#lovabletomholland

You have been on Tom's team as his PA for a while now so you can tell when things are starting to get to him. He has done several interviews. An LA premiere and now you are currently on the red carpet at the London premiere. You can see the distress on his face though he is trying to hide it. ‘Hey Mr. Holland look over here!’ ‘Mr. Holland over here!’ ‘Mr. Holland look this way!’ ‘Mr. Holland on your right!’ "Please don't shout at me. Please don't shout at me." He asks the paparazzi calmly. He stands in that spot a few more seconds as they continue to shout orders for him to do this, look this way, stand over there. "You call that a smile?!" Another shouts over all the others. You see the stress in his eyes and then the panic before he quickly walks away. You follow him through the door into the theater. You find him leaning against the wall. His hands are over his face as he shakes uncontrollably and it looks like he is having trouble breathing. "Mr. Holland," you say cautiously as you walk up to him. He moves his hands and looks at you, "My chest hurts," he manages to gasp out. He is having a panic attack, he has only had one other before but it wasn't this bad. "Feel like..." he takes several short breaths, "I'm dying," he finally manages to get out. "Mr. Holland, you will be alright. This will pass." You tell him calmly. "It is a panic attack, and it will pass. You are safe, it won't last long." "Tom," he breaths and you are confused at first, "please... Tom." He gasps. You know during these his responses will be short, curt. You think he wants you to call him Tom though. "Mr. Hol-" you stop yourself abruptly, "Tom." You amend and you see him visibly relax a little. "Okay, Tom do you want to go somewhere else?" You ask and he nods. "Okay, we will, right now I need you to take deep breaths for me. Okay? Can you do that?" You ask and he nods again and you watch as he tries to even out his breathing. Last time this happened you read up on what to do about it, you know touch helps but you aren't sure what to do. He is your boss, you can't just go touching him. You push that aside and take his hand, giving it a squeeze. You take only a second to call for the car so you can get him out of here. "Okay, Mr. H- Tom, the car is on its way. I am taking you to your hotel. Keep breathing for me, okay?" You smile reassuringly at him and feel him squeeze your hand in response. His breathing is starting to slow down and you are relieved. When you get the text that the car is waiting, you guide him out putting your arms around him to help him in the car, making sure no one sees. You get in after him and you see the relief in his eyes the moment you are next to him in the seat, "Don't worry. I'm not leaving," you reassure him. You are surprised when he rests his head on your shoulder and you unconsciously comb your fingers through his hair and that seems to help more than anything as you just talk to him about things he enjoys. In just a couple minutes his breathing has completely gone back to normal and he is no longer shaking. You know the panic attack is finally over. You get out of the car after him and he takes your hand as the two of you walk inside. This doesn't surprise you, touch continues to help even after the attack is over. So you don't think anything about it. In his hotel room you go to leave as he takes off his jacket, "Wait," his voice stops you, "do you mind staying with me just a little longer?" He asks and you nod. You can tell he is still upset about having a panic attack in such a public place. No one saw. You made sure of that, plus the rest of the team has confirmed it. "Of course Mr. Holland. Whatever you need," you smile kindly at him. "Please just call me Tom." Oh oops. It is hard to get out of a habit. "Sorry.. Tom," you say and he smiles weakly at you. "I think I'm going to take a nap. Do you mind staying until I fall asleep?" He asks and you see the vulnerability in his eyes. You know he hates to show that, so the fact that he is, just really proves how much today or even the past several days have messed with him. "I will stay as long as you need me to," you answer him. He smiles and grabs a change of clothes. He changes in the bathroom. When he comes back out he gets in the bed and you pull a chair up next to it so the two of you can talk. You just talk to him about silly things and you even manage to get him to laugh several times. You can tell he is feeling much better when he finally falls asleep. That is when you realize, to your horror, that you have been combing your fingers through his hair. You jerk your hand away immediately. You get up and deal with the chaos of Tom leaving the premiere early. When you are done, you feel exhausted and collapse back in the chair next to Tom's bed. What a day. Before you know it, you are asleep yourself. *** When Tom wakes up he has a splitting headache. He groans and covers his head with a pillow. Last night was horrible, and embarrassing. He can't believe he had a panic attack at a premiere of all places. His thoughts suddenly shift to you, his PA, which is something he had been trying really hard not to think about lately but that has been more difficult. His mind often wonders to you and after last night, he has a feeling that will happen even more often now. He enjoyed the feeling of your