#loveletterstomyself

-you did something hard even though you were scared. be proud of that.

-you made a mistake but owned up to it and now you are changing for the better

-you handled an anxiety attack poorly at first, but then you fought your instincts and used your healthy coping skills

-you went to get help from a professional

-you took your medicine, ate, and asked for help when you needed to

-you allowed yourself to cry and then took some time alone to reflect

-you are becoming:

more brave

more self-aware

better at coping

kinder to yourself

a better friend

a better listener

This feeling is starting to feel familiar again, lost..i don’t wanna cry, does she feel the same? My ptsd creeping up reminding me to that moment of me, wandering what is my worth..am I..enough to her?

No.

no..I’m not, I keep telling myself. I have to keep reminding myself that that’s okay. Not everyone will see that and it’s okay, as long as I see my myself, this is my time to really grow and become true to my nature.

Life has a lot of curves but this was something I didn’t want to come too. But I owe it to myself to stay strong and face my fears. IM NOT UNLOVABLE, IM ENOUGH, I WILL..bring myself to the higher grounds and stay vulnerable to accept any love that comes my way.

It’s okay you have to understand she isn’t going to find anyone “better” than you but someone that’s better for her and so will you and that’s okay, keep positive. I’m proud of you for being a better soul by acknowledging it and not interfering any potentials for them even how much it hurts. She’s happy and full of hope and that’s enough for you. Let her thrive and let her go. I know it isn’t easy but don’t be selfish and focus on us. Kaidou is still here, ur derpy chonky all ass pup haha I love you duuuude!

Love,

Self-love

How have you been?

It has a heartwarming feeling, I went to talk to my close friends and letting them know what I’ve gone and grown thru and apologizing for going emo on them bc I knew my negative energy and I didn’t want to bring that to them but they understood and yet they still sat thru my emotions and lifted me. I’m never gonna forget this feeling of self peace and knowing that I’m accepting a lot of things. We even got high from my edibles that weren’t even strong and played the figure out the gibberish on Instagram. Wow we were so stupid but laughing and enjoying each other made me really miss my friends and how I was and I’m going to keep looking for myself and I know I’m on the right track. Im starting to understand what my love is and I’m going to stay true to myself. Haha I just gotta keep being honest to myself and know that I’m not alone and cherish everything that feels real. But yoo I’m deciding to do more for myself, I made like 5 dishes and made pho today and it was pretty fucking good for my first try and dancing again to help me love music again and be stress free. Lowkey wandering all these hobbies I never pursue bc I was afraid. Picked up ukelele so let’s see how this goes haha

This is a reminder for myself of my progress because I know I will achieve my happiness

Love ,

Myself