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From Fire – Part VI
Tearline
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The sound of hooves broke the misty quiet.
A lone rider entered the courtyard of Pirkstein. Steam curled from the horse’s flank, slow and pale. He dismounted by the gate, holding the reins, and cast a wary glance at the guard.
The guard measured him with a stern eye.
“What’s your business here, boy?”
The lad hesitated — just for a heartbeat.
“Sir Capon sent for me.”
The guard frowned.
“Sent for you? And why?”
“That’s none of your concern.”
Hans’s voice cut across the courtyard from the stairway.
He stood on the landing, one hand on the rail. Then he descended, unhurried, his gaze fixed on the boy.
“I’m glad you made it, Pavel.”
When he reached the cobblestones, he gave the guard a slight nod.
“Back to your post.”
The man stepped aside. Hans moved to the horse, brushed its neck with a light hand, then turned to Pavel.
“Did anyone see you?”
Pavel shook his head. “I left before dawn.”
Hans nodded once.
“Good. First, you’ll rest. Eat. Fill your belly.”
He paused.
“Then we’ll find you some work.”
He led Pavel across the yard.
Mikush was bent over the records at a table. He looked up as they entered.
Pavel glanced around, wary yet curious. A trace of unease lingered in his eyes, but he stood firm.
“This is Pavel,” Hans said. “He’ll be working here.”
Mikush nodded without a word.
“We’ll settle the details later. For now, take him to the kitchen, make sure he eats well. And find him a clean, dry place to sleep.”
“Yes, sir,” Mikush replied calmly.
Hans turned to leave. He took a few steps — then stopped.
He looked back.
“When that’s done, come to me.”
Mikush gave a nod.
“Ay.”
He turned to Pavel with a faint smile.
“Come on, lad. You look as though you could eat a horse.”
Hans’s chamber lay dim, silent.
He stepped inside, closed the door behind him, and stood still for a moment. Then he crossed to the table, set down his gloves, returned, and sat on the edge of the bed. His elbows rested on his thighs, his hands clasped together.
He stared ahead, unmoving.
Then his gaze drifted — to the hidden passage leading to the next chamber. Empty now.
A quiet sigh escaped him.
His eyes dropped back to his own hands. They were steady. Too steady.
Truth be told, he was almost relieved Pavel had arrived.
On this very day.
At this very hour.
Grateful to have something to do — anything to shift his thoughts elsewhere. Even if just for a moment.
A few hours earlier — at dawn — he had ridden with Henry beyond Rattay’s walls.
To the edge of the woods.
One last embrace.
One last kiss.
One last I love you.
And then Henry was gone.
A quiet snuffle beneath the door pulled Hans from his thoughts. Then came a whimper — brief, subdued, impossible to miss.
He rose from the bed and walked to the door.
Mutt stood there, his long tail giving a faint sway, but otherwise still, gazing up at him.
Beside the dog stood a guard, looking a touch awkward.
“Forgive me, sir. He just—”
Hans waved a hand and crouched beside the dog.
“Come,” he said softly.
The door closed behind them.
Mutt padded slowly across the chamber. He sniffed at the corner of the bed, then settled beside the blanket, lowered his head, and gave another quiet whine.
Hans stepped to him. His hand smoothed along the dog’s back.
Then he knelt, scratching behind his ears — slow, deliberate strokes.
He sat back down on the bed.
Mutt sat on the floor beside him, resting his head against Hans’s thigh, looking up at him.
Hans stroked him again, letting out a quiet, sorrowful breath.
For a while, he said nothing. Then he shook his head faintly.
“We’re the only ones left, old friend.”
His hand drifted along the dog’s neck.
Mutt’s eyes never left his face.
Hans remained like that for a while.
His hand moved idly through the coarse fur — less for the dog’s sake than for his own. The silence between them was soft, unmoving. Only breath.
He felt the sting of tears gathering in his eyes.
He drew a deep breath and rose.
The back of his hand brushed across his eyelids, wiping the dampness on his sleeve. He blinked several times.
He crossed to the wall. Stopped by the window and looked out.
A grey day.
Light drowned in mist.
Stone battlements. Damp air. Still woods in the distance.
But none of it truly reached him.
He simply stood there. Staring.
A knock sounded.
Hans did not turn.
“Yes?”
The door opened.
“Sir… Mikush is here.”
Hans gave a brief nod.
“Send him in.”
The door closed again.
Mikush stepped a few paces into the chamber, then stopped.
“Did you see to everything?” Hans asked, still gazing out of the window.
“He’s eaten. And there’s a bed for him among the staff quarters,” Mikush replied with a nod.
Hans answered with a short nod of his own.
“And what…” Mikush hesitated. “Exactly what is he to do?”
Hans turned to face him.
For a moment, he said nothing.
“He’ll be your helper. Whatever tasks you require.”
Another brief pause.
“When Master Henry returns, he’ll serve under him.”
Mikush raised his brows slightly.
“Master Henry has left?”
Hans looked aside.
“He had…”
He shook his head a little.
“Matters that could not wait.”
He walked slowly to the table.
“I’ll need you to oversee Pirkstein for now. Most of it you’ll handle yourself — the rest I’ll keep watch over.”
Mikush was silent, turning it over in his mind. Then he nodded.
“I understand.”
He hesitated.
Hans turned to him.
“Something else?” Hans asked, his tone low.
“May I ask… when is Master Henry expected back?”
Hans looked once more toward the window.
He said nothing.
Then only shook his head.
“He’ll return when he returns.”
Mikush was already reaching for the door handle when Hans stopped him.
“Wait. I’ll come with you. We’ll go over what needs to be done.”
They stepped out together. Mutt rose from the floor and followed at their heels.
Hans soon realised Henry had left nothing undone.
Not only had he secured provisions — dry goods, flour, firewood, horse feed, and wine — but he had also set in motion the work to prepare the chamber for Hans’s future bride.
Cloth had been ordered, new furniture arranged, and the carpenter commissioned for the bed. Every detail bore Henry’s touch. Everything was ready to continue.
They halted by the door of the chamber.
“So, will you be speaking with Lady Jitka yourself?” Mikush’s tone held no resistance, only matter-of-factness.
Hans thought for a moment, then gave a small nod.
“I can’t think of a better way.”
A brief pause.
“Today I’ll ride to the upper castle. I’ll tell her how things stand.”
Hans stayed a while longer with Mikush, going over what needed to be done.
When it was clear who would see to what, he set out for the upper castle.
He found Jitka in her chamber. She was seated by the window, a small notebook open in front of her. The quill rested loosely in her hand, as though her thoughts had drifted elsewhere.
When the door opened, she looked up, a flicker of surprise in her eyes.
Hans inclined his head slightly.
“I must inform you, my lady, that Master Henry had to leave on urgent business.”
Jitka blinked, and for a moment her gaze wavered, like someone who has lost an anchor they hadn’t known they needed.
“Oh… I had thought he would come himself. For the wedding.”
Her voice softened at the last word. She inclined her head.
“Thank you for the message, my lord.”
Hans drew a slow, quiet breath.
“That is precisely why I am here. Henry arranged much before his departure — even concerning your chamber. And what remains to be done, we shall settle together.”
She lowered her gaze, fingers brushing over the edge of the notebook as if she sought something to hold on to.
A brief silence passed, filled only by the stillness of the room around them.
“I understand,” she said, quietly but with effort.
When she looked back at him, there was something questioning in her eyes — not sharp, but fragile.
“I value that you are taking this upon yourself, my lord.”
Hans held her gaze for a moment, feeling the weight of her unspoken unease. Henry’s absence had left her without the one presence that had begun to make this place feel less foreign.
A pause followed.
“Does this mean… that Master Henry will be gone for some time?”
Hans remained still, his face unreadable, though his throat tightened.
“It is possible.”
“Oh…” The sound was barely a breath. Her eyes fell back to the notebook, though the page before her remained blank.
Hans lowered his gaze.
“Forgive me — there are other matters I must attend to. But I remain at your disposal.”
“Thank you,” she said, closing the notebook softly, as though to hold her composure in place.
Hans returned to Pirkstein and made his way to his chamber.
Mutt lifted his head as he entered but stayed curled by the hearth.
Hans crossed the room slowly, arms folded over his chest. His thoughts churned restlessly — shapeless, giving no relief.
Then he stopped.
Walked to the chest by the wall. Opened it.
And froze.
His red quilted hood was gone.
Inside lay a small scrap of paper.
He picked it up, turned it over in his hand.
On one side, in a neat, careful hand — the script of someone who could write, yet shaped each letter with deliberate care — were a few words:
⸻
Don’t be cross,
I’ve taken it with me on the road.
So I’ll still have a part of you close.
AFI
⸻
Hans stared at the note.
Read it once. Then again.
And again, until his eyes brimmed with tears.
He swallowed hard. Wiped his face with his sleeve.
Then folded the paper slowly.
Carefully. Precisely.
And slipped it into the inner pocket of his coat.
He drew a breath, sniffed faintly, wiped his face once more, and stepped out of the chamber.
The courtyard lay quiet. Only a few soldiers by the wall, a stablehand pushing a barrow.
Hans noticed Pavel by the parapet, studying the battlements. He looked up at them with a mix of shyness and quiet awe.
Hans allowed himself a faint smile and beckoned him over.
Pavel ran to him.
“Sir?”
“How do you like it here?” Hans asked.
“I’ve never been in a castle, sir. So I’m just looking around… But Master Mikush is kind. He’s telling me how things work.”
Hans gave a small nod.
“I’m glad to hear that.”
His eyes wandered to the horse standing by the trough — the same one Pavel had ridden. He tilted his chin toward it.
“That’s Havel’s horse, isn’t it?”
Pavel glanced at the tips of his boots.
“Yes, sir. I took it. I wouldn’t have made it here otherwise.”
Hans patted him on the shoulder.
“That’s all right.”
For a moment he gazed into the distance.
“We ought to return it to Havel.”
A pause.
“I’ll see to that myself.”
Pavel looked at him, slightly puzzled.
Hans only smiled.
“Off you go. You’ve work to do.”
Pavel nodded and ran off.
Hans stood still, hands on his hips.
His gaze shifted back to the horse.
He strode to the group of soldiers by the wall.
“I need two men-at-arms and horses!”
His voice was firm, leaving no room for questions.
He turned on his heel and went back to his chamber.
There he donned light armour and buckled on his belt and sword. He smoothed the front of his doublet with one hand, pulled on his gloves, and stepped out once more.
Two men-at-arms with three saddled horses were already waiting in the courtyard.
Hans approached with a brisk stride. He pointed toward Havel’s horse by the stables.
“That horse comes with us.”
“Where are we headed, sir?” one of the men asked.
Hans swung himself into the saddle without a word.
He looked at them both.
“To Laurenz.”
They rode out of Rattay, heading north — the same road Hans had taken many times of late. Today, for the first time, without Henry.
The sky hung low and heavy, a sheet of steel-grey stretching from one horizon to the other. Clouds pressed over the land like a weighty shroud, and now and then a fine, cold drizzle fell.
The horses’ hooves struck the road with muted thuds. Mud mingled with a scatter of wet fallen leaves.
Hans rode at the front. All the way. He never looked back. The others followed a short distance behind.
The men-at-arms exchanged a few quiet words now and then — as though wary of disturbing whatever lingered in the air, whatever they could not name.
Hans said nothing.
His gaze was fixed straight ahead, unmoving, detached — but it was not indifference.
It was focus. His mind held to a single point, a single purpose. Not because the task was extraordinary, but simply to keep his thoughts from wandering elsewhere.
At the crossroads in Squirnow, Hans pulled the reins and halted his horse.
He sat there in silence for a moment. His eyes rested on the road ahead, then swept around — and he turned his horse to the left. Toward the path to Foxburrow.
The men-at-arms glanced at one another. One shrugged. They followed.
The forest road soon opened into a clearing.
The hunting lodge emerged as if from another world.
Silent, deserted. In the damp grey of the day, it seemed almost unreal.
Hans dismounted.
With slow steps, he walked to the ruins of the aqueduct behind the house. He stood there in silence for a moment. Then he bent down and picked up a piece of the pine-bark channel from the grass-grown bank — perhaps the very piece he had held only weeks ago, when he and Henry built the stream.
He turned it over in his palm for a while. At last, without a word, he turned back, returned to his horse, and placed it carefully in his saddlebag.
His hand gripped the saddle, one foot in the stirrup — but he stopped.
Hesitated. Then turned to the men-at-arms.
“Wait here.”
He headed toward the house.
He stepped inside and closed the door behind him.
Silence enveloped him.
The scent of cold ash.
Damp timber. Old dust.
His gaze drifted slowly across the room.
The table. The bench by the hearth.
A bow hanging on the wall.
Hans walked into the bedchamber.
His steps were muted, as if he feared to wake someone who was no longer there.
He walked around the bed to the left side — Henry’s side.
Sat down on the edge.
He sat in stillness.
Eyes fixed ahead.
Somewhere beyond these walls, beyond time.
Slowly, he reached out his hand.
His palm moved across the pillow, coming to rest there.
A breath left him, half a sigh.
He gave a faint nod, perhaps only to himself.
Then he rose.
At the threshold of the chamber, he turned.
Let his eyes wander, long and searching.
Then he turned back again and left.
Outside, the rain had grown heavier.
Hans mounted his horse and rode toward Laurenz without a word.
The men-at-arms followed.
Deep tracks were left in the soaked earth.
By the time they reached Laurenz, the rain was falling steadily — fine, cold. No wind. The air was heavy and still.
They rode between the houses. The village lay silent. A lone dog barked somewhere in the distance.
People peered out from under eaves, from beneath slanting roofs.
The hooves squelched in the mud. Leather saddles gave quiet creaks.
When they reached the gamekeeper’s cottage, Hans drew the reins and halted.
The men-at-arms stopped with him, all remaining in their saddles.
For a moment, nothing moved. Only the rain drummed on the roof.
Then Havel appeared in the doorway.
He stepped out a few paces.
Stopped.
A look of surprise — perhaps unease — flickered across his face.
His eyes moved over the riders.
Dropped to the horse tethered to the side.
He froze.
“You have my horse, young sir?”
He hurried down a few steps closer.
“I thought that bastard who was learning under me had stolen him.
Not a trace of him this morning…”
Hans said nothing.
He sat tall in the saddle.
Rain slid over his face as if carving faint lines into it.
His gaze held on Havel — hard, unblinking.
Havel faltered.
He blinked.
Glanced at one of the men-at-arms.
Back at Hans.
“Sir…?”
Hans turned to the man on his right.
Jerked his chin toward the horse.
“Untie it.”
One of the men dismounted.
Moved silently to the horse, loosened the rope.
Led it back to Havel.
The gamekeeper took the reins.
They trembled faintly between his fingers.
“I just… I don’t understand.
What is—”
“I’ve come to give you a choice.
To end your service.”
Hans’s voice was calm, deliberate.
Each word fell like a blow.
“To leave Laurenz.
And the Rattay estate.”
The rain grew heavier.
It drummed with a dull splatter into the mud.
Havel drew a sharp breath.
“But… why, Sir Capon?”
Hans’s gaze swept slowly around him.
To the houses.
To the reins trembling in Havel’s grip.
To the faces that had vanished quickly behind the shutters.
Then he moved.
A rustle of steel as he reached for the saddlebag.
For a moment, he searched inside.
Quietly.
Then his fingers closed around what he sought.
He drew it out —
a piece of the pine-bark channel.
A scar of what was.
Hans held it in his hand.
He looked at it — just for a heartbeat — and then hurled it sharply to the ground.
It landed at Havel’s feet.
With a dull, wet smack.
Mud splattered.
Havel recoiled a step back.
Hans stayed in the saddle, straight-backed.
His face unyielding.
“I have lost all trust in you.”
Havel drew a sharp breath.
Stunned, robbed of words.
His eyes darted around.
To the men-at-arms.
To Hans.
Down — to the piece of pine-bark in the mud —
lying between them like proof.
Or like a challenge.
He stepped back again.
His boots squelched in the water.
At last, he lifted his head.
His expression hardened.
“But you do not rule, my lord.
The estate is under Sir Hanush’s hand.
Only he can release me from service.”
Hans looked at him for a moment.
Rain drew narrow lines down his brow, across his temple, vanishing into the soaked collar.
“Indeed.”
A pause followed.
Not long — but quiet.
“That is why I offer you this one chance.
To leave of your own will.”
Havel gave a short, nervous laugh.
“And why in God’s name would I do that?”
Hans’s mouth curved into the faintest smile.
But his eyes were ice.
His face, stone.
“Because if you refuse this chance…
you will never receive another from me.”
Another silence.
Rain drummed against the beams.
The horse beside him snorted.
Hans’s hand moved.
Rested lightly on the hilt of his sword.
“After the wedding, when I take command of my own lands…”
Hans lowered his gaze to him, almost with pity.
“…I will see you dealt with as any traitor should be.”
The rain did not cease.
It fell from the sky without pause — cold, fine, relentless.
Hans rode through Rattay’s upper gate and headed straight for the upper castle. The men-at-arms followed.
The hooves squelched in the courtyard mud.
And there stood Hanush.
He was speaking with someone — but when he caught sight of Hans, he spun around sharply.
“Where the hell have you been wandering, Capon?!” he roared.
Hans did not spare him a glance.
He rode past — straight, calm, his gaze fixed ahead. Out of the castle.
Hanush shouted after him:
“Don’t you dare vanish on me again, Capon!”
Hans rode on a few paces more.
Then, suddenly, he pulled the reins.
He halted his horse.
Turned it on the spot.
His eyes narrowed slightly.
He drove his heels deep into the flanks.
The horse reared, whinnied, and lunged forward — at full gallop back into the courtyard.
Mud splashed wide as they thundered through.
He stopped right in front of Hanush.
So close that Hanush had to leap aside, stumbling — spattered by the thin spray of mud thrown up by the hooves.
Hans reached to the saddle.
Took the hunting horn.
And flunged it at Hanush’s feet.
“Laurenz will need a new gamekeeper,” he said, calm. Icy.
Hanush stared at him.
His eyes burning. Teeth clenched.
“You’ve no right to dismiss him! You can’t bloody do this!”
Hans’s mouth twitched into something that resembled a smile.
But there was no joy in it — none at all.
“I did not dismiss him.
He left of his own accord.”
He turned his horse, nudged it on.
And without another word, he rode off.
Leaving Hanush standing — drenched, splattered, frozen — in the middle of the courtyard.
A short while later, Hans was seated by the hearth.
His doublet hung open, the damp sleeves stretched toward the glowing embers.
The warmth rose slowly, yet he scarcely felt it.
His gaze was fixed on the fire.
The flames danced, their light breaking across the beam above the hearth.
He thought of how easy it was to tear everything apart —
and how hard it was to hold it together.
A knock at the door pulled him from his thoughts.
“Sir… supper is ready,” came the voice of the guard.
Hans rose and stepped into the hall.
Pavel stood beside the table, shyly holding a tray — with game meat, freshly baked bread, and a bit of cheese.
“Set it down,” Hans said quietly.
Pavel put the tray down and stepped back.
Hans looked at the food, but did not reach for it.
“I’m not truly hungry,” he murmured.
Pavel said nothing.
He stood by the wall, a little awkward, as though unsure if he should leave.
Hans looked up at him.
“You’re not hungry?”
Pavel hesitated, then nodded.
“I am, sir.”
“Then have some. At least keep me company for a while.”
Pavel shifted uncomfortably.
“I don’t know if… if it’s proper for me to eat with you.”
Hans shook his head.
“I doubt there is anyone in this castle with the right to question my decisions.”
For a moment, he fell silent.
His gaze grew heavy, as if he slipped, just for an instant, out of the present.
“Not anymore.”
Hans allowed himself a faint smile.
“Then go on.”
Pavel did not wait for a second invitation. He sat at the table and took a pheasant’s leg.
Hans leaned back in his chair, watching him silently for a moment.
“I was in Laurenz today,” he said after a pause.
Pavel stopped, lifting his gaze to him.
“Havel is no longer the gamekeeper,” Hans continued, his voice steady, calm.
Pavel stared at him for a while.
“Did something happen to him?” he asked, a little startled.
Hans shook his head.
“No.”
Pavel drew a breath, as if in relief.
“I’m glad to hear that…” slipped from his lips.
Hans fixed his gaze on him, slightly taken aback.
“You ran from him yourself. For what he is.”
Pavel hesitated, bit his lip, and looked down at his plate.
“Havel… he’s not a good man,” he said at last, quietly. “But I’m not sure I have the right to judge people. Or wish them harm.”
Hans watched him in silence.
After a moment, he rose.
“Finish your meal,” he said softly. “When you’re done, clear the table.”
Pavel lifted his head, as if about to protest, but Hans had already turned away.
He stood still only for a heartbeat, his hand brushing the back of the chair — then he walked to the door.
Hans stepped outside.
The rain had stopped, but the air still carried its damp chill.
He climbed the battlements.
Darkness spread over the land — heavy, wet, and unbroken.
He stood there in silence, staring into the void, beyond the black shapes of the woods.
His palm came to rest on the stone.
Cold and slick.
He left it there for a moment, fingers splayed, unmoving.
Then he slowly curled it into a fist.
Still in the same spot.
As if he wished to draw every ounce of the stone’s chill and firmness into himself.
He drew a deep breath.
Released his grip, lowered his hand.
Then he turned and made his way back into the corridor.
But he did not go to his chamber.
His steps led him toward the castle chapel.
It was empty.
Only the scent of wax and stone.
And the flicker of a few candles, fragile in the dimness.
Hans stopped.
For a moment he simply stood there, hands at his sides, gaze fixed on the altar.
He did not move.
As if the weight of the place itself held him still.
Then he slowly knelt.
A deep breath left him.
He bowed his head.
Clasped his hands.
“Holy Mary, Mother of God,
intercede for him with your Son,
on all his journeys, by day and by night.
Shield him from snares and peril,
guide his steps that he may not stray into shadows.
He is just and good,
purer of heart than I.
Watch over him, Blessed Virgin,
and bring him safely home.
I beg you — for the love of your Son,
our Lord Jesus Christ.”
He lifted his eyes and made the sign of the cross.
Then he rose and left for his chamber.
By the hearth, Mutt was curled into a ball, fast asleep.
Hans walked over, crouched down, and ran a hand along his back.
Mutt gave a low grunt, lazily opened one eye, and rolled onto his back.
He let himself be scratched on the belly, paws sprawled, head tilted to the side.
A faint smile crossed Hans’s lips.
He stroked him for a while, fingers sinking into the warm fur.