hand in his, of your fingers combing through his hair. He involuntary shivers just thinking about it right now. Tom shakes his head with a groan, he should probably get up but he just doesn't want to deal with the mess of yesterday. Unfortunately, his bladder needs to be emptied. He sits up making the pillow fall off his face and that is when he sees you, asleep in the chair next to the bed, exactly where you were when he fell asleep. Tom rubs his eyes and looks again, you are still there. Well, good at least he isn't seeing things. He feels bad, you do not look comfortable in that chair. He thinks about moving you to the bed but he's scared that will wake you. You must have been exhausted to have fallen asleep in that chair in that dress. Oh what the hell, he's going to do it anyways. He gets up and scoops you into his arms and then transfers you to his bed. He pulls your heels of your feet and then covers you up. Good, you didn't wake up. He smiles and then goes to the bathroom. When he comes out he hesitantly looks at his phone and is surprised to only see messages from his family and friends. None from his team about last night. He looks at you and sighs, you must have dealt with it last night. No wonder you were exhausted. It is while he is ordering room service for the two of you that he hears rustling coming from behind him and he realizes you must be waking up. He hangs up and looks around to see you stretching with a yawn. Your eyes meet his and then he watches them widen before you look around frantically. Tom watches as you get off the bed quickly and fix your dress, "Mr. Holland, I am so sorry! I didn't mean to fall asleep in here that was very unprofessional." You start looking around, he assumes for your shoes. "And I have no idea how I got on the bed, I was in the chair last night." Tom gets up and grabs your shoes, "You looking for these?" He holds them up. You look up at him suddenly and nod. You walk over to him and take the shoes, "Yes, thank you Mr. Holland. I will go now. I am so very sorry." Tom cringes as you call him Mr. Holland again. He has asked you so many times to just call him Tom. Last night you finally did, he was hoping you would continue to do so. It looks like that won't happen though. "Y/N it is fine. I'm the one who moved you to the bed by the way. The chair didn't look very comfortable. Thank you so much for yesterday. You knew exactly what to do." Tom sighs and decides to try again with the name thing, "And please, it's just Tom." "Thank you... Tom." He can tell it is weird for you to say his first name. "And it was no trouble at all." He watches as you sit in a chair and put your shoes back on. "I just ordered us some breakfast. It should be up here soon," Tom says. He watches as you nod, "Okay. Is it alright if I use the restroom?" Tom nods and watches you until the bathroom door closes behind you. *** Once you are safely inside the bathroom you splash your face with cold water and lean against the door. You cannot believe you fell asleep in here last night and Tom moved you to the bed?! Your cheeks are heating up just thinking about it. It is very unprofessional to have a crush on your boss. You have been trying to nip it in the bud for several months now. It just hasn't worked. You sigh and compose yourself before walking back out. You see that room service has come and your stomach grumbles. You did not eat dinner last night. Neither did Tom. You sit down at the table with Tom and he smiles at you, making your stomach flutter. It would be so much easier not to like him if he was a mean boss. Tom was very kind though, to everyone. "So I wasn't sure what you like, so I just got everything," he tells you, "plus I am starving," he adds sheepishly. "Sounds good to me," you laugh and dig in with him. Talking with Tom is easy going. The two of you have always got along well but it seems after last night the two of you have grown closer. Which honestly probably isn't a good thing, considering your crush. You have come to accept the fact that it probably won't go away and it will just be something you have to deal with. Once you finish it is time for you to go to your own hotel room. You have several things to do anyways and it is time to get on it. "Thank you for breakfast Mr. Holla- I mean Tom." He grins at your mishap, "No problem, Y/N. See you later, yeah?" "Yeah. See you." You walk to the door and Tom accompanies you. "Thanks again for last night." You hear him say as you feel him touch your arm. You turn to look at him, "No probl-" you are unable to finish your sentence because suddenly his lips touch yours but as quickly as they were there, they were abruptly gone. His cheeks are bright red when you finally look at him and you're sure yours are too, "I am so sorry, Y/N! It was- I mean-" he sighs and takes a deep breath, "I was going to kiss your cheek but you turned your head. I am so sorry!" He finally manages to get out. "I'm so sorry! I didn't know!" You exclaim, embarrassed. "I know, it was my fault. You don't need to apologize." He tells you. The both of you continue to apologize, red faced, until his hotel door closes behind you. As you walk to your own room you can't help but touch your lips and smile. You can still feel a tingle there from where your lips met his. Damn, this doesn't help your crush at all now, does it? 

