#lyingbeauty

I’m sorry, Father. I didn’t mean for anyone to be harmed.

He’d said it more than once, a lifetime ago, an ebony-haired child playing at tricks with a girl he had invited to the palace; an adolescent doing the same; a young man absolving himself of blame where the young, magical woman took the brunt. He seemed to be saying it again now, when everything had gone black after the stars were blotted with purple flame, only there was no one else to take the fall.

I’m sorry, Father. I didn’t mean for anyone to be harmed.

- I know, Loki. You did what you thought was right.

Was that not what you always did?

- Yes. And no. Too many times I let my anger guide me. You are more like me than you know, Asgardian blood or not.

Is this it now? Will they let me into Valhalla?

- No, they will not.

But - but why? Because I’m a -?

- No, my son. Because you are not yet dead.

He woke in a bed, in an atmosphere, on a ship. The beautiful, familiar face watching over him made him think for a moment that he truly had gone to the afterlife. Cruel reality struck when he drew breath to speak, feeling his throat erupt with burning pain. What were supposed to have been words passing his lips were instead a rattled wheeze. He had been healed enough, whether by his own magic or another’s, to breathe again.

He would have to summon an illusion or wait until he was better, but for now he forced himself to manage just one word, the name of his rescuer.

▶He had been watching for some time. The reasons were many, and all of them were his own and his own only. There was amusement, jealousy, admiration, enchantment. It was the confidence she wore about herself, it was her eloquent manner of speaking, it was her ability to get what she wanted.

It was the way she had practically hypnotized that boy she spoke to, and whatever her motives were, the young prince was thoroughly impressed with skill such as her own. It was borderline embarrassing.

                   ❛    IF  YOU'RE  LOOKING  FOR  MY  OAF  OF  A  BROTHER  ,  you'll  not  find  him  here  —————  i've  hardly  seen  him  since  he  lost  his  hammer  .  and  if  you're looking  for  me  ...    ❜    nose  wrinkles  at  the  thought  .    ❛    ...  i  can't  imagine  why  ,  and  also  ,  i'm  very  busy  tonight  .  i  have  an  entire  season  of  project  runway  i'd  planned  to  marathon  in  one  sitting  and  i'd  really  rather  not  interrupt  it  .    ❜

@lyingbeauty​ asked “Please tell me what’s bothering you.”  { therapy/trauma/post trauma starters }

@lyingbeauty​ asked night terrors { loud & deafening silence starters }

night terrors .   hold  my  muse  after  they  wake  up  from  a  nightmare

Loki trusted very few people; especially outside of his family. He wasn’t popular like his brother was, and had very few friends he could rely on. In fact, he would say with absolute confidence that the majority of his friends; were actually Thor’s friends, and Loki simply hung out with them by proximity. It was possible he was being too hard on himself, but given the sneering remarks they often made about him, it wasn’t an unfounded opinion to have made. 

Amora was just one of those people who Loki had come to see as a friendship he had more than his brother. She and Thor did get along, but nowhere near the depth that she had with him. It was nice being the preferred brother for once; and it wasn’t uncommon that Loki would spend evenings with her; rather than be dragged along to another tavern by Thor and his friends. 

Tonight, had been one of those nights. Loki had spent the evening with Amora, reading through ancient texts in the library and practicing new spells to add to their growing repertoire. She was one of a handful of people who didn’t mock him for using magic; so of course, he wanted to share his knowledge with her. Some time between discussing alchemy and it’s properties, he must have fallen asleep, because when he awoke with a terrified scream to find the library shrouded in darkness, he realised that night had long since fallen.

"Instead of running into it for a change?"