Then he rose.
His gaze fell on the door of the passage leading to Henry’s chamber.
He stood still, as though searching for something there.
Long, quiet.
At last, he reached out and touched the door.
His hand rested on it for a moment before he slowly pushed it open.
Henry’s chamber was wrapped in darkness.
The candles had long burned out, the fire in the hearth was cold.
Hans stood on the threshold, gazing inside.
It felt as though not only chill and emptiness lingered there,
but the very weight of absence breathing against him.
He stepped in.
Stopped in the middle of the room.
His eyes tried to adjust to the dark, but the dark did not relent.
And in that moment, it all crashed down on him.
Henry truly wasn’t here.
He hadn’t been all day. He wouldn’t be here tomorrow either.
The feeling of being left alone settled in his chest like a stone.
His hands, hanging at his sides, trembled faintly.
He drew a breath. Released it.
The sound of his own breathing felt too loud in the room.
As though it echoed off the walls.
He swallowed, squeezed his eyes shut. Another breath — unsteady.
He walked to the bed.
His palm lowered slowly onto the blanket.
Henry’s scent still lingered there, faint and warm.
He did not pull his hand away; instead, he grasped the fabric,
as if holding onto something solid.
Then his hand moved to his chest.
His fingers found the small metal pendant,
the one Henry had made himself from a piece of his own armour.
He clenched it in his fist so hard
his fingers stiffened.
Only then did he let it go.
He sank to the floor.
Slowly, his knees drawn up, arms wrapped around them.
For a while he sat with open eyes,
but the darkness offered nothing back.
He closed them and remained there.
His breath grew steady, but it was not peace.
It was weariness.
The kind no sleep could cure.
At last, Hans rose.
He crossed the dark room and returned to his chamber.
Mutt lifted his head to look at him, then laid it back on his paws.
Hans undressed, folded his doublet and belt over the chair, and snuffed out the candle.
He lay down on the bed and pulled the blanket over himself.
Closed his eyes.
He was tired. Bone-deep exhausted.
But sleep did not come.
Only restlessness.
In place of silence came thoughts.
Slowly, like footsteps in a dark cellar.
Henry.
Where is he now?
Somewhere, on the road.
Far away.
Has he found a place to rest his head?
Or is he still riding, weary, without pause?
Is he safe?
Or is the night as unsettled as his path?
Is he well?
He is strong — so strong — but even the strongest may fall.
Hans opened his eyes into the darkness.
Is he…
The thought rose, even as he tried to hide from it.
…is he even still?
He clenched his jaw.
His hands gripped the blanket.
And he lay there, listening to his own breath, waiting.
After a moment, he sat up.
Closed his eyes, exhaled deeply.
Then reached for the candlestick, lit the wick, and took it in hand.
He walked quietly into Henry’s chamber.
The candle’s flame cast only a narrow, trembling circle of light.
Hans stepped to the chest, set the candlestick on the floor, and lifted the lid.
He looked inside.
His hand slid slowly over the folded garments.
Then he drew out one of Henry’s shirts.
For a moment he stood there,
the shirt in his hand,
his gaze fixed upon it.
As if he could not let it go.
He returned to his chamber.
Extinguished the candle. Darkness claimed the room again.
And with Henry’s shirt pressed to his chest, Hans curled beneath the blanket.
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From Fire – Part I
Lord of Pirkstein
The first chapter of the new series begins where Weight of a Name ended: after weeks of quiet, borrowed time in Foxburrow, Hans and Henry return to Rattay — to face what comes next.
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Henry stood with his back against the cold stone wall, watching the quiet rhythm of the courtyard below.
By the gate, two guards spoke briefly before one disappeared into the watchroom. A horse stirred beneath the lean-to, gave a snort, and turned its head into the wind. Everything else clung to the ground — voices, footsteps, even the rustle of treetop leaves, as if the sound had drifted from some distant place.
The sky hung low and close. Grey veils of cloud drifted past, thick and slow. The sun did not show its face.
He stood upright, one foot resting on the worn threshold stone, arms loosely crossed. He looked composed.
But his thoughts had wandered back — to the first time he’d come to Rattay. Just days after burying his parents with his own hands in the scorched remains of Skalitz.
Henry closed his eyes. The scent of ash and death returned as vividly as ever. He knew it would never leave him. And he knew it shouldn’t.
Back then, he’d hardly known how to grip a sword. The wound from the Cuman arrow still throbbed.
And then—
Rattay.
The first place where it had felt like something might begin again.
New faces. New air.
And Hans.
A faint smile touched his lips.
He thought of Hans, of what he’d been like back then. An insufferable, arrogant arse, always spoiling for a fight or a contest. Henry’s smile deepened.
Now Hans was somewhere in the upper castle, speaking to the uncle he’d stood up to — for the first time — only yesterday.
Henry had let him go alone. The thought still sat heavy in his chest.
Hans had remained there upon arrival — and sent Henry here, to Pirkstein.
As though trying to grant him rest, and at the same time, keep him apart.
Henry understood.
But if it had been his choice, he would have done it differently.
He let out a quiet breath. He wouldn’t want to be in Hans’s place.
He had long understood that Hans’s childhood and youth under his uncle’s rule had not been easy.
What Hans had hinted at over time — and what he hadn’t said, but made clear in other ways — had stayed with him.
And some of it—
some of it had torn free in broken cries and gasping sobs, wrenched from memory in the grip of fever.
Henry could still remember it too clearly: the way Hans had clung to his hand, breath ragged, eyes wild with things Henry couldn’t reach.
How helpless he’d felt. How close he’d come to losing him.
He let out a slow breath, dragging a hand through his hair, and steadied himself on the wall.
But ever since Hans had become a man, something between him and Hanush had started to shift.
Something in his bearing had shifted — not in defiance, but in quiet.
A calm sort of certainty that came not from shouting, but from a choice made long ago and held quietly ever since.
Yesterday, Henry had seen it with his own eyes — the way it had caught Hanush off guard.
And he’d seen, too, that Hanush wouldn’t let it go without response.
No — he truly wouldn’t want to be in Hans’s place now.
But more than anything, he wished he were beside him.
If only so Hans would know he was there.
That he could count on him. That he wasn’t alone.
A sudden burst of children’s laughter pulled him from his thoughts. Somewhere beyond the gate, a game was underway. He listened for a moment, eyes drifting across the steel-grey sky.
For Hans, returning to Rattay meant coming home.
For Henry—
it meant returning to rules. To watching eyes. To shouts. To silence.
He had no doubt Hans wouldn’t let go of him.
But he also knew this world they’d come back to was not made for men like them.
His gaze swept across the courtyard.
No one seemed to be paying him much attention.
And yet, now and then, he felt the weight of a glance on his back. Maybe it was nothing. Maybe it was just him.
The muffled hum of the town lingered in the distance, but the castle felt submerged — held beneath something colder and deeper than air.
He raised a hand and rubbed at his brow.
Let him be back soon, he thought.
And then, through the gate, a familiar face appeared.
Captain Bernard was striding towards him, hands behind his back, gaze fixed directly on him.
As he drew near, he gave a short nod.
“Henry.”
“Bernard.”
Their greeting was brief, stripped of ceremony — the kind of understanding shared by men who knew each other and had no need to posture. But where Henry’s voice was calm, Bernard’s held a quiet urgency.
“I’ve got something for you,” he said at once. “I need you to ride with a patrol. Three men, heading out along the Talmberg road. Someone spotted suspicious figures — seems they’ve been lurking there since yesterday.”
Henry raised an eyebrow.
“I’ve only just arrived…”
There was no resistance in his tone, only mild surprise.
Bernard gave a shrug. “Order came down from the upper castle.”
He said it without edge — but with the weight of finality.
Henry nodded.
He lingered a moment. Nothing came.
“All right. I’ll head out now.”
Bernard gave another nod, turned on his heel, and made for the gate.
Henry watched him go for a few heartbeats, then moved.
He crossed to the stables, where someone was already saddling the horses.
He buckled on his belt, checked the stirrups. One of the younger guards fell in beside him without a word. Then another. And a third.
They exchanged short nods.
And rode out.
The courtyard, once again, sank into the slow rhythm of a grey day.
And stayed in it until the young lord’s arrival.
Hans dismounted just beyond the gate. He let the horse stand for a moment and stayed by its side, as if expecting a familiar face to appear nearby.
He scanned the courtyard — searching, not idly, not out of passing curiosity, but with the look of someone who meant to find what was missing.
Then came a joyful bark, and Mutt bounded toward him from somewhere out of sight. Hans knelt and rubbed behind dog’s ears with both hands.
"Where’s your master, you little beast?"
Mutt gave a cheerful yap and licked his face.
Hans straightened and made for the main building. At the door to the lower hall, he paused and peered inside. Empty.
With a frown, he climbed the stair. His shoulders were tense, his steps swift.
He was back a short while later. The door to his wing closed behind him with more force than it had opened.
There was a shadow on his face that hadn’t been there before.
He stopped at the top of the steps and swept a sharp look across the courtyard — then made for the nearest servant.
“Where’s my companion?”
No anger in his voice.
Just that calm — the kind that felt worse.
The man hesitated, blinking. “I— I’m not sure who you mean, my lord…”
Hans’s jaw clenched, his voice sharpening.
“Rider. Arrived a few hours ago. In armour. On a loaded horse. Where is he?”
The man swallowed and nodded quickly. “Ah… yes. I think Captain Bernard sent him out with a patrol — toward Talmberg.”
Hans’s face didn’t move. But something in his stance shifted.
For a moment, it seemed something had tugged at him from within — and he barely held it back.
He drew a breath — something sharp on the verge of breaking free—
But stopped himself.
The frightened man wasn’t to blame.
“Where’s Bernard?”
“Went… up the hill, my lord. He’s gone.”
Hans stood motionless. His eyes fixed somewhere beyond, focused and cold.
Then he turned sharply, crossed to his horse, mounted, and without thinking, his hand slid across the hilt of the sword at his hip.
He spurred the animal forward and rode up through the heart of Rattay.
In the great hall of the upper castle, the torches crackled softly.
The air smelled of wine, meat, and grease.
Hanush sat in a chair at the long table.
The plates before him still bore scraps of game and fruit. His fingers glistened with fat; crumbs clung to his beard, and his cheeks shone. He was just slipping the last bite into his mouth when the doors flew open.
Hans stood in the doorway.
His face was stone. His gaze, direct and cold.
Hanush looked up without the slightest trace of surprise.
He wiped his hands on the hem of his doublet — leaving dark smudges — and reached for his cup.
He took a sip, set it down with exaggerated calm, and gave a faint smile.
“So soon?” he said lightly. “I thought you’d at least stop for a drink. Or are you here to report your patrol’s success?”
Hans didn’t move.
“This will not happen again.”
Hanush poured himself more wine. Slowly — unbearably slowly.
“The patrol is for security. I don’t need permission for that.”
He lifted the cup.
“Least of all from you.”
“No,” Hans said sharply. “But you won’t do it behind my back.”
“I’m still your regent. Still ruler of Rattay,” Hanush snapped.
For a moment, the room held its breath.
Hans glanced around the hall, then fixed his gaze back on his uncle.
“I want Pirkstein placed under my sole authority. Everyone there — the guard, the staff — will answer to me.”
Hanush let out a loud laugh that broke into a cough, splashing wine across the table.
“And why, in God’s name, would I do that?” he asked, eyes boring into Hans.
“Because in return, I won’t make trouble about your promise concerning my marriage, Uncle,” Hans said slowly, brushing an invisible speck from the front of his quilted coat.
“And you know,” he added after a beat, “that if something goes wrong, you’ll be the one with the most to lose.”
“I offer you my word as a nobleman.”
Hanush took a long sip.
For a while, he said nothing — just looked at him, weighing what had just unfolded.
Then he gave a short, dry laugh.
“Well then… fine. Keep your lower castle,” he said at last, the words leaving him sour and stiff.
Hans didn’t move.
He didn’t thank him. He didn’t smile.
He simply turned and walked out without a word.
The door closed behind him.
Hoofbeats thundered across the courtyard of Pirkstein.
Hans dismounted in one smooth motion and cast a sharp glance around.
“Call the garrison,” he said to the first guard he saw. “All of them.”
The man hesitated. “But, my lord—”
“Now,” Hans cut in.
The guard gave a short nod and hurried off.
It wasn’t ten minutes before the courtyard filled with familiar faces.
Men of the lower castle — some older, some young. Most knew Hans, but few had ever heard him speak like this.
He stood on the wooden gallery above, hands clasped behind his back, shoulders squared. His gaze, fixed on the courtyard below, was calm — and hard.
“By agreement with Sir Hanush, I am now taking full command of Pirkstein,” he announced.
“The running of the lower castle is from this day forth mine alone.”
His eyes moved over the gathered men.
“Captain Bernard remains in charge of the upper castle. I take charge here. Whatever happens in this place — training, supplies, patrols — everything — goes through me.”
He paused, seeking the next words.
“Or through my right hand — Master Henry.”
A faint murmur stirred across the courtyard.
“His word is mine,” Hans said, his tone quiet but firm.
“He has my full trust. And I trust he’ll have yours as well.”
A brief silence followed.
Hans shifted his weight from one foot to the other.
“For my use, I’ll be taking the chamber by the great hall. It’ll be arranged as needed. And my companion…”
He paused, but only for a heartbeat.
“…will remain in my old quarters. Have them ready for his return.”
No one spoke.
Hans straightened again.
“That’s all. Dismissed.”
The courtyard thinned as men dispersed. Hans leaned on the railing and looked down, his expression unreadable.
The anger he’d carried from the meeting with Hanush still lingered.
And perhaps a trace of it clung to Bernard, though Hans wanted to believe the captain had only followed orders.
He crossed the courtyard.
His eyes drifted over the stones and walls, unfocused.
Near the stables, one of the grooms straightened when he noticed him.
“My lord,” the man said cautiously. “Shall I ready your horse?”
Hans stopped.
For a moment, he said nothing.
Then he shook his head, barely, his brows drawn.
“…I don’t know,” he murmured. “Perhaps. I’ll let you know.”
The groom gave a nod and stepped back.
Hans lingered there a breath longer, jaw tight, breath shallow.
He wasn’t even sure what he meant to do.
It wasn’t protection he wanted to offer.
It was just—
the simple, stupid need to be near him.
Hans exhaled and turned away — the blanket of restlessness still clinging to him, heavier than the wind.
He set off for the ramparts, pacing them in slow, thoughtful strides. After a time, he stopped, turned, and made his way to the living wing of the castle.
He entered what was now Henry’s chamber.
For a moment, he just stood there, letting his eyes wander across the walls and furniture — checking, it seemed, that all was as it should be for the one who mattered most.
He stepped to the chest, knelt, opened it, considered for a moment, then closed it again.
He paused beside the bed and gave the room one last look.
Then drew a breath and stepped back outside.
Evening shadows stretched across the battlements of Pirkstein.
Hans stood with his arms resting on the cold stone, staring out into the distance. Below him, the land faded into a haze of grey — fields, woods, winding paths. His face was calm, but his gaze distant.
So much had happened today that he hadn’t yet fully grasped the weight of it. What he’d done. What he’d said.
But his thoughts were fixed on a single muddy thread of road, winding up the slope toward Rattay.
And then—
A group of riders moved along it.
At first, their shapes were little more than shadows. But as they drew closer, their outlines sharpened.
Hans straightened.
At their head rode a man in fine armour.
Even from a distance, Hans knew exactly who it was.
He turned without a word and made his way down the stairs.
The courtyard was quiet.
A few guards lingered near the horses, and when they saw him approach, they straightened and stepped aside. He passed without a glance.
He stopped at the centre of the yard, just as the riders reached the gate.
Henry was the first to dismount.
There was dust on his armour, weariness in his face — but his eyes were clear and fixed on Hans.
Hans took a step toward him, then paused.
In the end, it was Henry who spoke first.
“We rode the road, didn’t see a soul. If Captain Bernard wants to know.”
Hans’s voice stayed low, flat.
“He’s not here, Henry. If he ever meant to ask.”
He held his gaze steady.
“But we’ve more important things to discuss anyway.”
His attention shifted to one of the servants.
“Take Master Henry to his chamber.”
The servant gave a nod.
“Hans, I just need somewhere clean and dry—” Henry began, but Hans cut him off.
“It’s already seen to. Once you’ve settled and had a breath, come find me. We have urgent matters to speak of.”
With that, he turned, climbed the steps, and vanished into the depths of the castle.
Henry gave a small shrug and handed the reins to one of the guards. He nodded and followed the servant up the stairs.
The servant opened the door and stepped aside.
“This way, sir. If you need anything, I’m at your service.”
Henry crossed the threshold. The door closed softly behind him.
He stood still in the centre of the room.
This wasn’t an unfamiliar space. He’d been here before. He’d stood just there, waiting to be called in. Sometimes he’d lingered by the wall while listening to Hans.
Back then, Henry had been a squire — and Hans merely his lord.
But now Henry stood here alone.
He sat on the edge of the bed and ran his palm over the coverlet. The fabric was soft, heavy. For a fleeting moment, he thought he caught Hans’s scent in it, and without thinking, drew in a quiet breath.
A memory surfaced: he had come here once with a message.
Hans had been asleep, lying just there.
And Henry had stood, watching the peaceful stillness of his face.
Now the recollection made him smile — remembering how startled he’d been by his own reaction, or perhaps afraid that his lord might wake and see him staring.
He let out a quiet sigh.
He adored watching Hans’s face in sleep, when dreams flickered behind his closed eyes. He loved holding him close and feeling the slow rhythm of his breath. And he hated not knowing when he’d next get to hold him like that — to feel him, to kiss him, to be near.
He stood, crossed to the chest, lifted the lid partway. Inside were fresh shirts and other garments, neatly folded.
He closed it again.
Walked to the window and braced his hands against the frame, peering into the dark.
I should go to Hans.
Hans sat at the small table by the wall.
Two candles burned on the surface, their flames flickering in the draught that occasionally slipped through the chamber.
Beyond the windows, the wind moaned now and then.
An open book lay before him.
One elbow rested on the table, fingers tangled in his hair, his gaze long since drifted from the page.
He registered the words only vaguely, his mind elsewhere.
A knock broke the silence.
He didn’t move.
Only when it came again — knuckles lightly tapping wood — did he lift his head.
“Yes?” he said.
The door opened a crack.
“My lord — Master Henry,” the guard announced.
Hans didn’t look up from the book.
“Let him in,” he said.
“And see that I’m not disturbed — by anything or anyone.”
The door opened wider.
Henry stepped inside, silent.
When the door closed behind him, Hans was still seated, head bowed.
“Henry,” he said, a little louder this time — as if reminding himself that now was the time to speak aloud.
“I’m glad you’re here.”
He rose — slowly — and turned to face him.
“We need to speak about my meeting with Sir Hanush,” he said, his voice clear.
For a moment, they simply looked at each other.
Their expressions shifted subtly. The weariness began to melt. A smile settled in their eyes — then on their lips. Quiet, a little incredulous.
Hans stepped forward.
He didn’t hesitate. He crossed the space between them and pulled Henry into a firm, sudden embrace. And kissed him — before Henry had the chance to say a word.
There was only the briefest pause —
then Henry answered him. Drew him closer. Their mouths met again, slower, steadier this time.
They held each other for a long while — hands on backs, arms, the curve of a neck — as if needing to feel, to confirm,
You’re here.
This is real.
“I missed you,” Henry whispered, barely audible.
Hans leaned his forehead lightly against Henry’s shoulder.
His breath came warm and slow.
“I was this close to riding after you,” he murmured. “Down that bloody Talmberg road.”
Henry smiled and gave a soft shake of his head and kissed him again — while Hans’s fingers slipped gently through his hair.
They stayed like that a little longer, arms wrapped around each other. Their lips brushed now and then — a cheek, a throat, breath shared in passing.
Then Hans pulled back slightly, took Henry’s hand, and nodded toward the bed.
“Come sit with me,” he said quietly. “Strictly honourable,” he added, with a faint laugh.
Henry drew him close again.
“Pity,” he murmured into his ear, trailing a hand along the inside of Hans’s thigh.
“Henry, for God’s sake,” Hans mock-scolded.
“All right, all right,” Henry grinned.
They sat side by side on the edge of the bed.
“What’s going on here, Hans?” Henry asked softly.
Hans stared ahead for a moment.
“A great many things,” he said under his breath, then slowly turned toward Henry.
“I had no idea they’d sent you away. When I arrived and you weren’t here…”
His voice faltered. In the end, he just shook his head.
Henry gave a small shrug.
“I didn’t know what to make of it either. But when Bernard said the order came from the upper castle…”
He shrugged again, eyes falling to the blanket between them. His fingers drifted across it without thinking.
Hans leaned closer and laid a hand over his. The touch was firm — but careful.
“I didn’t know a thing,” he said. “Hanush went behind my back.”
Henry looked up at him, his expression calm — but something darker stirred in his eyes. He placed his other hand over Hans’s, more firmly this time, as if to say, It’s all right.
“What’s he playing at?” he asked.
Hans was quiet for a beat. His thumb moved gently across Henry’s knuckles.
“I’m not entirely sure,” he said at last. “But I think he wanted to remind me he still holds the reins.”
Henry said nothing. He looked down at his boots, then back at Hans.
“Suppose we should’ve seen it coming,” he murmured.
Hans drew a breath.
“I confronted him straightaway,” he said calmly.
Henry turned to him.
“You did what?”
Hans gave a faint smirk and lifted one shoulder.
“Went to have a word, let’s say.”
Henry leaned in slightly.
“You didn’t have to,” he said quietly, his thumb brushing lightly over Hans’s wrist.
Hans met his gaze. His features stayed composed — but there was a glint in his eyes that hadn’t been there a moment before.
“I did, Henry. For your sake.
And for mine.”
He paused.
“For ours,” he added softly.
Henry stroked his hand.
“How did it end?”
Hans gave a low, humourless laugh and looked up at the ceiling, as if trying to read the answer in the beams overhead.
“To tell you the truth… I’m not entirely sure.”
His eyes wandered around the room, like he was only now settling back into it.
“But he agreed to hand me command of Pirkstein. Immediately.”
Henry stilled.
“I didn’t expect that.”
“Truth be told…” Hans raised his brows. “Neither did I. Which is why I don’t trust him.”
He exhaled audibly, as if trying to shake something off.
“In return, I gave him my word the wedding would go forward without interference.”
He lowered his gaze to the floor.
The words came out softer than they should have.
Henry reached out, slipped an arm around his shoulders, and gently drew him close.
