, it is about being able to identify my emotions, to…

But I must've said something that offended them? Cuz by the end of it, they looked at me very condescendingly when they said "Thank you",

And then they seemed to not want ot talk to me anymore.

I feel embarrassed and really really sad.

I just wanna cry myself to sleep now, actually.

I don't understand what I did wrong.

I hate this.

I hate that this always happens.

No matter how hard I try. I just can't understand others, or predict how they will react to something I say. Why is it so hard to socialize. I just wanted to be nice. And point out some tips, cuz he seemed confused, at first he was receptive... but then not towards the end...? Why.... why? Why? Why not? What did I do wrong? Why did he look at me like that? Why was he condescending towards me? I must have done SOMETHING wrong. I just don't know what.

Why why why why.

Why does this always happen? I just can't understand others, why do they take offense to that? Why don't they explain? Why do they just... get emotional? Over an offense? That wasn't even... existant? I don't get it?

I hate being in society when I'm outside my bubble and autistic. It's always so scary and horrendous.

I feel like a social outcast. I feel like. I get throw out of social groups, cuz I did.... *something*, but I don't know what that thing is.

Am I just doomed to be alone, isolated and embarrassed forever..?

How I wish society could be more inclusive/understanding. I wish i wasn't always afraid of getting thrown out, or dropped like a fly from my social group, just because I made an oopsie.

...

God I feel embarrassed and sad.

I don't know what to do about this.

I don't understand Theory of Mind...

What Therapy Taught Me About Relationships #mbt #mentalisation #MHblogger #relationships

I talk and write a lot about how beneficial therapy is/was for me. I wanted to give an overview of the changes that happened for me during my course of Mentalisation Based Therapy. This will act as a record for me of my progress and will hopefully allow others an insight into what can potentially be achieved through therapy. The focus of this post will be on what MBT taught me about…

What is it like when therapy ends? #mbt #bpd #mentalisation #therapy #MHbloggers

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MBT & Relationships #mentalization #mbt #therapy #mentalhealth #timetotalk #bpd #UKbloggers

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MBT: the therapy sessions #mbt #mentalisation #therapy #bpd #UKbloggers

Following on from the introduction I wrote of MBT, I want to let you know a little more about how my therapy sessions work. For most MBT treatments, there is a combination of both individual and group sessions. I have both of these over a period of 18 months. Each week, I attend a 50 minute session with my individual therapist. We talk a lot about what is going on in my life now and how my…

BPD: the bad and the ugly #bpd #timetotalk #mentalhealthbloggers

This is hard for me to write because I feel the constant need to defend people with personality disorders. The stigma around them is horrible and those diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder deserve defending. Intense positive emotions, caring deeply about others, never being boring… there are some good things with this diagnosis. However, I’m here to be very open about the crappy…