liz. 35. queer. she or they. terminal supernatural/deancas elder. somehow this has become a sports blog: 🏈🐅🧡 bengals ⚾️💙❤️ phillies 🏀🦌💚 bucks 🏒🪽🧡 flyers you will also find 9-1-1 + watcher + lots of other gay stuff
I lost that folded piece of paper - I brought you your first Christmas tree - twister - laughter - mostly I am angry - You wake up sometimes in the middle of the night and you forget that he’s dead. - “try art therapy” - Let’s talk about the man with the black car - Hope is a thing with feathers - when they said goodbye - without him, you– - simple - fall - 2008 - Rabbits - a list of rules established as I go / remember - my friend - red eyes - the last day - I want to walk through the front door of you - Greatest Hits - I hate the way you say my name - necessary - seasons - the definition of insanity - I'm sorry that I died - The Rules Are Simple - planes - once I liked the sky Vonnegut - Tulips - the hand that holds the gun - the year you died - the first time I say I love you - once I watched a bird - I am disintegrating - hands - jitters - Your god is Old - last letter - I have fought on the field with the horsemen - myth - middle of the night - the angel asked me about free will - bug bite - the lightning - it'll last longer - you keep a secret under your tongue - if cas was here/he's not - sonnet for the rebar in my lover's stomach - I saw the angel in the marble - cast - riddle
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next level of alec bohm derangement syndrome achieved! got so happy watching his highlights from the last few games that I gave myself a stomachache :)
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of course, babe!!! i did answer a fic rec ask in the last couple of weeks so i'll link that too if you haven't seen it! and if you're wondering at the teen wolf authors i rediscovered decideophobia aka @shanehollandered and coffeeinallcaps / @coffeeinallcaps are two usernames i was very happy to see pop up again 🥰 and the first fic below is also from another amazing tw author:
a pox on all your houses by apocryphal
"Chlamydia?" Ilya has never heard Hollander's voice reach such heights in the absence of a cock. "You have chlamydia?"
"I did not get it on purpose," Ilya complains.
I can fumble around forever by errantgods
The summer after he wins the Cup for Boston, Ilya almost dies. Shane tries to cope.
i can hear them singin' (to love me is to suffer me) by FlowerCitti
Ilya Rozanov learns how to be loved.
for a split sec, I was a train wreck by Anonymous
Ilya gets injured, stops leaving the house, loses his mind, learns to read tarot, and sends Shane Hollander a lot of photos.
Fall in love with anyone by sistercacao
Ilya reads an article about 36 questions that are supposed to make people fall in love. He decides to ask them to Shane.
limerence by cloudsurfing
The first one is perfect. A deep crimson, brightening to scarlet at its edges and thick, firm between his fingers. It's undamaged, not even torn at its thinnest parts for all of its violent means of arrival into the palm of his hand, but sticky with saliva making its texture unpleasant. It is, otherwise, a flawless rose petal, like something you would see in a drawing; an oil painting.
It's such a beautiful thing, and so small, to be killing him.
Ilya rubs at his breastbone and clears his throat but there's nothing else to come up; not today. Closing his eyes so that he doesn't have to look at himself in the mirror over the sink he pictures his lungs turning to dirt so that the roots of the rose can plant themselves in him; choke him from the inside.
That's not quite how it works, he knows.
It may as well be.
i want a scar that looks just like you by angel_deux
Shane has been covering up his soulmark for as long as Ilya has known him.
Ilya doesn't have a soulmark at all.
cotinine by PenAndInkPrincess
(shane is EXTREMELY sensitive to nicotine) (the problem with this? he isn't actually aware of it and thus doesn't understand why fucking ilya rozanov sometimes makes him sick afterwards)
Shipping up in Boston by angel_deux
Shane is traded to Boston during the hookup era, and his attempts to act normal and professional around Rozanov are a little too successful: fans start shipping him with Marleau, instead.
solnyshko by angel_deux
Ilya Rozanov wakes up from a medically induced coma, sixteen months into a mission to save the dying sun, and he can't remember a single one of his crewmates.
He's immediately drawn to one of them, though. Too bad Hollander won't give him the time of day.
Stop me if you've heard this one before by sistercacao
Shane Hollander doesn't understand why everyone thinks he and Ilya Rozanov hate each other. He's pretty sure that in all the years they've been playing in the league together, they've never even talked before.
