#mafialeader

You met him in a club while you were on a mission, trying to seduce the most famous drug baron of the entire state, wearing an outfit that was way too slutty for your liking, barely covering your ass and showing most of your stomach. You were talking to him, laughing at all of his stupid jokes that weren’t even funny. You ran your finger along his neck and played dumb because you knew that he preferred people who didn’t ask. You weren’t planning on asking questions. Your only plan was to put the poison into his glass, leave and watch him die from far away. You had been feeling itchy all night, like someone was watching you, and when you turned around you were met by those dark, intense eyes. It looked like he wanted to eat you alive and you turned back to your target, putting on a fake smile. “Do you want something to drink?” Your question sounded innocent but it made him sigh, sounding disappointed. “It’s game over, sweetheart.”It took you a few seconds to realize what he had told you but you immediately jumped into action, backing off and running directly into the arms of his bodyguard. “I know who you are. Everyone knows, Y/N. You’re a famous assassin. You would need plastic surgery in order to not be recognized anymore.”  His words were harsh and you realized that there was no way out of this situation until. “You should not talk to a lady like that.” Yongguks dark voice made you shiver. He and the rest of his inner circle – the BAP – were each standing next to a bodyguard, the metal of their guns pressed against the back of their heads. When the drug baron told them to let go of you, you moved away, standing behind Yongguk who grabbed your hand to hold you tight. “Gentleman. I guess it’s time for us to leave.” His right hand – Zelo – explained as everyone moved backwards, still aiming at the bodyguards. The entire club was watching you now, but no one was making a move. You excited the club without any hassle and when Yongguk dragged you to his dark, black transporter, you looked at him. “You should show your appreciation.” He explained and you did. You went home with him and the two of you fucked all night. You’d lie if you’d say that you forgot anything about it. You could still vividly remember hearing your naked footsteps on the hardwood floor while listening to Yongguks even breaths.

Ever since then you have been running from him, hiding in the shadows but it felt like you were hiding behind transparent blinds. You could only stay one night at your new hideout, because the next night Yongguks men would be so close, that they could almost touch you, so you had to run again. You missed home. Missed staying at a place for more than a week; but being caught by him ment being his. Yongguk didn’t play around with you. You knew that immediately. The way he fucked you that night wasn’t just a mindless fuck. You marked him and he did the same to you. You were sore for days, feeling his hot touch on your skin. You take the black key card to your new hotel room. You chose to treat yourself this time and decided to book some wellness treatments. After bringing the few things you have to your room, you walk to the basement to get a massage. You undress yourself, only leaving your panties on and lie down on the massage bed. You’re in a private room, something you had asked for. Your masseur enters the room and you can tell by his steps that it’s a man. Wordlessly he starts massaging you, pressing a bit too hard and you hiss, whipping your head around only to be met by those dark, intense eyes you had been hiding from for weeks. “Found you.” His voice his soft and you turn around, now facing him with only your panties on. His eyes immediately move down to your chest and he swallows. “Why the fuck did you run?” He pulls you to the edge, pressing your legs apart, standing in-between them, moving your chin up. You don’t resists, because this is what you have secretly been craving for weeks. “I had to! We can’t be together! This is not going to work.” You say and he silences you by pressing his lips to yours, suffocating all your protests. “I am going to make this work.” He looks at you and presses his jean clad erection against your wet core. “I will fuck you senseless and this time you are not going to run.” He opens his pants, taking his big, hard member in his hand, pushing the fabric of your panties aside and entering you mercilessly. “Ah!” You exclaim and he moves hard and quick inside of you, punishing you for running. You don’t do anything against it, because this is what you want and you knew what you were getting yourself into that night. “Yongguk!” He looks up at you, his eyes wild and full of lust. “I don’t want to hear any protest from you. You ran away from me. You will suffer this time.” He keeps moving until he cums inside of you, not caring about your orgasm. “Suck.” You whine, because you were so close to your release and now he just stops. Despite your neediness you kneel down in front of him and take him in to your mouth, cleaning him up first and then sucking gently on him until he grabs you by your hair and makes you move quicker until he comes in to your mouth a second time. You look up at him and see that his face has softened now. “I think you now deserve to cum.” He lifts you up as if you weigh nothing and sets you down on the edge of the massage bed. You are already exhausted from being on the run for weeks, not sleeping more than 4 hours per night and now him fucking you, denying your orgasm. You moan his name and grab his soft, curly hair. “I’m close” you whimper and he pushes you over the edge, making you collapse on the massage bed. You eyes are closed when he carefully wraps you up in one of the hotels bath robes, picking you up and pressing you against his hard, muscular body. “No more running, okay?” You nod, keeping your eyes closed and kissing his neck. You were tired of running and the way you body fits into his perfectly, makes you want to stay wrapped up in his arms forever.

