no, i despise you!
denial [ ft. scaramouche, xiao ]
in which scaramouche canât seem to get you out of his head, and leaves xiao wondering why his heart rate increases at the simplest mention of your name
all works by luvmouche on tumblr
đˇ sfw! get comfortable and warm âĄ
đˇ cw// denial, blushing, flustered scaramouche, confused but scared xiao, kissing, confession, mentions of alcohol, modern au, college au, work au, scara is a dork, xiao is dumbfounded at his love for u
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scaramouche
things werenât meant to be like this for him.
he vowed to himself heâd never let himself be vulnerable to anyone again,
so why? why is it that he canât stop thinking about youâthe way you smile, talk, or even the way you ever so slightly brush your hand against him.
why is that in your presence, he starts to fumble his words, his cheeks heat up and he just simply canât stand to be there for 5 seconds longer before his heart bursts?
well, he soon found out his answer to the questions heâs been asking himself for days on endâit was love.
âwhat?!â he stands up, slamming his hands onto his desk and his eyes are practically bulging out of his sockets
âyeah, i said it,â his coworker, childe scoffs at him, âyouâre in love.â
ânoâno. youâre wrong, i am not in love. i will never be in love.â he says, crossing his arms and squinting at childe.
âbelieve whatever ya wanna, but iâm preetty sure you are head over heels, mouchie!â childeâs laughter fills the room, signora rolls her eyes
âsignora, tell him! iâm seriously not. and donât call me that.â scaramouche grits his teeth in annoyance, and they both look at signora for an answer
she sighs, âiâm on childeâs side for this one, scara,â childe bursts into laughter, holding his stomach from the pain with a bunch of âi told you soâs, much to scaramoucheâs disappointment. âi meanâitâs plain to see you have clearly deep affection for [name], why are you denying it?â
scaramouche narrows his eyes at the both of them, âjust, because! i mean, could you imagine me, scaramouche, falling in LOVE? i sure as hell donât!â signora smiles softly at him, âlove isnât necessarily a bad thing, though. who knows? maybe youâll find it comforting.â
âspeak of the devil!â childe grins at scaramouche, earning a hard glare. you walk into the office, âsorry iâm late! i was caught up in some heavy traffic.â you huff, plopping your things onto your desk.
scaramouche immediately stiffens, his ears turn pink. âuhâhey, hi. hi, [name].â his once glaring gaze at childe shot immediately to the floor, his eyes unable to meet yours.
you chuckle, âhey, scara. you okay? youâre completely red,â you walk over and feel his forehead with the back of your hand, he flinches and steps back, âah, noâiâm fine. donât worry,â he laughs nervously and childe raises an eyebrow, smirking.
âdonât tease him too much, [name],â signora calls, her eyes glued to the computer as her slim fingers type onto the keyboard. âtease? why would i ever do that to scara?â you smile, giggling.
âanyways!â childe calls out, âtomorrow is finally the weekend, who wants to drink? say i!â scaramouche groans, âwhen do you not wanna drinkâŚâ
âoh câmon, mouchie!â childe grabs him down to his chair, putting his arm around his neck and ruffling his indigo hair, âdonât be like that, weâre partners after all!â scaramouche gags, âwe are NOT. get off of me, iâll kill you!â
âlively as ever, hey?â you laugh, âiâm up for drinks though. iâve got nothing better to do,â scaramoucheâs head shoots up to look at you, âfine, maybe i will come.â he mutters to childe, âyay! âgnora you cominâ too?â
she looks at him with pure disgust, âno i will not drink with the likes of you. but since [name] is generous enough to come, i will consider it.â he sticks his tongue out at her, âwhatev!â
another day of work is fulfilled and after your shifts have ended, you all go out to drink just like you said you would. childe drinks to his hearts content and scaramouche sits in the corner sipping his juice with childe constantly nagging and burping in his earsâmuch to scaramoucheâs disgust. signora gossips with you throughout the entire night and you indulge in it.
childe is knocked out and signora volunteers to âtake his drunk ass homeâ which leaves you and scaramouche alone.
âhey, [name]?â your eyes shoot up to scaramouche, tilting your head. âyeah? whatâs up?â
you looked gorgeous to him, he couldnât take his eyes off of you. his heart rate started to increase, beating faster and faster. just what was this feeling? it felt warmâcomforting, or even safe.
âi think iâm in love with you,â he blurts out and you almost choke on air. âwait, what?â
his repeats it once more, his heart welling up with nervousness but more importantlyâfear. his eyes unfocused, but trying his hardest to stare directly at you. his lips quivering, cheeks dusted pink and tears about to spill out of his pretty eyes.