Well, he's kind of sure. He thinks he would remember. He would remember something about Rozanov, if it was really important.
Right?
tuna salad days by angel_deux
When Shane sticks it out at Ilya's house, and the tuna meltdown doesn't happen, he still walks away confused about what Ilya actually WANTS from him. When an opportunity presents itself in the form of Rose Landry and a very thorough PR relationship contract, Shane decides to take advantage of it to show Ilya that he can be a totally chill and normal friend with benefits, and definitely isn't too attached.
and two wips i'm currently reading:
Carrion Comfort (Work) by eden22
Flight 771 shouldn't have been any different than any of the hundreds of other flights that Shane has taken over the course of his career, aside from the fact that it was taking him towards his lifelong dream—towards the Olympics.
It shouldn't have been any different.
BEND OVER, STAY DOWN.
BEND OVER, STAY DOWN.
BEND OVER, STAY DOWN.
It is.
moon chasers by totheverge
Five months after Sochi, Shane's set to play a charity hockey game in Paris. So is Ilya.
They run into each other in the lobby of their hotel the night before. Twelve hours stretch out in front of them, and Ilya suggests something different: no phones, no expectations, no past, no hockey. Just the city, and whatever they can be when nobody else is watching.
It's obviously a terrible idea, but Shane says yes, anyway.
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reading: I just started The House That Eats the Dead by Max Doty and I'm making my way very slowly through the audiobook of The Dungeon Anarchist's Cookbook by Matt Dinniman. I'm probably starting the fourth Dark Tower book Wizard and Glass tonight!
last song: the new phoebe bridgers album! my favorites are the "governor's waltz" and "liberty tree". I also randomly listened to "don't nobody bring me no bad news" from the wiz because a friend sent me an ominous text and it randomly popped into my head lmao
last film: at home: I just watched field of dreams for the first time since I was a kid (that movie is crazy) and in theaters: spider-man brand new day (loved loved loved)
last series: finished? uhh widow's bay I guess? but I'm currently watching season 16 of masterchef, ride or die, and the five-star weekend. my wife and I are also watching the l-word and me and @caterjunes are about to finish orphan black!
sweet or salty: both together is the ultimate flavor experience
coffee or tea: coffee is necessary for me to live but I love a chai or chamomile tea
working on: in theory like 2-3 different bohmmarsh fics that are incredibly self-indulgent and silly. I also have a looong original work that started as trevorjamie but very quickly become about OCs. so we'll see if I end up finishing it!
One must imagine post stairwell kiss Shane floating back up the stairs, still glowing with a first time anal sex orgasmic haze, opening the door to his apartment. And when he gets to his bedroom he fully intends to strip his bed of his messy sheets - he really does!! But when he picks up his pillow, he catches a whiff of Rozanov's douchey fuck boy cologne and deodorant combo that Shane is now and forever going to associate with getting fucked, and he's gonna collapse face first back onto his messy bed, the bed they made a mess of together, and he's gonna hump his still sensitive dick against the mattress while huffing the smell of Rozanov Rozanov Rozanov, and he's gonna come to the memory of getting fucked face down just like this and his whole body is gonna feel all achy and trembly and so deliciously spent. And it's gross and maybe a little ridiculous but it's also gonna occur to Shane that a giddy, dreamy smile has been plastered on his face the whole time.
And while he's changing his sheets, he's going to be shyly composing his next text to Rozanov in his head. He won't send it too soon, obviously - he's heard what the guys in the locker room say about the girls they hookup with who text the next day - he doesn't want to seem needy but, well... Tonight was just so good. Surely Rozanov wants to do it again, too
@oiimoi and their absolutely ESSENTIAL tags to complete the vision:
Mr anxious attachment style freaked himself out BAD with how good the sex was. And the worst part is YES!!! HE DID WANT TO DO IT AGAIN!!! DESPERATELY!!!! and that means they both gotta get punished for that~
people who think baseball is boring to watch. I have a hack for you. all you have to do is develop a deranged obsession with a baseball team along with a parasocial need for every single one of the players to be happy and a desire down to your bones for them to win a world series together before they get separated or retire and immediately every baseball game will become the most exciting and/or stressful event of your life. and this will happen 180 times in 6-7 months. congrats! baseball is no longer boring!
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