It has been 2 months since the two of you made up and it’s almost Christmas. You wake up in Yongguks arms and look at him for a second. The last two months have been good for him. He has gained weight and muscle mass and is slowly returning to his old self. But those two months have been hard on the two of you. Because of his injuries you told him you wouldn’t sleep with him until Himchan gave you the okay. They hit his liver and other internal organs and Himchan told you in the beginning that it would take months for Yongguk to return to his old self. He’s mostly back there but there are times when you notice that something’s wrong, although he’s trying to hide it. You unwrap yourself from the blanket and look at the alarm on your nightstand. It’s 4 am. Ever since the kidnapping it has been hard for you to sleep through the entire night.  You once told Yongguk that going outside relaxes you(He insisted you should wake him up but you told him that you couldn’t) so he replaced the glass in his room with bulletproof glass doors and the blinds with thick curtains that keep any light out as long as they are closed. You walk over to the windows and carefully push the blinds aside. It’s almost full moon and you have to blink a few times to adjust to the light. A small squeal escapes you and you turn around to see if you woke up Yongguk but sigh in relieve when you see that he is still asleep. You turn back around and fumble with the heavy door that leads to a balcony he built for you. The balcony doubles as a safe space. In case of an emergency it will transform into a sort of bunker with water, food and blankets. As soon as it transformed into the bunker you can crawl into the actual bunker of the building through a small tunnel with a ladder. But today you won’t need to use it as a bunker.  The first thing you feel is the cold air, but that doesn’t stop you from placing your feet into the soft, white snow. It started snowing last night, but you expected it to melt again. Thick snowflakes are falling from the sky and the snow is at least 15 – 20 cm high. A gasp escapes your lips when you feel the coldness on your feet. You’re only wearing one of Yongguks shirts that reaches your mid-thigh. You try to catch a snowflake with your tongue and when you turn around you see Yongguk standing in the doorframe, smiling at you. “You’re silly.” He says, but he’s smiling. “It’s snowing!” you squeal again and he starts laughing. “I see. And you’re trying to get Pneumonia. ” He reaches out for you and you quickly run inside, shivering. “I can’t touch you! I’m really fucking cold!” You say, giggling the entire time; Yongguks only wearing boxer shorts and you stare in awe at the tattooed god in front of you. “Stop staring and go to the bathroom.” He slaps your butt and you run to the en-suite bathroom.  You hear him close the door and pull the curtains shut. “Turn on the shower!” You do as he says and strip yourself naked. “God you’re so hot.” His voice sounds raspier than usual and you shiver. He takes off his boxer shorts and you can see that he thinks you’re hot. “Go inside.” He says with authority and you do as he said, the scalding water almost burning your skin. You gasp in pain and feel him pull you out of the shower again. The floor in front of the shower is now soaking wet and he brushes your hair aside with one hand while the other hand turns the temperature down. You can feel his arousal against your stomach. He lifts you into the shower and this time the water is actually quite nice. The shower is quite large and actually requires two huge showerheads. Most of it is ground level but there is one spot that is a lot higher. It’s large enough for you to sit on it, maybe even lie down and curl up. He sets you down on that spot and kisses the tip of your nose. “You have to be careful.” He scolds you lovingly and carefully turns the temperature up step by step so your body can get used to it first. “I’m sorry for messing up the bathroom.” You pout and he shakes his head. “Don’t worry about it. I’ll call the cleaning personnel. They’ll clean everything up.”

He kisses your jawline and you sigh in pleasure. “Yongguk… we still have to wait.” By now, your willpower is almost nonexistent. “But I feel great. I just want to feel you again.” he kisses his way down to your breasts and leaves hickeys all over them. Then he takes your nipple into his mouth and sucks, causing you to become wet instantly. “Yongguk.” It’s only a whisper but it must have sparked something inside him as he immediately presses his lush lips to your core. You moan in pleasure and lean back against the shower wall, granting him better access. “You’re so goddamn fucking wet. Tell me that it’s for me.”  You raise your hips. “I’m only wet for you.” You put your hands in his hair to keep him in place but he carefully moves back, making you groan. “Are you fucking serious?!”  You almost shout and he leans back to let out a laugh. “You have to be patient baby.” One of his hands glides down your body to your core, playing with your clit  and then he carefully and slowly inserts a finger. “God. You’re so fucking tight. I can’t wait to be inside you.” You can almost feel yourself cuming already just from his words. It has been more than four months since the last time Yongguk and you had sex and touching yourself just didn’t have the same effect. You gasp and Yongguk immediately knows that you are close.  “Nu-uh.” He pulls the finger out and you sigh in disappointment. He raises the hand to his mouth and puts the finger in there, eyes locked on yours. You squirm in front of him and he smiles. “We have to wait. . ” you try one last time to do the right thing, but when Yongguk brushes the tip of his finger over your lip, opening your mouth carefully, your head turns off. The finger carefully slides between your lips. “Suck baby.” You do as he says and hear him gasp “You definitely have to do that to my dick later. Your soft lips wrapped around me. ..”. He removes the finger from your mouth and picks you up, pressing you against the wall. “Fuck this.” He says breathlessly and you giggle for a second because he will fuck this and you but your giggle is replaces by a gasp when you feel him enter you. “Oh god! I forgot how huge you are!” He stops moving for a second and gives you a chance to adjust to him before he starts moving. “I won’t last long. .” worry is written on his face. “I don’t care.” You kiss him and he enters you completely. He moves quickly and you can feel him stretch you. You actually need to stop a few times because the two of you are so close. He presses you against the wall, his moves hard and quick. His mouth is on your breasts again and when he takes your nipple into his mouth, you feel weak again. “I can’t anymore. . .” you say in-between moans and he presses you harder into the shower wall, his moves now more precise. Trying to hit your sweet spot – and he does. You fall apart around him and he follows you shortly after. He stays inside you a little longer and when he sets you down his eyes are sparkling with mischief. “You remember me. . .” he doesn’t even need to end his sentence. You’re already on your knees and take his dick into your hand, looking up to see his eyes fixed on you. “I missed seeing you do that. . ” He whispers and you lick his full length once, making him moan. “Be a good girl and suck.” The entire sentence is said with a sweet voice until the last word. You take him into your mouth and start sucking him. He moves his hands into your hair and guides you, but you notice that he’s a bit shy and doesn’t want you to take him in deeply after not doing it for so long. You look up at him, lock eyes and take him in as deeply as you can, you can feel yourself gag but try to suppress it as much as you can. He leans into the shower wall behind him and you can feel him grab your hair fast, a sign that he’s really close. Move back a bit, only his tip in your mouth and swallow every single bit of his cum. A few drops run out of the corner of your mouth and he looks back down at you, moves his finger to catch it and removes his dick out of your mouth, just to replace it with his finger. You smile at him as you suck him clean, swirling your tongue around it, making him remove it immediately. “Stop babe. Now it’s your turn.”Yongguk has always been really persistent that you should be pleased as well. “I’m fine.” You smile and go onto your tiptoes to reach his lips. “But Now that I’m warm again and hopefully won’t get pneumonia, I’d like to go to bed, have some after sex cuddles and sleep some more to continue in the morning. After we spoke to Himchan ” he sighs at your response and turns around once.. “See. I’m still in one piece.” He says cockily and immediately grasps his stomach. The romantic atmosphere is replaced by panic “Yongguk!” you look at him and touch his shoulder, trying to stay calm. He stands up straight again, mischief in his eyes. “Just kidding. I’m fine.” You hit his shoulder and he laughs. “Don’t scare me!” The pout in your voice is obvious. “I’m fine babe. Good as new.”

