Truth Untold | Shawn Mendes Fan Fiction | Chapter Four
Truth Untold | Shawn Mendes Fan Fiction
The next day on the bus was the longest bus ride of my life. The longest forty-five minutes of my life.
Shawn and I looked over at one another but refused to talk. He got on the bus and didnât so much as look at me.
I couldnât blame him. He knew I heard his conversation, he knew I was eavesdropping. And I knew he was more hurt by the Emily situation than anyone knew.
I tended to the kids on one side of the bus, and him on the other. No one knew we were avoiding each other. Maybe Dave, our bus driver, did. Because he looked over at me a couple of times with sympathy.
But then again, maybe I was imagining things.
âAlright, weâve arrived!â David announced when we got to camp.
I breathed a sigh of relief and helped the kids get off the bus. Shawn lingered behind, maybe to avoid me.
I didnât know what to say.
Liam was waiting for me as we got off the bus. I went over to him, and he looked tense.
âWhat happened to you last night?â he asked.
After I had heard Shawnâs conversation with Emily, I wanted to be anywhere but that party. I actually wanted to be comforting Shawn, wherever he was. and I hated that I wanted that. And I didnât know why.
âOh, I donât know. I think I caught some sort of cold,â I said, making my voice sound a little stuffed up.
âOh,â he said, his facial features softening. âAre you okay? Should you go home?â
âNo, no, I feel a lot better. I just - I just went home and slept immediately. Sorry I didnât tell you,â I said, lying through my teeth.
âItâs okay,â he said, pulling me into him. His hand intertwined with mine, as he gave me a small kiss.
âLiam, weâre at camp,â I said, shyly.
âSo?â he said, with a half-smile.
âHow was your night last night?â I asked.
âOh,â he replied, his voice instantly changing tones. âEm came to me all torn up. She was crying, could barely get any words out.â
My heart started to beat faster. âOh? Did she say what happened to her?â
âOh, you can probably guess,â he said, his eyebrows furrowing. âI donât know, all she got out was that she ran into Shawn. And thatâs all I needed to hear. He was probably being a ââ
âBeing a what?â a voice from behind us said.
It was Shawn coming off the bus. I pressed my lips together, nervously.
âNone of your business,â Liam snapped.
âOh, bullshit,â he responded.
âShut up,â Liam snapped at Shawn. He stepped towards him, and I saw this ending very badly.
âI know you guys were talking about me. So, stop being a coward and tell me to my face,â Shawn said, standing his ground.
Liam shook his head. âI have no problem telling you to your face. The fact of the matter is youâre a dick. You made my sister cry last night, and youâre lucky youâre still standing.â
Shawn snorted. âThis whole tough guy act is really wearing thin, donât you think?â
Liamâs shoulders tensed up. I thought it was time to intervene.
âGuys, letâs just stop. Okay? Walk away,â I pleaded.
âAnd you think youâre so tough? Breaking someoneâs heart, freezing someone out without so much as a thought to who theyâre hurting â youâre the coward,â Liam growled.
âLiam, stop,â I said, involuntarily.
I donât know why I said that. Both Liam and Shawn looked at me in surprise.
âWhat? Youâre actually going to defend him?â he asked, pointedly. He looked more hurt than anything. If I were in his shoes, and I wholeheartedly believed this guy had hurt my sister, I would hate me right now.
âNo,â I faltered. âNo, I donât. I just - I just didnât want to do this here, at camp. Letâs just go, okay?â I begged.
He looked at me for a moment longer, and so did Shawn. Liam sighed, exasperatedly.
âLetâs go,â I said. I grabbed his hand and pulled him towards the Main Hall.
I didnât even look back to see Shawnâs face.
The day wore on slowly. Shawn and I did our duty by taking the kids to each activity, but he was quieter with usual even with the kids.
I caught myself staring in his direction when he wasnât looking. I just wanted to silently communicate to him I was sorry for this morning. I didnât know why. I didnât know why I saw something good in him, but all I knew was I wanted to let him know I had sympathy for him.
But he didnât take it. He didnât even look at me the whole morning.
