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therefore, i feel like mirye's "jealousy" he experiences also has to do with his want to be a reliable person. in ch 53 he says that it makes him upset to have to hear abt what kyungbin is doing from other people, and he doesnt want to just "stand by and watch" kyungbin receive affection from other people.

and obviously regular degular ass jealousy is a thing and im sure that he also feels jealous the way any bf would but due to mirye's personality it really adds another element to it. if he wants kyungbin to rely on him, he wants to be able to make him happy, etc. he worried when (he thought) kyungbin was upset at him, and when (he thought) kyungbin was sad. (this "overthinking" might be for another discussion)

its not necessarily that he wants to be in control of kyungbin's emotions (obviously he's not a piece of shit like that), but he wants to be someone that kyungbin can turn to for just about anything. kyungbin obviously doesn't come off as someone who's self-reliable (altho... i mean he lived on his own for 5 years), so mirye wants to be there for him instead. so kyungbin receiving affection from others would make him upset because he feels that it's "his job" to make kyungbin happy, or that other people aren't as reliable as him? (sort of like when he refers to ian, namsaeng, and yugun as "two softies & one weakling" in ch 77)

tbh, ch 77 is similar to ch 57 (lol they both end in 7) because it shows mirye going out of his way to (try to) make kyungbin feel better or act as someone he can rely on. this is basically me saying "mirye's love language is acts of service" but it's true? he doesn't like/its hard for him to say out loud that he likes him, but instead would rather go out of his way to make kyungbin happy through being a pillar he can lean on. he's best able to express his feelings towards kyungbin by showing him, so when other people "show" kyungbin affection, it's obviously irritating lol.