He kisses you and starts washing your hair, massaging your scalp. When is done with you he starts washing himself and then turns off the shower. “Let’s dry your hair and get you to bed.” He dries your body and takes your hand, pulling you back to the bed. Your wet feet leave small prints on the hardwood floor and you hesitate for a second but he just says “don’t worry” and pushes you onto the bed. “Lift your arms.” He commands and you do as you are told. He pulls a thick pullover over your head “we don’t want you to become sick.” He carefully rubs your hair dry and you hum in pleasure. “You like me playing with your hair?” you giggle carefully. “I like you touching me.” at first it hurts when he brushes your hair but as soon as it’s untangled you enjoy him brushing your hair. “Do you have a hair tie?” Nodding, you point at the nightstand. His slender fingers take one out of it and he starts French braiding your hair. Melody fell in love with him on first sight and she made him braid her hair many times. By now he is actually quite good at it and likes to try on you too. He ties the end and you touch the braid, impressed by his skill. “Thank you. ” You whisper and kiss his soft lips “let’s go back to sleep.” He lies down beneath the blanket and pulls you down next to his naked glory.”No clothes?” You ask and he shakes his head. “I want to feel your skin.” You smile, kiss him and fall asleep with your head resting on his shoulder.

 “What do you mean we could have had sex for weeks?!” Yongguk almost screams at Himchan and you actually have to physically hold him back from attacking the doctor. “I thought the two of you would last a week, maybe two. So I didn’t say anything. You lasted 8 weeks. That must have been a new record Yongguk. 4 month without sex.” You look at him “4 months?” Yongguk scratches the back of his head. “He wouldn’t even look at another woman. Let alone touch one.” You are surprised but pleased. “Don’t act so surprised. I love you. I can’t sleep with another woman.” His voice is low and you lean over to kiss him. “I love you too.”

 “Thank got you’re back. I don’t know how you’re able to do this, but I am not!” Zelo slaps Yongguk on the shoulder and presses a kiss to my cheeks. I’ve grown quite close to the other members over the past few months. “Leave my woman alone.” Yongguk growls and you look at him judgingly. “Your woman?” He looks at you sheepishly. “Not like that. Just saying that you’re my girlfriend. Not his.” You shake your head and run your hand through his hair. “Idiot.” He smiles at you. “Your Idiot.”

 “Yongguk brush my hair!” You sit in a chair on the other side of the room and watch Yongguk play with Melody. “But I have been brushing your hair all day!” He exclaims but grabs the brush and starts. The young girl has a serious crush on him and you hope that she falls for someone else soon. You’re not jealous of her, but you’d like to have your boyfriend back. “What about Y/N?” Yongguk asks and Melody looks at you. “Y/N brush Yongguks hair!”She instructs and you stand up. Today you are particularly tired since Yongguk kept you awake for the entire night, pleasing you in every way possible. “I think Y/n should go to bed. She seems tired.” You laugh and look at him. “I don’t know why I would be tired.” You reply sarcastically. You still feel sore and grimace when it stings a bit. Yongguk tips his finger on his lips, showing you to kiss him. “I’m sorry.” He whispers and looks you in the eyes. He hates seeing you in pain. “It’s fine. We’ll have to be careful tonight.” He nods and kisses you once more, before Melody reminds you that you are supposed to brush his hair. This almost feels like a small family and you ask yourself if this might be you, Yongguk and you daughter one day in the future.

“We have to leave now.” Yongguk voice booms through the big room.  It’s Christmas eve, almost Christmas day, and Yongguk walks over to you. “Why?”You were talking to Himchan about something you read in a medical book. “Because Santa will be here soon.”  He grins and bends down in front of you. You expect him to lift you up as usual, but he actually throws you over his shoulder. “Yongguk! Are you insane! I’m wearing a dress!”You scream and smack his butt. He holds your dress in place and carries you to his room and throws you onto his bed.

This might not be the dream of every single girl. And if someone would have asked you months ago, you would have said that it’s definitely not your dream. But now you can’t imagine anything other than your life with Yongguk. Your life as a part of this mess.

