#lyricsatmidnight

honey i miss you so we used to be so close too close for comfort at least that’s what some others said

for me you were my comfort „my one and only, my lifeline“ i could dedicate so many taylor songs to you i haven‘t done that for anyone else

best friends, soulmates, lovers we didn‘t have any of those labels we just had each other and it was right like that

life brought me you by accident just at the right time („once in twenty lifetimes“) if i ever had the greatest luck it was on the day that i met you

there‘s this big pang in my heart everytime i think of you now actually, i catch myself barely thinking of you and then feeling so guilty about that but it‘s not cause i forgot, it‘s cause my heart tries to protect itself from all that wells up everytime i do think of you

when you walked up to me i thought you were a dream i couldn’t really believe what i witnessed so you were gone just as fast

like a dream, i barely managed to grasp you in my memory but you’re there, very faintly always a reminder

of what we could’ve been, could’ve had the fates are cruel like that

how could they show me that everything i’ve ever wanted actually exists (and might want me too) just to take you away again in the blink of an eye?

yesterday my heart soared and it smiled as big as never before because we talked

doesn‘t that sound so silly? we just talked, but like actually talked, for the first time in four years

i couldn‘t stop smiling the entire time and my heart couldn‘t help feeling alive again

feeling so full of love the only thing it couldn‘t do was tell you that

i only want you when i know i can‘t have you that makes it less real in my head and only when i‘m not scared shitless by commitment i think 'bout being in your bed

i could‘ve made it happen countless times but then i don‘t want you anymore how do you keep forgiving all my crimes i know i wouldn‘t deserve you at all

you‘ve never been anything but kind to me always so sweet and always good even my mom adores you, actually you just got to see how much of a bitch i could be

it takes an awfully sleepless night for me to come to all these realizations i don‘t know whether i‘d like to hold you tight or just cut off all our ties - for your sake

i‘m truly sorry for the mistakes i made all of the things i didn‘t tell you when i really should‘ve still i don‘t have the guts to  straight up apologize to your face