#megablitzop

Actual answer; The amount of guilt guilt guilt they’re all feeling. Optimus blames himself for pushing to get sparked. Honestly, he thought he’d be the only mech at risk, hence why he decided, against better judgment, to be the one sparked. Megs & Blitz are also carriers, either of them could have been the carrier for whatever children the three decided to have. But he didn’t wanna risk the wellbeing of his partners! And, despite how sucky the carrying experience was for the twins, he liked being pampered and cared for by them in those later terms! All that attention on him.. he would be okay with a shitty pregnancy if it meant he was the sole focus of his partners love and affection.

Megatron feels guilt about being the one to offer the solution that ended in Blitzwing’s death. He didn’t know- no one knew how it’d turn out. Ratchet warned them of risks, but the entire pregnancy was risky. At least, the way they did it, two of the 3 sparklings survived, as well as Optimus. Who knows, maybe Optimus could have died, along with all the sparklings.

They unknowingly sacrificed Blitzwing and the megop sparkling for the life of the blitzop sparkling.. and oh, these sparklings aren’t going to grow up in a very stable home. Megatron and Optimus, although probably not consciously, aren’t going to treat them as they should..

But back to Megop and how they feel before and after Blitzwing’s death. The last moment, was the night before. It sucked, how it went down, but they had fought. The actual words or reason for the fight was irrelevant, it was just a flare up of emotions and anger and pain. Of that spark consuming guilt and self loathing. They’re both deeply pregnant, now, and that’s def not helping their relationship and moods. And their partners health has only been in rapid decline. Everyday is worse than the previous, every complication stacking upon previous ones.

The kiddos listened to the fight, but they mostly did their own things. Kaze, the son of Blitzwing in the parallel timeline, had seen this Blitzwing as a temporary guardian, until he could find his way back to his true carrier. He was attached to him, got that gentleness they desperately needed. The other person in this timeline who Kaze has gotten deeply attached to is Little Red, so here he’s holding her as if she was a teddy bear. Don’t worry, she likes the arrangement, getting to feel small and cared for as he cradles her. They both get to feel small. It’s good for them.

And Schult, whose honorary sire is Blitzwing, was the one to find him after he passed, the following morning. But tonight, while’s he’s still online, Schult is busying himself with.. what is that. Writing letters..? Schult slowly became more and more reserved, but after his death, he shut down completely, entirely nonverbal and retreating on himself. Even his beloved twin, he’s shut himself off to.