I can’t believe we are here! You look around, the Eiffel tower to your right, your favorite person on the planet to your left. “We are.” He kisses your temple and you look at him in awe. “How did you actually make time to go here with me?” He kept the entire thing a secret for at least two months. “I know we can only stay for three days, but I hope that’s enough for now.” You kiss him carefully. “Of course it is. Let’s go sightseeing!” Yongguk laughs at you excitement and you two start at the Eiffel tower and make your way through the city of love. When you arrive at the Notre Dame, Yongguk points at a small, round thing on the floor. “That’s the Point  Zéro. Its full name is Point  Zéro des routes de France.” You look at him and smile at his French. “What does it mean?” he smiles at you and brushes your cheek. “It means point zero of the roads of France. Legend says if you stand on the Point Zéro with your lover and kiss, your love will last forever.” You smile at him “well, we don’t need that, but it’s still cute, right.” You pull him over to stand on it and he leans down to kiss you. “Now our love will last forever!” You peck his lips once again and want to take a step back but Yongguk pulls you close again. “I actually want our love to last forever. .” he takes something out of his pocket and goes down on one knee. You gasp for air and people start staring and you, building a crowd. “And that’s why I would like to ask you, Y/N, if you would like to marry me.” You feel tears sting in your eyes and nod “Yes. Oh god yes!” The people around you start clapping and cheering as Yongguk slides the ring onto your finger. It’s beautiful and simple and you love it. He lifts you up and spins you around, kissing you before he sets you down onto the ground. “I love you.”

“What are you thinking about?” You’re eating breakfast with Yongguk and while Melody takes care of your beautiful baby boy. “How you proposed to me.” He smiles his gummy smile. “I was so relieved when you said yes.”  He takes your hand over the table “Yeah and I was so fucking terrified when I met your mother!” he laughs “it’s weird to hear you swear. You barely swear anymore since we had him.” You nod in agreement. “Yeah but I was terrified!”

You just left the airplane and return to the mansion. Yongguk steps out of the van first when you arrive and helps you out of the van. “Yongguk!” it’s a female voice. You hear heels running over to the two of you and step aside to see who’s there to find a beautiful middle age woman. It’s obvious that it’s Yongguks mother – Their eyes are the same. Your blood freezes and your body does the same. “Mum.” Yongguk says breathlessly and hugs her carefully. “Why are you here?” His voice is unsure. “I wanted to see you baby!” she looks over at you. “And who are you?”  There is clear disgust in her voice. Yongguk steps in front of you and shields you from her. “Mum. You shouldn’t talk to her like that.” He takes your hand and squeezes it. “Yongguk I told you that you should find someone you love.” She says in clear disapproval. “She is that person. Mum that’s your future daughter in law Y/N.” you step to his side and hide your face in the side of his body. “You proposed to her and didn’t even introduce her to me ?” You look up at Yongguk and now although you don’t want to show it,  there is clear disappointment in your face. He looks down at you as he feels the change in your emotions and raises your head to look  at him. “Babe. You know everything was quite stressful. I wanted to introduce you to each other but with you being kidnapped and everything I. . just forgot I had other priorities.” He kisses you and you calm down a bit, understanding why he forgot. You barely left his side after the incident. You were part of almost every single meeting, even if you just sit by his side, play with his hands and distract him. His mom clears her throat and you look over at her. “I’m Y/N by the way.” Your voice is small and Yongguk smiles at how shy you are. “Y/N? That’s a. . weird name. Yongguk are you sure you want someone like her by your side?”you don’t know why, but you always expected  Yongguks mother to love you as well. Just like her son does. Disappointment fills your every cell and small tears fill your eyes. You feel childish, because it’s just his mother and she won’t change anything about the two of you. But you want his  mother to like you to make it easy on him. “Mom. I don’t think you’re in the place to say something like that to my future wife. I love her. With everything I have and more. She’s everything I want in my life and if you don`t like her I have to ask you to leave her alone. . ” He pulls you into his side. “Yongguk…” you don’t want him to argue like this with his mother. She just gasped and now looks disapprovingly at her son.  “I’ll go inside. . ”you whisper and Yongguk just nods. You almost run inside and hear Yongguk and his mother argue outside. “Y/N what’s wrong?” One of your Bodyguards – Daehyun – looks at your face and immediately knows tht something’s wrong. The boys all love you and you are almost sure that Yongguk told them to stop you from leaving if anything should happen because whenever you are just remotely upset one of them is immediately by you side. “Yongguks mother is outside. And she doesn’t like me. . ” You sigh and look down. “Oh princess.” The others usually call you that because Yongguk teats you like one. If he could he would carry you everywhere.”She will fall in love with you like everyone here did.” His arms wrap around you. “and now don’t worry. Our chef prepared brownies and I think they are still warm.” You smile sadly at him and follow Daehyun to the kitchen where the two of you start eating the soft, warm brownies. “Do you really think she’ll like me?” you ask in-between bites and he just nods. “Y/N there you are!”Yongguks voice is full of relieve when he sees you and his arms wrap tightly around you. “Yongguk. I can’t breathe!” You squeal but he doesn’t loosen his hold. “God I was so scared you’d leave. .” He sounds like a young boy and your heart melts.” I wouldn`t“ You assure him and he let’s go to look at you. He’s slightly out of breath and you can see him running through the mansion, looking for you. “I know. I’m just so scared to lose you. I love you so much.” His voice is low and you hear a chair behind you. “I think that is my signal to leave.” Daehyun takes the left over brownies and leaves the room. “Why were you here with him?” Yongguk isn’t jealous. “Daehyun told me that the chef made brownies and said that they would cheer me up…” You smile shyly because the chocolate really did cheer you up. “I should thank him later. And you don’t need to worry about my mother. She’ll stay for a while and she’ll fall in love with you just like I did.” He rubs his nose against yours and as it turns out, he was right. Just a few days later his mother apologizes to you and says that she couldn’t think of a better person to be with her beautiful boy.

