#lua vents

im so. so tired of adhd. like yeah theres some fun sides, but please please just let me function. the simplest of the tasks feel like im climbing a mountain. hate the feeling of being paralysed, begging myself to just do something but i simply cant. i just. sit and stare at the walls or at a screen for hours, yelling and crying in my head but unable to move. every fucking day. this is so exhausting

ok but what about losing a friend and you miss them every single day, you see them everywhere, but then they try to reconnect and you just cant bring yourself to it because its not the same anymore

i NEED my family to give me one day. one day without talking abt job, money and what i should be doing instead and "ik you have mental health issues and untreated adhd, but why arent you trying for this job opportunity thats gonna make you miserable and burnt out in a week??"

why does everything have to be a battle. why can't I have one easy thing for once. it's not fair. it's not fucking fair

god im so tired

whats up with this new trend my brain has of making me feel extremely lonely and insecure and making my rsd peak like crazy between 7pm-8am. its summer here, the darkness is shorter, whats going on

what part of my personality do I have to change so these genres of people will stop approaching me. maybe I'm too kind or considerate or whatever. maybe I need to care less

old habits die hard huh