#maybejustcreation

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“so my BIG PLANS right now (that may or may not work out but i like...”

!!!!!!!! this is so exciting ahhh

i'm hyped!!!! :))

johnnykaratevevo

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“so my BIG PLANS right now (that may or may not work out but i like...”

make sure its a good program if you decide on sciences po, I know at least 3 people who dropped out of there and were completely burned out to the point where they needed therapy

yikes! yeah i was offered a spot in this dual degree program with sciences po and my uni but it was two degrees in four years and it seemed wayyy too rushed. if i go out there on exchange i'd take a lower course load bc i don't want to spend my exchange drowning in work. 

{nonsexual acts of intimacy} thanksies baaabsies ❤

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The flight's at least 40 hours long.

wow really omg i thought they took way longer than that IM SO GLAD

yes yes! it obviously depends on the level of detail and if there's color or not. my happily tattoo took ten minutes but my flower took about a forty-five minutes bc there's color and shading

nah, the heart wants what the heart wants <3

rip tbh all those pairings are sooo good

*hugs* i guess like you said earlier, step 1 is finding someone who is willing to play into that fantasy of yours w/o thinking that’s how you are 24/7 w no variations

maybejustcreation replied to your post: part of me hates that I really want to...

ugh that’s super frustrating and i relate a lot 2 this wrt myself *offers hugs

<3 thank you

like, I feel like I've always been very much a sub; I don't know where or when those feelings started coalescing, but I feel like it's been a stable part of me and I've known since I was young

it's not like I want to play a caricature or put on a fake accent or speak in fake shitty english or whatever

I guess it's mostly that like... I am submissive; that's part of my personality, so that I don't find contradictory... and I feel like I get off on pleasing other people? with friendships I wouldn't use the word "get off", but I'm very happy when I see my friends happy, and I feel like being in this submissive role would let me please the whims of my dom/me and I just reaaaaally like that idea

idk

and like, this eroticism of violability, I do think part of it is internalized misogyny, and part of it is being a #rape survivor, but, idk, there's suuuuuch a fine line between pushing a person's limits and being very tender with aftercare and crossing over into something that's actually more like rape/coercion and a triggering faux-aftercare (which I have experienced at the hands of multiple men)

ugh ugh ugh

idk

Hello land mammals I am here today to tell you it is the birthday of Elaine Arden, my sun my stars the currents of my life, one of the most generous, loving, beautiful people I have ever met in my years upon this rock. The Blaine to my Kurt, I can talk to faer about anything, and I look forward to every moment we can spend together be it in coffee shops or watching Hedwig live together and crying about it like the crying criers we are (hard truths on your birthday, yo.) The day we met and I stole your pencil case is a day that will live on in legends of old. You know. Friendship legends.

I love you so much, my darling. ♥ I hope this birthday is a good one, and the coming year looks up, because you deserve every good thing that the star matter has come together to form, because (Spice Girls voice) that's what you aaaaaa~re. Love you!!