As I settled the kids down in the Mess Hall, where they ate lunch, and let them pull out their lunches, I saw Shawn slip out the front door.
And again, my feet had a mind of its own. My burning curiosity overtook every feeling in my body screaming at me to stay still. I needed to know where he was going.
I followed him down the hill and saw him disappear into the campâs radio building. I walked up the steps to the wooden building and slid open the doors.
I saw Shawn tuning his guitar in the radio booth. My eyebrows furrowed. I knocked on the glass to the radio booth that was equipped with a microphone and small mix panel. He looked up in surprise.
âWhat are doing in here?â he said, muffled by glass.
âI canât hear you,â I said.
He swung open the door and stood far away from me.
âSorry, I thought you wereâŠleaving or something,â I said, abashedly.
âIâll be back after lunch to bring the kids to their next activity,â he responded tersely.
âOkay,â I said, awkwardly.
We stood there in silence, as he looked around the room.
âSo, what are you doing in here anyways?â I asked, trying to make conversation.
âThe camp director said I could take over the camp radio station for the lunch hour. I play guitar in here and cover songs. Helps me practice.â
âOh, you mean the radio that plays in the Mess Hall during lunch?â
He nodded. We stood around in a bit more silence.
âLook,â I started to say. âIâm sorry about Liam this morning.â
He shook his head, not responding.
âAnd, Iâm sorry about overhearing yesterdayâŠthat conversation with you and Emily.â
âWhy?â he asked, dryly.
âWell,â I spluttered. âWell, because. It was a private conversation, and I shouldnât have been listening.â
âYou shouldnât have been.â
I felt my insides burn. âYeah, I know. I just wanted to say, I was sorry â â
âYeah, you said that already.â
We both fell into an uncomfortable lull.
âWhy are you sorry anyway?â he asked.
âWell, you just seemed hurt,â I admitted. âAndâŠvery broken up about your conversation with Emily last night. Or even just seeing her. So, Iâm sorry youâre hurting.â
âPlease,â he said, rolling his eyes.
âHey,â I said, becoming agitated. âI am sorry.â
âNo youâre not,â he mumbled.
âYouâre not sorry. You clearly think I hurt Emily. Which I clearly did.â
âNo, Liamâs right. Iâm an asshole. Iâm the jackass that just cut this poor girl off without any warning. I blindsided her. I stopped talking to her because I was miraculously over it. So, there. That should make it easier for you.â
âWhat are you even talking about?â I said, feeling my insides flare up with anger.
âWhat? Iâm just saying what you wonât,â he said. âYou made it abundantly clear that you think Iâm in the wrong.â
âI havenât,â I said, getting frustrated. What gave this guy the right to tell me what I was thinking in such a defensive manner when Iâve tried to be nice.
âItâs fine,â he said, with a note of finality. âLetâs just be counsellor partner, do our jobs, and then pretend like this summer never happened. You can stop pretending to be nice to me.â
âShawn, Iâm not just pretending! I never said any of those things youâve been accusing me of. And itâs not fair of you to even put that on me.â
âCome on, Alex,â he sighed. âYou know as well as I do, youâre just pretending to be nice to me when weâre together to make this summer a little more tolerable. But we all know youâre going to ignore me when we get back to school or else Liam wouldnât speak to you.â
âNo, Iâm not! Donât put that on me. I can act on my own accord!â Now I was getting really mad.
âPlease,â he scoffed.
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
I wanted to grab his shirt and shake some manners into him, shake some sense into him. How dare he speak to me like this?
âYou know what? Maybe you are an asshole and a jackass,â I fired at him.
âFinally, you admit it.â
âYes, Shawn. But, itâs not because I ever treated you that way. You put that on yourself. Youâre the one who is so convinced people are seeing you this one way that you donât even bother to fight to change their perceptions.â
âPlease, analyze me more. I beg you,â he responded, sarcastically.
âAsshole,â I shot back, exasperated.
I stormed out, wishing I never knew him. I left him there, knowing in my mind he was who I thought he was. And I shouldnât have tried to even see that there was another side to the story.
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