Hans let his head rest against Henry’s chest, and Henry pressed a kiss into his hair.
“We’ll manage,” he whispered.
Hans let out a soft breath and wrapped his arms around him.
“We will,” he echoed — almost voiceless, but with a resolve that hadn’t been there a moment ago.
He shifted, lifted his head, and their eyes met.
“The wedding…” he began, then paused. “It’s meant to happen before the end of October.”
Henry said nothing. His jaw tensed, just barely, and he gave a small nod.
His gaze didn’t waver from Hans’s.
“Tomorrow,” Hans went on, even quieter now, “I’m to meet with the Kunstadt family.”
He hesitated.
“And with Lady Jitka.”
Henry lowered his head and pressed his fingers briefly to the bridge of his nose.
Then he looked back at Hans.
“Do you want me there with you?”
Hans shook his head.
“It’ll be just them, and Hanush—”
“I understand,” Henry said before he could finish.
“—I’ll need you here more, Henry.”
A slight furrow crossed Henry’s brow.
“What do you mean?”
Hans nodded toward the door.
“When I took command of Pirkstein today, I named you my official second here.”
Henry looked up. A flicker of surprise touched his face.
Hans smiled.
“I’ve made it known to everyone here — your voice carries the same weight as mine.”
Henry lowered his gaze. Silence settled between them for a moment.
Then he looked back at Hans.
“You’re sure about that?”
Hans’s lips curved into a quiet, steady smile.
“Absolutely, love.”
He leaned in and kissed him.
Henry pulled him close again without hesitation and kissed him once more.
Their lips met. Tongues brushed.
Breath quickened.
Fingers found familiar places— the nape of the neck, the line of a shoulder, the curve of a back.
Hans broke away suddenly. He drew back, slightly out of breath, his eyes half-lidded.
A smile tugged at the corner of his mouth — almost shy.
“We have to be careful,” he said quietly, with a hint of apology in his voice.
“I know,” Henry breathed.
“But it’s hard, Hans.”
Hans arched one brow.
Henry tilted his head.
“Not that.”
Though he snorted. “Well — that too.”
Then he let out a laugh — dry, a little bitter.
“I meant it’s hard not to be able to touch you.
Not the way I want.
Not when I want.
Not at all.”
Hans drew a breath.
“You don’t have to tell me,” he murmured, his hand sliding along Henry’s thigh.
“That’s why,” he added, glancing around the chamber,
“I moved.”
His eyes locked with Henry’s.
“So I could have you as close as possible, Henry.”
Henry smiled — then glanced toward the door.
“You’ve still got a guard outside.”
Hans pursed his lips. “That too can be arranged,” he said after a moment, smiling faintly.
“You remember what I told you a few days ago? That we’ll always find a way?”
Henry nodded.
Hans held his gaze for a moment.
“I’ve already started walking it,” he said quietly.
Henry didn’t speak. He simply reached for Hans’s hand — gently, as if holding something rare.
He bent down and kissed it — not with heat, but with care. Slowly.
As if what he held needed to be protected.
Hans held his breath.
When Henry looked up again, their eyes met.
His fingertips traced the line of Hans’s cheek.
“Shall we get a bit of air?” Hans asked softly.
“To where?” Henry asked, surprised.
“Just the battlements,” Hans said with a smile.
They stood side by side, the silence broken only now and then by the faint crack of timber in the distance.
Down in the town below, a handful of lights flickered — hearths, lanterns, tiny sparks of life.
High above it all, on the battlements, there were only the two of them.
Henry rested his hands on the cold stone. The chill seeped into his arms, but he didn’t mind.
He said nothing. There were too many words in his head to choose even one.
Then he felt a touch — tentative, testing.
Hans’s fingers brushed his hand, as if asking permission.
Henry said nothing. He simply let his palm drift down to meet them and laced their fingers together.
He shifted his weight and leaned gently against Hans’s arm.
“It almost looks like a city,” Hans said quietly, after a while. “Like we’re standing over something far greater than it is.”
Henry nodded.
“And all of it will be ours to look after, Henry,” Hans added with a smile. “Doesn’t that frighten you?”
Henry drew a slow breath in, then let it out.
“I’ve been through worse shite, I think.”
Hans laughed.
“Ay, I’d say I’ve seen some of it too.”
Henry’s smile faded.
“What worries me more is that we haven’t even been here a full day, and already…”
He trailed off.
“Already there are things in the way.”
Hans gave a tired sort of smile.
“Ay… it caught me off guard too.”
They fell silent again. Then Henry spoke.
“There’s always going to be something else, isn’t there. It’ll never be easy.”
“No,” Hans replied simply.
“But we’ll be in it together. Even if it means a thousand lies. And one truth we’ll never speak aloud.”
Henry leaned toward him. His forehead brushed Hans’s cheek.
“That’s enough for me.”
Hans let his eyes drift over the battlements. Then he smiled at him and brushed a soft kiss to his lips.
He let out a breath.
“We should probably get some sleep, Henry.”
Henry gave a small nod. Though a little reluctant.
“Ay.”
Hans hesitated for a moment.
“I have the meeting with the Kunstadts tomorrow. I’d like you to take the time to settle in here. Get a sense of Pirkstein.”
A faint smile touched Henry’s lips.
“I know. Master Henry.”
Hans’s thumb brushed lightly over the back of Henry’s hand.
“Someone’s got to keep watch over our home.”
Hans lay awake in the unfamiliar bed.
The fire had burned down to cold ash. The room held stillness in every corner — the kind of stillness that made the darkness feel closer, thicker, heavier.
He shifted.
Turned onto his side.
Waited.
Turned again.
Sleep didn’t come. It didn’t even come close.
For a while, he gave up on movement. Just lay there, eyes open, staring into the black above him. Listening to the wind as it moved past the shutters.
There was nothing strange in the sound. Nothing new.
He wasn’t sure what kept him awake.
The weight of the day, maybe. The words left unsaid. The pull of thoughts that circled too tightly to escape.
Or maybe—
maybe it was the room itself. The unfamiliar walls. The bed that didn’t know him.
Or maybe—
it was simply the absence of Henry’s warmth.
The absence of his breath, soft and steady, and that faint sound Hans had come to know by heart — the quiet snore Henry made when he was too tired to fight it.
After a while, Hans drew a slow breath and sat up.
For a moment, he just sat there, shoulders slightly hunched, eyes fixed on the door.
Then he stood. Pulled the blanket from the bed and draped it over his shoulders before moving softly across the floor.
The door gave a faint creak as he eased it open.
He paused, peered out into the dim light of the hall.
The guard sat slumped against the wall, head bowed, fast asleep.
Hans watched him for a moment. Something flickered in his eyes — maybe amusement, maybe weariness — then he stepped silently past, the blanket trailing behind him.
When he reached Henry’s door, he stopped.
The corridor lay empty around him.
He stood still, as if listening — for a sound, a breath, anything.
His eyes drifted to the door. He hesitated.
For a moment, his hand lifted.
Then lowered again.
A quiet sigh left him.
He glanced once more down the hallway. Then stepped away.
The courtyard lay hushed in the night, broken only by the distant clatter of a restless hoof.
Hans crossed it without a sound. Climbed the steps to the battlements.
And there— against the dark sweep of the sky— a silhouette.
Henry.
Henry saw him and, after a moment’s pause, stepped forward.
They met halfway along the battlements, the wind brushing softly past.
For a moment, they simply stood — face to face, close enough to see the breath rise between them, close enough to catch the faintest smile on the other’s lips.
Both of them looked, for a heartbeat, almost surprised.
Then Hans’s mouth curved. He gave a soft huff of breath, half a laugh.
“What are you doing here?” he asked, voice low, the edges of a smile still in it.
Henry’s eyes held his. He gave a small shrug, exhaled softly, shoulders loosening a fraction.
“Figured I could ask you the same thing.”
Hans exhaled softly. He shifted his weight slightly closer. His hand drifted — casual, slow — and the back of his finger brushed along Henry’s knuckles.
Light as breath. Barely there.
“I think,” he murmured, “if I had you beside me, I could sleep anywhere. Even here. On these bloody walls.”
Henry’s eyes dropped for a moment, the corner of his mouth tugging into something softer.
He let out a quiet sigh and when he looked back up, his gaze was gentle.
“Funny how you start taking things for granted without meaning to,” he said, his voice little more than a breath.
“And then you feel them twice as much the moment they’re gone.”
For a moment, neither of them moved.
The wind stirred the hem of Hans’s blanket. Somewhere below, a horse shifted, its hoof striking stone.
Hans let out a soft breath, the corner of his mouth tugging higher.
“Maybe I should head to the kitchens. Find a wineskin and drink until I finally pass out.”
Henry breathed a soft laugh, the sound low and warm.
But after a moment, his eyes shifted. He grew thoughtful. His gaze lingered on Hans.
Hans tilted his head slightly, uncertain.
“What?”
Henry’s brows drew together faintly.
“Did anyone see you leave?” he asked softly.
Hans gave a small shake of his head.
“The guard’s asleep.”
Henry exhaled through his nose, then glanced away for a beat.
“No one comes to wake you in the morning, right?”
Hans’s smile returned, a little puzzled.
“No. Not unless I ask.”
Henry’s mouth quirked. A small, knowing grin tugged at the edges.
“Then maybe,” he murmured, voice soft but playful, “Sir Capon would care to pay Master Henry a visit.”
The words were light, but something in the way he said them — and in the way his eyes held Hans’s — made the meaning clear.
Hans’s lips curved wider.
He didn’t answer aloud.
He just nodded.
The door clicked softly shut.
Henry slid the bolt into place, the sound barely audible in the stillness.
When he turned, Hans was standing in the middle of the room, barefoot, smiling faintly.
Henry crossed to him without a word and pulled him into a firm embrace. Their mouths met — slow at first, but quickly deepening. Quiet, but hungry.
They kissed. Touched. Fingers trailing, breath catching, moving closer until there was barely space between them.
Hans had already let the blanket slip away. He wore only his thin linen trousers, the fabric soft against Henry’s hands.
Without breaking the kiss, Hans pulled Henry’s shirt over his head, dropping it aside. Their bare chests pressed together, skin to skin, save for the feel of leather cords and the small pendants each of them wore at their throats.
Henry let out a breath — sharp, shaky — when he felt Hans’s arousal against his thigh. He shifted, without thinking, pressing forward — their hips grazing, both of them already too far gone to pretend otherwise.
They stilled at once.
Breathless.
Eyes meeting.
A soft, guilty smile curved Henry’s lips.
“We really should sleep,” he murmured.
Hans let out a quiet laugh, the faintest edge of regret in his eyes. But he nodded.
“Ay,” he breathed. “We should.”
They lay down together, the mattress dipping beneath their weight.
Henry settled on his back, head resting against the pillow, breath easing out slow.
Hans curled in beside him — his head on Henry’s shoulder, one arm draped across his chest, their legs tangled loosely under the blankets.
For a while, neither of them spoke. They just breathed.
Soft. Steady.
Bodies pressed close, warmth shared, the familiar comfort of skin against skin. The steady rise and fall of Henry’s chest beneath Hans’s palm. The scent of him — sweat, leather, and something clean and faintly sharp that Hans had long since come to crave.
Henry’s fingertips traced light, absent circles along the bare line of Hans’s waist.
Hans shifted slightly, his breath soft against Henry’s throat, and let his thumb graze gently across his chest. Back and forth. Slow. Without thought.
The quiet settled over them.
Hans pressed a soft kiss to the skin just beneath Henry’s ear, the barest brush of lips.
Henry smiled faintly.
“Feels less like my chamber now,” he murmured. “With you here… it feels more like ours.”
He let the words hang for a moment, then gave a soft huff of breath.
“Though I suppose, until tonight, it was still your room anyway.”
Hans gave a quiet sound of amusement.
Henry’s lips curved into something a little more playful.
“You know—” and here he let out a soft laugh—
“if I count Suchdol, Devil’s Den, that ruined farmhouse, and Foxburrow… this might be the only bedroom of yours where we haven’t done that.”
Hans let out a soft breath of amusement.
“Technically, it’s not my bedroom anymore. And you’re forgetting Maleshov.”
Henry gave a quiet snort. “Right. Maleshov.”
A pause.
“Not sure Brabant would’ve appreciated that, though,” Hans murmured.
And that was it—
The laughter broke. Breathless. Muffled. Shoulders shaking. Faces buried against each other, breathless with the effort to stay quiet.
The more they tried to stop, the worse it got.
Helpless.
Slowly, the laughter ebbed.
They caught their breath, still grinning, foreheads nearly touching. Their eyes shone — bright, soft, alive.
Henry let out a quiet breath, still smiling. His voice barely more than a whisper.
“I love you so damn much, Jendo.”
Hans’s smile deepened. His eyes softened, lids lowering as he leaned in and brushed a kiss — slow, warm — against Henry’s lips.
“I love you too,” he murmured, the words low, steady, certain.
They shifted a little, settling. Their bodies eased into stillness, warmth pressed close, breath slow and steady again.
For a while, neither of them spoke.
“Feels the way it’s meant to,” Hans murmured at last, his voice thick with sleep.
Henry smiled, his eyes already slipping closed.
“Ay,” he whispered. “It does.”
Steady. Kind. With something heavy inside. His.
Used with kind permission of @playpausephoto
From Fire – Part II
Master Henry
Contains a love scene.
Tender. Explicit. And very much theirs.
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Two riders rode slowly through the streets of Rattay. The town still lay half-sunk in morning mist, but bright streaks across the sky hinted that sunlight would soon take hold.
“You didn’t have to come with me,” Hans said, casting a glance at Henry beside him. Yet the warmth in his eyes betrayed how glad he was that he had.
“I didn’t,” Henry replied, the corners of his mouth lifting slightly. “But I wanted to.”
Hans fell silent for a moment, his eyes resting on the reins in his hands. Then a trace of a smile returned to his face.
“I’ll try to be back as soon as I can. But you’ll have plenty to keep you busy. Take a look around Pirkstein—get to know the place. It’s yours too now. And if anything comes to mind… don’t wait. Just get on with it.”
Henry gave a brief nod.
“I’ll see to it. Whatever I can.”
They came to a halt before the upper castle. The mist had sunk somewhere below, and here, higher up, the autumn morning had already broken clear and bright.
For a while they simply sat there, facing one another, the reins loose in their hands. It would have been so easy to reach out, to touch, to say something more. But none of that could be allowed. And still—it was there between them, as present as breath.
“Good luck,” Henry said.
He turned his horse and rode on. He didn’t look back.
Hans watched him for a time, until the mist swallowed him, the lower part of the town still lost in its depths. He lowered his head, closed his eyes for a moment—then nudged his horse forward.
Pirkstein lay still.
Henry rode through the gate into the courtyard, dismounted, and looped the reins over a post by the shelter. It wasn’t empty—soldiers lingered in a corner, someone was sweeping, horses stood beneath the awning—but the whole place drifted in a slow, drowsy rhythm.
A few faces lifted toward him, greeting him with slight nods. Word of him had spread since yesterday.
It was clear that the weight of power had shifted uphill, to the upper castle. And the real stir belonged now to the town between them—the merchants, the craftsmen, and likely the pickpockets too.
Pirkstein still held its dignity, but it felt like a house only half-abandoned.
A small commotion by the stables caught Henry’s eye. A young stablehand was struggling with a harness, the horse tossing its head impatiently, and the boy barely managing to keep the bridle from slipping from his grasp.
Henry made his way over at an easy pace.
“Let me,” he said, reaching out.
The boy hesitated only for a heartbeat before handing him the bridle. Henry took hold of the leather and smoothed the straps with practiced hands, as if he’d done it all his life.
“Here,” he murmured, pointing to a buckle. “If you leave this too loose, it’ll slip.” He fixed it, pulled it tight, and flipped the strap across. “And this needs to sit firm. Otherwise the horse will fight you the whole way.”
He fastened the last clasp, checked the bridle, and gave a small nod.
“There. That’s done.”
The boy lowered his gaze and nodded.
“Thank you, Master Henry.”
Henry paused, his expression faint and slightly awkward. He still wasn’t used to the title.
“Think nothing of it,” he said, and set off toward the stairs.
He climbed to the floor below their chambers and followed the corridor along the outer wall.
Stone walls, the chill beneath his boots, muted light slicing through narrow windows. He passed the kitchens, where the familiar scent of smoke and something simmering drifted into the hall. A young maid appeared in the doorway, a bucket cradled in her arms. For a moment, their eyes met. She dipped her head in a quick curtsey.
“Master Henry.”
He returned the greeting with a nod and kept walking.
It felt strange to see Pirkstein like this—not as a stranger, not as a guest, not even as part of the garrison, but as someone for whom the castle had become, in some way, a responsibility.
The corridor stretched on past a row of unremarkable doors. As he passed one left slightly ajar, he let his gaze drift inside.
A bright, spacious chamber. Simple, but tasteful. A comfortable bed, a chest, a table, a wardrobe. The room was clearly well kept, though no one was living there now.
He tarried only briefly, then eased the door shut and made his way back toward the stairs.
He stepped into his chamber.
He crossed to the bed and began to straighten the covers and pillows. That morning, he and Hans had lingered too long in the warmth of the embrace they’d woken in, losing time to slow touches and unhurried kisses.
And then, at last, they’d both left in something of a rush.
A fleeting smile tugged at Henry’s mouth.
He moved along the walls, his hand trailing over faded paintings—hunters, riders, hounds, a stag caught mid-leap. He knew them by now. He’d seen them often enough, though he had never really stopped to look.
He came to a halt beside the hearth, where a small niche was set into the wall. On the shelf stood two earthenware jugs, a bowl, and a scattering of small things. His eyes drifted over them, and without thinking, he let his hand drift lower, along the cold surface of the wall beneath.
He froze for a moment. What met his touch wasn’t stone, but something else. He rapped his knuckles lightly against it, and the sound was not what one would expect from solid wall. Hollow.
His brow furrowed. He stretched out his hand and tapped the wall beside the niche. This time the sound was duller, heavier. He thought for a moment, then stepped back to the niche. Another tap—clear, too sharp, too wrong.
He stood still, one hand braced against the niche.
He stepped out of his chamber and made his way along the corridor toward the main hall and the entrance to the Hans’s room. The guard stationed there gave him a polite nod.
“I’m going into Sir Hans’s room,” Henry said.
It wasn’t a question.
The guard hesitated, then gave a brief nod and opened the door for him. Henry stepped inside and closed it behind him.
At once, his eyes went to the niche in the wall—set in the exact same place as the one he’d examined in his own chamber.
He crossed the room and ran his hand lightly over the back of it.
He was nearly certain now. What met his touch was wood, buried under thick layers of paint.
He stepped out again and made his way back to his own room. He sifted through his things until he found what he was looking for: an awl.
Carefully, he lifted the vessels from the niche, then the shelf itself.
He knelt, his hand searching across the back wall until he found the line he’d felt before. Then he took the awl and began to scrape away the paint—slowly, cautiously. A moment later, the trace of a satisfied smile pulled at his mouth as the shape of a keyhole came into view.
He paused, thought for a moment, then crossed to the door and slid the bolt. Returning to the niche, he took up his lockpicks and knelt once more.
It wasn’t something he was proud of, but he knew his way around locks well enough. It didn’t take long before there came a soft click.
Henry straightened and pressed his palm carefully—firmly—against the wall. Nothing happened. He glanced around, then leaned in again, this time adding his weight.
The hinges, buried under thick paint, groaned faintly, and slowly the hidden door creaked open.
Henry found himself looking into Hans’s chamber.
A faint smile pulled at his mouth. He tilted his head slightly.
Something occurred to him.
He stepped outside quickly and beckoned to a young servant.
“Come with me, lad.”
The boy dipped his head in reply and fell in behind him. Henry set off through the gate, the lad trailing two steps behind.
“We need to buy something,” Henry called over his shoulder as they walked toward Rattay’s market square.
They entered a small merchant’s shop.
Could be Elishka’s father, Henry thought, the memory of that tense meeting in the woods flickering by.
The shop was small, but neat and welcoming. Bolts of fabric hung along the walls, finished garments were stacked in one corner, and behind the counter the merchant looked up and rose to his feet.
Henry paused by the neatly arranged cloths, his fingers trailing across the fabric. Wool—heavy, sturdy, practical. Brocade—dark green, with a fine woven pattern: muted, but beautiful.
“This one,” Henry said, pointing to the brocade. “And the wool as well. Five ells of each.”
The merchant nodded. The servant helped roll the cloth while Henry counted out the coin.
Outside, at the foot of the steps, Henry handed the bundle of wool to the boy and slung the brocade over his arm.
“Come on,” he said, and set off back toward the castle.
Back at Pirkstein, Henry set a few maids to work, having them fashion two curtains from the cloth he’d brought: one of dark green brocade for Hans’s chamber, the other of heavy wool for his own.
Once they were finished, he brought in two servants, and together they hammered sturdy nails into the walls above each niche. The curtains were hung, the fabric carefully arranged so it would fall clean and straight.
The brocade in Hans’s chamber hung loosely, catching the firelight with a subtle sheen—almost festive in its grace. The wool in Henry’s room was heavier, plainer, but still discreet—exactly as he had wanted it.
Most importantly, in both rooms there was no longer any sign of a niche in the wall.
The next few hours, Henry spent walking the castle, learning how things were done at Pirkstein. He spoke with the maids, with the cook, with a handful of soldiers, and little by little, began to form a picture of what was missing—or what might run short if the upper castle chose to stop cooperating.
The thought came easily enough. He had no way of knowing how long the fragile truce with Hanush would hold. And if they were to become more self-reliant at Pirkstein, it only made sense to have the stores replenished—flour, pulses, buckwheat, oats, wine, salt, firewood.
When Hans rode into the courtyard, returning from the upper castle, he found Henry giving final instructions to two men by a cart, readying them for a supply run into town.
Hans dismounted, folded his arms, and watched him, a hint of amusement in his eyes.
A moment later, Henry sent the men on their way, wiped his brow with his sleeve, and looked over at Hans.
“I see you’ve been keeping busy,” Hans said.
Henry shrugged lightly.
“Come,” Hans nodded, and Henry fell in beside him.
They stepped into Hans’s chamber, and Henry closed the door behind them.
Hans stopped at once. His gaze slid to the wall, where a new curtain of dark green brocade now hung, a faint, puzzled smile playing at the corners of his mouth.
“What’s this…?” he asked, looking over at Henry.
Henry’s lips twitched in a faint smile. “Have a look.”
He stepped to the curtain, drew the fabric aside, and opened the door hidden within the niche.
