#marikishtarkin

I'm erring away from calling this a stupid thing to admit, but it definitely is... embarrassing. I know I'm throwing away all my character development by saying this. But... I really... miss my "other half," my darker half, my dark side, my Yami, whatever you want to call him. I know he probably isn't out there at all, the yugioh kin space is pretty small already, but for some reason I miss just having the company of him in my mind. In a sick way, it was nice, and it kind of makes me happy to remember that his original purpose was to protect me and keep me out of danger... of course that comes with the burden of harboring a lot of my less savory feelings about my life and the world in general, which is why he's so, you know, Evil, but still. I just feel like he's the only person who would be able to fully understand me. We're like two sides of the same coin, you know? It feels lonely not having him here with me.

Being from absolutely everything (/nsrs, I'm polykin) and seeing so many people sending messages to all the folks who also share these identities or sources and wanting to respond to all of them but I can't. I can't flood the ask box just because I've been in everything and want to let them know that whichever kin or source of mine they were speaking to, I saw it and hello and hi every single time. Just know that if you sent an open message to someone on here there's a 50/50 chance I saw it and I'm thinking of you 😭 /lh -- (Marik Ishtar, Claus MOTHER 3, Michael Afton, Serenade.exe, and Zamasu to name a few recent ones, you don't have to tag any of these though if you don't want to!)