I am a sucker for angst, so I thought why not present my first BTS based fanfic on Tumblr

I hope you enjoy it and please comment on what you think of it. It will be really appreciated

Pairing: Jeongguk x reader

Warnings: insecurities, mentions of sexual and physical abuse, racism inexplicably mentioned, colourism inexplicably mentioned, Toxic relationship, Jk can eat bricks (in this)

Genre: Angst

Also I know Jungkook is not like this

Anyways here’s Omniscient

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omniscient

/ɒmˈnɪsɪənt/

adjective

knowing everything.

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It was always there

That fear that he would leave you

As soon as you started dating him in high school all the way up to now in your early thirties. But even then the knowledge that he would, didn’t hurt any less than if you hadn’t had any insecurities in the first place.

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You didn’t remember what the weather was like when you met him, you only remember holding a stolen ice pack stupidly to the inside of your thighs underneath the table, as if that would stop the pain residing there

He had tripped over his feet and fell on his face while entering the classroom, his friends just laughed crazily as he pulled himself to his feet, face as red as the strawberries inside your bag.

You hadn’t known who he was, other than he was Korean and the school’s star swimmer.

Jeongguk hadn’t sat next to you but instead gave you a shy smile as he walked past to his table. For the next few weeks it went the same way, he would smile at you and you would try back, until he decided he wanted to sit next to you and ask for help with his literature paper

“Sorry” a tree bark was not as dry as your voice “I’m only in this class because there wasn’t any space in the lower ones”

You turned forward expecting him to leave you alone, instead he carried on talking asking you what your name is and if he could help you with your paper instead

Honestly you were very confused as he was just asking you for help with his, but you didn’t bother asking because you really needed to get your grades up anyway.

For six months you were friends with Guk, but there was always this feeling that you had around him that wasn’t around for anyone else and it wasn’t until he asked you out that you realised you were in like with him

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You’re 32 now. Two kids who were off at school

While your husband sat in front of you and looked in your eyes for what seemed like the first time in years

The beautiful shine in his eyes had gone, replaced by tired eyes filled with charcoal

“Gukkie” it was soft pleading “please…”

“You knew this was going to happen” he had interrupted

“Kn-knew what” there was a shaky pause “you’re not making any sense Jungkook”

He sighed,

in anger, in resentment you didn’t know. All you knew was that every feeling he felt… there was no love left for you.

“Why do you do this” his fingers had curled into a fist at this point

“Do wh-“

“For fucks sake just shut up! I can’t stand you!!” There was a laugh at the end of his words but there was no happiness but a maniacal feeling “everything my parents said was right. I should have listened to them when they told me not to marry you on a whim” his fingers clutched his hair

There was silence before you slowly stood up, the lump in your throat becoming larger and larger. You couldn’t breathe let alone speak.

He turned around slowly, eyes closed as he breathed in and out.

“I want a divorce” it was blankly spoken

“N-no Guk, we can work it out I promise, I can be better!” You didn’t know what to say as you clutched at him “I-I can be better yes whatever you want I’ll do-“ after that not much of what you said made any sense

“I” he gripped you roughly holding you in place “ want a divorce” you were shoved to the ground, before he crouched down. The man you had loved before had been gone for a long time, replaced by something akin to your father.

He stared at you, eyes grazing your features and flesh with disgust.

“As I have paid for this house and everything in it” his voice was quiet but the coldness still heard “ you will leave. As I am kind I will give you two days to get all your clothes and toiletries but leave the jewellery including your ring. You will leave now and come tomorrow morning to collect your things”

The fear that suffocated your existence held on tightly. He was close enough to touch but you dare not.

“My babies” your voice was soft, gaze lowered to your trembling fingers “what about my-“