Hans stared for a moment, then his face lit with recognition.
“I’d completely forgotten there was a door here! How did you even find it?”
Henry lifted one shoulder in a slight shrug.
“Pure chance, really. But once I did… I thought it might not be the worst idea to open it again. And hide it. Just in case.”
Hans stepped closer, stopping right beside him, slipped an arm around his waist, and brushed a quick kiss to his cheek.
“I don’t know what I’d do without you.”
Henry turned toward him, a playful glint in his eye.
“There’s still one important decision that belongs to the lord of Pirkstein.”
Hans huffed a quiet laugh. “And that would be?”
Henry leaned in slightly, lowering his voice.
“Deciding which chamber—and which bed—we’ll be sleeping in.”
Hans paused for a moment, thoughtful.
“We could see which bed’s wider and take it from there,” he said with a shrug. “Though we’d better remember to lock the doors to both chambers.”
Henry raised an eyebrow. “True enough, Hans.”
“Though really,” Hans said, “it’s not your chamber and my chamber anymore.” His touch skimmed along Henry’s arm.
“They’re ours now.”
Hans fell silent for a moment, his gaze drifting toward the wall.
“It’s good you’ve found your footing here so quickly,” he said.
Henry lifted his eyes to him, a faint twitch pulling at his mouth.
“Why?”
Hans stepped closer and let his hand drift over Henry’s sleeve.
“Because of the meeting I had today.”
Henry shifted, leaning a hip against the table.
“How did it go?”
Hans shrugged without much care, the ghost of a smile touched his face, without warmth.
“Pretty much as we expected. Formalities. Titles. Dowry… and a date for the wedding.”
Henry’s face sobered.
“When?”
Hans hesitated for a moment, then shook his head, a flicker of something unreadable in his eyes.
“Saturday afternoon. The twenty-ninth of October. Supposedly some saint’s day—not that I know which. But it seemed solemn enough for them.”
“So a little over three weeks,” Henry said, his voice thoughtful, before letting out a sigh.
“Shall we sit?” he asked after a pause, nodding slightly toward the bed.
Hans nodded and sat down beside him. For a while, neither of them spoke.
“Feels like I’ve just been told the date of my own execution,” Hans said at last with a bitter laugh, his gaze dropping to the tips of his boots.
Henry slid a hand silently along his back.
Hans looked up at him, a faint, tired smile on his lips.
“But you already helped me survive one execution, Henry. So I reckon I’ll survive this too—with you.”
Henry held his gaze—steady, calm.
For a moment he said nothing.
“We’ve both been bracing for it. Somewhere deep down. For months. Maybe since the very beginning.”
He reached out, let his hand drift lightly along Hans’s arm—no pressure, no insistence, but left them resting there.
“We’ll get through it, Hans.”
Hans turned his head toward him, eyes closing for a moment. Then he leaned in slightly, his shoulder settling against Henry. He said nothing more.
After a while, as the silence stretched between them, Henry lowered his gaze, hesitant still.
“What is she like?” he asked. “Jitka.”
Hans stared ahead, his eyes fixed on a blank stretch of wall.
“She seems… like a fairly ordinary girl,” he said after a moment. “I haven’t really spoken with her much yet. But I don’t get the sense she’s any happier about all this than I am.”
“But it’s settled. For all of us.”
Henry reached out, laid his hand back on Hans’s arm.
Hans glanced at him, a flicker of something wry touched his face.
“And it’s true—she’s actually a pretty girl… well—young woman.”
Henry froze for a moment. He drew his hand back, folded it with the other in his lap, and lowered his eyes to his fingers.
“Then that’s probably good for you, Hans,” he said at last, his voice tinged with sadness.
Hans looked at him, his expression darkening for a moment. His brow furrowed slightly.
“That’s not fair,” he said, voice low. “You know there are things I’ll only do because I have to.”
Henry lifted his gaze, regret flickering in his eyes.
“Sorry,” he murmured. “I—”
He exhaled slowly and shrugged, searching for words.
“I know what the wedding means. And I’ve made my peace with it…”
He swallowed.
“It’s just… the thought of it. Of you… with her.”
His voice frayed at the edges.
“I can’t make it so it doesn’t hurt, Hans.”
Hans reached for Henry’s hand, their fingers weaving together.
“It won’t hurt me any less than it hurts you,” he said, voice barely more than a whisper.
“And knowing I’m the one who’ll do this to you…”
His breath caught.
“It tears me apart.”
Henry lowered his gaze, but this time he didn’t pull his hand away. When he looked back at Hans his eyes were damp.
“I suppose that night I’ll drink until I can’t feel anything anymore.”
He dropped his gaze again.
“And in the morning, I’ll probably carry on.”
Hans cupped his cheek, tilting his face up until their eyes met.
“You’ll always be the only one for me, Henry.”
“In everything.”
Henry steadied himself, and a fragile curve tugged at his mouth. It was still touched with sadness, but there was more life in it now.
“Good thing I’ve ordered enough wine,” he said. “And a few other things—supplies, for the people, for the animals. So there’s enough here if Hanush tries anything underhanded.”
Hans looked at him, the corners of his mouth quirking upward—half amused, half something softer.
“Pirkstein is lucky to have Master Henry,” he said. “The castle… and the man who bears its name. Though none more so than him.”
He reached out and his fingers ghosted across Henry’s cheek.
“And since Master Henry seems to be running things these days, I might need his help with something of vital importance.”
Henry raised his eyes to him.
“And what would that be?” he asked.
Hans’s mouth curved faintly, though the shadow of weariness lingered in his eyes.
“I’ll need your help deciding where Jitka will live. When… when it happens.”
Henry looked up at him, eyebrows lifting slightly.
“Shouldn’t she be somewhere near you?”
Hans shook his head, his gaze drifting aside for a moment.
“That would seem… out of place. It’s not how noble marriages work. It never has been.”
He fell silent, his touch falling away from Henry’s cheek, though he stayed close.
“They’re… alliances between houses, between names. Diplomacy. Trade. Sometimes friendship… but closeness? Love? That’s rare.”
Henry watched him, a flicker of something unreadable crossed his face.
“And in our particular case, it would be… even less convenient.”
Henry was silent for a moment.
“I suppose I never really thought about how it works for nobles, in these things.”
He looked at him, and after a moment the corners of his mouth lifted ever so slightly.
“But I won’t lie… for the sake of the two of us, I’m glad of it.”
Hans glanced at him, his own smile softening. Henry gave him a small wink—almost playful.
“So… we can keep the connected chambers?”
Hans gave a low chuckle.
“They’ll stay ours, Henry. Just ours.”
Something crossed Henry’s mind. He smiled to himself and rose from the bed.
“I think I know of a chamber for Jitka,” he said. “Come on.”
Hans got to his feet, a little surprised, but followed without question.
They stepped outside, down the stairs, and Henry led the way along the corridor toward the room he had come across during his morning walk through the castle. He opened the door and stepped aside, letting Hans enter first.
Hans looked around. He moved slowly through the room, brushing his hand over the back of a chair. He checked the sturdiness of a chest by the wall and cast an eye over the wardrobe. His fingers skimmed across the faded paintings on the walls, and for a moment he stopped by the window. He stood there in silence, his eyes resting on the view.
Then he straightened and glanced back over his shoulder at Henry.
“Perhaps a few small changes… some decoration… something a little grander. But otherwise—it’s just right.”
Henry gave a nod.
“I’ll see to it.”
Hans turned to him fully, his expression calm but more serious.
“You know, Henry… I’d actually like you to oversee all the arrangements concerning Jitka. Including handling things with her directly.”
Henry hesitated and briefly glanced away.
“Why me?” he asked. “Shouldn’t that be your concern?”
Hans’s mouth curved faintly, though his voice remained steady, matter-of-fact.
“According to court etiquette, it wouldn’t be proper. The groom isn’t meant to spend too much time with the bride before the wedding. Least of all dealing with practical matters like this. It’s just… not done.”
Henry’s face was thoughtful rather than troubled.
“All right,” he said quietly. “Then I suppose… I should meet her.”
Hans dipped his head.
“You’ll have the chance soon enough. She’s arriving this evening. For supper.”
Henry met his eyes, blinking in mild surprise.
“Today?”
“Just her and her escort,” Hans clarified. “Formally. Just to look over Pirkstein.”
Henry met his eyes and after a moment frowned slightly.
“And Hanush?”
Hans leaned against the doorframe.
“He left right after the meeting. Off on one of his… forays.”
He didn’t look away.
“And I’d like you there by my side, Henry.”
Henry nodded.
“You can count on it.”
Hans huffed a quiet laugh.
“I’ll go give the kitchen their instructions and see to the supper preparations. And you—get some rest, then get ready. Put on something nice, Henry.”
He let his eyes wander, taking him in, before he leaned in closer.
“God, how I’d rather undress you myself,” he whispered.
Something flickered in Henry’s eyes.
“I think we’d only get as far as the undressing, love,” he whispered, his lips grazing the shell of Hans’s ear.
The great hall at Pirkstein stood prepared. A tall fire burned in the hearth, casting its glow across the stone walls, where faded but carefully kept paintings still held their place. The tapestries along the walls bore deep, rich colours, and the fabric at the windows was heavy, luxurious.
The table was laid with the kind of care expected from the seat of a noble house—ornate jugs, goblets of pewter and glass, bowls with carved rims. It wasn’t a display meant to dazzle, but one of dignity and order—the things that mattered.
A few servants stood along the walls. One was refilling wine, another brought in a fresh basket of bread and offered a brief bow before stepping silently back.
Hans sat at the head of the table, his hands set lightly on the arms of his chair, a cup of wine set before him. He looked composed, upright, dressed in a dark doublet trimmed with fine embroidery.
Henry sat at his right hand, his own hands folded in his lap, his gaze lowered to the table. He wore a deep green nobleman’s coat, silk hose fitted neatly to his legs, and an embroidered brocade hood on his shoulders.
Hans inclined his head slightly toward him.
“You look incredible,” he murmured at the corner of his mouth.
Henry gave the barest hint of a smile, his eyes still fixed ahead.
“Just trying to please the handsomest lord in Pirkstein,” he whispered, barely audible.
Under the table, Hans nudged him discreetly.
“How’s that lord supposed to concentrate, then,” he whispered back near his ear.
The curve of Henry’s mouth deepened faintly. His thumb circled the edge of his cup. He said nothing more, his eyes settling on the door.
The fire cracked in the hearth. The servants stood along the walls, half in shadow.
Henry cast him a brief sidelong glance.
“I’m a little uneasy about all of this,” he admitted.
Hans remained steady.
“Just be exactly as you are, Henry. Trust me.”
The door to the hall opened.
The guard straightened.
“Lady Jitka of Kunstadt.”
Both Hans and Henry rose to their feet. Hans with calm elegance, Henry a little slower. They turned to face the entrance.
Jitka entered, a quiet maid at her side, and a single man-at-arms following at a respectful distance.
Henry’s eyes locked on the young noblewoman.
And he felt his stomach twist as cold spread through him.
A slender young woman, dressed in dark blue velvet trimmed with gold embroidery. At her throat, a necklace of pearls; pearls too glimmered in the delicate circlet resting over her dark brown hair, which was braided and pinned neatly at the back.
Her face was pretty, lightly freckled.
And in it—
Blue-green eyes, with tiny flecks of gold scattered through the irises.
Her eyes came to rest on Henry, who swallowed nervously.
And for a heartbeat—
It seemed she too was caught off guard. But then a polite smile touched her face and she offered a graceful curtsy.
“Welcome to Pirkstein, Lady Jitka,” Hans said, his expression warm.
A servant pulled out a chair for her.
Hans sat as well, casting a quick glance at Henry, who was still standing as if struck.
“Sit down,” he hissed under his breath.
Henry blinked, gathered himself, and sat.
“Allow me, my lady, to introduce the most trusted man in Pirkstein—my right hand, Master Henry,” Hans said, motioning toward him.
Jitka smiled politely.
“I see Pirkstein is in good hands.”
A short pause followed as Henry opened his mouth—and then closed it again.
Hans shot him a brief look.
“I… I’m pleased to finally meet you, my lady,” Henry stammered at last.
Her expression warmed slightly.
“I’m pleased to meet you too, Master Henry. It’s an honour.”
Her voice was calm, natural, carrying the polish of courtly courtesy.
Henry drew a shaky breath, straightened his back, and gave a stiff nod in return.
“Welcome to Pirkstein, my lady.”
Jitka offered a graceful curtsy.
“Henry will be your main contact here, my lady,” Hans went on. “He’ll handle all the necessary preparations with you.”
He turned briefly toward Henry, then back to her, a soft smile on his lips.
“We can both rely on him completely,” he added.
“Sounds like I’m in good hands as well, my lord,” she said lightly. “I’ll do my best not to take undue advantage of such kindness.”
For an instant, something unguarded crossed her face.
The supper passed in muted formality.
Servants moved soundlessly, bringing course after course—fish, game, bread, fruit. The wine jugs were switched out now and then, but otherwise the air held more weight than any words.
Few words were exchanged. Most were formal—polite remarks about the weather, about Kunstadt, about Rattay, about how dignified a place Pirkstein was. Occasionally Hans posed a light question, and Jitka answered. Henry mostly listened, adding a word here or there when something practical was discussed.
No one hurried. It was exactly the kind of evening such occasions were meant to be—masked silences, conversation held more for the sake of appearance than for any real sharing.
And Hans didn’t miss the shift in Henry’s manner.
He knew every detail of his face, could read every gesture, could hear the slightest change in the tone of his voice—even when no one else in the room noticed a thing.
And he hadn’t seen Henry this tense, this unsettled, in a long time.
“My lady,” Hans said at one point, standing with unhurried grace, “forgive me—and Master Henry as well. We’ll only be a moment.”
He shot Henry a brief look and tilted his head slightly toward his chamber. Henry rose and followed.
Once the door closed behind them, Hans turned to Henry, worry etched across his face.
“What is it, love?” he whispered.
Henry met his eyes, something between uncertainty and alarm flickering there.
“Hans—” he breathed. “Jitka… she’s the girl—Elishka!”
“Who?” Hans frowned, shaking his head.
“The girl from the woods—the one I saved from the wolves near Rattay, the one I brought back to town!”
Hans blinked, stunned.
“You’re sure?”
“Absolutely,” Henry said at once. “And—she recognised me too. You must have seen it.”
Hans exhaled sharply, he looked off, unfocused—
“Fuck,” he muttered.
Words failed him for a beat.
“Did you… did you say anything to her back then that could cause trouble now?”
Henry shook his head.
“No. Just that I’d once served as your squire.”
He hesitated.
“But now I realise… that’s why she kept asking about you.”
“And what did you tell her?” Hans asked.
“Only the truth—that you’re a good man. And a good lord,” Henry said, a faint, apologetic grin tugging at his lips.
Hans’s mouth twitched faintly before the expression faded.
“You’ll probably have to speak with her about it, Henry. When there’s a chance.”
Henry dipped his chin in acknowledgment.
“Come on,” Hans said quietly, pushing the door open and stepping back into the hall.
The supper wound down into quiet.
The cups were emptied, the last courses cleared away. The conversation faded into a silence no one felt the need to fill.
When it was possible to excuse himself without offence, Henry rose to his feet.
“Permit me a breath of air, my lady. Hans.”
He gave a small twitch of a smile and stepped away.
The battlements were still. The landscape below sank into deepening dusk, the last scraps of daylight vanishing beyond the horizon. Henry stood with his hands pressed flat to the stone ledge, staring out into the dark.
The sound of footsteps made him turn.
“Good evening, my lady… or should I say Elishka?”
Jitka paused just a few steps from him. She sighed and let a faint smile cross her lips.
“And you’re not just any former squire of Sir Hans, are you, Henry.”
Henry’s mouth tugged into a wry half-smile, something between awkwardness and relief still in his eyes.
“Fair enough.”
His fingertips grazed the stone.
“It caught me off guard. This evening. I wasn’t expecting you here.”
Jitka smiled, her gaze calm, a little tired.
“I wasn’t expecting you either. But… I’m glad.”
“Why didn’t you tell me back then? Who you were,” Henry asked.
Her eyes lost focus, settling on the darkness below.
“Isn’t it obvious? I was alone, in the woods, with a stranger… I didn’t know who you were, Henry.”
“You’re right. That was wise of you.”
“And you, Henry,” Jitka said, her hand brushing lightly against his forearm, “why didn’t you tell me you were Sir Hans’s right hand?”
Henry hesitated, weighing his words.
“Honestly, that was for safety too,” he answered after a moment, casting a quick look around, as if searching for a way to steer the conversation elsewhere.
“I’ve been asked to prepare your chamber. Would you like me to show you?”
Jitka let out a low breath of laughter.
“Seems Master Henry is a touch more serious than the Henry from Skalitz.”
Henry gave a careless tilt of his head.
“I’ve been tasked with taking care of you.”
A little while later they stood together in what would soon be Jitka’s chamber. The young noblewoman looked around, then sat lightly on the edge of the bed.
Henry lingered in the middle of the room, his hands fidgeting at his sides.
“Is everything all right?”
Jitka exhaled.
“I suppose so. It’s just…”
She looked down on her hands.
“It’s nothing, Henry,” she said when she looked back up at him. “I know what’s expected of me. And I’ll do my duty.”
Henry shifted his weight uneasily.
“I don’t… I don’t really know what to say.”
Jitka offered a small, apologetic smile.
“Don’t say anything. I didn’t mean to put you on the spot.”
She rose and touched his arm lightly with her hand.
“Would you take me riding tomorrow, Henry? Just around the countryside.”
“I don’t know if that would be proper,” Henry said, shifting uncomfortably.
“Please,” she said, meeting his eyes. “Since Vincek… since you buried him… I’ve been stuck in Rattay with nothing.”
Her voice faltered for a moment.
“And you, Henry… you’re the only one who spoke to me like I was just an ordinary girl. Not… the bride they carted in.”
“All right. I’ll come for you in the morning. At the upper castle.”
“Thank you, Henry. I truly appreciate it.”
By the time they returned to the hall, the supper was nearly over. Only a few cups remained, the last traces of the meal, and the low shimmer of candlelight.
Jitka rose with a polite smile.
“It’s time I returned,” she said. “Thank you, Sir Hans, for a pleasant evening.
And you as well, Henry.”
Hans answered her with a slight bow, and Henry gave a brief nod.
“And Henry,” she added, her smile lingering.
“I do hope you’ll remain in my future husband’s service for many years to come.”
With that, she turned and withdrew.
Together they accompanied her, her maid, and the man-at-arms out to the courtyard.
The night was cold, the black horses shifting restlessly. Servants helped the women into their saddles; Jitka cast one last glance back and lifted a hand in farewell.
Then they set off toward the upper castle, footsteps and voices fading into the night.
Hans turned to Henry, a question in his eyes.
“Shall we go to yours?” Henry asked.
The chamber smelled of smoke and wax. The fire hissed and popped in the hearth as Hans sat on the edge of the bed, rubbing the back of his neck wearily.
Henry sat down beside him, his hands resting still in his lap, his gaze fixed on the floor.
“Well, what an evening,” Hans muttered at last.
“Ay.”
“You looked like you’d seen a ghost when she walked in,” Hans chuckled.
Henry shot him a mock-reproachful look and gave him a light slap on the thigh.
“Don’t you start teasing me too, love,” he said before leaning in to press a slow kiss to his mouth.
For a while they just sat there in silence. Hans let out a breath, his eyes drifting to the flames.
“How did it go with her?”
His voice was soft, without pressure.
Henry toyed idly with his fingers.
“We cleared the air. Why neither of us said who we were in the woods… And I showed her the chamber.”
Hans only nodded, the corners of his mouth drawn slightly in thought.
“That’s good. Thank you.”
“And…” Henry lifted his eyes to meet Hans’s,
“I promised her a ride tomorrow.”
Hans stilled.
He turned his head, an eyebrow lifting.
“A ride? I’m not sure how I feel about that.”
Henry met his gaze without flinching.
“She just wants a bit of air. She’s been stuck here for weeks.”
Hans’s mouth tightened with hesitation.
“But that’s not supposed to be the task of her future husband’s right hand.”
Henry reached, fingers curling gently around Hans’s hand.
“Hans… she’s in the same place, really. She’s a prisoner of this marriage, just like you.”
“Just like us.”
Hans remained silent. His fingers traced the hem of the bedcover.
“So you think we’re… doing something wrong, then?”
The words held no accusation—only a question.
Henry gave a small shake of his head.
“No. Not that.”
He faltered.
“I just understand that she’s unhappy too. And… if I can give her even a little kindness in all this, why wouldn’t I?”
Hans studied him.
Something moved through his eyes, something soft.
He reached out and laid a hand on Henry’s knee.
“You know that’s one of the reasons I love you, don’t you?”
Henry smiled, saying nothing. His hand came up to cover Hans’s.
“What about you?” he asked after a moment. “What are your plans for tomorrow?”
Hans looked off for a moment, his lips pressing together.
“Honestly… I don’t know anymore. I’d meant to spend the day with you, you know.”
“But you’ll be otherwise occupied,” he added with a small shrug.
Henry answered with a crooked smile.
“Only in the morning. After that, I’ll be yours.”
He pressed a brief kiss to Hans’s neck—light, but enough to leave him breathless.
“I miss you, Henry,” he whispered. “I mean… you know how.”
Henry fell quiet for a moment, thoughtful.
“I should go to my room,” he said at last. “I ought to get out of these clothes before I ruin them.”
He lifted his eyes to Hans and his mouth twitched.
“And get some sleep,” he added, with the faintest flicker of a wink.
He rose and headed for the door.
Hans’s gaze followed him, unreadable.
Henry crossed the hall and the corridor to his chamber, pushed the door open—
and found Hans standing in the middle of the room.
The curtain covering the passage between their chambers still swayed.
Henry’s face broke into a grin. He closed the door behind him and locked.
Hans was watching him, a slow smile playing at his lips.
“Didn’t you say you needed to get out of those clothes, Master Henry?”
Henry didn’t hesitate. He strode over, pulled Hans into his arms, and kissed him—hard and without warning.
Hans responded instantly, his hands roaming over Henry’s body in frantic need, pulling him closer still.
Their mouths crashed together—hungry, unrelenting. Henry’s fingers tangled in Hans’s hair, his lips dragged along jaw and throat, their breaths sharp and uneven, gasping against skin and lips.
Everything was taut, pressing—driven by a fire already lit, hungry to consume them both.
