V would definitely only realise his feeings after Cheecky’s death (breaking my own heart again)
The lyrics hit a little too hard because theyre quite specific, I made them gender neutral though
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“Well, you only need the light when it's burning low. Only miss the sun when it starts to snow. Only know you love them when you let them go.”
V realising he needed Cheeky to be the light and warmth of his life because after they died it got way too dark and he became even colder. His little darling wasn’t there to hold him or make him feel better in any kind of way.
“You see them when you close your eyes. Maybe one day, you'll understand why everything you touch surely dies.”
He can’t get them out of his head. Their kind eyes and smile, their gentle touches and soft demeanour. Even as they lay dying in his arms, they smiled up at him, their warm hand pressed against his cheek for one last time.
“Staring at the ceiling in the dark, same old empty feeling in your heart. 'Cause love comes slow, and it goes so fast”
He feels empty and cold without them. It took him so long to realize he loved them and they were gone before he ever had to chance to tell them. It seems like everyone he cares about ends up dead because he wasn’t able to protect them.
“Well, you see them when you fall asleep. But never to touch and never to keep”
He dreams about them, about memories with them. The way he regrets avoiding their gentle touch when they initiated affection and now craving it. But it will always be just out of his reach because even his dreams turn into nightmares once he remembers what happened to them.
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This is just my personal association with this song, feel free to add more <‘3
Every night was a battlefield unlike any other the minute you were ripped from his life, seemingly destined to be like every other version of you...
But your death came much later than before.
As he wakes from nightmares screaming and sobbing - he some times wished he never met you.
Never got to know your kindness and warmth.
Never fell in love with you.
But even he is long since aware that he could never regret any of that.
Sometimes his dreams were kind to him, gifting him loving visions, but even then it left him feeling hollow at the reminder.
... He knew maybe the gods would be merciful enough to give him his whole afterlife to show you how much you meant to him; if they didn't drag him to hell for his misdeeds.
V knew something for certain though....
He was never going to fall in love after you.
~ Dari
