It's now five days since I applied, and they're saying the owner has been very busy and simply has not had a chance to review my application yet. 😐
I'm relieved that's the explanation, but I'm also not sure how much to trust it. I understand they may not have expected to receive interest within a day of posting, and idk what they think about the little discount they offered me, so I'm just going to keep spinning on it a bit until it's fucking DONE.
The thought of having to put a backup option in place feels devastating to me because nothing else even compares to this house, on several dimensions.
And you're talking to someone who has just had so many massive disappointments in her life when it comes to the most foundational physical comfort and security things 🙃 (hi, Mars-Pluto new moon T square on my 4H, with it's ruler exalted and conjuct Saturn on the north node).
In case it wasn't already obvious how hopeful I have been for this, I will tell you that J and I had dinner a block away from the house the other night, and I took him over there afterwards to see it from the outside. And I am terrified that I jinxed it by doing that. I'm terrified of ever hoping for anything good, ever. If I got this house, it would be the first time I ever had a truly wonderful place to live all on my own. Everything about this place would be a dream come true. So yeah.
