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I'm sitting in front of the computer late at night. I'm watching some "interesting" material, wearing headphones so the sound doesn't wake up my boyfriend. Suddenly the door opens behind me. It's my boyfriend who heard some weird noise and came to investigate. He gets a good long look at what's happening before I have time to close the computer.

I admit that it isn't the first time this has happened. He says that he doesn't know what to say. I tell him that this doesn't have to change anything. He says he isn't sure about that.

Two months later, I'm moving into my new apartment. The first thing I do is hang a "Black Lives Matter" banner on my bedroom wall.

I think it's about the same.

If my bf left me, I think I'd try Tinder. Upload some bikini pictures and a profile text that suitably hinted at my interest in Black men. Start swiping, chatting, and dating.

Thank you, it isn't easy to keep this part of myself secret from him. And I think you're right: He wouldn't take it well if he found out. I doubt most guys would be thrilled to know their girlfriend is fantasizing about other men so different from yourself.