“But you didn’t need to. I told you that she would fall in love with you and she did.” Stands up and presses his lips to yours.  “I sometimes miss the two of us alone. Don’t get me wrong. I love our son just as much as I love you. But I miss our nights alone. I miss the sex.” He nips at your lip and you sigh quietly. He lifts you onto the table and you start deepening the kiss when. . “MOMMY!!” He’s crying. Thankfully it’s not the sort of cry that makes you run over to him, taking two steps at a time. Yongguk sighs and steps aside. Little does he know that you have a surprise waiting for him. “I’m on my way Yongnam!” You walk into your son’s room and see him on the floor,  the Ironman figure in his hand is missing its head. “Oh baby what happened.” You lift you son up and brush the small, round tears off his chubby cheeks.  He just shows you his ironman and keeps crying. “Yongguk? Can you stick its head back on?” You look over at your beautiful fiance. Melody is standing next to you. “He pulled it off accidentally and when I wanted to take it from him to fix it he started crying.” You pat the girls head. “it’s okay darling.” Yongguk walks over and takes the Ironman figure from Yongnams hands. “Look baby. Daddy fixed it.” Yongnam looks at it and smiles his gummy smile, the same exact smile that made you fall in love with Yongguk. He’s so much like your fiance. Yongguk takes him from you and hands him to Melody, kissing your nose. “Do you think we’ll have some time for us?” You both look at your son, who’s busy with his toy.  “I need to tell you something.” You tell him and he looks at you questioningly. “Let’s go to our room.” You both walk there and you sit down on the bed. “what’s up babe?” he sits down next to you and kisses your hand. “Do you remember when I told you about Yongnam?”

You’ve been staring at the small stick in your hands for the past 30 minutes. “I can’t believe it.” after not being sure about the past 3 tries, you bought one of those that tell you if you’re pregnant or not. And this one 100% says “pregnant” You and Yongguk both have been talking about children. You both want them and recently decided that you’d stop taking birth controlbut what if he didn’t expect it to happen so soon?     Yongguk is currently in a meeting and you told him that you didn`t want to go. That you didn`t feel well. At first you thought that you were just gaining weight. The two of you had been eating a lot recently and you had a weakness for sweets. But that is more than a weight gain. “How am I supposed to tell him?” you whisper “Tell me what?” You turn around. “Yongguk…” He looks at you and at the small stick in your hand. ”Are we?” he looks at you in disbelieve and you just nod slightly. “It seems that way.” In a few long steps he’s in front of you and lifts you into his arms. “I’ll be a Daddy?” you nod at him and he kisses you. “You’re not lying?” You shake your head and he smiles his gummy smile. “Can we keep it a secret. Until the second trimester? I want to be. . sure.” He looks at you again and nods. “We’re having a baby. .” He whispers in awe.. “I’m having a baby and you will bring me all the ice cream I want to have!” He smiles at you and  nods. “I will.” He agrees and 1.5 months later you tell the other members that seem to be more excited.

“Of course I remember that. I also remember almost losing you.” Yongguk says and brushes your cheek. You almost died during childbirth but thankfully everything went well and you guys are now a happy family. “Well … What do you think about another child?” Your question sounds innocent and Yongguk smiles softly. “Well. . . I’d love another child. You were so goddamn fucking beautiful when you were pregnant.  And when I first felt Yongnam kick; I swear my heart stopped beating for a second..” He kisses the back of your hand. “But we need to get married first. It’s only another month until we get married and then we can talk about it again.” He smiles at you and your heart sinks. He immediately notices that something’s wrong. Although he’s not really sensitive when it comes to other people’s feelings, but with you it’s different. He can sense the smallest change and won’t let it go until you’re happy and relaxed again. “Are you…?” The end of the sentence hangs loosely and you pull your hand out of his and look down. “I’m sorry if you think it’s the wrong timing. I’m also not that far along. I think I forgot  to take the pill or something when Yongnam was sick. I was just so stressed..  . ”Tears start pooling in your eyes and Yongguk takes you hand. “There is no bad timing for something like that. Don’t be mad at yourself. I’m excited… I really am. .” He pulls you into his lap and kisses your temple. “I just want you to be able to enjoy our wedding and not be sick.” You look at him, teas on your cheeks. “You don’t seem excited.. ” You explain and he laughs quietly. “I really am. I can’t believe it. I’m going to have another child…” You take a deep breath “I know. You are. And I will have to bring you ice cream. . ”He kisses you and you nod. “Better.”

