#marisa peer

Today, i watched a talk on Youtube by Marisa Peer, click HERE to watch it. What i mean by that is, you have no choice in the matter. Click the link, sit back and enjoy.. Then thank me later.

I didn’t realise how important self affirmations were, how much they actually WORK?! Just by writing ‘I am enough’ on your mirrors, you’ll begin to feel a positive change in your life. It’s as simple as that.. It doesn’t matter whether you’re genetically depressed, or breezing through life, this one simple change will change everything.. You wanna bet that i’m going to write it EVERYWHERE!

I’ve tried different therapy, i’ve tried every medication under the sun, i’ve had stays in the psych unit, i’ve tried what feels like everything.. Yet, i have only recently begun using positive affirmations. 

I was introduced to positive affirmations for the first time when i was in the psych unit, i was having therapy to build my self esteem and confidence, they had me write all of these cringe things on paper and stick them everywhere in my room, i literally laughed at the idea and only bothered giving it a chance for a couple days before getting stressed that i was STILL a miserable fuck that hated herself. I left the affirmations there and never went back to give it another go up until i was reminded of the power behind such a simple thing, so i decided to put 5 affirmations in my Reminders that pop up throughout my day. 

You are NOT your mistakes,

You are stronger than anger.

You are WORTHY of love.

Other peoples opinions are nothing but opinions.

You don’t care about other peoples opinions.

I hadn’t even noticed whether this had made a difference cause i was so caught up in things changing until today when i was sent a message from someone i care about deeply reminding me that sometimes you don’t know how far you’ve come until you pause and look back and my mind just blew up after reading that.

Since putting these reminders in my phone, i have bucked up the courage to remove the people from my life that were dragging me down and if you don’t know me, this is one of the HARDEST things for me.. You could be completely toxic to me, but if i give a shit about you, i struggle to let you go. I’ve started blogging again, filming for youtube, looking after myself, i have friends.. Let me repeat that.. I HAVE FRIENDS!! Like people that come and chill and hang out and enjoy my company......... It’s been so long since i actually felt wanted, hahahaha cringe but idgaf. I don’t dwell on the past as much (still working on that) and the biggest change of all.. My anger.... I’m in control again and i am fucking GLAD ABOUT IT. A few months ago, my anger started spiralling again. I felt completely out of control. I hated it cause i’d worked so hard to put it all in my back pocket and it all felt completely pointless cause it had come back with vengeance. I let peoples choices wind me up to the point i’d hurt myself, someone else or the closest object to me.. I would end up a mess on the floor, repeating ‘you’re not this person anymore’ over and over again. I’d lose my shit after like 2 minutes of drama and it never ended well and i hated feeling so angry, hate hate hate hate anger... Now i don’t give a shit, someone fucks me off and i remind myself that someone elses choice of actions of words are nothing to do with me.. That’s THEIR choice, not mine, so whyyyy am i getting mad about it? Then i’d get the fuck over it.. It’s BEAUTIFUL!!!!!

I am finally coming out of one of the darkest places i’ve ever been in and i know it’s not all going to be a breeze and i have more struggles to face up too, but one thing at a time.. 

I

AM

ENOUGH!!!!!!!

You are enough.

We are all enough xo

PS - If you’ve read this far, thank you so much and i hope this helps you in one way or another, i’ll be adding back the first 50 people to screenshot my snapcode and add me!