Hans pulled Henry’s coat off and let it fall to the floor. His palms swept lower, tracing the shape of him—needy, unsteady.
Henry stood in his shirt and tight hose, every line of strain and desire visible through the thin fabric.
Hans’s gaze flicked over him—hot, hungry.
In the next breath, he pressed in—claiming Henry’s mouth in another bruising kiss.
Henry’s hands slid under Hans’s doublet, gripping him by the arse, dragging him close. Their hips slammed together—urgent, unyielding—and Hans moaned into his mouth.
Their kisses broke and reformed—sharp, hungry, breathless—hands yanking at laces, frantic to get closer. Henry gasped as Hans’s hands slid under his shirt, palms against hot skin, and answered in kind—his own fingers slipping down, tugging blindly at the fastenings of Hans’s hose.
His hands fumbled, clumsy with urgency, but they were laughing against each other’s mouths, too far gone to care.
A low growl rumbled in Henry’s throat. He gripped Hans’s hips, rough and sure, and pushed him back—mouth still locked to his—driving him toward the bed.
Hans went with him—half meeting, half surrendering—until Henry eased him down at the edge.
Without hesitation, he dropped to his knees, pulled Hans’s hose down, and freed him—hard, hot, aching. Hans’s fingers dug into the bedcover, breath catching sharp in his throat.
Henry glanced up, the ghost of a smile on his lips—then, wordless, ran his palm slow along the insides of his thighs.
He felt it. Felt the need coiled tight between them—his, and Hans’s both.
But not yet.
Not just yet.
He raised his eyes.
One hand slid behind Hans’s neck, drawing him in—
for a kiss—soft, searing, breathless.
Hans caught his face, pulling him closer. The kiss deepened, opened—but beneath the heat, something truer flickered: more than want alone.
Henry’s hands roamed over bare skin—waist, hips, thighs—but he kept close to Hans’s mouth. Hot lips, the slide of tongues, breathless laughter catching between kisses when they tipped, for a moment, into something playful—something sweet.
Then his mouth drifted to Hans’s jaw, to his throat—where the pulse beat quick and strong beneath soft skin.
And he looked up at him again.
Hans’s arousal pressed hard and burning against his thigh.
Henry tilted his face up, breath caught on a smile—fragile, stunned.
“You’re beautiful,” he whispered.
Hans’s breath faltered—his hands stilling for a heartbeat as his eyes met Henry’s. Something flickered there—raw, unguarded.
Then he moved, pulling Henry’s shirt over his head and letting it fall to the floor.
Then he smiled—faint, breathless—as his hand drifted down between them. Through the thin fabric he found him, fingers closing around heat and weight—
and a shiver ran through him at the touch.
Henry exhaled against his jaw, his hands heavy on Hans’s hips.
Hans’s fingers traced the edge of Henry’s hose—quick, unhesitating. The fine silk slid down without resistance. He freed him, fingertips brushing bare skin—hot, urgent—
and he quaked with need at the contact alone.
Henry’s breath hitched, his forehead resting against Hans’s temple, his hands still clutching at him—his hips pressing closer, fitted tight between Hans’s thighs.
“Come here,” Hans whispered, voice low and rough. He pulled him down onto the bed, mouth seeking Henry’s, fingers restless over bare skin that tensed and arched beneath every touch.
Henry breathed warm against his cheek, eyes half-lidded, his hands gliding over hips and belly, slipping beneath the open fall of Hans’s shirt—seeking the warmth of bare skin.
Hans let himself sink back onto the covers, his hands never still—touching, guiding, drawing him closer with every breath.
“Henry,” he whispered, voice catching as Henry’s mouth brushed along his throat, across his collarbone, then lower, lips soft where they found the rise of his chest.
Henry smiled against his skin, his teeth grazing lightly at the hollow of his collarbone, but still he didn’t rush. His hands slid beneath Hans—slow and careful—his thumbs tracing over his hips, down his thighs, his touch feather-light where bare skin quivered beneath it.
Hans caught his face between gentle hands and brought him back—another kiss, deeper, but still tender. Their hips moved together, breath quickening, but everything in him ached not just for the touch, but for him.
“I need you…” he breathed, soft as a prayer.
Henry gave a soft, breathless smile above him, his eyes dark, shining with warmth.
“You’ve no idea,” he murmured, barely more than a whisper, “how much I want you.”
He bent to him again, his mouth trailing kisses from jaw to throat, across his chest—hot lips, the soft graze of teeth, tongue lingering over every line, every curve.
Hans let out a shaky breath beneath him, his hands sliding into Henry’s hair, fingers twisting gently there as Henry’s mouth drifted lower—over his stomach, his hips, and down.
Henry knew exactly what he wanted.
One hand swept along Hans’s thigh, the other resting at his hip—
and then he pressed a soft, open-mouthed kiss to the hard heat of him.
At first it was just lips—feather-light, reverent—
then the slow drag of tongue, deliberate, hungry, drawing a breathless moan from Hans’s lips.
Hans arched, his head tipping back, hands still cradling Henry’s head—holding on to the one he loved.
Henry took his time. Every movement of his mouth, every brush of tongue, every sharp twitch of Hans’s hips teased something warm and breathless from deep inside him—tender in a way that burned deeper than anything raw could.
And when he felt Hans trembling beneath him, he lifted his eyes—mouth still slow, still hungry.
Every stroke, every soft press pulled breathless sounds from Hans’s throat.
Hans’s fingers curled tight in Henry’s hair, his hips quivering, breath catching—and still he held on. He didn’t want it to end. Not yet.
“God… Henry…” he gasped, voice breaking—half laughter, half need.
When his hips bucked again, sharper this time, he shivered and tugged gently at Henry’s hair, urging him to look up.
“If you don’t stop…” he managed between ragged breaths,
“I won’t last.”
Henry looked up at him—hair falling into his face, lips wet, eyes shining dark with desire.
Hans reached for him, drawing him close, hands guiding until their bare bodies met again in the heat of touch. Henry leaned over him, their foreheads brushing.
“I want you, love,” Hans whispered, breath soft against his skin.
Their mouths met—slower this time, deeper, unhurried.
When Henry drew back, his breath came hot, his cheeks flushed, his gaze steady despite the heat still burning in his eyes.
His fingers drifted over Hans’s chest, down the line of his belly, then slid beneath him—lifting him gently as he shifted to settle astride.
Hans lay back, watching him—eyes half-lidded, lips parted, breath uneven.
His hands glided along Henry’s sides, then down over his thighs and back again, slow and reverent. He smoothed over skin, held him, feeling every shift, every breath.
Henry’s fingers tightened on the bedcover, his knees braced to either side.
When his eyes lifted, they were soft—and full of something deeper than want.
Henry took Hans in hand and sank down onto him—slow, careful, steady with tenderness.
Hans let out a low, broken sound, breath catching sharp as Henry moved—his touch, his presence, everything about him deliberate and full of care.
For a moment, they stilled—held in that breathless space between one heartbeat and the next.
Henry’s hands rested over Hans’s chest, feeling the rapid thrum beneath his palms. His head was bowed, breath uneven, as if the weight of the moment pressed deeper than just body alone.
Hans kept hold of him—one hand gentle at his side, the other brushing up to cup his face. He lifted his eyes to him.
“You all right, love?” he whispered, voice soft, warm.
Henry’s lips curved—small, real—and he nodded, their eyes meeting in quiet understanding.
Hans drew him down into a kiss—slow, careful, lingering—a promise as much as a touch.
And when he lay back again, his hands never left Henry’s skin. They moved in tender strokes—over his chest, along his sides, mapping the warmth of him with reverence, holding him close with every shift and breath.
Their breathing steadied.
The rhythm began—slow, easy, unhurried—each movement less about urgency than about the need to be close, to be joined, to be held.
No words.
Only this: body to body, heart to heart.
Henry moved above him, hands braced on Hans’s thighs for balance, breath ragged, cheeks flushed, eyes half-closed—lost in sensation, in him.
Every slow roll of his hips was deep, fluid—his hands brushing over Hans’s skin as if he needed the contact as much as the rhythm itself. Every touch left its mark, every breath shared between them.
Hans let out a low moan, one hand sliding down to close around Henry—his strokes slick, slow, deliberate.
His thumb glided over the tip, his palm wrapping him firm, moving in time with the steady thrust of Henry’s hips as he sank down again and again.
Henry’s chest tightened, breath catching.
One hand clutched harder at Hans’s thigh; the other curled into a fist, pressed hard against his mouth as if he couldn’t contain it, as if the feeling was too much, too sharp, too close.
And still Hans touched him, teased him, every caress driving him higher, until the pleasure rose sharp and hot—coiling tight inside him, breathless and unbearable. His whole body tensed, muscles straining, shaking on the edge.
He bit down on his knuckles, desperate to stifle the moan clawing up his throat, his eyes squeezed shut—drowning in the rush of it, in the sheer, unbearable closeness of the man beneath him.
Hans’s gaze was heavy-lidded, his hands gripping him, guiding him, stroking him—each movement raw with need, every breath jagged and hot.
Henry shivered above him, his hips faltering, skin slick with sweat.
Droplets slid over his collarbones, down his chest, tracing the tight, quivering lines of muscle as pleasure knotted sharp and breathless inside him.
His fingers dug hard into Hans’s thighs, head tipping back, breath shattering, shoulders trembling with every frantic thrust.
Hans moaned—hoarse, desperate.
His body locked, hips slamming up as release tore through him—brutal, raw. His hands clutched at Henry’s waist, breath ripping from his lips in sharp gasps as tremors tore through him.
But he didn’t stop. Not for a moment.
Eyes glazed, hands still gripping him tight, his hips kept moving—slow, unrelenting, deep—while one hand slipped back between them, closing around Henry once more.
Henry moaned—high-pitched, unsteady—his fingers clenching hard. It was close—too close.
Hans’s touch was slick, steady, the roll of their hips matching the sure pull of his strokes.
Henry’s breath hitched, his whole body tensing as he fought the rush. His hips jolted, muscles taut, a muffled cry breaking loose. But he held on—barely—caught in the rising, unbearable heat.
Hans pushed up, dragged him down into a kiss—deep, fierce, their mouths colliding in breathless need.
Henry quaked, his hands gripping Hans’s shoulders, forehead pressed to his temple as their breath tangled, bodies locked tight.
And then it crashed through him—hard, searing, unstoppable.
Henry’s head fell back, a ragged cry ripping from his throat as his body snapped tight, shuddering hard in the crash of release.
Hans held him, hips still rocking through the aftershocks—slow, uneven—until Henry sagged against him, shivering, breathless, undone.
Hans felt the heat of Henry’s breath against his neck—uneven, gasping, his skin still quivering with the last tremors.
Henry stayed—boneless, wrecked—his face pressed to the curve of Hans’s throat, heartbeat hammering beneath sweat-slick skin. His body still twitched faintly, muscles tightening and loosening in soft, helpless aftershocks.
Hans held him close, both palms flat and steady on his back, his own breath catching as he pressed his face to Henry’s temple, their damp skin sliding together in the heat.
“I love you, Jindro,” he whispered, voice hoarse, wrecked with it.
“I love you. So much.”
Henry’s eyes closed. His hand drifted over the warm, sweat-damp stretch of Hans’s back, fingertips grazing the ridge of his spine, tracing him without thought—then he pressed a kiss to the hollow of his neck. Soft. Slow. The kind of kiss that asked for nothing, only gave.
They stayed like that—bodies still joined, breath slowing, the air thick with warmth, the faint sheen of sweat clinging to their skin.
Their hands kept moving—restless in the quiet—touching without urgency, without need, only for the sake of not letting go.
Eventually they lay down.
Naked, flushed, limbs heavy, skin sticky in places, their bodies still warm, still close.
Entwined.
Legs tangled, arms wrapped, Hans’s lips brushing through Henry’s hair, Henry’s palm resting over the steady rise and fall of Hans’s chest.
“Hans,” Henry mumbled sleepily.
“Can I fall asleep like this?”
“Sleep, love,” Hans whispered.
And pressed a kiss into his damp hair, holding him close as they drifted down into sleep.
In the morning, Henry rose early to keep his promise to Jitka and take her riding through the meadows and woods around Rattay.
The forest was calm. Only the brittle crack of twigs beneath their horses’ hooves and the distant call of a jay broke the stillness.
They rode side by side—Henry and Jitka—at an easy pace, without needless words.
“I almost didn’t dare hope you’d say yes,” Jitka said at last, her gaze fixed ahead.
“Sometimes it’s good to get out. Clears the head,” Henry answered.
Jitka smiled.
“Or maybe you were afraid the wolves would get me again.”
Henry glanced at her out of the corner of his eye, the first trace of a smile pulling at his lips.
“That would be a disgrace. Losing the future Lady of Pirkstein before you even get the chance to become one.”
She laughed—with a lightness that didn’t quite reach her eyes.
“I ought to thank you again. Now that I know who you are—and you know who I am.”
Henry shook his head.
“No need. Anyone would have done the same.”
“They wouldn’t,” she said simply.
For a while they rode on in silence. Hooves clicked over the stony path, sunlight filtering down through the branches.
They skirted Rattay through the woods until the view opened before them—Pirkstein, and the town beyond, bathed in the warm glow of the autumn sun.
Jitka pulled her horse to a halt and turned to Henry with a sudden spark in her eyes.
“Race me,” she said.
Henry blinked. “What—seriously?”
She smiled—brighter, livelier than he’d seen her before. “From here to that far tree line,” she pointed ahead. “Unless you’re afraid to lose.”
He huffed a soft laugh, but shifted in the saddle. “It’s not that,” he said. “I’d rather not have to explain to Sir Hans how his bride broke her neck under my watch.”
Jitka rolled her eyes. “I’ll be fine, Henry. I’ve been riding since before I could read.”
And before he could object again, she clicked her tongue and spurred her horse into motion—speeding off with a burst of laughter, her hair catching the wind like a banner.
“Christ above,” Henry muttered—and followed.
He urged his horse forward, hooves thundering over the grassy slope, but Jitka was fast. The distance between them stretched, her mount light and swift beneath her as if it barely touched the ground. Her laughter rang through the air—clear and unguarded.
By the time he caught up to her at the treeline, his breath was short and his heart pounding.
She reined in, breathless and flushed, eyes shining.
“I told you,” she teased, wiping a loose strand of hair from her face.
Henry shook his head, grinning despite himself. “You weren’t wrong,” he said. “That was impressive.”
She gave a little shrug, still catching her breath. “I’ve always loved riding. There’s nothing else like it.”
Henry’s smile softened—something unguarded passing through his face for the briefest moment.
“You remind me of him,” he said quietly, the words escaping before he could stop them.
Jitka glanced at him, her brows lifting.
“Hans?”
He nodded, his eyes dropping, voice lowering.
“Ay. He’s… the best rider I know.”
A breath.
“Always looks like he was born for it. Like the horse and the wind belong to him, somehow.”
A small, almost absent smile touched Henry’s lips as he added, without quite thinking:
“And… that’s when he looks happiest, I suppose.”
The words seemed to hang there—too soft, too true.
Jitka’s expression shifted. She looked away, her fingers brushing over the reins, something thoughtful in her face.
“Maybe that’s something we have in common,” she said softly after a pause.
“Liking the ride better than the place we’re meant to stop.”
Henry blinked, as if waking from a thought, and gave a faint nod.
“Maybe.”
A fragile quiet stretched between them.
For a while, they rode on without speaking, the only sounds the steady rhythm of hooves and the soft rustle of wind through the trees.
Then the forest gave way once more, the path opening onto a gentle slope with the town and Pirkstein spread out ahead.
“Shall we take a break?” Henry suggested.
Jitka nodded. They dismounted and sat side by side in the grass.
Wordlessly, they gazed at the castle before them.
“What’s Kunstadt like?” Henry asked after a moment.
Jitka smiled faintly, her expression thoughtful.
“The castle’s a bit larger than Pirkstein,” she said at last. “And not quite so buried in forests.”
“And do you like it here, in Rattay?” Henry went on.
Jitka lifted one shoulder and looked out ahead.
“Does it matter what I like?”
She lowered her eyes.
“Or what I want?” she added softly.
Henry cleared his throat.
“Sorry,” he said. “I didn’t mean to…”
“It’s all right, Henry,” she replied, offering him a tired smile.
“Since I was little, I’ve known I’d either end up a nun or a nobleman’s bride.” She shook her head.
“So this—” she tilted her chin toward Rattay, “this is what I was born for.”
She paused.
“And Hans Capon…”
Henry looked at her sideways.
“He’s a handsome man,” she went on thoughtfully, “and there’s plenty who’d gladly have him.”
Henry kept his eyes fixed on his hands.
For a heartbeat, unbidden, his mind drifted—
—to the night before.
To Hans, breathless beneath him, his body all sharp lines and flushed skin and the kind of beauty that had nothing to do with titles or names.
The way his eyes had looked up at him—unguarded, alight with something deeper, something more than desire.
A sharp breath escaped him. He dropped his gaze lower, his fingers brushing over the seam of his glove—seeking somewhere to anchor himself.
“And also,” she added, “he doesn’t seem like some drunken, skirt-chasing brat the way people like to say.”
Henry looked at her then.
“Because he isn’t, Jitka.”
She smiled at him.
“Ay, I remember you spoke well of him—though I suppose I couldn’t expect anything else from his right hand, could I?”
Henry shook his head.
“It’s not because I’m in his service… it’s not that,” he said, hesitating as he searched for the words.
“He’s… he’s fair. And he’s wise.”
His eyes fell to his hands again.
“And I don’t think I’ve ever met anyone so… so kind to the ones who have no luck, no power. The ones most people wouldn’t give a second glance.”
He lifted his eyes to her, a small smile touching his lips.
“And he’s clever. Funny too,” he added.
The smile stayed, but for a moment something shifted in his gaze—something deeper, heavier—before his eyes drifted back toward the castle.
Jitka studied his face for a while.
“You know… Henry…” she said at last, her tone thoughtful,
“I don’t think I’ve ever heard anyone speak like that… about their lord.”
Henry felt the heat rise in his face. He looked away, giving a faint, awkward laugh.
“Well—like you said. What else would you expect from his right hand?”
Jitka said nothing.
Henry brushed off his breeches.
“We ought to head back—after your last run-in with wolves, they might send out a search party for you, my lady,” he said with a quick grin.
The ride back was quiet.
They passed through Rattay, and Henry took his leave of her at the upper castle.
“Thank you, Henry,” she said. “It was a very pleasant morning.”
Henry gave a brief bow.
“The honour—and the pleasure—were mine.”
He hesitated, then added,
“Whenever you wish, my lady.”
Jitka gave him a polite nod, and disappeared into the castle.
Henry swung back into the saddle and turned his horse toward Pirkstein.
Toward Hans.
Toward home.
He stepped into his chamber, shrugged off his doublet, and stood for a moment, thoughtful. Then he drew the curtain aside and tapped lightly on the door hidden in the alcove.
It opened a moment later, and Hans stood there, a smile tugging on his lips.
“Well now—who’s this, dragged in by the Devil himself,” he murmured, though there was more love in his voice than anything else.
Henry stepped through into his chamber. They embraced, and their lips met in a kiss.
“So?” Hans prompted with a crooked smile.
“How was your morning meeting with Jitka?”
Henry crossed to the table and poured himself some wine.
“Better than I expected, actually.”
He raised the cup, glanced briefly at Hans, and sat beside him on the bed. His gaze drifted to the firelight.
“She’s… likeable. Clever,” he said at last.
He fell silent, fingertips tracing the rim of the cup.
“And… truthfully, I’m still a bit unsettled by it,” he added.
Hans looked at him, one brow slightly raised.
Henry gave a weak smile, with a bitter edge beneath it.
“I think… somewhere deep down, I was hoping she’d be different. That I could… not like her. So I’d make it easier on myself.”
“But instead… I just feel sorry for her.”
Hans let out a quiet breath, his gaze slipping sideways for a moment.
Then he shook his head, something gentle in his look.
“Well… seems we’ve got that in common.”
For a while they sat in silence. Henry took a sip of wine; Hans watched the firelight.
“You look tired,” Hans said, almost in a whisper.
Henry smiled, the corner of his mouth twitching in the hint of a laugh.
“Not really,” he murmured, shaking his head.
“It’s just… everything around us is happening so fast all of a sudden… and everything’s about to change.”
Hans gave a short, humourless laugh. He reached out, laying a hand on Henry’s thigh.
“We won’t change.”
Henry looked at him, the barest hint of a smile.
His hand slipped down over Hans’s, fingers closing around it.
They sat that way for a while longer, the silence peaceful, the fire crackling.
Henry’s fingertips traced absently over Hans’s palm—light, distracted, the kind of motion a man makes when there’s something on his mind he doesn’t quite know how to say.
“Hans…”
The words came low.
“When… when it happens.”
He paused.
“When the wedding comes…”
Hans turned to him slowly, his gaze calm. He waited.
“Do you want me there?” Henry asked.
Hans drew a deep breath, his gaze drifting aside for a moment. His fingers on Henry’s hand stayed still, save for a faint tightening.
“I do,” he said. “I’d want that very much.”
Henry exhaled, his eyes cast down.
“I… I don’t know which would be worse,” he admitted.
“Being there… watching you… or not being there, and not being close to you.”
His voice stayed steady—but something beneath it faltered.
Hans said nothing, but pressed a kiss to his temple.
“My wedding wouldn’t be right without the one I love,” he whispered.
Henry nodded, eyes closed.
Then he lifted his head, and there was more calm in his expression.
“All right,” he said. “I’ll be there.”
Hans smiled, his palm brushing along Henry’s cheek, thumb grazing lightly over the corner of his mouth.
Then he let out a breath of laughter—tired, but real.
“You’ll be the most important guest.”
Henry’s face lit up—this time even in his eyes.
“Will your family be there?”
“You mean besides my dear uncle Hanush?” Hans smirked.
“Probably. Some branch of the Lords of Leipa, I imagine. Maybe one of those who call themselves my cousins—though most of them have seen me twice, if that.”
He paused.
“Truth is… no one knows me the way you do.”
He breathed in deep.
“So for me it doesn’t much matter who’s there, so long as you are, Henry.”
Henry smiled—but something inside him tightened all the same.
A moment of silence passed.
“And what about Godwin?”
Hans looked up, with real warmth in his face.
“See—you’re right. I have to invite him. And a few others… from Devil’s Den. We should definitely invite them.”
Henry nodded.
“I’ll send a messenger tomorrow,” Hans said.
Henry fell quiet for a moment, his gaze dropping to the fire. His fingers brushed idly over Hans’s hand.
