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That satisfying moment when you look on the outside as masculine as you feel on the inside. Almost fully dressed in garb for Keep. Pretty excited for this. #keepontheborderlands #amtgard #markodcabcoon #mdcupdates #larp #liveactionroleplay https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn_IG7Ph8bd/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=14cs6cazkdorr

Been noticing the dashboards on all my social media blowing up with people posting stuff for mental health awareness. So I thought I'd share a lil story to add in. Yep I'm about to get real for a moment. I've been going to therapy since May for my own mental illnesses. Around the end of 2016 I'd officially been diagnosed with PTSD which resulted in my anxiety and major depression that go with it. Fun combo, right? I won't go into details here. Just I had a lot of shit both physically and psychologically happen to me as I was growing up. These things changed my outlook on both life and myself. I started telling myself things like "well some people have it worse, so I can't complain" or I'd say "well I'm not really worth much anyway" and so many other negative things. That's one of the harder parts about mental illness. Reminding yourself that it's OK to not be OK all the time. That you are worth it. That "complaining" is allowed because it helps heal. Ever since I saw this amazing therapist back in 2016, and then recently since going back to her in May, I have felt myself changing. In a good way. I used to be so paranoid that I slept with a dagger under my pillow and another within reach of my bedside. My bedroom door would be locked and I would rarely leave home outside work or appointments. I hated being in the crowds of people. To this day crowds still frighten me but I can handle them so much better than before. Catch me at a convention, a concert, or a festival and you honestly would never realize. Hell, I'm going to an event this weekend that will have a crowd. I'm anxious but I'm excited for the chance. What I'm trying to say is it really is OK to not be 100%. Some days you may only be 50% OK. Others you might be as low as 0.5% but what matters is that you know that you can talk about it. #itsoktonotbeok #youareworthit #donthavetobe100 #mentalhealthawareness #mdcupdates #markodcabcoon https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn5ZWYnH4rF/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=298n55ro8mz

Slight bit bigger frame than I thought they'd be but SUPER happy to have glasses again ^_^ I can see again!!!! #glasses #mdcupdates #markodcabcoon #zennioptical #zenniopticalglasses #icansee https://www.instagram.com/p/BnwdR3SHNsz/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1x36s8j7fiot2

So went to the ER cuz ran a 104.7 fever. Docs gave me tylenol to help bring down fever. Temp dropped to 97. They diagnosed me with a Kidney infection. ^^;; #roadtrip #coloradotrip #hospitalvisit #mdcupdates #markodcabcoon (at Aurora, Colorado)

When @inushinmorimoto and I stopped over at my friend Seri's place and surprised her lol #roadtrip #coloradotrip #travelbuddies #travel #seri #markodcabcoon #inushinmorimoto #mdcupdates (at Aurora, Colorado)

When @inushinmorimoto and I finally got to surprise our friend Jalicard after she got off work yesterday. #roadtrip #coloradotrip #mdcupdates #jalicard #markodcabcoon #inushinmorimoto #travelbuddies #travel (at Aurora, Colorado)

Let's just say that he really likes stuffies lolol #stuffedanimals #stuffies #inushinmorimoto #jalicard #markodcabcoon #mdcupdates #coloradotrip (at Aurora, Colorado)

Hey hey hey! MDC here and I just realized I haven't posted much since the start of the Silver Leaf park. Other than the occasional invite to join us out at the park. I'll be sharing some pictures and maybe some videos from previous park days when I get off work tonight. Y'all have a wonderful day!!!! 😃😘 #amtgard #updates #mdcupdates #markodcabcoon