#lovethroughlow

In the quiet moments when the world feels heavy and uncertain, I find comfort in one unshakable truth... my love for her. It is a love that steadies me when emotions become too loud, a warmth that wraps around my heart when everything else feels cold. She is my calm in the storm, my saviour in moments of doubt, my reminder that love can be both fragile and fierce, yet endlessly enduring.

When life tests my patience and strength, I think of her smile that pure, effortless light that cuts through my darkest thoughts. I remember her laughter, her words, the way she makes the world feel gentle again. Through her, I’ve learned that love isn’t just something we give, it’s something that saves us again and again.

Tonight, I made a conscious choice to embrace stillness and keep the door shut on negativity. The mind, like a restless sea, often drifts toward worries, regrets and “what-ifs.” But not tonight. I chose peace over overthinking, calm over chaos.

I off the lights, took a few deep breaths and let silence wrap around me like a warm blanket. No space for the past’s weight or the future’s unknowns... only the present moment mattered. In this moment, I let go of things beyond my control. I reminded myself that it’s okay not to have all the answers and even more okay to pause, breathe and just be.

Negative thoughts may knock as they often do but tonight I won’t let them in. Instead, I focus on gratitude... small wins, kind smiles, simple joys. I hold onto the quiet strength that comes from choosing peace when chaos is an option.

Tonight feels different. The usual swirl of thoughts has softened into stillness. And beside me, she sleeps peacefully, quietly like a sea of calmness I never knew I needed.

Her breathing is steady, her presence grounding. Just watching her reminds me to slow down, to let go of the noise that fills my head. There’s something healing about her calm, something that wraps around the room like a gentle tide.

In this moment, I don’t need answers. I don’t need to fix anything. I just need to be here with her, in this quiet night that asks for nothing but presence.

I love you for reasons both big and small, obvious and quiet. It’s in the way you look at me not to judge but to truly see me. You listen, not just to respond but to understand. You’ve always had a way of making me feel like I’m not alone, like my thoughts matter, like I matter. That feeling of being seen and accepted is something rare and something I never take for granted.

I love you because you make life lighter. When I’m with you, even the hard days feel a little easier. You bring a spark to my world. Your presence alone has the power to bring peace to my chaos. You remind me of the good that still exists in the world and in me. I love how you carry yourself. You're strong but soft, driven but kind. You’re real, never pretending, never putting up a false front. And because of that I’ve felt safe enough to take down my own walls around you. I’ve shown you my doubts, my fears, my insecurities. That wasn’t easy but I did it because I trusted you.

But that’s also where the hurt lives. I struggle deeply when that trust is broken. When I open up and hand over the most delicate parts of who I am… only to hear them thrown back at me in the middle of a arguement. That isn’t just harsh.. it’s betrayal. When you uses my own vulnerability as ammunition, it doesn’t just hurt, it wounds. Deeply. Because once I feel emotionally unsafe, I withdraw. I shut down. And what hurt even more? When I was at my lowest..  jobless, lost, uncertain about everything, you emotionally checked out. Or worse you might left altogether. That’s a pain I don’t forget.. because in that moment, it felt like you didn’t love me, you only loved the strong version of me. The man who had it all together. And no man ever truly forgives being abandoned in his weakness. Love isn’t just about being there when I’m smiling.. it’s proven when I’m breaking. When I’m not easy to love. When I’m drowning and hoping you’ll reach in instead of stabbing me with your sharp tongue. That’s when I needed you most.

Still, I love you. I love your laughter, your flaws, your strength. I love the way you challenge me and support me when you’re present. I love how you bring light into my world when you choose to stay. I don’t ask for perfect.. just for real, honest love that doesn’t run when things get heavy.