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“I also still visit a psychiatrist, because last year i have been suffering from a very deep suicidal depression. All had begun with a simple (and not dangerous) physical illness that i had transformed into an orrible monster. I really lost total control over myself. The surgical treatment works as a cathartic moment of purification. I remember i spent some nights on a tree with a rope tied around my neck - thinking about certain events and the complete control over my body.”