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Previously - Prologue

Your door swings open and the twins walk in, "Rude, ever heard of knocking?" You say but you have a smile on your face. "You finally came back!" Harry grins as he plops down on the bed with you. You scoot over to make room because Sam plops down right next to him. Next thing you know you're sandwiched between them and they're crushing you in a tight embrace, "Why didn't you say hello when you got in?" Sam asks with a frown, "Clearly you didn't miss us at all." "Of course I missed you guys." You hug them back separately and fiercely. "You were asleep when I came in and I didn't want to wake you." "Well we had to hear about it on the beach. We overheard Tom talking about you." Harry shrugs, "So we came back up to the house." Tom was talking about you? That's weird. "I'm sure he was just saying how big of a nuisance it is to have me back," you roll your eyes and close your book. Clearly you won't be getting any more reading done today. "That's not what he was saying at all." Sam says and shares a look with Harry and both of them start grinning. Oh, god. "What was he saying?" You ask curiously. You assume it can't be anything good, especially with the look the twins just shared. "He will kill us if he finds out we told you." Harry says, a mischievous look crosses his face as he looks from you to Sam. "But we're going to tell you either way." Sam shrugs, he has the same mischievous smile on his face as Harry. "He was telling Harrison how stunning you looked when he saw you up here." Harry tells you with a smirk. "Yeah, I swear I saw drool coming out of his mouth." Sam adds with a chuckle. "Oh, stop it!" You laugh and shove both of them. You're sure they're just pulling your leg. They know about your once was crush on Tom. "No need to tease me anymore. I am no longer crushing on your older brother." "We're not teasing you. It's the truth." Harry tells you. "You may not be crushing anymore but he definitely is now." Sam laughs. "And he is crushing hard." You shake your head and hit both of them, which you should have known not to do. It's two against one. Next thing you know you’re on the floor of your room, getting tickled by both of them and you try to wrestle them off but you're too weak from laughing so hard plus they are both stronger than you. The three of you look up to the door as you hear someone clear their throat. It's Tom. The twin's hands still and you sit up quickly fixing your dress from where it was hiked up your thighs from movement as you tried to fight off the boys. "What's up?" You ask. Was Tom's eyes on your legs just a second ago? "Um," you watch as Tom gulps, his eyes meeting yours, "your brother is about to start grilling by the pool. Mom wanted me to get you guys." You see Harry and Sam share another look before they get up. "Thank god, I'm starving." Harry says at the same time Sam says, "I'll go help him." Then they squeeze past Tom and are out of sight. You stand and dust yourself off, "Thanks for letting me know." You walk over to your dresser and pull out your bikini, the top is a baby blue color and the bottoms are striped black and white with the same baby blue color on the sides. You had to have it when you saw it and you might as well swim while you wait. You turn to go to your door to shut it so you can change but Tom is still there. "Uh, what?" You ask freezing in place. Tom shakes his head, "Oh, nothing. See you downstairs." He closes your door as he walks away. *** Bikini and swimsuit cover on, which is basically just a see-through black dress, you walk out the back door to the pool. You see Harrison nudge Tom whose back is towards you as you come out. Tom turns and smiles at you as you walk over to Harry. Sam is standing by the grill helping Will with the food. "Hey, Y/N!" Harrison calls out, "How have you been?" "Good. You?" You call back without looking at them. You hear Harrison say he's been good as you get to Harry. "Your brother is acting so weird," you mumble. Harry opens his mouth to respond but then his eyes widen as you feel arms go around your waist and you're lifted off the ground. You look up to see Tom, that’s when you realize what is happening. "Tom, don't you dare!" You squeal trying to get out of his arms. You can