#ltierlaly

intimidating and i mean i cant even go into a crowded store without shjaking and having some sort of panic attack

and i mean i want to go i reall y want to go but im on my period and thios medicine is fucking with me and i jsut i dont know i dontk now its making me stresse thinking about it but i f i dont thikn about it then what will i do???/ i need to make up my mind

i need to stop switching from 'hells yeah im gonna go and fuckin ride the rides and feel fuckin gr8 shit yes adrenaline' and this weepy-eyed nervous wreck that jumps at the smallest sound and wants to throw up and cry and just give up on everytihng

its stupid and awful and i feel terrible and wow typing this hasnt helped at all god damn it someone just choose for me 

but odnti mean i want to be in control i want to make the decision

im the person in control of myself right so i mean i should choose

go or dont go

stay or dont stay