#mag155

if that's because he went through his contacts in alphabetical order, that means he has Daisy in his phone as Alice. which i think is a v Jon thing to do

(Or his contacts came up based on the most recent, which would also make sense, but it could still be both!)

Basira: "None of us are who we were, Jon."

Jon: "No. I suppose not. In many ways it’s simpler now isn’t it? At least now our demons have names."

I wonder what demons of his own Jon's thinking about, that he didn't have a name for before the Institute

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This statement on its own isn't the most flashy, but I really like how it puts the rest of this half of the season into stark contrast. Even though most people will be a lot more willing to forgive Jon for what he does than this statement giver, it still raises the question of, why exactly?

Is it just that she causes her victims to die, and he doesn't? How far does that go? How much suffering are you morally 'allowed' to cause other people if it saves your own life, if it saves other people?

How much does the 'good' these Avatars do in the world matter, compared to the pain they cause? Are they even doing good? The statement giver comes off as a conceited person too caught up in her own rationalisations to judge her actions clearly... though, might that not go for Jon as well? Now that he knows that you can quit the Institute, he can't even say that he has no choice but to take statements or he'll waste away - he has at least a chance to get out, too. A horrible one, but it IS an option. One that he explicitly decides not to try, at least not without Martin.

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...oh, Tova's ep! John's poor psyche's gotta be pissing blood after this one.

dreams and the end

mag011 // mag113 // mag121 // mag155

[ID: Screenshots of various transcripts with teal text on a pale yellow background. The first image reads: “Lucid dreaming has never been a skill I’ve possessed, and I generally get swept along in the current of whatever runs through my sleeping consciousness.”

The second image says: “And it seems that, as he deals in dreams, it may be worth your while to keep an eye on the statements you take, in case he finds his way here.”

The third image says: “Suppose there’s only so long you can dream about someone and not at least try to find them.”