Then he looked up.
“But… why send a messenger?” he asked.
“Why couldn’t we go ourselves?”
Hans lifted his head, something bright sparking in his eyes.
“Now?”
Henry grinned.
“Why not? Everything’s settled, the wedding’s three weeks away… Is there anything holding you here?”
They looked at each other for a moment. Then Hans’s grin widened—bright, almost boyish.
“That’s a bloody brilliant idea,” he said. “To hell with it. Let’s do it.”
He laughed and ran his hand over Henry’s back.
“It’s a fair bit of road, though,” he added, his voice warmer.
“We should break the journey and stop at Foxburrow.”
Henry’s fingers tightened around Hans’s hand.
“I love you so much,” he said, the words breaking into a smile that brought light back into his eyes.
Hans held his gaze and kissed him.
“So then, my Henry,” he grinned.
“Tomorrow—just you, me… and Foxburrow.”
With gratitude to @playpausephoto, who sees like no one else.
From Fire – Part VIII
Veils and Mirrors
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It was colder than the day before. The light spilling through the window carried a pale, ashen hue. Not fog exactly, but something heavier — something no morning rising could shake off. Jitka was slipping into her overdress when a knock came at the door.
She wasn’t expecting anyone.
The door opened just a crack — the way her maid always did.
“My lady… you have a visitor.”
Jitka straightened slightly. “Who is it?”
“Your father.”
She stood still for a moment, her hand resting on the sleeve’s fabric. Then nodded. “Let him in.”
The door swung wide. Erhard stepped in slowly, nearly soundless. He wore a travelling coat, dark and damp near the hem. He didn’t smile. He simply stopped a few paces past the threshold and looked at her.
Behind them, the door closed. The hush of wood meeting wood was the last sound of the world outside.
They stood facing each other. Jitka noticed he didn’t know what to do with his hands. He kept them behind his back, like a man waiting to be received.
“Father,” she said softly. “I’m glad you made it.”
He gave a nod. His face didn’t change. Only one brow lifted, as if he’d meant to ask something — then let it go.
“Please, sit,” she offered, and walked to the chair across from him.
He lowered himself slowly, as though needing to be sure the invitation was real. The chair creaked faintly. Otherwise, the room held stillness.
For a while, neither of them spoke. Footsteps echoed faintly in the corridor beyond, muffled, as though everything outside this room was veiled in rough cloth. Jitka turned to him.
“Mother…?”
He raised his eyes. “She couldn’t come. Elishka’s taken ill again. She stayed behind with her.”
Jitka nodded. There was nothing else to say. Her sister often fell sick, and when the fever lasted longer than a day, their mother never strayed far.
Erhard shifted slightly, as though something had just come to him. He reached into the inside of his coat and searched a moment before drawing out a neatly folded letter. He held it out across the table.
“She wrote you a note.”
Jitka took it. The paper was soft, a little creased from travel, but the handwriting on the outer fold was familiar. She looked at it and ran her thumb gently along the edge.
“Thank you. I’ll read it later.”
Erhard gave another nod, as if that made perfect sense. Both things — that her mother had written, and that Jitka would wait.
After a moment, he drew his chair a little closer. It wasn’t clumsy — more careful than unsure. He rested both hands on his knees, then lifted one and took hers. Not tightly. Just enough for it to be there.
Jitka looked at him — surprised, and quietly grateful in a way that had no time yet to become words.
“You know,” he said slowly, “when I first heard from Botschek that he had arranged your marriage to Capon… I was pleased. That our house would be joined with such a notable name.”
Jitka gave a small, polite nod. “The lords of Pirkstein hold high standing indeed.”
He nearly interrupted — though there was no sharpness in it.
“But the more I thought on it…” He paused. “I truly hope it brings you happiness. And contentment. Not just the name.”
She looked at him again. This time without haste.
“Thank you for saying that, Father,” she said softly. “I’ll be a good wife to Capon. And a good daughter to the house of Kunstadt.”
He smiled. The first time since he entered. He leaned in, cupped her head gently in both hands, and kissed her brow. Quietly. Without hesitation.
Then he drew back. “I have business yet with Lord Hanush.”
Jitka rose as well. A small motion — graceful and unadorned.
“We shall see each other no later than tomorrow at the ceremony,” he added as he reached the door.
He didn’t wait for an answer.
She only nodded — and let him go.
She stood for a moment, thoughtful — then remembered the letter still in her hand. Sitting down, she opened it carefully and began to read her mother’s neat handwriting.
Dearest daughter,
Circumstances, alas, do not allow me to be present on the day when your fate shall be joined to that of Sir Hans Capon of Pirkstein. Still, through this letter, I send you my wishes for peace and composure at the threshold of your new station in life.
I am proud that you shall carry forward the tradition of good wives and mothers in our house — as I have endeavoured to do all my life. I know you will be a steadfast companion to your husband, an honour to his name, and a worthy representative of all that you were born from.
Do not forget, I pray, that your role is sacred and appointed by God. And that a woman’s happiness springs not from her desires, but from the faithful fulfilment of the duties entrusted to her.
May the Virgin Mary be your example, and your refuge.
Your mother
She sat still for a while, her eyes resting on the script long after the reading was done.
The words remained within her. Not as a surprise, but as something known. Expected. And still — they hurt. Though she could not quite say where.
A woman’s happiness springs not from her desires… she read again, this time only in her thoughts.
Slowly, she folded the letter and laid it on the table. Her hands remained a moment in her lap.
Then she rose — deliberately, almost too deliberately, so that it would not become hesitation.
Morning at Pirkstein was cold and dim. High beyond the window, a grey sky clung close to the rooftops, as if unwilling to shift so much as an inch. The chamber smelled of wax, wood, and leather — even that seemed sharper now, more strained than usual. Everything was in place, yet peace refused to follow.
Hans stood by the table with documents spread before him, while Mikush faced him with hands clasped behind his back — the way he always did when committing things to memory.
“The wine from Sasau will arrive before first light tomorrow,” Hans said. “Tell the guards to open the gate, even if they’ve just laid down to sleep.”
Mikush gave a nod.
“And at noon I’ll ride to Laurenz,” Hans added more quietly, as if to himself. Then he straightened. “I ought to check the hunting lodge now we’re without a gamekeeper. And you can take Lady Jitka around at your ease, without fear of an… ill-timed encounter.”
“As you command.” Mikush stepped towards the door, laid a hand on the latch, opened it a little — and stopped, mildly surprised.
Godwin stood on the threshold. He smiled in that way only he could — part apology, part mischief, as if glad for the chance to interrupt.
“May I?” he asked. “Just for a moment, if it’s no trouble.”
Hans nodded, still half lost in his thoughts.
“Come in.”
Mikush stepped aside, offered a slight bow, and vanished into the corridor. Godwin closed the door behind him and looked at Hans.
“Is it just me,” he said with a smile, “or are your doors getting quite the workout today?”
Hans gave a brief chuckle. His smile was weary, but not absent.
“There’s been a bit too much on my plate,” he said. “Though perhaps that’s for the best.”
Godwin leaned lightly against the doorframe and tilted his head.
“Hope you won’t mind if an old friend steals you away from duty for a moment,” he said. “And gives your thoughts a chance to slow down.”
Hans gave a silent nod. His gaze drifted to the scattered documents, then he pushed them aside, sat down at the table, and rested an elbow on the wooden surface. With a small motion of his head, he gestured to the second chair.
Godwin took the seat. For a while, he said nothing — just watched Hans, as if weighing him with his eyes.
“How do you feel?” he asked at last. “Are you ready for tomorrow?”
Hans paused. He searched for an answer, and then realised he might not fully know it himself. He gave a small shrug.
“I suppose so,” he said. “But I doubt it matters. I won’t be any more ready, or better prepared, than I am now.”
Godwin gave a slow, steady nod. Then he leaned in a little.
“I would have you know one thing,” he said, voice lowered. “You are not alone in this. Nor shall you be tomorrow.”
Hans looked up at him. His face held fast, but his eyes, for the briefest moment, turned glassy with distance. He drew breath through his nose and let it out in a hush, barely heard.
“Thank you,” he said. “Today… I felt it again. That hollow place. After so long. Buried deep. The one left behind by my parents. I don’t remember them — not even a little. But sometimes I wonder how they might see me now. If they were still alive.”
Godwin set a hand to his shoulder, firm and warm.
“And still,” he said, “you give them your thoughts. That makes you a good son, Hans. And they would have known it.”
Hans lowered his gaze. The silence between them settled, not heavy, but close.
At length, he looked back at Godwin.
“I don’t know what tomorrow will bring,” he said, barely above a whisper. “Nor the days that follow. I don’t know how I’ll carry it. What it will do to me. Because… I kept hoping he’d be there. At my side.” He faltered. “With Henry, we never had anything certain. But when he was near… somehow, it always came right. We made it right. Because we did it together.”
He turned away, his gaze drifting into the void.
“Right now I feel like a boat cut loose,” he said. “Taken by the current. And it keeps going faster.”
Godwin remained silent. There was no pity in his eyes — only a deep, attentive stillness, like a man listening not just for words, but for the tremor that runs beneath them.
“I wish I had some words of comfort,” he said at last. “But the truth is, the path… the course through that current that’s pulling you — only you can find it. And I believe you will. I know you well enough to trust in that.”
Hans gave a small shake of his head. Not in refusal — more like a quiet gesture from someone not yet ready to accept it.
Godwin reached into his coat. He searched for a moment, then drew out a small pouch and gently tipped its contents into his palm — a worn metal medallion, modest and dulled by time. He placed it into Hans’s hand.
“Saint Jude Thaddeus,” he murmured. “Patron of the desperate. Of those who have nowhere left to turn.”
Silence followed. The still grey hush of a castle morning.
Hans turned the medallion slowly between his fingers. He nodded.
Godwin blinked, brushed his hands on his knees, and rose.
“I ought to go find Zizka,” he said. “We’d agreed on a ride around the valley this morning.”
He stepped toward the door, but Hans stopped him.
“Godwin…”
He turned.
“Tomorrow morning… I’d be grateful if I could give my confession to you.”
Godwin looked at him for a long moment. His eyes held calm — and resolve.
“It would be my honour,” he said.
Hans nodded.
And Godwin turned and left.
That morning, Jitka awaited the final fitting of her wedding gown. Her maid, Zdislava, and a seasoned seamstress worked in measured quiet, broken only by the hush of silk drawn through fingers, and the faint murmur of agreement.
The gown was of heavy silk, with the faintest pearlescent sheen. It did not gleam. It whispered with light, like water catching the first breath of dawn. It fell from her shoulders to the floor in a single, solemn cascade, tracing each motion with a grace that seemed to know her path before she took it.
Along the sleeves — long enough to graze her fingertips — a vine of embroidery wound its way in delicate stitches. A symbol of lineage, of fruitfulness… and of womanly honour, as her mother had once said. A slender girdle cinched her waist — more of remembrance than ornament. The veil, light as air, drifted down her back, held in place by a circlet threaded with pale pearls.
She knew the gown was beautiful. Discreet, dignified. It was precisely what was expected of the bride of Pirkstein.
And yet, when she looked into the mirror, her breath caught.
The woman in the glass wore her features — but they felt borrowed. She was the figure conjured when someone spoke a name and a title. A well-placed daughter. A promised wife. A future lady of a house.
And though part of her wanted to stand tall in that image, another — quieter, more stubborn — longed to draw off the veil, slip from the gown, and become again, if only for a heartbeat, simply Jitka. A young woman in a blue riding dress.
Behind her, Zdislava straightened the veil at her crown. Then stepped back, silent, and watched her for a while.
“You look like a true angel, my lady,” Zdislava breathed at last.
Jitka gave a soft laugh and turned her head. “Zdislava… after all these years, you should know flattery doesn’t work on me.”
“That wasn’t flattery,” she said calmly. “It’s the truth. I’ve never seen anything so beautiful.”
A faint smile crossed her lips, lighter this time. “And I daresay Lord Capon might just lose his footing when he sees you.”
Jitka looked at her. “You truly think so?”
Zdislava nodded. “I do. You look… well, exactly as a lady of a great house ought to.”
Jitka turned back to the mirror. But it wasn’t the dress she was seeing — it was the expression on her face.
“It’s strange,” she said after a pause. “Every time we met, I never once had the sense that he looked at me… in that way. Not as you say.”
“That’s because he’s a nobleman,” Zdislava replied without hesitation. “And he knows better than to gawk at a lady.”
Jitka smiled, but there was no mirth in it. “Ay… Lord Capon is very proper. More so than I expected. More than his reputation would suggest.”
Zdislava studied her a moment longer. Then she tucked a strand of hair behind her ear.
“And for all that, the young lord is a fine-looking man besides.”
Jitka turned to her sharply, feigning severity. “Zdislava! That’s hardly proper talk.”
But the corners of her mouth gave her away — and after a moment, almost against her own will, she nodded.
Then she looked at her maid again, with a different gleam in her eye.
“And truly… I wouldn’t be surprised if you’d cast a glance or two at his aide. That one’s handsome too. Perhaps even more than his master.”
Zdislava flushed crimson and bent quickly over the veil, pretending to adjust something.
Jitka laughed — bright and open, the laugh of someone who, just for a moment, forgot she was meant to be composed.
“Don’t fret, I’m only teasing,” she said gently.
Then she glanced at the mirror one last time. Met her own eyes, just for a breath.
“Now let’s take it off… before I manage to crease all this splendour before the morrow.”
Pavel’s fingers trembled slightly as he fumbled with the heavy gilt chain, trying to fasten it across Hans’s shoulders. He secured the final clasp, stepped back, and gave a quiet nod. Hans stood motionless a moment longer, then moved half a step forward, fixing his gaze on the mirror.
It was exactly as it should be. As it was meant to be.
The doublet — sky-blue, cut from heavy velvet — shimmered only where the light caught it. The gold stitching was delicate, nearly invisible, but each thread bore the weight of craft. The garment fit without fault. There was stillness in it, and strength; measure and command. A black houppelande draped from his shoulders down to his ankles, hemmed with the same embroidery worn by the men of House Pirkstein for generations. The collar framed his neck like stone, firm and unbending. At the waist, a broad belt gleamed with threadwork, the leather dark, the buckle gold.
His hose matched in tone — close-fitting, with discreet black embroidery at the calves. The boots were firm, almost seamless, precise to the touch. On one finger, a heavy ring. Across his chest, the golden chain. Not a mere adornment — a vow.
Hans stood silent. His hands were loose at his sides, his breath steady. All was in its place.
And still, it told him nothing of what tomorrow would bring.
He looked into the mirror. He saw himself — and the line. Generations of men in a single face, in a single rich garment. And on the shoulders of that one man, all the weight and duty of the name he bore.
Hans drew a slow breath. He turned to Pavel.
“Do I look like the Lord of Pirkstein?” he said with a smile.
Pavel nodded — and only then seemed to notice his mouth had fallen open in awe.
“You may go, Pavel,” Hans said gently.
The door clicked shut behind him. Hans remained alone — the mirror before him.
He looked at his reflection.
“Quite the sight, Lord Capon,” he murmured. And allowed himself a faint smile.
He turned a little to the side, caught his profile, then raised his hands and drew the coat open. His gaze dropped. The fabric of his hose clung to him — every line drawn, every curve made clearer. Every inch of those long legs — and where they met.
He shook his head, still smiling. He could picture it — the way Henry always faltered when his eyes landed there, like breath caught somewhere in his throat. Not that he often said it aloud… but Hans had come to know that look. Just as he knew that strange quickening in himself whenever he glimpsed Henry’s chest, his arms, his hands — or really, anything at all.
Henry would have said something now, surely. With that roguish smile of his — the one that always gave him away before the words had time to settle. Something like how Hans looked best when wearing nothing at all.
Hans let his eyes drift past the mirror, toward a distance that no longer belonged to the room. Then he raised a hand to his chest. Through the doublet, his fingers found a small pendant, hidden beneath the shirt, where no one could see it.
For a heartbeat, his eyes darkened with sorrow. He smiled again — but it was no smile of joy. There was shadow in it, weariness, and something else that no longer waited for an answer.
He let out a long breath, shook his head, and began — slow and careful — to take off the wedding garb.
It was already past noon when Jitka arrived at Pirkstein to see the chamber prepared for her. She knew Hans would be away from the castle at that hour — deliberately so. It would not be proper for bride and groom to meet the day before the wedding. The task of receiving her fell to Mikush.
He led her down the corridor to the door of her new chamber, opened it, and stepped aside in silence, allowing her to enter first.
“Everything was arranged on Master Henry’s instructions,” he said as she stepped through.
The room was bright and spacious. The windows were framed by new drapes of heavy cloth — wine-red, edged in gold — swaying softly in the draft. The walls had been freshly lime-washed, pale cream and spotless, as befitted a newly wedded lady. On a chest near the wall lay folded coverlets, beside them a pillow trimmed with fine lace. Two new chairs stood by the hearth, their upholstery untouched.
At the heart of the room stood a bed — newly built, wide and solid, with a carved headboard and a coverlet in the colours of Pirkstein. It looked comfortable. It looked enduring.
Jitka looked around in silence. Everything had been arranged with care, with taste, without excess. It was clear that every detail had been considered. And yet — as she stood there, joy did not come. Only weight.
This was where she would live. Where her mornings would begin, her nights would end. Her marriage. Her silence.
“It’s beautiful,” she said at last. “Very well done. Thank you, Mikush.”
He smiled and gave a small bow. “The credit belongs more to Master Henry than to me. He… he gave all the instructions himself. And Lord Capon oversaw it to the end.”
Jitka nodded. “Then I hope I’ll be able to thank them both — in person, and soon.”
They stood a moment longer. Then Mikush drew breath, remembering. “There’s a chamber prepared for your maid as well — just around the corner, a few steps down the hall.”
“Thank you,” Jitka replied.
She turned back to the room, as though to take in its shape once more — before it became a place full of things, of habits, of life.
“I’ll be at your service from tomorrow on, my lady,” Mikush added as he made for the door.
“I know,” she said simply. “And I’m grateful.”
Hooves sounded at the gate of Foxburrow. Dust rose from the road, mingling with the scent of damp grass and rotting leaves. The sky had stayed clouded since morning — not quite cold, but suspended in that grey, untimed hush of an afternoon that would never quite turn to light.
Foxburrow stood where it always had. Solid, still, brooding — a house that had seen everything, and nothing. But it felt different. Or perhaps Hans did — within it.
The days and nights they had spent here, only weeks ago, already felt like an echo. A memory from another time. From another version of the world.
He dismounted, patted the horse’s neck, and left it beneath the shelter. He made for the door — then paused. Instead, he turned alongside the building, passed the forge, and walked behind it.
In the grass, the remains of their aqueduct still lay scattered. Bits of branch, pine bark, splinters of the channel they had built together. So much work. So much laughter. So much of them in it.
Hans bent down and began to gather the pieces, one by one. He held each in his hands for a moment, as if weighing it. Then placed it behind the forge wall, where the rain wouldn’t reach. He worked with care — not for order’s sake, but because it felt right.
When he finished, he brushed his hands off on his breeches. For a moment, he looked at the strips of pine bark, still fragrant, then turned back toward the house.
Inside, everything was as it should be. Everything in its place. Everything at peace.
Hans added a few logs to the hearth and lit the fire. The flames caught quickly. Soft light spread through the room, brushing against the walls as if returning home. Warmth followed — slow, unassuming, just like before.
He sat down on the bench, close to the fire. This was where they used to sit. Sometimes leaning against Henry, sometimes with Henry in his arms. Sometimes quiet, weary, and sometimes caught in laughter that wouldn’t stop for anything. And sometimes… sometimes the kisses turned into something more. Bodies drawn close, hunger spilling from fingertips into footsteps that carried them — hastily, breathlessly — toward the bedchamber.
And sometimes… they never made it that far.
Hans bowed his head and watched the fire.
What he wouldn’t give to have it all back.
What he wouldn’t give to feel Henry now — drowsy in his arms, breath soft, arms around his waist.
He had no sense of how long he sat there, lost in thoughts, in memories. No measure of how long it took the logs in the hearth to burn down and fall to ash.
At last he rose, walked through the house one more time — and rode away.
That evening, Jitka stepped out onto the ramparts of the upper castle. It hadn’t been planned. She had simply needed to leave the chamber for a while — the one where her gown already lay folded and waiting. She needed a moment alone.
The stone walkway was cold and empty. Her steps echoed hollowly as she made her way to the battlement. She set her hands upon the ledge and looked down.
Not toward the landscape — but toward the lower castle. Toward Pirkstein. Toward what would soon be her home. And her husband.
There were still lights in the courtyard below. Small glows in the windows, movement across the yard — a distant hush of life. The wind lifted her veil, brushing it gently from her shoulder. She caught it with her fingers and drew it back.
She stood still. The chill of the stone seeped into her palms, but she did not let go.
She found herself wondering what it would be like. Not tomorrow. But after. And after that. And onward.
Did she miss home? Perhaps. But she had always known this would come. She was one daughter among many, and daughters are given away. They leave the house, take on another name, other customs. Other days.
She closed her eyes for a moment, then opened them again. The evening chill slipped down her arms.
The questions came softly.
Would she be happy?
Would she find peace?
And what would he do… when he knew?
That question had lived in her longest.
Not always in the light, but never far.
Some truths did not fade — they waited.
Until the moment they were no longer secrets, but sentences.
She placed her hands over her belly. A gesture born of restlessness, shapeless but present.
She had lived long enough to know that peace came not from fairy tales, but from quiet choices. From what one bore — and chose not to say.
The man below… had always treated her with respect. His words were measured, his attention constant. But never — not once — had he looked at her the way a man does when he longs.
And still, she held no resentment for it.
He had seemed courteous. And kind. Perhaps too much so.
Perhaps… in his own way, a little sorrowful.
When they spoke, he was there. And yet, it felt as though some small part of him remained elsewhere.
And perhaps — just perhaps — she wasn’t the only one carrying something unsaid.
She lifted her gaze to the darkening sky, quiet and still. Then turned, descended from the ramparts, and made her way toward the chapel.
The sun had already dipped below the horizon by the time Hans reached the battlements of Pirkstein. Only a pale streak of light remained in the sky, fading by the minute. The wind was quiet, but cold — the kind that doesn’t announce itself, only brushes the nape of the neck with a chill.
He stopped at the farthest edge. One palm rested on the stone parapet as he gazed out across the sea of forest, southward.
Somewhere out there — far off — was Vienna.
He stood a long while, as if hoping to see more than the contours of the land. Then spoke softly. To him. To himself.
