#lowerrowyaps

I love their cutie little interactions and that they seem to understand eachother without words (as the first people to properly do so probably) but I feel like this loses a lot of it's real value of they were to be in a romantic relationship!! Maybe that's a personal bias, but it loses depth since, in a relationship, it's more likely to be expected to understand and protect the other.

I mean usually your friends also look out for you and stuff so you could deem my argument as irrelevant, but in my heart, deep down I just can't see any "sparks" between them. Maybe I just like my relationships with personality conflicts or a little more of a rocky road beforehand, I dunno!!

it actually never occurred to me to hate mel just because she killed maddie 😧😧

Of course Mel was partially responsible for maddies death just as much as maddie was for firing the bullet, but in my opinion they were both victims of ambessa. I would've loved for them to have a spinoff together tbh maybe of their time back in Noxus or something.

The arcane fandom isss difficult. I don't really like a lot of fandom spaces so I just do my own thing most of the time 😭

Anyhow I was pondering and wondering what ANIMAL would Maddie most likely be? You guys should get in on this. I wrote down some things I've seen or came up with on my own. You'll see most of them are coded to her orangeness 😭

Crime lord Sevika taking up Silco's mantle in the underbelly of Zaun while babyface rookie Maddie follows in her idol's footsteps by conducting her own investigation on the new biggest threat to Piltover aside from Jinx. The cat and mouse dynamic where Maddie finds out too late she's in over her head and Sevika is suddenly ordering her goons to stay away from Officer Nolen and "keep her face nice and pretty for me"

It's so funny to me like yeah let's send Officer Small in to defeat Big Mama.

Hrrr I just love the idea of them!!!

I love the idea of ShimmerAddict!Maddie being comforted by recovering!Sevika!! I love the idea of Leader!Sevika trying to run Zaun better than Silco did but this stupid freckle-faced Ginger keeps getting in her way!! I love the idea of Council!Sevika being put under Maddies protection and she just squints at her and goes "who's protecting who".

I wrote the entire piece yesterday, on 4 hours of sleep and after seeing a post discussing people who don't want to have sex. Not even talking with them or understanding experiences, but simply stating how "at least after marriage they have to do it".

I'll be really personal with yiu guys here, because that one really hit a nerve and I just saw another debate about this again. This time the consensus was reached that "asexual people shouldn't get with sex-favourable people". Which is insanely wild to me. If you can't respect your partners boundaries or understand that your needs don't align, that's not a failure on their part. Of course you're allowed to have the preference of wanting someone who knows will meet your needs, but saying something like that, like it's a rule and law is insane to me.

Ive heard it in other areas as well, the idea of just only grouping the likeminded together. Surface level a good idea, maybe. You'd think everyone will be happy, but instead you're just causing a divide. Not to mention that nature is never 50/50, so someone will always be empty handed. What's really happening is that you're not allowing people to branch out and think for themselves. In no time it'll be unthinkable to be anything but what you are yourself, if you only fuck mirrors all the time.

Also, saying this as someone likely on the acespec, why does the perception of people revolve around sex?? Maybe I just don't have the necessary standpoint, but if someone announced to me that they never want to have sex, it'd be like being told they don't wanna become a lawyer. I don't care what they do with their lifes! But I know some people who will be all up in arms about it and pity the "poor husband/wife". Hello?!

First up, that *should* be a thing previously discussed before becoming long term, but due to the stigmatisation it often isn't. Which is why that leads to issues later on. The amount if stories of "they stopped having sex and their marriage fell apart", could've probably all been solved by some proper communication beforehand and by stopping the expectation that "marriage/relationships = sex".

And I'm sorry if this is foul, but if your marriage is held together by sex?! Yikes.

All that to say: that fic is really really important to me, because asexuality or a low sex drive is honestly underrepresented in media, which plays a huge part in the stigma around it. It sounds stupid, but I had to take multiple breaks while writing, because those soul crushing comments, expecting you to give up your body for love, kept coming back to me. May that kind of love never find me.

This is also a longwinded explanation on why I'm more into writing fluff or angst instead of smut. I know from research that the sex posts get more attention, but I also know that there's readers out there that sometimes just wanna read some intimate relationships without sex (No hate to either ofc, Im guilty of browsing certain tags with 0 shame). The fact that I'm catering to those people while at the same time writing for a less popular character obviously gives me less attention, but I see each and every one of your interactions and get giddy with excitement. When I see usernames being repeated in my activity feed, it feels like coming home.

I guess let this be a lesson that just because it isn't what the majority wants, doesn't mean it's bad. Be the change you want to see and write the things you would've wanted to read (or request them from me hihi, shameless plug)

Take care, I love you guys <3

Edit: After being made aware that sex positive and sex favourable aren't the same thing, I had a look into it. They are used interchangably, but that's a mistake! So I changed it in this post (I hope I didn't miss anything). Sex positive = broad term for reproductive rights, body positivity and inclusitivity as well as the right to have or not have sex. Sex favourable = An (asexual) person who likes sex and might enagge in it (Not sure if it's a term exclusive to the acespec community). If you didn't know this that's chill, I didn't know either! But this totally helped be more mindful about my vocabulary in the future yay!!

It took a while for them to feel genuinely comfortable around each other after Cait broke off their situationship and got back with Vi. As hard as Maddie tried to act unaffected by it, she was crushed, and it took Caitlyn an embarrassingly long time to get it through her head that being intimate with your subordinate, then dumping said subordinate right as you move into a shared living space with her for work is a BAD IDEA. She's since taken accountability, and Maddie has forgiven her, but there's a lingering tension when the two are left alone.

Despite their past, Maddie's still eager to follow Caitlyn's orders, both on and off duty, like the people pleaser she is. What has changed, though, is that Cait appears more sensible with her authority now. She's become less stubborn about her plans, opting instead to arrange several backup strategies should the need arise, and more proactive when involved in interpersonal conflict with the team members. She's also finally learned to acknowledge her mistakes, which started with apologizing to Maddie for the way she handled their inappropriate workplace relationship (because that should NOT be swept under the rug, but it's such an uncomfortable and interesting situation to create a redemption arc from).

Caitlyn doesn't patrol often, as they have an odd number of people and need to move in pairs, but when she travels with Maddie, they. talk. books. She has to be extremely careful about sharing what she's recently read, however, because now she knows Maddie will look for the titles to read do they can discuss them together, and Cait CANNOT get caught liking smut again.

Somehow, someway, these two will always get sick at the same time. Food poisoning? Just them for whatever reason. A cold? They're sneezing in sync. Allergies? Maddie breathed in pollen right as Caitlyn drank from the dairy milk carton in the fridge without paying attention. When they're both under the weather, it's normal to find them sharing a bed with Vi acting as their reluctant nurse.

Slight side-note: Maddie's grandparents don't know about them being together (they would freak) but they suspect something's up. Her grandmother in particular doesn't trust Cait with her baby's heart like that, and is holding out hope that whatever crush Maddie might have on her will fade when she finds another lovely girl to be with.

hell yeah I love this, in assuming you're 🔧-anon because of the style and the grandparent thing, if that's wrong I'm sorry🤓🤓

Anyway they seem to be getting along kinda which is awesome because I've seen maddie villanised so often for this relationship this is so nice!!!

I can also imagine though that sometimes it could get awkward when vi, maddie and cait are together but I'm not sure exactly for who lmao

How are Vi and Maddie doing though. Is vi still an enforcer and goes on the clean up mission too? 😼