I just need to say what hurts me the most about REPUTATION. Itās the song called DANCING WITH OUR HANDS TIED. My heart breaks every time I listen to it. Especially lines: āSay that we got it I'm a mess, but I'm the mess that you wantedā. I remember when Taylor said that sheās just like the fox. She needs to run and hide to live happily. Sheās always judged. She has eyes on her no matter what she does. She felt like she was living in a gold cage. Haunted. In this environment of her, itās so uncredibly hard to find someone who really likes you for what you are, who cares enough to know your secrets, your weakness and dreams. Your real face and heart, as it is when nobodyās watching..
Ā So listen to lyrics carefully. Taylor sings, that she loved him from the very first sight, without a reason. Her emotions have been frozen for a long time, I think that is because she wanted to protect herself. When you love someone, you give this person a huge power toĀ āpush your buttonsā (your daily mood and feelings depend on this one person). She sings he painted her golden. Itās like she drowned in love for the guy. She even didnāt know why. It wasnāt because of.. , more likeĀ āin spite ofā. In spite of her past, in spite of all those people who smashed her heart before, and all her fears, sleepless nights, crying on the floor. Taylor wanted to trust him. She started fresh. She had hope that maybe this time will be different. She was ready to spendĀ āforever with his handsā near her. With his face in her mind every single day. She took the risk. She took the bullet.What can we say. Taylor was ready to faceĀ difficulties, worries andĀ threats posed by the future. To give him everything she had inside. To cherish him, protect him and to be not only his lover, but most important - best friend. To always support him. Now, we need to focus on the fact why they didnāt have a happy ending. So.. he painted her golden, yes. He promised that nothing is going to change his feelings for her. That there was no such thing in the world that could divide them.. Then history repeats itself. They were dancing with their hands tied,Ā āthrough an avalancheā (media, looking at her every step, judging her every single choice, punching flashes into her face). She was hoping and waiting for him to say that itās allright. That they got it. They can handle it - together. She wanted him to admit, that yes, sheās a mess, but he loves her as much as she loves him, and because of this, they areĀ invulnerable, bulletproof and fearless. Unfortunately it didnāt happen in the end. He withdrew, he could not bear the pressure. He gave up on her. He couldnāt take it anymore. Why do we know this? Look at those lines: ā I'd kiss you as the lights went out Swaying as the room burned down I'd hold you as the water rushes in If I could dance with you againā Itās the saddest part. It shows not only, that he left Taylor, but also, that she doesnāt mind. I mean..she has no regrets about him, she doesnāt see him guilty. She is not mad at him. She understands what he did. Itās like she wants to say, that sheās the reason they couldnāt last forever. She takes the responsibility. Do you see this, guys?? Can you believe this?? ItāsĀ outrageous for me. It breaks me.Ā ā..if I could dance with you again..ā!!! It looks like she thinks thatĀ ā Yeah, Iām a mess, itās my fault, my fame and all the media around me are unbearable. I get it. I canāt expect you to handle this shit. I understand. Good luck. Iām just gonna sit with my cats. Alone. You still deserve best, I could still do anything for you. Itās me. Iām sorry.Ā ā Like, honey.. no! You wanted to handle anything for him. To be always there for him, to love him no matter what, to always support him, protect him. You gave him your best. You didnāt judge him by his reputation. You were ready to danceĀ āthrough an avalancheā. You were full of hope and faith. You trusted him. ALL HE HAD TO DO WAS STAY and he didnāt! He didnāt try enough for you! It breaks my heart, really. It freaking kills me. Iām so happy that you found someone right now, who is worth something. Who is better for you. Takes you as you are. Who can stand this mess. Make an effort for you. @taylorswift, youāve always deserved it. You deserve best. Take care. xxxx