#memethingies

i have three on display, including my korean keycap board (top), my sweet cherry keycap board (second), and my ombre pink board (third one down)

i also have two more which are the ones that i use the most because they're the thockiest, creamiest switches - the blue one for my laptop when i'm writing, the pink heart for my desktop:

i've had an odd obsession with body-suits and leotards since i was really small. i was going to be a dancer - for much of my childhood that was my thing, and i was in classes for jazz, tap, ballet, and classical dance for years until my parents decided it was too much hassle and too much money and they wanted to focus on my brother's tennis career instead

even years after i lost that though, my love for that particular article of clothing remained and was reignited violently i saw Meg Tilly doing a dancer's stretching routine in one in the opening scenes of The Big Chill when i was a preteen. she was so beautiful and had such a gorgeous figure, i wanted to look exactly like that so badly i got out my old dance leotards and was so completely devastated when none of them fit me anymore. i had no reason to ask mum to buy me a new one that fit, no class to wear it to, no good excuse for it. i let it go

as a teenager, my body was suddenly plagued with lipedema (not that i knew that at the time, i thought i was just ugly and fat), so i covered up completely every chance i got, refused to even wear swimwear to the beach or the pool and opted for shirts and long shorts in the water. when i turned 18, i remembered some awful things that happened to me that i'd repressed, and ballooned up to super morbidly obese within a year - and stayed that way for most of my life

now that i'm finally losing that weight for good, now that over 100lbs of that is off and the last 100lbs is well on its way and i am actively taking care of myself, one of the things i love to do is sit on a big, beautiful round mat in my living room and do my vibration plate work, my body brushing, and my skincare routine in the morning with something relaxing on the TV. i realized when i began it that i was not going to be able to do my body brushing on my legs while fully dressed, and i didn't want to sit out there in my underwear - so i decided to be brave, and i bought myself some bodysuits

now i get to wear them every morning, and while i know i'll never look the way i want to in them, i love them more than anything

so the last time i got a tattoo i was in my 20s, and actually all four of my tattoos were done in my 20s, but i've always wanted more and i kept putting it off and off and off because of money and fear and so many other things, and now my brain is like, oh i'm too old i guess? sadface

BUT i've recently kinda looked at my life and looked at what i want to be and who i'm becoming and i've decided i am 100% getting the four tattoos i want starting asap!

the first one is gonna be the easiest to kinda slide me back into the experience when i can afford it, and it's going to be this specific ring design around my right thumb. my sister died when i was young, and she left me her jewellery, which i got most of in a little envelope - but her favorite ring, the one she wears in almost every picture, was missing, so i'm getting the pattern on the ring tattooed 💛

AHH yay!

what’s your favourite kitchen appliance? honestly it's my new blender, it's a Ninja Blendsense and it's amazing it does everything so smooth which - as an audhd texture issues girlie - is so SO important for me. i get so much of my fiber and protein and nutrients from my daily smoothie!

what’s your favourite piece of furniture and where did you get it? right now it's my TT Racing Duo computer chair in Chopper Edition - which is bright pink and blue and lovely 🥰 as someone who has owned nothing but chocolate brown and dark wood/cheap black furniture most of my life, this is my first attempt at letting real colour into my world and i'm hoping to slowly let more & more in as i replace things around my house! i got it over here (honorable mention on this one to my bedframe which is also a bookcase, she's glorious)

what’s your go-to recipe when you want to make something that requires minimal effort? honestly if i'm flaring up it's def something frozen thrown at the airfryer from a distance lmao BUT lately i'm cooking for myself more and more and smash tacos are my newest quick obsession for high protein fast! they take minutes to prep and cook so damn quick. you just season your ground beef with taco seasoning, smear it in a thin layer all over a mini tortilla, cook it meat-side down and then a bit on the other side in a hot oiled pan, and then fold it in half with salads, beans, or sauces in the middle like a regular taco. here's a recipe for a mcchicken version too!

Mine is an old gray rabbit :)

bless! he sounds adorable!

#11 - my most loved plushie - this one's a big ole throwback to some 15 years ago when me and Emily @queerstark ran the asktheanderbros blog! we invented for the narrative a plushie that baby Blaine adored, if you recall, Oop the Orange Dinosaur, and one of my beautiful followers (the lovely @jaylie12!) actually made him for me! he remains to date my most beloved plushie and he's a little wonky and floppy from too many hugs, but still hanging on strong after all this time 💛

the subject is "top 5 books i bought for the vibes" and BOY HOWDY this was hard bc i legit buy all my books purely based on vibes BUT HERE WE GO

#5 - All That's Left in the World by Erik J. Brown

a genre-bending, queer, dystopian, end-of-the-world romance about courage, hope & humanity, the cover literally leapt out at me what can i say

#4 - Vengeance Road by Erin Bowman

a girl disguises herself as a boy to seek revenge for the death of her father? fuck yeah

#3 - Circe by Madeline Miller

an adaptation of The Odyssey as told from the perspective of the witch Circe, what's not to love?

#2 The Everlasting by Alix E. Harrow

a queer-inclusive, time-looping fantasy exploring the legend of Sir Una, a lady knight who loved a queen, i mean, it has literally everything

#1 - This is How You Lose The Time War by Amal El-Mohtar & Max Gladstone

a science fiction fantasy LGBT epistolary novel that follows two enemy agents who travel back and forth through time to alter history on behalf of their warring empires i mean COME ON

so i've been running multiple D&D campaigns for a long-ass time now, the original one for almost a decade (we're at 9 years 3 months and about to head into the final epic BBEG fight) and the second one for three or four years concurrently. both are set in the same world, which is Faerun 300 or so years into the future of the present WOTC era, so there's an amazing thing that happens where both parties (many of whom are friends irl) can influence each other's lives and situations, which makes them even more fun to run

now having run two games for so long, i sometimes worry (and by 'sometimes' i mean 'every time i sit down to prep a game') that i'm finally out of good ideas. i've written and run hundreds and hundreds of games at this point, and while i have reused some old concepts here and there, for the most part every storyline, every twist and turn, has been pretty much original and sprung from my very ridiculous brain

i sat down to set up yesterday's game for the second group and started lining up the points of what happened at the end of the previous game - wherein they have just finished a huge quest to get one of them out of a deal with a devil who could see through their eyes and hear through their ears at any point the devil so desired. the quest ended with them tracking down a Silver Sorceress that they'd heard about from an enchanted message in their early gameplay (three years ago) who promised a Wish spell granted in exchange for the location of the last silver dragon. i won't go into too many details and bore you, but they found the dragon, took her with them, and discovered way more than they bargained for in terms of the Sorceress herself

now with that epic quest complete, and a new one beginning, i wasn't sure how to ease them onto the next road. but still - sitting there and jotting down ideas - another huge storyline came out of me that i simply did not expect. suddenly, instead of being scared of messing it up, i'm excited again for the next chapter

after a decade, i thought i'd run out of moments like that. it's kind of magical to discover i'm still capable of them