I get this question a lot: "Mad-Cat, if you're bisexual, why haven't you dated more girls?"

There's a few parts to the answer.

The first and only girl I ever dated cheated on me with two dudes, at the same time, crushing my spirit. My mother crushed any feelings I had toward ladies as a child with her neglect, manipulation and gay bashing. I still think vaginas are ugly (though I've found a few that are nice looking.)

But most importantly, I've met someone that not only makes me happier than anything, he completes me and makes me feel not only like a person, but a woman.

And I can't thank him enough for that. 

"If your mother is so bad, why don't you move out?"

I don't have any money to leave, and currently I'm dependent on my dad's health insurance as it pays for my expensive lung medication.

I also don't have anywhere to go.

In fact, I did try to move out once. Well. She kicked me out because I stood up to her passive aggressive bullshit. 

She actually threw textbooks at me when I told her to stop rifling through the bag I packed. (She was making sure I didn't take anything of "hers" or that "she bought me")

I moved in with good friends, but they couldn't let me stay for long. I also ended up getting really sick, so sick I couldn't get out of bed for more than a few minutes. 

My boyfriend is moving in sometime in mid-January, since I'm going to be going to school full-time, he's going to get a job and this will really help the situation. 

We're planning to get our own place by 2016. 

"Why don't you want to have a baby? I'm sure you'll change your mind when you're older."

First of all, no. If you say that, you really don't know me. I don't like babies. I really don't. I assume when they are born Satan himself comes to them as they are expelled from their cozy mother-den into the cold, unforgiving world and gives them the power to shriek like a fucking banshee. 

I've only liked one baby.

My friend's baby is so sweet and quiet I'd adopt her in a heartbeat. 

Another reason is, both me and Cochino have bad health. Bad headaches and migraines run in my family. And I mean bad. I've missed days of school because I'd wake up and start sobbing from the pain. I've had lung problems all of my life. Mental illness runs in my family too. Cochino, while a sweetheart, also has muscle problems and other health issues he'd never wish on a child.

Childbirth is also difficult for someone my size.

My mother had to have her tubes tied and burned after I was born because her body could not handle any more children. And that broke her heart. I really think she subconsciously blames me for that.

I'll adopt.

My mother was adopted.

There is too many people bringing children into the world already.

When we save up enough money, Cochino will be "fixed" and we'll adopt when we're ready.