#meloncholyrambles

made a tt guys…… sellout

might make a poetry side blog but i feel cringe,,,,, chat dont judge me for writing poetry at my big age okay

i spend more time in the imaginary fake world in my head then i do the real one :P

rewatching sharp objects and thinking about how worthless i am 😛

i hate being a person and around people, i hate having to interact with people, im so tired of masking i just want to hide away in my room forever and never leave :P

might go on the low histamine diet bc it feels like every food i eat makes me bloated, flushed, or my heart feel like it’s gonna pound out of my chest…. idk i can’t not have coffee everyday tho. ive been drinking it since i was 6 every morning and atp i genuinely feel like i wont be able to function without it. even tho that sounds so cornball-ish i mean it with complete sincerity

chat im so cooked……. i might get fired idk

thinking about getting a digicam and getting back into photography :P but i don’t want to do like high resolution photos i want it to be like 2000s grainy gloomy photos….. idk what camera would be good tho