I saw your last personal post and wanted to say that no matter what anyone else says, this is NOT your fault. If someone is telling you it is, they're wrong. I know the feeling of losing the motivation to do the things you love, and feeling like you're on the outside. It hurts, and not everyone can understand why. One of the most important things you need to know right now is you're not alone. My ask box is always open if you ever need someone to talk to.
Thank you. But it is. I should try, but I don't. I should put in the energy, but I can't. So yes, it is my fault. I'm letting people down and I do nothing to stop it. The whole facade's just becoming too much effort to keep up and everything's falling apart.
But thank you so much for the offer. I'm no good at just opening up like that. I've internalized things for so long that I don't know how to communicate it even if I wanted to, but thanks. It really means a lot to me that you put in the time to read my ramblings and say something.
Sorry, I'll stop with the personal rants now. People really don't want to see it clogging up their dash.