Time and time again
Over and over again I let my seemingly eternally optimistic heart hope
I let myself think that I've finally found a piece of what I need. Not a relationship in the traditional sense. I don't want commitment beyond being a friend and keeping dates when we make them. But I want to talk, get to know someone, actually like them as a human and then enjoy what fwb is supposed to be.
Over and over again they leave, they ghost, they can't keep commitments or don't believe I don't want one. Tonight again I am disappointed because there was something to be excited about and it's gone.
Why can't people just be good honest people? I don't want to change who I am, I want to not care, but it isn't me. I just hope I don't have to hurt too many times.