“You said you didn’t know which would be worse,” he murmured. “Being there… and watching me marry. Or not being there at all.”
He fell silent. Drew in a breath, deep and steady, but did not look away.
“And still you should’ve been there. We both knew it.”
The hush settled around him like a veil. Somewhere in the trees, birds were quarrelling over the day’s last morsels.
“I don’t know how I’ll manage tomorrow,” he said, eyes gleaming with tears. “Not seeing you. Not searching for your face in the crowd. Not seeing in your eyes… that it hurts. But that it changed nothing between us. Nothing about who we are to one another.”
He placed his hand on the stone. Not hard. Just enough to feel he was holding on to something.
“If you were there… I’d know we could bear it. That we’d endure.”
The wind touched his cheek, as if it meant to speak but then thought better of it.
“Where are you, Henry?” he whispered. “Where will you be tomorrow, when…”
He rubbed at his temple with his fingers.
His eyes returned to the horizon — damp, sorrowful.
“Just come back to me. That’s all.”
He swallowed.
“I love you.”
He turned and slowly walked the length of the battlements toward the stairs. When he stepped into the corridor, his feet carried him to the castle chapel.
In another chapel — larger, grander, near the upper keep — candles were burning. Their flickering light painted shifting shadows across the walls, softening the outlines of the frescoes as though trying to turn them into dreams. The darkness here was not heavy. It breathed — like a curtain drawn between worlds.
Jitka stepped inside slowly and closed the door behind her. Her footsteps echoed softly on the stone floor, as befitted a place of prayer.
She had always liked this chapel. It felt more like a small church — vaulted ceiling, arched windows, walls covered with saints and fragments of sacred scenes. Now, in the candlelight, everything seemed alive and distant at once.
She paused and looked around. Her eyes settled on the Virgin Mary with the Christ child, her gaze turned quietly to the ground. It was an image of motherhood, of love, humility — and strength. More than words.
She made her way to the altar, knelt, bowed her head, and folded her hands.
Holy Mary… I ask you, hear my prayer.
I pray for my mother, who could not be with me today. Grant her strength and peace of heart. I pray for Elishka — let her be healed. For my father. For the whole of our house, which I shall leave behind tomorrow.
I pray also for Lord Hans. Guard him, and guide him upon the road we are to walk together.
And then, I pray… guide me as well.
Grant me mercy for the things I cannot undo.
Grant me grace for what I carry still.
You know the truth already. Help me live with it — and not let it turn to shame.
Show me the path I should take. Grant me the strength to be a good Christian, faithful and humble. Teach me to bear my duties with patience — and quiet courage.
When the day comes when I no longer feel sure, when fear comes, when only silence remains in my heart… do not leave me. Help me find peace. And remind me that every path holds meaning, even when I cannot yet see it.
Grant that I may be the wife I am meant to be. That I may learn to love — even if love does not come easily.
That I may know when to be still. And when to be strong.
And grant that I may never lose myself.
Holy Mary… I ask you. Lead me.
She was silent a moment longer.
Then she lifted her head.
In the chapel at Pirkstein, the silence was heavy.
Hans knelt, clasped his hands, and bowed his head. Candles burned. The air was cold — stone-cold, damp. Everything else was left beyond the walls.
For a long time, he said nothing.
“Lord…
You know what lies before me. What tomorrow brings. I do not ask You to change it. I only ask… forgive me.
I will take a vow before men. Before You. I will pledge what must be pledged. I will protect her. I will honour her.”
But my heart… I gave it elsewhere.
Not in sin. Not out of defiance. But for love.
If that love is clean — receive it.
If it is true, do not let it be shame.
You know there is no pride in it, no falsehood.
I beg You, Lord — watch over my wife.
Let her be granted light, and peace, and dignity.
Let her never carry a weight she does not share.
I will give her all that I can.
And guard the one who holds my heart.
The one who bore it when I fell.
Who now walks alone, far from me.
Be his strength, where I cannot stand beside him.
Be the path that brings him home.
Be our light. Even where no witness walks but You.”
Hans lifted his head. He did not know that, at that very moment, it was his bride-to-be who was raising her eyes to the Virgin Mary — in the chapel of the upper castle.
Nor did he know that, just as he did, she had also breathed a quiet “Amen.”
Hans between light and shadow. Perfectly captured through the eyes — and the heart — of @playpausephoto.
From Fire – Part XIII
Stakes Ascendant
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Water slipped from the eaves in slow, uneven strands.
Drops drummed softly against the beams, vanishing into the thawing snow below — one by one.
The ground beneath lay dark and heavy, loosened to mud. Somewhere lower down, the meltwater gathered into a narrow trickle at the edge of the clearing — a quiet thread of sound winding its way away.
It was enough to disturb the silence of the bare woods.
Henry opened his eyes halfway.
Sunlight pierced the shutters in thin, slanting strips, laying soft, blurred seams across the floor.
The air was damp, close — scented with wet wood and the faint smoke of a fire that had burned itself out sometime in the night.
Hans lay behind him, face pressed into Henry’s shoulder, his breath warm and slow.
Henry didn’t move. Didn’t want to.
For a moment he let himself drift — into the warmth between them, into the slow shadows sliding along the wall. Then he reached back and found Hans’s hand. Laced their fingers. Gave a quiet squeeze.
Hans stirred, barely — more in sleep than waking.
He leaned closer, pressed his brow to the curve of Henry’s neck, brushed his nose against his skin. Mumbled something indistinct, breathed out, and gathered himself nearer still.
Henry smiled into the pillow.
They stayed like that for a while, time moving differently here.
Outside, water dripped from the roof, steady and soft. Somewhere far off, a woodpecker knocked against bark — quick, hollow taps.
At last Hans rolled over — slow, lazy — until Henry was on his back and Hans braced above him on one elbow.
His hair was tousled, falling into his face, his eyes half-lidded with sleep.
For a moment he only looked at Henry — as if realising just now that he was awake.
“You’re grinning,” he murmured at last.
Henry cracked his eyes open. “I’m not,” he said softly. “Just… smiling.”
Hans gave a soft breath of laughter and rested his forehead against Henry’s shoulder.
“Hope that’s because of me.”
Then he leaned back, letting his palm drift across Henry’s chest — idle, unthinking.
Henry didn’t resist. Turned his head instead and pressed a slow kiss into Hans’s hair.
“We should get moving,” he whispered after a while — but neither of them shifted.
Hans smiled against his skin.
“We can,” his voice rough with sleep, “whenever we choose.”
A pause. “So… not yet.”
Light spilled wider across the floor, the drip from the eaves steady and sure, while the woods beyond the yard lay hushed and heavy, steeped in thaw.
They stayed like that a little longer, neither of them moving.
Only silence. The drops. Their breathing.
Henry opened his eyes and watched the sunlit shapes crawl slowly over the boards.
“I miss mornings like this in Rattay,” he murmured. “Even when we sleep together there… it’s different. Noise. People…”
He lifted a shoulder, as if no words would quite do. “Here it feels… ours.”
Hans’s mouth curved. “We’ll come back soon.”
For a moment he said nothing, then his voice dropped, quieter, rougher.
“Though honestly, I don’t care where I wake. So long as you’re the first thing I see.”
Henry turned his head towards him, a faint smile catching at the corner of his mouth.
He rolled over — slow, unhurried — until Hans was beneath him.
Braced himself on his elbows, met his gaze, as though memorising it. Then leaned in, brushed a gentle kiss, and drew back just enough to look again.
“Like this?” he whispered.
Hans’s grin was lazy, playful. His hand slid lower, across Henry’s bare arse.
“Almost exactly like this.”
Henry bent closer, his voice low and rough at Hans’s ear.
“We’ll get to everything.”
Then his lips traced down his neck, warm breath spilling over skin, until Hans shivered beneath him.
For a while longer they stayed tangled in silence, reluctant to yield to the day.
But the light on the floor crept stronger, and the drip from the roof grew louder as the snow gave way to warmth.
At last Hans stretched — long, slow, like a cat — then turned on his side, reaching for the shirt folded neatly over the chest by the wall.
Henry caught his wrist first, pulled him back into the blankets.
“No hurry,” he said softly.
Hans let out a quiet laugh and allowed himself to sink back down, his palm spreading over Henry’s chest, fingertips drifting along his collarbone, as if he might stay there forever.
But after a moment he sighed, sat up.
“We should get going before the roads turn to mire.”
He glanced towards the window, where sunlight already shone off wet patches beneath the eaves.
Henry rose more slowly.
He crossed to the chest, pulled a clean shirt over his head and slung a linen tunic across his shoulder.
For a moment he stood barefoot on the damp-cool boards, gaze wandering out the window.
The meadow beyond the yard was dark, sodden, softened underfoot, snow breaking into wet clumps where it lingered.
Only a few ragged scraps of white clung to the branches now, and the woods beyond dissolved into a pale grey mist.
The air was different than just days before — wetter, rawer, heavy with melt.
“The way back will be slow,” he said under his breath.
“All the better,” Hans threw in, reaching for his belt.
“Gives us reason to take it slower still.
Might as well enjoy it before Rattay claims us again.”
Henry smiled faintly, said nothing.
He crossed back instead, bent down, and pressed a soft kiss into Hans’s hair before reaching for his own coat.
Mutt greeted them with a low, pleased rumble, stretching out, unhurried, before letting out a jaw-cracking yawn.
Hans tossed him the last scrap of bread from supper; the dog snapped it from the air and set to chewing with quiet determination.
Outside, the sun hung low, but the day was already bright.
The sound of thaw was everywhere — drops falling from eaves, from branches, from stones warmed in the yard.
The air was thick with scents: wet wood, damp grass, the slush of melting snow mingling with the faint smoke still drifting from the chimney.
It was time to leave — but they didn’t hurry.
They drained the tub in case frost came back.
Brought up the remaining venison from the cellar, packed it carefully onto the horses.
Walked the yard one last time, checked everything, barred the doors.
Then they stood by the saddled mounts.
Foxburrow lay silent.
Hans let his gaze wander — roof, woodshed, well — until it met Henry’s.
A brief smile.
The faintest brush of fingers.
And then only leather, stirrups, the breath of horses.
When they set off, the pace was slow.
Hooves sucked softly at the damp snow, and puddles along the track glimmered with cold morning light.
Foxburrow slipped behind them, past the trees, until the house vanished into the pale grey veil of mist.
The air carried the wet smells of thawing wood and leaves rotting beneath the snow.
Now and then it leaned into the branches, shaking loose small showers of water.
Hans and Henry rode side by side.
Mutt padded a little behind, his paws landing softly in the horses’ tracks.
Every so often he stopped to sniff the air, nose lifting, head turning, then bounded forward again, tail carving lazy arcs through the damp light.
The forest lay bare and dripping, open to a haze where thin shafts of sun pierced through.
Silence mingled with the soft patter of melt and the distant murmur of streams waking beneath the snow.
Neither of them spoke.
They were still half-caught in what they’d left behind —
Foxburrow’s hush, the warmth of the bedchamber, the unhurried morning.
The ride carried its own rhythm: the gait of the horses, the dripping from the branches, the sudden gusts that brushed cold against their faces.
Henry straightened in the saddle, letting his gaze drift along the road ahead.
“What’s the plan once we’re back?”
Hans glanced sideways at him.
“First thing’s finding out what’s new. If anything’s stirring in the castle or the town. And whether there’s trouble waiting that we’ll have to handle straight off.”
Then his mouth curved faintly.
“My guess is Mikush is the one most eager to see you. After all this time, he’ll be glad not to do everything in your stead.”
Henry gave a low chuckle. “I can imagine how many times he’s cursed me.”
He paused, thoughtful.
“But I’m looking forward to it, truth be told. The ordinary duties… a bit of certainty, a bit of quiet. Not as thrilling as missions — but a good deal less dangerous.”
Hans smirked.
“True enough. And if nothing pressing comes up, maybe we can finally breathe for a while. Get the castle ready for winter, while there’s still time.”
Henry nodded.
“Wood, stores, repairs. I look forward to work where no one’s waving a blade in my face.”
Hans adjusted the reins, watching him for a moment with a strange, unreadable look.
“God’s witness, Henry — I’m not letting you ride off alone again.”
A sharp exhale.
“That last venture of yours… was too much.”
Henry shook his head with a quiet smile, offering no reply.
For a while they rode without speaking.
The woods around them lay damp and silent, wind nudging the branches and shaking down fine sprays of meltwater.
“And Hanush?” Henry asked at last, eyes still forward.
“What now… since he’s refused to hand over the inheritance?”
Hans shook his head, shrugged.
“I don’t know. Honestly — I don’t know what to expect from him anymore. Especially after ignoring him when I rode out to Nikolsburg after you.”
He hesitated, then shook his head again.
“No telling what game he’s playing now.”
Henry glanced at him.
“You think he might try something… harmful?”
Hans sighed, more to himself than to Henry. “I don’t know.”
He straightened in the saddle, eyes fixed ahead.
“Best I pay him a visit once we’re back. Find out where things stand.”
A smile touched his lips — thin and joyless.
“Though I’d sooner swallow a frog.”
Henry turned to him, reached over and brushed the back of his fingers against Hans’s thigh.
“You’ll manage.”
But then the corner of his mouth tilted.
“And back at Suchdol, you’d have been glad enough to eat one for supper.”
Hans looked at him, startled — then burst out laughing.
Henry joined in, and for a time they rode on with their laughter snatched by the wind. Drops falling from the branches all around.
Hans wiped the corners of his eyes with the back of his hand and drew a breath.
“I’ll stop by the upper castle the moment we arrive. Best to get it over with.”
He cast Henry a sideways glance, a faint tug of a smile at his lips.
“You can ride ahead to Pirkstein. I wager they’re more curious to see you than me.”
Henry grinned.
“Just as well — gives them time to hide the wine and the light skirts before their lord shows up.”
Hans barked a laugh.
“Let’s hope I still find you sober by the time I catch up.”
They left the bare fields behind, rode past the woods above Rattay — and the upper castle opened before them.
Its stone walls lay darkened with damp, roofs stripped of snow, rutted paths glistening beneath the pale wash of afternoon light.
The wind carried with it the smells of smoke, wet earth, and dung.
At the gate came the ringing of hammers, shouted orders, the sharp bark of dogs, the hollow clatter of wheels on stone.
Below, Rattay stirred with its own restless life — traders calling out prices, men hauling sacks of grain, carts creaking into courtyards, chimneys spilling thick, biting smoke into the sky.
Hans drew his horse to a slower pace, running a hand over the wet line of its mane.
“This is where we part ways.”
He glanced at Henry, the corner of his mouth tilting faintly.
“Try not to wander off before I find you again.”
Henry’s smile curved brief and dry. “Good luck with Hanush.”
Hans gave a soft snort. “I’ll need it.”
Henry nudged his horse down the slope, Mutt bounding after him, paws splashing in the mud.
The town was loud and smeared with filth.
Men heaved crates and rolled barrels from wagon beds; thresholds were scrubbed, wet logs chopped down into splintered kindling.
Everywhere, mud.
Boots caked in it, puddles bursting underfoot.
The air was heavy — damp grass, dung, the raw tang of resin, smoke drifting low while pale beams of sunlight broke through the ragged clouds overhead.
From time to time, a passing glance lingered on him, but no one stopped, no one asked.
Henry felt the weight of being back — yet the town moved around him, as if it breathed on without him.
At the far end of the main street, past a curve in the road, Pirkstein came into view.
Walls dark and damp, wet roofs gleaming faintly in the sun.
Smoke from the chimneys curled low and hung in the air, thick enough to taste.
When Henry rode beneath the castle gate, noise and laughter met him in the yard.
In the churned mud of the courtyard, Godwin, Janosh, and Kubyenka were struggling — and failing — to heave a toppled barrel upright.
Boots slipping, shoulders straining, hands slick with mud.
Every effort ended in another stagger, another laugh.
Henry watched them for a moment, amusement softening his face.
“Need a hand with that?” he called out.
All three turned — and froze where they stood.
“Henry!”
Kubyenka was already running to him, Godwin close behind, Janosh a step after.
Henry swung down from his horse, barely finding his footing before Kubyenka clapped him hard between the shoulders and Godwin pulled him into a short, fierce embrace.
“Thank God,” Godwin breathed against his ear. “You’re back. And in one piece.”
He stepped back, narrowing his eyes as though checking for cuts and bruises, then lifted his brows.
“And where’s Hans? Tell me you two didn’t trade places, that we won’t be missing him now instead.”
Henry laughed.
“His lordship is stopping by the upper castle. He’ll be along in a moment.”
He nodded toward the barrel.
“Come on, before you lot break your backs.”
Together they took hold of the rim and, on three, heaved it upright with a wet thud.
“What’s in it anyway?” Henry wiped his palms against his trousers.
“Beer,” Kubyenka grinned, his eyes bright.
“And we’ll be needing it tonight — now that the two of you are back.”
From the doorway leading into the living wing, Jitka appeared.
She halted when she saw him, and her face lit with an open, unguarded smile.
Henry inclined his head lightly.
“My lady.”
She laughed, shaking her head.
“Coming from you, my lady will always sound strange.”
Stepping closer, her gaze softened for a moment.
“I’m glad you’re back, Henry. And safe.”
The sound of hooves came before they could say more.
Henry turned just as Hans’s horse tore through the gate, flinging up clods of wet mud.
Hans slowed, guiding the animal onto the yard, and gave Henry a nod.
“He wasn’t there,” was all he said as he swung down from the saddle.
Jitka moved toward him, hesitated half a step, then brushed her fingers lightly against his sleeve.
“Finally home, Hans,” she said softly — and her eyes drifted briefly to Henry.
“Both of you.”
Hans’s smile was small, his nod gentler still.
Then the others closed in — Godwin, Janosh, Kubyenka — a tangle of backslaps, clasped hands, words tumbling too fast to carry meaning. Phrases made of relief rather than sense.
“Hans, we’ve a whole barrel of beer,” Godwin grinned.
“We ought to mark your return properly — if you’re up for it.”
Hans looped the reins over a beam, sent a quick glance Henry’s way, then back to Godwin.
“We are,” he said, “but we’ve waded miles of mud to get here. Give us a little while to breathe. Tonight, count us in.”
Janosh’s mouth curved.
“Devil should be back by then too. Took the horse out somewhere earlier.”
Hans hesitated. “And Zizka?”
Jitka shook her head lightly.
“Before the snow came, he rode toward Budweis with Katherine. Said he had business there.”
Hans leaned closer, his voice low.
“And… Hanush? He hasn’t made trouble?”
Jitka stilled a little, folding her hands at her waist.
“A few days ago he sent Bernard. Offering us… help. With the castle.”
Janosh barked a laugh.
“Few men can tell someone to fuck off as perfectly as the Devil did. Bernard won’t be forgetting it anytime soon.”
Jitka laughed too, nodding.
“Uncle Hynek is a treasure.”
Hans’s mouth quirked faintly, but something in his eyes tightened for a moment.
“We’ll talk on it later,” he said, quieter now.
“For the moment… we need the rest.”
With a short gesture, he excused them both, then tipped his head at Henry.
Together, they climbed the stone steps toward their chambers.
Upstairs, Henry gave him a brief nod and slipped into his chamber.
Hans lingered in the passage for a moment, then drifted towards the battlements.
He paused there, gaze wandering across the courtyard below, then further — towards the upper castle, dark against the pale sky.
Lost in thought.
Then he shook his head once, as though to scatter it all.
He tipped his face to the sun, closed his eyes, and let the weak winter light touch his skin.
Drew in a long breath, let it out slow.
Then he turned, his stride steady, and made for his own chamber.
Henry shut the door behind him and stood still.
It was strange to return — to this room that seemed to have waited, as though time itself had held its breath since he left.
Everything was as he’d left it.
A shirt draped over the back of a chair.
The armour-mending kit resting on the shelf.
A cup on the table, with a faint, dried ring of wine along its lip.
He set his sword down on the bench, then his satchel. Slowly, almost ceremonially.
As though placing fragments of himself back into a space that had lived only as memory.
He unfastened his travelling coat, peeled himself out of the heavy gambeson.
His movements slowed, then stilled entirely.
For a time he only stood there, palm resting on the carved edge of the chair, breathing.
Then he reached for simple linen trousers and a tunic.
Folded the rest of his clothes carefully atop the chest, setting the room in quiet order once more.
After, he knelt by the hearth, laid down splinters of kindling, coaxed a flame to life.
It crept along the shavings, caught, and licked at the first pieces of wood.
Henry sat on the bed, elbows braced to his thighs, hands clasped.
The room grew warmer, yet he could still feel the chill of stone seeping through his back.
The silence here reached beneath the skin.
It brought back every day that had passed while he was gone — and all those days had carried, and taken.
After a while he rose, crossed to the wall, and caught the heavy curtain between his fingers.
He drew it back in silence.
Knocked. Softly.
For a moment, nothing.
Then he pressed lightly on the door, and it opened into the adjoining chamber.
Hans stood by the table, dressed only in his underclothes, bent slightly at the waist.
Sheets, scrolls, seals lay scattered across the boards, reshuffled more than once, left unsettled.
His shoulders were drawn, hips braced against the table.
No fire burned here yet; the only light came from a small candle guttering low.
“Settled back in already?” he asked gently, without looking up from the papers.
Henry stepped closer, stopping just behind him.
He slid his arms around Hans’s waist, drew him in, and brushed his lips softly against the skin just behind his ear.
Hans smiled faintly, eyes closing, leaning into the touch for a breath.
Then he turned within Henry’s hold, pressed his forehead to his cheek, and kissed him — brief, firm, certain.
“This,” he whispered, “was exactly what I needed.”
Henry’s mouth curved; he gave him another slow kiss.
Then his gaze drifted to the table, over the strewn documents.
“What are you buried in?” he asked quietly.
Hans sighed, shook his head, fingers brushing Henry’s hand where it still rested at his side.
“Trying to work out what to do about Hanush…”
“Leave it for now,” Henry said, calm, steady. “Breathe a little first.”
Hans nodded, let the tension ease, and slipped from Henry’s arms.
He crossed to the bed, sat on its edge, elbows resting on his knees, and dragged a hand back through his hair.
Henry took up the jug, poured wine into a cup, and offered it to him.
Hans accepted it without a word.
Then Henry crouched at the hearth and coaxed a fire to life.
For a time, there was only the crackle of kindling.
Hans drank, gaze fixed on nothing, until at last he spoke.
“Hanush isn’t in Rattay. No one could even tell me where he’s gone, or when he’s coming back.”
He paused, eyes narrowing into the flames.
