It was March
It's 25th March already when I really wanted to write so so much about this month and welcome it gracefully. March is super special for me because it's my Birthday month!!! I feel great. I didn't know before how was I gonna take it because it was my 35th Birthday! Yes I said it here. I don't know how Gen Zees out there might feel or others might feel after reading this. But yes I'm 35 now. But I don't feel that way. On that day, today, I still feel I'm 15 . I'm still a teenager who is still there. May be because I'm single, not married, no kids. Or may be my naivety is still existing. Or may be I'm still little innocent and kind. I don't know. I still have that fear of getting judged. May be it's reduced a little but it exists. What improved in me in all these years is SELF LOVE. When I look back at the girl in her 20s, I really feel bad for her because she didn't know her worth. She used to think she's not beautiful, she isn't worthy of love, some day some prince charming should come and rescue her from all the pain, chaos. She never enjoyed herself, her own company, she didn't like to be alone. She was a people pleaser. Even people insulted her, she kept listening and tried being nice to them. But this 35 years old woman today is so much in love with herself. She doesn't feel the need of anyone else except Allaah (God) She truly loves herself. She finds each inch of her beautiful when she looks in the mirror. When today I looked at myself in mirror, I couldn't believe how beautiful I am masha'Allaah. In fact I moved away from the mirror to protect myself from my own evil eyes. God made me so beautiful. May be that young girl then too was very very beautiful but I couldn't see it 😊 so happiest birthday to me ❤Alhamdulillah for everything Allaah gave me and everything He took away from me! It was for best ❤ Sharing my journaling mind map I created in February, attached to this post here. Which includes everything in my mind
