#melting everything

She hates how he looks at her like she’s a creature under a microscope, hates how his voice is a little rougher and sadder than her Mark’s, hates how badly he wants to get out of here, the same thing she used to want. She hates most of all that even after he’s put his hands on her, told her to her face he doesn’t think she’s real, some part of her can’t believe he meant it. 

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Helly can’t sleep, and even when she can, she dreams about Mark Scout.

If you ever want to write any missing scenes in the melting everything about me universe I would kill for that. Whether imarkhelly, omarkhelly, reintegrated!markhelena or one where helena makes an appearance on the severed floor... just throwing that out there

ohhh thank you! I think about melting everything Mark and Helly a lot still. That scene was a real engineering problem to write bc I wanted it to be sweet and innieish, but also Mark S. had to be acting more and more oMark-y, enough that Helly would notice. And then the fact that it was all a flashback. And on top of that I wanted it to be at least kind of hot haha.

It’s fun to think about how the innies would learn to be affectionate with one another and fulfill each others needs w/o the baggage and context outies have around what’s “normal” in sex. Like iMark has realized Helly rly likes to hear his voice and wants to feel loved & validated but he doesn’t know the “rules” of dirty talk so he’s just like, “ur so pretty 😍” now I’m getting emotional abt iMark omg…

just wanted to say thank you for your helly saw trap fic.... it feels like everyone is in the saw trap in that fic universe and situation in some ways. imark omark and helly. The switching. The desires. The innie and outie bleed and the fear of disappearing or being consumed. Such delicious territory.

omark and imark gaining each other almost. consuming. Wondering what will happen when your other self appears and you aren't there.

Thank u so much anon 🙂‍↕️ I’m a happy ending enjoyer at heart but I do love to put them through some productive emotional torment.

iMark is dealing with so much in that universe. Some version of the memory bleed his outie is experiencing, plus the fear he could switch and hurt the person he cares about most (he pushed her once, what if he gets desperate and does something worse?), and he’s losing already limited time with her every time it happens.

No ur right haha I misspoke! He is fully reintegrated at the end of that fic, with realizing he also loves Helly being kind of the intersect between the two selves that allows them to fully merge. And he’s unknowingly experiencing it over the course of the fic as he’s trying to do right by Helly.