#melodramatic fool

<I can't love you. I shouldn't. I am just faking when I vocalized those words. It's not true. I don't wanna be with you. I don't want to see you anymore. I can't stand it. Your stare that screwing my heart until it was totally screwed up. Your messing with my with my life. I don't like. Not before, not now, not until I die. I just don't want to be with you.

All of this is the opposite. But I really hate the way you look at me. I always made me fall for you. Again and again. I just really love you too much. I guess this isn't right. I have been asking myself if I do really love you. I just can't answer it until every time I see you. I might be obsessed with you. But all I am thinking is that I shouldn't see you, I can't be with you. Not now. not ever. I might hurt you. That's the only thing I don't want to do with you. To be the cause of your sadness. I know that you don't fucking care about me. or maybe you do a little. But I know you don't love me. It's okay. I'm just contented looking at you from far away. Happy with someone that you liked and cared for.>

Now playing on my mind: "She's only 18" by RHCP (recommended by my lil bro)

I woke up this day, the day that I've been waiting for. I am now 18. This is the legal age in the Philippines. Well, I can have my non-professional driver's license soon. This will be my last two years of being a teenager. Thanking God for all the wonderful blessing that I have received and will receive. Thanking my parents for guiding me and teaching me to be a responsible daughter. Thanking my cousins, friends, other relatives, colleagues for giving me such wonderful memories that I will always cherish.

Wanna say sorry for the hurtful words that I told to others. Sorry that I am sarcastic and moody sometimes but thank you for understanding me.

Thank you for my Tumblr family. Without you, I am lost. lol I love you guys! 'Cause you taught me a lot of things that I wouldn't learn through Facebook or Twitter.

Well, I am not a party person so I am not throwing a party for my 18 birthday/debut. Come to my party when I am turning 21. Hahaha.

I feel alienated from nature by my willingness to be isolated.

And find it hard to belong in any social group or "clique" of the real world.

Everything is toxic and superficial.