#mejustme

What do you do?

Thinking about getting older

Heart surgery

Dying

Asking someone you like for more

Seeing her engagement ring

Which she hides

Probably her fiancé

Thinking about going places

Just not caring

Too many free lunches

For her

Oh well for tonight

Getting older

Almost ready to go home

It matters, but it doesn’t

I don’t know

I’m not sure

But , I think 🤔 I am

Another, probably over before it ever was

It too me too long to put it together

After so many years, I thought I’d be better at this

Science, easy for me

But, life, people, the hardest science

Hold my hand

See my eyes

Feel my mind

Let’s walk together

Through today

Past tomorrow

Into the future

Making another

Highschool was hard literally it was so hard I was exhausted but now looking back it feels so nostalgic and bittersweet.

Looking at my books and all the notes and little doodles that I did. It feels like I'm meeting my younger highschool self and I'm so proud of her.

I just can't imagine how hard it was for me and how I got through.

I don't wanna but I have to part away from my old books I'll give it to bookstore so someone else can study from them.

And I wonder those who'll be buying them and studying from them what will they think of me coz I doodle and write random things on my books so much 😅 🙃

It's just I don't know what to say like this growing up feeling is weird.

To my past self,

You did your best don't worry coz I'm really happy .You must be feeling like your world is falling apart and everything's going wrong but trust me it isn't. You're gonna get through it.