A month later is the day, after more than 5 years of being engaged the two of you finally get married. “You look beautiful Y/N. . ” Your mother comes in and looks at you; she doesn’t really know Yongguk and you kept her out of everything to keep her safe. She knows who he is and keeps her distance from the two of you. Sometimes she’s disappointed in who you chose. Although she doesn’t tell you, you know that. “Thank you mum.” Yongguk and you get married on a beach. The last two years have been good to the Bang Mafia. There are now over 600 members and most of them are bodyguards today. Only a few selected people other than your family and the inner circle take part in the wedding. You look at your father, who walks in a few seconds after your mother and smile. “let me look at you. God you’re beautiful! What happened to my baby?” You see tears in his eyes and walk over to him “No crying! We Need to walk down the aisle now!” he nods and you kiss your mother on the cheek. You’re wearing a beautiful white dress. You are not yet showing, so you didn’t have any trouble fitting into the dress. You father and you walk over to the beach and wait for the music to start. You’re not wearing shoes and can feel the sand between your toes. “calm down Y/N.” You tell yourself and start walking towards Yongguk. At first, he doesn’t turn around and you almost feel a bit disappointed. But then he does and looks at you in awe, tears in his eyes and a smile on his face. Your father hands you over to Yongguk. “Take care of my baby!”He instructs and Yongguk just nods, taking your hand into his. You look him up and down, enjoying the sight of you man in a suit, something he rarely wears. “You look so beautiful… ” He says in awe and you could swear that he just wants to throw everyone out and fuck you on this beach, right here and now. The priest – an old friend of Yongguks father- starts talking again and you turn to him. When it’s time to say your vows you do so and watch your beautiful baby boy walk down the aisle with your rings. Then, the priest finally allows Yongguk to kiss the bride and he’s more than willing to do so. He was itchy the entire time, looking over at you, shuffling closer to you one baby step at a time and now he kisses you passionately. You can barely breath anymore and when he let’s go of you to lock eyes on you, you feel your knees wobble. “Mrs Bang.” He says those two words so lovingly that you feel tears coming to your eyes. You have been able to control yourself the entire time but now your tears start flowing.  “Babe…” His deep voice is soft as he brushes away your tears. „I know i said i wouldn’t cry but … “You hiccup and he starts smiling. “Thank you for becoming my wife.” His words just make you cry even more and since there’s no chance that you’ll start moving by yourself any time soon, he lifts you up bridal style and walks you down the aisle. Your friends and family start cheering and you can even hear some of the security guys cheer.

Later that night everyone is in a huge tent, music is playing and many of the security people are among the guests. They still have their guns with them – just in case.  You changed your dress and are now wearing a simple, white A-line dress that perfectly hugs your waist. You step away from the party and walk through the sand. “What are  you doing here?” Daehyun is walking up to you. “Nothing. I’m just thinking how it’s your fault I’m married.” You look up at him and he laughs. “Don’t talk like that. You’re glad, be honest. You’re married, you have a son, a loving husband…” the two o you start walking along the beach, the water tickling your feet. “Well. Actually I might have another daughter or son soon…” You say quietly and he stops walking. “You’re pregnant again?!” Excitement is written on your face. Daehyun loves your son almost as much as you. “Yeah. Thirteen weeks.” You blush and run your hand over your still flat stomach. “And you have not told us?!” he grabs your shoulders. “What if it’s a girl!?” Daehyun wanted you to have a girl back then, so he could shower her in gifts. “Does Yongguk know?” He asks and looks at your stomach. “Of course I know. . ” You hear the raspy voice of your husband and look to your right to see him walking towards you. “I told him a month ago.” You explain and Daehyun hugs you and then hits your husband’s shoulder. “Good job! That also explains why you have been so protective of her!” Yongguk nods and wraps his arm around you. “I have been looking for you. I was worried. “he kisses your temple and looks at Daehyun. “Let me leave the two of you alone. .” He walks away, back to the tent.  “Are you okay? You should have told the bodyguards. Or at least me.” if anyone else would have said that, it would have sounded like scolding, but Yongguk just sounds worried. “I know. I just needed some air. .” You are now looking out on the ocean and Yongguk stands behind you, head resting on your shoulder, his hands on your stomach. “I can’t wait for you to actually show.” He whispers and you smile. While you were self conscious throughout the pregnancy, Yongguk made it his mission to tell and show you how beautiful you were in his eyes. He enjoyed the fact that you were even hornier that usual and that your breasts were bigger. “You are just looking forward to us not leaving the bed until noon because we’re…Busy.” you say and blush. He turns you around and leans down to your ear “Don’t be shy babe. I’m already looking forward to it.” His hand brushes the curve of your butt, and carefully makes its way up the front of your dress. “I am really looking forward to it.” he brushes over your wet panties and you moan quietly. “Not now babe.” You say, using all your willpower. “Just because it’s your wedding day. Later tonight I won’t be so nice. ” He promises.

It’s one of many promises he has told you. And there are many more to come. He will promise you pleasure. He’ll promise you his time. He tells you late at night before leaving on a mission That he’ll be back alive. That he’ll never leave you alone. But most importantly, he promises you that he’ll love you forever

