#manicrants

The drug you eat, smoke, snort, or inject, that's temporary. Like the days, like tomorrow.. like the flowers, and the animals. It all ends.

What doesn't end is the love I have for you, nor will it never fade, or die off.. it evolves as you evolve. It grows as you grow. My love for you is like the sun, made for a reason, it's there it can't escape, but it does go away, but it always comes back.

My love is endlessly endless, maybe that's why I get hurt.. maybe that's why I'm so alone, maybe my self need to love you gets me killed.

Eat the drug that satisfies your hunger for loneliness, for the need to feel anything.. Eat that drug that let's you know everything is fine, everything is always fine.. Eat your drugs til one day everything is gone, the world around you has died off.. there is no longer someone that loves or needs you.

Eat that drug until you become emotionless, til you no longer need me.

I wanna be your drug..

I wanna be the thing that makes you excited.

I wanna be that someone who inspires you.

I am the person who loves you.

You're not the rose, but the thorn.

This post is for everyone who sits around and complains about how the world is getting worse and things need to change.

If you think the world is getting so unbearable and are upset that no one is doing anything about it, and that’s all you say, okay, fine, at least you have an opinion that doesn’t involve blaming someone else for the world being so awful and never changing.

But I just have one question for you: what are you going to do about it?

Nothing? You’re just going to continue sitting there, complaining? And you’re confident that’s going to lead to change?

Listen. I’m a pretty lucky individual. I’m fully aware of that. I grew up in a good environment and my family was always able to afford just what we needed to get through. 

I’m all grown up now, I have two college degrees and five years of college to pay off. That combined with being in an out-of-state graduate program and currently not having a job (two degrees and no job - that’s for another post) means I am, for lack of a better phrase, completely out of money.

I’m on my own, I’m responsible for affording my own things. Believe me, I understand implementing change can’t always be immediate.

As much as I would love to quit everything I’m doing and do what I can to help change the world (wherever I’m led, however I can contribute), I can’t afford to do that. But just because I can’t uproot myself and go change the world right now doesn’t mean I’m just sitting around complaining about it.

Okay, yes, I’m sitting here in a chair writing this rant about people sitting in chairs writing and not acting. 

But I’m also going to school, and looking for a job so I can eventually afford more school, so I can eventually have the credentials to do what I want to do to change the world. I’m blogging daily, I’m DOING all these other things because one day the skills I’m developing, the relationships I’m forming, they are going to contribute to my mission to help change the world.

I understand sometimes you just have to complain and wish out loud that the world were different.

But I hope, after you voice your heated complaint, you get up and do something that will eventually lead to you being able and qualified to implement the kinds of changes you wish you could see right now.

That is sincerely what I hope for you. I don’t know you, but I know that if you’re passionate enough about something to write a run-on-sentence comment complaining about it, you have enough in you to do something amazing with that passion someday.