#madam asks

24: Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.

A [man] is only as good as [his] word. My grandpa told me this and for some reason it stuck. I’ve always striven to be honest as a person of my word. That doesn’t mean I don’t lie. My kids believe in the tooth fairy and Santa Claus, but I’m gunna be 100% honest here, a part of me does too! 

However if I say I’m going to do something I do it. The timeline I originally meant for it to happen on might fall through, but if I said I would do it I will. If I have nothing else I have my word.

26: Talk about things you do when you're sick.

I take some medication and power through. I can’t afford to miss work and I don’t have time to be sick. My vacation time and sick time get set aside for when my kids are ill or daycare is closed. The older two are pretty ok to be alone on their own, but not together. The youngest is only 3 and I can’t rely on baby daddy to help (the fucker can’t even take the kid when he’s supposed to).

God it’s miserable. But oh well. Working poor. It’s great.

39: Talk about things you wish you'd known earlier.

High interest savings accounts - just get one, put money in there. Twenty bucks even. I’ve had mine for 3.5 months, $100 every paycheck, and already made $2.00 in interest. WHAT THE FUCK?

Don’t fucking bother with stocks, you can fund loans to other people? Wish I invested in that first.

Trades. I would have fucked out of college and gone into a trade. Don’t know what exactly, welding maybe? Carpentry. Something useful that will be around long after I’m gone. Plumbing. Who the fuck knows.

Healthy coping mechanisms. My dudes, mental health is aces. The tops. Please focus on this. Your meat computer matters. So does your flesh vessel.

People shouldn’t make you feel not powerful. Like, I never realized that the people around you shouldn’t demand you to be smaller so that they could be bigger.

It is perfectly acceptable to be angry. It is okay to be motivated by rage. It is acceptable to have a “If I could kill one person”. Anger is just as healthy emotion as all the others and I’m so tired of this faux-perfect/happy culture that’s getting pushed on people. It’s just as toxic as the macho man facade. 

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Jade swam hard, hitting the glass as if she were attacking the redhead. She wanted to be free. She missed her mates. She missed the ocean and the air of the docks she was caught on.