Today they spoke about the left over members of Black Widow – the group that kidnapped you what feels like forever ago and held you captive for over a month. Whenever they start talking about them, Yongguk loses his temper. “Just kill them. They don’t deserve to breathe the same air as Y/N.” His hand is on your thigh, close to your knee, and wraps tight around the soft skin. You rest your hand atop his and look at him “Yongguk. Be reasonable. I don’t want you to kill them.” You say quietly. There are women among them that probably started just like you. His forehead wrinkles and they start discussing the situation again, while you study the book Himchan gave you. When they notice that they won’t reach a conclusion today, they move over to the next topic – Something Zelo seems to be passionate about as his voice is raised. Yongguk leans back in his chair and his hand rises on you thigh until it touches your core. He’s just resting it there at that point and you swallow. The others are far enough away not to notice when his hand nonchalantly disappears in your pants and a finger enters you.  You gasp and everyone looks over to you, resulting in you blushing. “Sorry. Paper cut.”You explain and Yongguk takes your finger and kisses the invisible paper cut. The others fake gagging noises and you blush harder. “Let’s end his here.” Youngjae says and everyone stands up quickly and leave the room, leaving the two of you alone. Yongguk pulls his hand out of your pants and you pout at him. You get picked up by him and he sets you down on the huge, wooden table in front of you, kissing you hard and passionately. “Yongguk. What if someone comes in?” you whisper and he just opens your pants and pills them down. “I don’t fucking care.” His voice is rough as he runs his hand through your hair and tips it back, kissing your neck. You feel the pull on your hair and gasp. His mouth on your neck makes you gasp and press your legs together in order to get some kind of friction. You feel him mark you, leaving hickeys at the curve of your neck, making you sigh in pleasure. “Yongguk please!” you beg and he just shakes his head, kissing down to your breasts painfully slowly. He pulls your shirt down along with your bra and kisses the soft skin carefully. “You’re so fucking beautiful.” His left hand starts massaging your right boob as he starts sucking on the other nipple, making you moan out his name.  “Again. Say my name again.” He demands and when you down he stops and looks down at you. You pout and stretch to kiss him. He hastily pulls down your pants and opens his zipper and enters you without any sort of warning. “Fuck!” He growls and presses you down onto the table, grabs your legs to grant him better access and enter you deeper. “You’re so fucking tight.” He rests his hand between your breasts to keep you down – carefully but with pressure. He starts picking up a quicker pace and enters you as deeply as he can. You moan his name and he grabs you by your hips to move even quicker. “I’m so close” you almost scream and he just moves faster, wanting to make you cum around him and you do. He moans and empties himself inside you. You’re still laying on the table in post orgasmic bliss when he picks you up, sits himself down on the table, everything while not pulling out of you. You start kissing him and move your hips, making him moan. You kiss down to his neck and start sucking on the tender flesh, leaving your mark there. Yongguk has been possessive over you ever since the beginning and enjoys marking you, loves you wearing his shirts or when you smell of his cologne because you spent so much time close to him. “Yongguk. I can’t anymore.” You say and let go at the same moment, feeling him deep inside you while you cum again. He keeps rocking his hips and cums inside you for a second time. You rest your head on his shoulder and lean against him. “Babe?” Yongguk whispers, a smile in his voice.  You just mumble something and sit there with your eyes closed. He moves in order to pull out of you and you whimper because of the overstimulation. “I’m sorry.” He whispers and picks you up, setting you down on the table. You open your eyes and look at him; his eyes are fixed on you hungrily but he pulls his pants back up and helps you put yours back on to carry you safely to his bedroom; setting you down on the bed and taking your clothes off again. “Someone’s tired…” Yongguk whispers and sits down next to you. “Well I didn’t sleep all night because SOMEONE kept me busy.” You say and he smiles softly. “Well who?” He asks, taking his clothes off and laying down behind you, spooning you and kissing your neck. “we’ll continue later, okay?” You promise as he hugs you close to his body. “You don’t need to feel forced. Plus I won`t be home tonight. We planned something. I will only be able to stay with you for another few hours and then I’ll have to get up and leave.” You cuddle into him and pout. “I know babe.” You close your eyes and fall asleep only to be taken up what feels like a few seconds later by Yongguk moving. “Go back to sleep.” He whispers and kisses you lips. “When will you be back?” He shrugs and smiles at you. “Don’t know yet. I hope it won’t take longer than a few hours. I want to be back before you wake up.” He bushes through your hair. “Promise me.” He sighs and smiles at you. “Again?” You nod and he kisses you once more.

“Did you sleep well? I know, this is no 5 star hotels and no mansion, but it should be quite comfortable.” He says with a smile. You can see him through the metal bars and have to admit that he is rather handsome. His face is slim with high cheekbones. His eyes are as light as honey and dark lashed frame them, but they are not as dark as his thick, curly hair. His body is fit. The black dress shirt fits him perfectly, as if it is tailored for his body.  “I guess you are one of Yongguks enemies and are trying to get to him through me?” You say, sounding almost bored. Yongguk was right, it was too dangerous to leave, but you didn’t listen and now you’re in a cold, dirty cell. It makes you angry that he was right. “You are such a criminal master mind. Are you sure, that you want to stay with that loser? You could always just change sides. Join us.” It sounds like a joke but your response makes his jaw drop. “There are two problems. I actually don’t want to have anything to do with this entire mafia business and second Yongguk and I broke up and he won’t care if you have me.”He quickly calms himself down and looks over to you with a frown on his face. “You’re lying.” The statement sounds so convinced and you are aware that he is telling the truth, but you keep a straight face. Although you broke up with Yongguk less than 24 hours ago you feel your heart screaming for him to safe you. “Do you think he would have let me leave the mansion without him?” You have a point in this and you pray to god that he realizes the same. “Youngjae was watching you.”  This catches you off guard. “He was just making sure that I’m not telling everyone about them.” You pray to god that he believes you and relax slightly when he swears under his breath. “That means you actually are useless to us.” The door opens and you think that your prayers have been answered until he hits your cheek. Hard. You scream and he pushes you to the floor, your head slamming into the hard material. “You are fucking useless. Just another nameless slut he fucked and then threw away.” A foot kicks you into your stomach and you can’t breathe anymore. “FUCK!”The man screams and you flinch. This is not good. You realize that by admitting this you actually became worthless to them. Just a toy. His rage scares you but at the same time you feel like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders. He will leave Yongguk alone. You just hope than Yongguk won’t care and won’t bring himself and the others into danger. “Why didn`t you know?!” He screams at the handsome stranger that picked you up at the club. Park. . Something. You can’t remember his name. Your stomach still hurts from the kick and the person who kicked you – the leader apparently – turns around. “We will find something for you. Just stay here for now.” He kicks you another time and you cry out in pain. He leaves the cell and turns the small light outside of the cell off as he leaves you alone in the darkness.

