@lucifcr said: “ if you don’t have to go , don’t . ”
THE TIP OF HIS thumb grazes across the pulse of her wrist, a tender touch that leaves a trail of electricity in its wake. She’s wearing only the scent of his cologne, her naked legs twisted in his silk sheets. They have come together as gracelessly as animals in the wild. Once, Diana fancied herself a teacher, guiding him through the art of lovemaking. Instead, it was Lucifer who was the instructor, displaying to her that the union of two bodies could indeed be a meaningless thing, a primal instinct rather than a portrayal of deep emotion.
She feels empty inside afterwards. Especially on nights such as this, when they invite strangers into their bed. Her heart is hollow. Not because she failed to enjoy herself; no, it is precisely the opposite. Rather, she quite relished the feel of a stranger atop her, their chests grazing and their hearts beating against one another. What does it mean when pleasure can be derived from such carnality? Nothing at all, Diana decides. There should be no shame in such encounters.
Why, then, is Diana melancholy? Because he does not love her. Either he refuses to do so, or he simply does not. My darling, the devil does not love, he would say, not hearing the shattering of her heart. Perhaps not. Nevertheless, the devil is loved. By her.
She stares down to where his skin meets her skin. He’s asking her not to leave. He’s asking for her to forsake her mother and crucify the blooming of summer. Diana looks at him with hooded eyes. A challenge lies there.