#march4th2016

Well, today hasn’t been good so far.

It started when I woke up. I had an email, telling me that I’m failing a class. Which is not good, obviously. Thing is, I’ve gotten good grades on everything that’s I’ve turned in, and I went over the scores and my overall grade should be a 92%. So I don’t understand what’s going on, but I’m going to email the professor and my adviser and get it sorted out. But that probably won’t be fixed until after spring break. Which is an entire week. 

The next thing was sort of small, but it’s really messing me up and I don’t get why, so it must be sorta important. ‘Kris’, who is the one in the squad that I talk to the most, isn’t going to be here when I get back from class (I’m in class now, and we literally aren’t doing anything.) He’s going home, and he’s leaving before I get back. Which is very sad, because I wanted to hang out a little before I went home. (I also kinda wanted to rant about stuff, but I guess that’ll have to wait until I see him again)

I’m going home for an entire week. Home. Where I don’t feel quite as independent as I do here, and where I feel sort of smothered. I know that it’s probably silly, but when I go home, I don’t like it anymore. It’s home, but it doesn’t feel the same. I like it up here at college just a little bit better, because I can make my own choices and I don’t feel as pressured about making the right choice, because the ones that pressure me (Mostly my mom) are at home, an hour and a half away. And they usually don’t find out. 

The WiFi is also really shitty at home because there’s four of us with multiple devices each on it and it makes it go really slow.

This last one is probably the most silly, but it was the icing on the cake that made me break down this morning. Remember Tarzan Man? I saw him at breakfast, and he didn’t look at me. It’s really silly, and it probably doesn’t mean anything and he most likely doesn’t know that I’m very emotionally attached to him even though we’ve never had a proper conversation. 

I’m working on a Queue for the week, because I haven’t been reblogging like I usually do. So I want to get back into that.