#love!!!!!!

Something I'm realizing as I spend more time in this fandom is as a queer person I knew little to nothing except the basics about queer history and am well used to what it feels like to be in the closet. Now I see posts about the history of this community and all the branches in it often on my timeline and I’ve learned about horrific queer days and people and smaller things like national coming out day and learned to remember pride month is in June and it's all so, it's such a strange feeling because I belong to this community just as much as any queer person but I never thought of these things before. None of this information from fellow queer people of all ages and backgrounds was readily shared and I didn't think of it as an everyday thing because I wasn't taught anything else but to live and think like a straight person even though I naturally don't default that way. The weird thing, though I wouldn't want it any other way, is now when things are happening in the community or there is an important day I'm aware of it and it's strange to see my family is not aware. Also my phone/my laptop it's full of just gay gay everywhere. rainbows and queer mutuals and history, instead of censoring curse words I'm censoring gay jokes or queer group chat names and lowering the brightness when the timeline is just harry being harry especially with rainbows. I'm happy I really am but the more I'm a part of it and proudly the more I'm aware that I've got to pretend I don't know things or that I didn't just witness harry happily helping someone come out. Anyway. It's not bad it's not. So many people have had real struggles. This random message may come off mixed because that's the reality but I am far happier more often than I am bummed. That was the point, that I'm truly grateful for all the things I've learned, I feel respected and always welcomed💞