You don’t know how much time goes by. You know that they came back to hurt you 10 times – not counting the first time. They would hit you, pull your hair, kick you and do other stuff. The leader had other people with him and one of them liked to strangle you. They wanted you to tell them stuff about Yongguk but you wouldn’t tell them anything. You broke up because you felt like he didn’t care for you anymore, but that doesn’t mean that you don’t love him. Cause you do. And you can’t betray him like this. Because if you actually survive this you would never be able to forgive yourself. They would always scream at you, insult you and do unspeakable things to you. And you were so close to breaking down. Every day they were eating away at your will power. The only thing that kept you strong was the young girl that would bring you your food every day. She was about 6 years old and had bright blonde hair with blue eyes. You knew that she didn’t belong to them and you didn’t dare to ask her where she was from. She would come in every now and then. Sometimes she would carry a bottle of water and other times she would bring you food. The food wasn’t bad actually but you couldn’t force yourself to eat it, so you offered most of it to the young girl. She was painfully thin and you prayed that they weren’t treating her as badly as they were treating you. One day they took you out of your cell to take a shower. They actually left you alone to wash yourself and when you were able to look at your body in the mirror you broke down. You lost a noticeable amount of weight and there wasn’t a part of your body that wasn’t covered in bruises. The hated Yongguk for what they did to you, but at the same time you loved him enough to keep quiet.

Today was the 21st time they came in to beat you and by now you were sure that your body would give up soon. You felt incredibly weak and could barely move anymore. Their leader – Jumin – was inside your cell today when you heard gun shots.  “What?” He mumbles and steps back. He closes the door to your cell behind him. More shots can be heard and you hear the door to their small prison open. “What are y-” A gunshot shuts him up and you hear something tumble down the stairs. You are lying on the floor, facing the metal bars. A stranger steps closer to your cell and gasps as he sees you. He does not look familiar and the gun in his hand looks so out of place. His face is young, almost childish and innocent.  “Boss! There is someone here! A girl!”  

Your cheek is blue and it almost hurts to look at it. Your neck, however, has it worse, as the handprint is clearly visible on it. “Yongguk will go crazy.” You whisper and as if he heard you say his name, you hear him open the door to his room. “Y/N?”  Shivers run down your spine, whenever his dark voice calls out for you. “Bathroom!” you call out and realize that you are only wearing your lace underwear. “You know that I love this view, but it would probably be better if you would wear something when you’re in my room. The others tend to come in without knocking and it would be a shame if I would have to hurt them because they saw you naked. .”He casually walks over to you and kisses the unbruised cheek. “This will take some time.” He mumbles as he rests his palm flat against the other cheek. “I know. It hurts when I talk or smile.” His forehead wrinkles and his hand moves down to your neck. “This one looks worse than it is.” You assure him and remove his hand from your skin, only to press a kiss to his knuckles. “Don’t be mad. I’ll be back to my old, unbruised me in a week or so. Until then you’ll have to be gentle with me. .” He shows his adorable gummy smile and kisses your lips softly. “I will-. .  Well I’ll try.”  He says, smiling. “Do you know anything about the . . .  man from last night?” Your voice is low and all the sweetness in his face is replaced with coldness. “Don’t worry about it. I’ll take care of this. . Situation. ” His voice is deadly and a chill runs down your spine, making you shiver beneath his fingers. He notices and wipes the expression off his face. “You should get dressed. I’ll get breakfast and then we’ll have Himchan check out your bruises. I want to be sure that there isn’t any more damage that we might be unable to see.” His eyes are fixed onto the bruise on your neck and you place your hand onto his chest. “I know a lot of other things I’d like to do now instead of eating breakfast.” He clears his throat and steps backwards, clearly aware of what you mean by this statement.  “I-Um.”  He coughs and adjusts himself.  “Fuck. Not now, okay. Not while you have a bruise on your neck and cheek.” It is visible, that this is hard for him to say. “When you’re better Y/N. I swear. I just. . I don’t want to hurt you even more. And it is hard for me to control myself around you sometimes. Control my emotion.” His confession catches you off guard and you look up in surprise, your hand drops from his chest to your side and you are speechless. “I. I know this is a lot. Maybe too much even. And I know that I am too much sometimes. But. . . Whenever I think about you leaving me – and believe me that thought crosses my mind more often than you think – I feel so lost. So please just. . help me figure this out. Please help me become better at this.” You stare at the man in front of you, speechless after what he just said. “Yongguk. . .” he clears his throat once more and steps back. “I’ll go get breakfast.” Seconds later you hear the door to the room close. “Help me become better at this.” You mumble to yourself as you realize that this is probably the first time Yongguk is faced with this situation. That he has never fallen in love before. That he might not even know what real love is, since he grew up in a world that doesn’t allow love. Where someone you love is a weakness and needs to be avoided at any cost. Your heart hurts for the small Yongguk that had to grow up surrounded by death and loss. The young boy with the full hair and the bright smile that never had a normal live and couldn’t play outside like others. You walk over to his closet and choose a black sweater that reaches your mid thigh. You can’t imagine him wearing something like this. You realize that you can’t imagine him wearing comfortable clothes all day, staying in bed with you. You can’t see yourself going out for dinner with him. But you can see yourself with him in your future. And that picture is what you’re going to hold on to. .

Yongguk’s POV