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Some Shadamy from my AU

Wip!

Rating \\ T \\ Strong Topics; 🖐💋🩸

Diary Entry 172

"We were at a distance, yet his eyes were my own. His breath my own. His heartbeat my own.

And then that distance closes, little by little. Inch by inch. Moment by moment. We were the tide and the shore; something murky, so naturally impulsed to wash itself from all that had tainted it up to that very moment.

My heart, my soul, could you be that whom I've been waiting for? The piece I was missing?

Our lips finally connect, and at that moment the answer is a clear and resounding 'yes.' Yet I struggle to believe it, I've been down this road before. I've danced this dance. It ends in that hollow within me further carving into my chest.

My heart.

It's already beaten and bruised, can't you see?

But you don't. You don't see. Our eyes are closed after all. The touch that connects us is slow, tender and almost understanding.

Don't lie to me.

But at that moment I believe you. My skin against yours thinks this true. Like a fool. I fall, I fall, deeper and deeper into your depths. The soft caress of you against me.

We linger, perhaps a bit longer than normal, but who is to set a norm for these things? It's just us two.

Then we part, but my eyes only open halfway. I'm waiting, again. It seems you are too. Is it true?

The day is over, and so are we. So what now? You'll call me? No? You've changed your mind? Then what was that look you gave me?! Is there another? Am I not enough? You'll say it's you, but I've known it's always been me. I've known it from the very beginning, because you're the second. And so all that's left is to take your cold silence as confirmation of the fact.

I'm a romantic, yet romance was not made for me. I yearn to love, yet love does not yearn me. I miss you, I miss you.

The scent of lavender does not evade me. It's almost as if it haunts me everywhere I go. But it's not real, I know it's not.

If you don't need me, then let the memory of you die along with the roses you gave me. They wilted just as quickly anyways.

Hate, hate, hate, I wish I could hate you.

But not even hate wants to take my hand.

Love. I've only met her once.

Back then she led me astray.

I thought, 'never again.' Yet here I lay, awake in the dead of night, your name a breath away from leaving my lips.

Your name.

It surrounds me even now as I lay enveloped in shadows. I couldn't be bothered with light. Not when I feel this dark.

Love. I've met her twice."

Some Shadow angst for an AU I miiiiight work on later. Takes place after SA2 and the premise is:

What if no one found Shadow after he crash landed on Earth and had to roam around aimlessly with amnesia?

Archive 256

"I'll break your bones,

with all the love I carry.

Keep you close,

and one day we'll get married."

🟡 There was no fear of the consequences because there was no knowledge of such a specimen. It went unnoticed, right under our noses.

I should have seen the signs. It's all my fault.

And now, it might be too late to do anything about it.