âscara,â you chuckle, âsay it one more time for me?â
he sighs, âjeez, fine. iâm utterly and undoubtedly in love with you, [name]. iâve fallen for you and i canât think straight when youâre around as if you put some kind of spell on me, itâs infuriating and confusing. i hate it, but i canât bring myself to deny it.â biting his lip and his fingers digging into his hand, he silently awaits your answer.
but there wasnât any answer to come, the only thing that came next was your soft lips connecting to hisâtender, sweet and lingering. you pull away, and smile.
for the first time in his life, he feels the world start to become colored. his eyes sparkle, tears threatening to spill. âthis is my answer, scara.â you take his hand and squeeze it gently, cupping his warm cheek in the other.
his heart was beating so fast, but not from fearâit was from the pure love and happiness he felt in that very moment. he may have denied access to his locked heart that was tucked away for many, many years; but you found it.
xiao
heâs never understood the concept of affection for someone else
heâs never understood it,,, until he met you.
something about you just clicked in his head, the way youâd talk, laugh, the pattern of your breathing, even the awkward little things that you did
all of it made his heart flutter with joy, he thought it was stupid, but he eventually came to terms about it
he was nervous, scared that youâd notice the way his cheeks bloom with heat around you. so scared of the feeling of rejection, the mere thought of it had him tearing up
his endless affection for you confused him, it left him stupid. thoughts flooded his mindâthoughts such as âwhy is my heart feeling this way?â or even âthis is stupid, love is stupid..â but he knew it was even dumber the way he couldnât talk to you without freaking out
eventually, he started to avoid you. hoping that heâd forget about how he felt about you, but it only made him ache more
so imagine his surprise when you show up at his apartmentâarms crossed with pouty lips and furrowed browsâdemanding to know why heâd been so off
âwhatâs wrong, xiao? is everything okay?? why have you been avoiding me!â you huffed in anger, âdonât you know how worried iâve been?â
you bombarded him with questions, but he never expected you to actually show up to where he livedâŚbut he didnât particularly mind it.
âs- sorry. iâve just been,, busy..â his eyes move to the floor, but you had other plans. you took the palm of your hands and pressed them against his cheeks, forcing him to look at you.
âxiao, why wonât you look at me?â you pursed your lips, âitâs like youâre an entirely different person now! itâs weird.â you sighed, eyes dropping to the ground.
he was completely and utterly stunned. your pretty face was so mesmerizing to him, even though you were clearly visibly upset.
he chuckled, âiâm sorry, [name]. i really am.. forgive me, okay?â his smile was all that you needed to reassure yourself. that cute breathless smile that struck your heart strings every time you saw itâalthough it was rare.
âare you sure?â you tilted your head and he placed his hand on your own and nodded, âyeah, iâm sure. just been something on my mind lately, iâm sorry i inconvenienced you.â
that apparent only angered you more, âdonât say that! youâre not an inconvenience, i think youâre perfect.â you blurted out loud without thinking, but you wouldnât take it back. not now.
he was taken aback, and thatâs when he knew. he reaffirmed himself many times that youâd stay with himâas friends, of courseâno matter what heâd say about himself as a person, yet hearing you say he was so perfect in your eyes was the trigger.
âgod, youâre so dumb. you donât think before you speak and youâre so impulsive i just want to knock some sense into you, but i love you so much [name],â he squeezes your hand thatâs still on his face, amber eyes fully focused into your own, âi love how impulsive you are, how gorgeous and sweet you are. iâm just so stupidly in love with you it makes me laugh.â he giggles, but deep down, heâs so scared. heâs afraid, knowing nothing will ever be the same again.
you were at a loss for words, tears welling up in your eyes as if you were getting proposed to. the only word you could muster up was, âxiaoâŚâ
those were the only words you spoke before you quietly leaned into his pale face, heat rushing up to your cheeks as you gently pressed your lips against his. they were perfect, fitting against your own as your eyelids fluttered shut. his arm pulling your waist closer to his warm body.
your heartbeat matching his, your shared kiss engraving a moment in time before you abruptly pulled away. his chest was heaving, face completely flushed and lips parted, your gentle laughter echoed at the sight.
âxiao, will you be mine?â
he nodded, his eyes softening at your words, âof course, [name]. forever and always.â
a/n: SORRY IT WAS KINDA LAME. but anyways heres the long awaited flufffâŚâŚâŚ. i have to finish something else soon BUTITSOK i will do it by christmas for all of u albedo lovers (hint hint) OK BYE IM FINALLT DONE WITH THIS ONE.
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