first michael's beautiful hair now zayn's beautiful voice ahh so much beauty i can't deal

lukehemmings does not sound good nor feel good

im so in love with life yet i hate life so much, its a complicated relationship

is like ive always known who was actually there for me and now is just being emphasized. im growing in so many ways possible and learning how to take care of myself. its so true when they say people come and go ,because it  they always do and is something that i have come accustomed to, it doesn't bother me at all anymore actually. im so self dependent and its just something im learning to truly understand that ,that is just how i am :)

No one should be judged for their actions up to the extent that you see no value in them. Everyone has value, no one is superior to anyone else. You don't know what the person whom you judge so cruely has been going through. Your past affects you and changes you whether intended or unintended. It is your decision to overcome your rough past and be able to learn from it and grow, or to let it take over. It is no one else's right to mock you for your troubles. "It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat."

my favorite time is probably some nights when im content and feelin super positive and blessed for everything i have listening to my jams and being on tumblr..feels so chill and satisfyingly inspiring

realizing you have no one to talk about your problems because no one cares and you have no friends 

im selfish, i dont care half of the time, ill leave whenever i want to without saying a goodbye or a reason, im confusing,you probably annoy me half of the time.. all reasons why im not a good friend. why would anyone want to be my friend ..is like im finding reasons to push people away again..and i dont care..