“Most likely off on one of his little forays,” he added, quieter, almost as an afterthought.
Henry turned from the hearth, leaning against the edge of the table.
“What kind of forays?” His voice was low.
Hans gave a slow shake of the head, his eyes dropping to the floorboards.
Henry waited a moment, then rose, crossed to him, and sat down at his side.
He slid an arm across Hans’s shoulders, pulling him gently closer.
“I’m not prying,” he said softly. “But this isn’t the first time you’ve mentioned it.”
Hans drew in a breath, as though gathering resolve.
“I suspect…” He stopped, frowned, shook his head. “No. I’m almost certain he rides out with a small retinue on raiding trips. To the roads, to isolated homesteads across the neighbouring estates.”
Henry stared at him for a long moment, then shook his head, as if he’d misheard.
“How do you know?”
Hans was silent at first, his gaze lowered, fingertips turning the rim of the cup in his hand.
“Even as a boy I kept noticing odd things,” he said slowly. “Strange faces appearing, then vanishing again. Snatches of talk cut short the moment I came near.”
He paused, breath catching faintly.
“It always felt as though something was being hidden… And later, the pieces began to fit. Not into the meaning they were supposed to — but into the meaning they couldn’t quite keep buried.”
At last he lifted his eyes, meeting Henry’s.
“And then I understood.”
Henry straightened slightly. “But why would he do that?”
Hans shrugged, the corner of his mouth twitching — though it never became a smile.
“He needs money. Always has. He’s never been able to keep it — and he’s never had enough.”
Bitterness crept into his tone.
“That’s likely why he won’t give up Rattay. Or anything else that was never his to begin with.”
Henry stared into the fire, fingers laced before his knees.
“But that’s… forbidden,” he said softly. “Even for a noble, isn’t it?”
Hans gave a short, mirthless laugh.
“Of course it is. But things like that rarely see daylight.”
He rolled the cup slowly in his palm.
“If it ever came out, though — before the other lords, before the king — it would ruin him. Entirely.”
He stopped, then sat up sharply, something flashing behind his eyes.
“That might be it,” he breathed.
Henry turned, brow furrowing. “What might?”
“This could force him to hand me the inheritance,” he said slowly, as if testing the weight of it.
Henry’s expression darkened faintly.
“You’re thinking of exposing him? Taking him before the court?”
Hans shook his head.
“No. I’d never take it that far.”
He set the cup down, leaned forward with his elbows on his knees.
“It’d be enough for him to know I could. That might be all it takes.”
Henry’s gaze deepened, shadows gathering there.
“So you’d threaten him with it?” he asked, quiet but firm.
Hans met his eyes — tired, steady.
“And does he play fair, Henry?”
His voice was low, stripped of anger. Almost flat.
“Does he act justly?”
His gaze dropped to the scattered papers on the table.
“Sometimes, the only way to answer treachery…” — a faint breath — “is with deceit of your own.”
Henry’s hand tightened slightly over the fabric at his knee before he turned back to the fire.
The silence between them thickened, broken only by the faint crackle of the wood.
After a while, he let out a slow breath, shaking his head the faintest bit.
“I don’t like it,” he said quietly. “Scheming. Lying. Even when it’s deserved.”
He stared into the fire.
“It feels like losing something just to win.”
A pause.
“But maybe…” — his voice dropped — “maybe there’s no other way.”
“Maybe you’re right.”
Hans shifted beside him, then leaned in — slow, careful.
“I hate it too.”
His voice was quiet.
“But if it means protecting you… protecting what we have—”
He let the thought trail off.
A moment passed.
“We used to have one card to play. The wedding.”
His jaw tensed.
“As long as he wanted it done, we had leverage. A promise. A chance to be safe.”
He looked down.
“But now it’s gone. He’s made it clear — he won’t give me Rattay. Not even after.”
Another breath.
“And without that, we’ve got nothing. No claim. No protection.”
His gaze flicked toward Henry — steady, raw.
“If he wanted to ruin us tomorrow, he could. And we couldn’t stop him.”
He drew in a breath.
“So yes — I’ll bear it. Even if it costs me.”
After a pause, Henry drew a deeper breath.
“But you’d still need proof,” he said quietly. “Or someone to swear to it. Without that, Hanush would just laugh you off.”
Hans nodded.
“That’s the trouble.”
He rose and paced the length of the chamber in slow, measured strides.
“And there’s no asking anyone close to him, of course.”
Henry spread his hands. “Then it’s no good, is it?”
He pushed himself to his feet.
Hans turned, folding his arms across his chest, one brow lifting faintly.
“Not so fast.”
He stepped nearer, lowering his voice.
“I think there’s a secret smelter up at the upper castle,” he said softly.
“A way to launder the spoils from his raids.”
Henry’s gaze sharpened with thought.
“A smelter like that would mean smoke. Stench.
Much like a forge.”
Hans inhaled sharply.
“A forge — Christ’s wounds. That makes sense.”
He looked aside for a beat, as though pieces were falling into place.
“I’ve seen men around the forge before… faces I’m certain had no business being there.”
He nodded faintly to himself. “It’d be perfect cover.”
Henry studied him for a long moment.
“Then should I go up there? Take a look around?”
Hans laid a hand on his forearm, shook his head.
“They all know you by now. You’d be anything but subtle.”
“Maybe if I went by night?”
Hans shook his head again.
“Nothing ever moves up there after dark.”
Then he leaned in closer, his mouth curling faintly into a sly half-smile.
“And at night,” he whispered near Henry’s ear,
“I’d much rather have you here — in our bed.”
His fingers slid over Henry’s thigh.
Henry turned into him and kissed him — long, deep, certain.
The knock at the door sliced cleanly through the moment.
They broke apart, a sharp glance exchanged, then both looked towards the sound.
Henry stepped over and opened it.
Pavel stood there, uncertain at first.
“Shall I set out a late dinner in the hall, my lord? I stopped by the kitchens once I heard you’d arrived.”
Hans gave a brief smile and nodded.
“We’ll be there shortly.”
Soon after, they were seated in the hall, side by side at the long table.
On the trays before them lay roasted meat, soft vegetables, and warm bread with a crust still tender to the touch.
Pavel filled their cups with wine, then stepped back, quiet and unobtrusive.
Hans carved off a piece of meat with his knife, bit into it without ceremony.
Henry broke a loaf cleanly in two, the faint crack of the crust sounding sharper in the hush.
Only the soft murmur of the hearthfire filled the hall, and the muffled voices from the yard beyond.
Henry cut himself a small piece of the roast and turned it absently in his fingers before lifting his gaze to Hans.
“What about Dry Devil?” he asked, low.
Hans glanced up, brows drawn.
“What about him?”
Henry shifted a shoulder.
“Couldn’t he… take a look at the forge?”
Hans huffed through his nose, shaking his head.
“Can you imagine Devil acting inconspicuous?”
He reached for his cup and drank.
“He’d be the last man for it.”
A faint, sheepish smile flickered across Henry’s face as he looked down at his food.
“Right… foolish thought.”
Pavel returned to pour more wine and gather the emptied dishes, moving carefully, without lifting his eyes to them.
Hans set his knife down on the rim of his plate and idly turned a piece of bread between his fingers, thoughts pulling elsewhere.
“If Katherine were here,” he murmured at last, “she’d be ideal. Likely no one up there at the castle knows her. An ordinary woman — she wouldn’t draw attention.”
Henry looked at him over the rim of his cup, a small curve at the corner of his mouth.
“She’s not ordinary.”
Hans rolled his eyes, a soft breath of laughter escaping him.
“You know what I mean.”
He waved a hand, as though brushing the thought aside.
“Doesn’t matter. She’s off with Zizka anyway.”
“We could wait for her return,” Henry suggested gently.
Hans stilled, his cup pausing halfway to his lips.
“If she returns,” he said at last, voice quieter. “God knows what she and Zizka are about now.”
Then he straightened, drew a long breath, shoulders easing back.
“But for now — this is our moment. Hanush is away, and some of his men with him.”
From the side came a quiet but steady voice.
“My lord… if you need discreet eyes up at the upper castle, I can help.”
Hans went still, his head lifting slowly.
He turned towards Pavel, standing by the table with the wine jug in his hands, and his brow drew faintly tight.
He shook his head.
“Absolutely not. You’re a good lad, Pavel, but this isn’t work for a boy.”
Pavel set the jug carefully on the table and straightened, shoulders squared, gaze steady.
“I’m no boy anymore, my lord,” he said respectfully, though without hesitation.
“I can take care of myself better than plenty of grown men.”
Henry lowered his head towards his plate, the barest flicker of a smile playing at his lips, though he said nothing.
Then he lifted his eyes towards Hans.
Hans caught the look and held it for a moment, silent, before turning back to Pavel.
The boy stood tall, arms hanging loose, his gaze level and direct.
“My lord,” Pavel spoke again, softer this time.
“You’ve done so much for me. Both of you.”
He cast a brief glance Henry’s way.
“This is the least I can do to repay it.”
Hans shook his head again, though not as firmly this time.
He set his cup down, gaze lowered to the dark wine inside.
“I don’t like it,” he murmured.
Henry leaned towards him, elbow resting on the table.
“But someone like Pavel could pass by the forge without drawing notice,” he said quietly.
Hans turned to him, a look in his eyes that was almost pleading.
“He’s just a boy, Henry.”
“I’m not a child!” Pavel blurted out, his voice breaking upward.
“I’ve had a girl already!”
Henry choked on a laugh and pressed his fist to his lips to stifle it.
The corner of Hans’s mouth twitched, but he kept his expression composed.
He turned to Pavel.
“Pavel… would you give us a moment?”
The boy hesitated only a heartbeat before bowing slightly and stepping back.
The door shut softly behind him.
Hans sat motionless for a while, eyes lowered to his cup, before finally lifting them back to Henry.
Henry regarded him with a faint, knowing smile.
“Do you remember that stray from Skalitz?” he asked softly.
“The one who could barely hold a sword straight and stumbled into Rattay?”
Hans exhaled, a slow shake of the head.
“You had a few more years on you,” he said thoughtfully.
“And men like you… they don’t come along every day.”
Henry’s smile deepened just a little; beneath the table, he nudged Hans’s thigh gently with his knee.
Then his expression grew more serious, his gaze steady on Hans’s.
“But it’s true, Hans,” he said quietly,
“a boy born into a shit life only gets out of it if someone gives him a chance to show what he’s got.”
For a moment, his eyes lowered.
“If I hadn’t been given mine, I wouldn’t be sitting here now.”
Hans stared at him, wordless.
His fingers curled tighter around the cup until his knuckles paled. He didn’t look away — not yet.
Then, slowly, he let out a breath and set the cup down on the table.
“I know what you’re saying. And you’re right. He deserves a chance.”
He paused, jaw shifting.
“But I keep thinking… he’s just a boy. Barely had a life to begin with. And now we’re the ones asking him to risk it all — to put himself in the middle of something that could tear everything apart.”
His brow furrowed, gaze falling to the table. “Feels wrong. Like I’m turning into Hanush myself.”
Henry’s voice was quiet, but steady.
“You’re not.”
He reached out — laid a hand gently over Hans’s.
“You’re the one who sees him. Who cares if he gets out.”
He paused, his gaze steady.
“And you didn’t force him into this. He asked for it, remember? You even tried to talk him down.”
A faint breath. “He knows the risks, Hans. But he wants to help.”
Hans let out a quiet sound — not quite a scoff, not quite a sigh.
“He thinks he knows,” he said. “He’s at that age where it feels like he’s got the world figured out.”
He looked down, jaw tight. “But he doesn’t. Not yet. And that’s why we have to be the ones who do.”
Henry gave a slow nod.
“Ay,” he murmured. “And that’s why it’s on you.”
Hans looked at him — then shook his head slightly.
“No. Not just me.”
His thumb brushed gently over Henry’s fingers.
“It’s on us.”
Henry gave a quiet nod.
“Whatever you decide… you know where I stand.”
Hans sat still for a moment. Then he drew a breath — eyes lingering on that quiet place where their hands met.
“Then we’ll do it,” he said.
His voice was quiet.
“He walks by, sees what he sees…”
A faint pause.
“And comes back.”
Henry nodded, rose, and laid a hand on his shoulder for a moment.
Then he crossed to the door, resting his palm against the frame.
“Pavel,” he called.
The boy returned, and they told him simply what needed to be done.
Head out just before dusk.
Circle near the upper castle, pass by the forge, keep his eyes open.
See if there was movement there, strange faces, or any sign of work being done that shouldn’t be.
Nothing more.
At the end, Henry leaned closer, one hand resting on the back of the chair.
“Careful, Pavel,” he said softly.
“Don’t try to prove yourself — and if anything feels wrong, you leave. Understood?”
Pavel nodded, his face set and serious.
“Understood, my lord.”
He bowed lightly and slipped away.
Hans and Henry lingered a while longer at the table, their cups resting before them.
The hall was quiet, save for the occasional soft crackle from the fire.
Henry leaned his elbow on the wood, studying Hans’s thoughtful face.
“He’ll manage,” he said, a faint smile tugging at his mouth.
“I trust him.”
Hans gave a slow nod, his gaze still sunk into the wine.
“God grant you are right.”
After a pause, his voice dropped lower, almost to himself.
“If you are… we may be rid of Hanush. For good.”
Henry reached for his cup and raised it.
“Then here’s to that.”
Hans’s mouth curved faintly as he lifted his own.
The rims met with a soft chime.
From the doorway came a burst of laughter.
“Starting the celebration without us, are you?”
Godwin strode in, face bright, eyes warm with amusement.
Hans smiled back, shaking his head.
“Not yet.”
“Then let’s fix that, eh?” Godwin clapped his hands together, grin wide as a crescent moon.
“Time we start properly.”
The hall soon filled with noise and laughter.
Plates lay empty across the table, pools of spilled wine and ale mapping out islands between them.
Bones from the roast, torn bread, scattered crumbs alike.
Chairs were dragged aside — they sat wherever they pleased, or didn’t bother to sit at all.
Devil had one boot hooked on a bench, Kubyenka leaned on the edge of the table, Godwin content with a cup in hand, and Janosh darted about, pouring refills while laughing louder than he spoke.
Jitka sat between Devil and Godwin, back against the bench, cup in hand.
Her laughter rang as freely as theirs, her brow resting against Devil’s shoulder as she whispered something into his ear — and judging by how he choked on his drink, it wasn’t at all proper.
Devil jabbed her in the ribs with an elbow in mock retaliation, but she only flashed him a grin and took another sip.
Hans sat at the corner of the table, elbows resting on the wood, turning his cup lightly between his fingers.
Henry beside him — hair mussed, cheeks faintly flushed from wine, eyes bright with laughter.
“Come on then, out with it!” Kubyenka swung an arm wide, nearly sending Devil’s cup tumbling.
“Where the hell’ve you been hiding all this time, eh?”
Janosh leaned in before Henry could answer.
“And what happened to you? Samuel swore you were on your deathbed!” he rasped.
“Right!” Devil barked a laugh. “Spit it out, lad — where the fuck did you run off to?”
He broke into laughter again.
“Don’t push him,” Jitka cut in, though her smile didn’t falter.
She set her cup down with a soft clink, shaking her head as though defending Henry — but her tone only fanned the flames.
“Look at him — he’s turning red!”
Henry gave a low chuckle, leaned an elbow on the table, and shook his head.
“The truth?” He leaned in as though to whisper, but pitched his voice just loud enough for all to hear.
“Truth is, I only know one thing.”
He spread his arms wide, eyes glinting with mirth.
“Somebody smacked me good and proper over the head.”
A beat — then he broke into laughter.
“And after that, it’s all a blur… till Hans came to drag me back.”
Hans laughed long and loud, dropping his forehead into his palm and shaking his head.
“You hear that?” he called over the roar, voice lifting above the din.
“This miracle of a man would get himself lost on the way to the privy — if I didn’t keep him on a leash!”
Jitka raised her brows, lips curling into a knowing smile as she looked straight at Henry.
He rolled his eyes but failed to hide the twitch of a grin.
“Ay, sure — and who was it pulled your noble arse out of Maleshov, eh?”
“Details,” Hans waved a hand with exaggerated dignity, though the corners of his mouth betrayed him.
“Entirely irrelevant details.”
Godwin was laughing so hard tears streaked his face, while Devil shoved an empty jug toward Janosh with impatient insistence.
Through the evening, laughter rolled loud and unrestrained, fists pounding the table, voices rising in bursts that broke into half-sung refrains — each attempt at song drowned quickly beneath another round of stories.
The hall had grown quiet, the din thinning into embers.
Jitka had left some time ago, pleading weariness; Janosh sat slumped at the table, cheek pressed to his folded arms, drifting somewhere between waking and sleep. Devil leaned back against the bench with the look of a man already resigned to a brutal morning, and from somewhere at the garderobe came the muffled sounds of retching and curses. Even the laughter that remained was softer now, blurred by wine.
Hans set his cup aside, leaning closer to Henry.
“Come on,” he murmured. “Let’s get some air.”
They stepped out onto the walls. The night took them at once — sharp and clean, edged with damp stone and the faint smoke of doused fires. Below, the castle lay hushed; only the slow rhythm of passing boots rang against the masonry.
Henry drew in a deep breath and rolled his shoulders, a quiet laugh in his throat. “Some celebration this is.”
Hans’s mouth curved faintly, his gaze cast into the dark beyond the battlements. “Ay… it’s been a long while since we had a night like this.” He hesitated, then huffed out a low laugh. “I reckon Kubyenka won’t be placing bets for a good while.”
Henry snorted, shaking his head. “Let’s wager on it.”
They both laughed then, the sound carrying strangely clear in the silence — then fading, leaving only the cool air between them. The chill crept steadily beneath their skin as their eyes adjusted to the dark.
The quiet broke suddenly — shouts, boots, the jangle of steel from the courtyard below. The guard was changing.
Hans stilled, brow furrowed as he glanced at Henry.
“Midnight already?”
Henry lifted one shoulder. “Could be.”
Hans gave a slight shake of the head… then froze. Breath caught in his throat, his eyes sharpened, and he turned sharply toward Henry.
“Pavel — has he come back yet?”
Henry stopped too, his brow creasing. “I… I don’t know. Maybe he’s in his room,” he said softly, though his voice wavered. “Maybe he’s been asleep for hours.”
They descended the steps, brisk but not quite running — though panic edged nearer than either cared to admit.
The courtyard lay empty. They asked the guards if they’d seen him — only shrugs and raised brows in answer. No one knew anything.
They searched the servants’ quarters, even the small side hall by the kitchen where the hearth still glimmered with dying embers. No sign of him.
Out through the gate, then.
The cold struck sharper there, the air raw on their faces. They passed beneath the arch and stopped just beyond, gazes lifting to the upper castle.
Before them, Rattay slept — rooftops black against the sky, broken only by scattered points of torchlight drifting slowly where the night patrols moved.
Otherwise, nothing. Not a sound.
Hans let out a breath harsher than he’d meant to, fingers curling tight on the railing.
“Gods, I hope nothing’s happened to him,” he said softly, almost voiceless.
Henry stood beside him, silent for a moment, staring into the dark. When he spoke, he pitched his voice steady, though it rang more fragile than he wished.
“Maybe he just… got held up somewhere. Or…”
Hans glanced at him, something shadowed in his eyes that wouldn’t move. Henry met the look, nodded — more to settle Hans than from any true belief of his own.
They passed through the gate with torches in hand and made their way slowly up through the town.
The street lay empty, the ground still damp, their steps sounding strangely loud against the hush. The torchlight threw long, wavering shadows across the walls, shifting as they moved — as if the town itself were watching them.
They passed the tavern. It stood dark and silent now, only a jug overturned on the threshold and a blackened pool of wine glinting faintly in the firelight. Rattay slept; no songs, no drunken shouts, only the distant tramp of night watch boots. The faintest echo of voices drifted up from Pirkstein, scraps of laughter lingering where the last embers of celebration still burned.
They climbed higher. Winter’s cold bit at their faces, sharp and clean.
From a distance, they could already see the gate of the upper castle — high, shut, guarded.
When they reached it, the men on watch looked down at them, surprised to find their young lord out at such an hour. Their faces were unreadable, their stares cool, with none of the warmth Hans might once have expected.
Hans said nothing at first, his gaze steady on theirs, as though waiting for someone to speak. No one did. In the end, he only drew a quiet breath, nodded once towards Henry, and turned away without a word.
They walked back to Pirkstein in silence.
The torches lit their path, but behind the circle of firelight, the dark seemed deeper still.
The hall was empty now. Cups overturned, scraps of food left scattered on the table, the fire burned low — embers faintly aglow.
They crossed the quiet space and stepped into Hans’s chambes.
Inside, the silence lay thicker still, broken only by a muted breath of wind through the shutters. They sat together on the bed. Hans looked pale, his gaze fixed somewhere far beyond the room. Henry said nothing for a while, simply sitting there with him.
At last he reached out, laid a hand on Hans’s thigh, his thumb brushing lightly across the fabric.
“As soon as it’s light,” he said softly, “we’ll go look for him. Even up at the castle.”
Hans nodded, his eyes still distant.
Henry hesitated, searching for words, then spoke almost more to himself than to Hans.
“I believe he’ll turn up. By morning at the latest. Maybe he just curled up somewhere to sleep.”
Hans breathed out, long and quiet, and finally looked at him.
“I hope so,” he whispered.
Then, after a pause, his gaze dropped before he looked up again.
“Pavel… he matters to me. I don’t think I realised how much until now.”
Henry drew him close, gentle, and pressed a kiss into his hair.
“He’ll be all right,” he whispered.
Sleep came hard.
They sat long into the night, silent, each lost in thought, until exhaustion finally pulled their eyes closed. When they lay down at last, only a few hours of uneasy rest awaited them.
Before dawn, they were awake again.
They crossed the courtyard, asking the guards if Pavel had been seen.
Just shaken heads in answer.
Once more they searched through Pirkstein — chambers, halls, even the kitchen — but it was no use.
“We’re going to find him,” Henry said quietly, almost without pause.
Hans nodded. They took their swords and headed for the gate.
Then, from the misted morning, came the sound of hoofbeats — quick, hollow against stone. A rider emerged at last from the pale fog.
Bernard.
Hans turned towards him, eyes hard, a knot of anger, defiance, unease drawn tight behind them. Bernard reined in, and in the stillness, the horse’s heavy breaths steamed into the chill. He looked at Hans, and the glance held a fraction longer than it should have.
“Sir Hanush requests your presence at the upper castle, my lord.”
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