feel his chest rumbling as he laughs, "You're going in." You were planning on going in, just not in your swimsuit cover. You manage to get your arms around his neck and you hold on tight. "Then I am taking you with me," you say as he starts to throw you in, he tries to free your arms from his neck but it's too late, he loses his balance and falls into the pool with you. When you break the water’s surface you spot Tom rubbing water out of his eyes and you splash him, "Jerk," you mumble walking over to the stairs. You were shivering, the water is so cold. Summer just started so it hasn't really had time to heat up. As you start to climb the stairs hands grab your waist and pull you back in. "Tom, it's cold!" You exclaim, teeth chattering. "You'll get used to the water the longer you're in it." He says, pulling you further in and you fight his hands off your hips as your brother yells, "Tom, stop flirting with my sister. It's weird. Come help me." "I'm not flirting!" He calls back and you splash him as he gets out of the pool, he just ignores it. You follow him out, your swimsuit cover sticking to your body so you pull it off as you shiver. As you are wrapping a towel around you, you hear a big crash and look up to see Tom on the pavement, a pool side chair knocked over next to him. "If you paid attention to where you were walking and not my sister, that wouldn't have happened either." You hear your brother say with a laugh. "Dude, shut up!" Tom says, annoyance dripping with every word, his cheeks are pink tinged as he stands up and fixes the chair. You shake your head, boys. You dry off a bit and sit in a lounge chair and relax, feeling the sun hit you as you close your eyes and work on your tan. *** After dinner you are laying in Harry's bed with him. His laptop in his lap, you leaning against him as the two of you watch a movie. Sam is downstairs playing a video game with Paddy. In the middle of the movie you hear Tom call, "Hey Harry," his footsteps are heard coming down the hall, "do you know where-" he falters as his head pokes in the twin's room. "Oh, hi." He says, his eyes landing on you. "Do I know where.. what?" Harry asks as he pauses the movie. "Never mind." Tom walks in, "So what are you guys doing?" He asks sitting on the edge of the bed which makes you scoot even closer to Harry trying to make room. "Watching a movie." Harry says shortly, "Do you mind?" He gives Tom a look. "Sorry," Tom holds his hands up and stands. "Y/N, Harrison and I are going to the beach, want to come?" You look down and gesture to the fact that you're in your pajamas, "No thanks. I'm staying in for the night." Tom nods, "Maybe next time," he says and walks to the door, he turns and gives you and Harry this weird look before walking out. "Damn, he's got it bad." Harry laughs. "Got what bad?" You ask, scooting back over a little to give Harry a little more room on the bed. "The hots for you," he shrugs. "He does not!" "Oh please, Y/N. Don't be so naive." Harry shakes his head and hits play on the movie.

Chapter 2

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Previously- Chapter 6

He's not just yours and he can never be just yours. His talents belong to the world. Which is something you wish you hadn't forgot about. "Oh," you say again feeling numb. "I'm sorry, love. I should have told you sooner. I know that. I just didn't want to ruin the fun time we were having." You feel his arms wrap around you in a tight embrace. Your arms slowly go around his waist and you bury your face in his chest, trying to hold back the tears. You will not cry. Not over this. You are stronger than this, you knew eventually summer would end and you two would have to go your separate ways. It just came on sooner than you thought. "Not gonna lie, this sucks," you mumble against his chest. "It does," he kisses the top of your head, "we still have two days together, lets enjoy them, okay?" "Okay," you pull back and smile weakly at him. You lay on the bed as Tom packs what things he can. When he is finished he puts his suitcase in the floor and crawls on the bed next to you scooping you up into his arms, making you giggle. He kisses your jawline, your cheek to your earlobe where he nibbles gently and you bite your bottom lip, enjoying the feeling of his lips on your skin, your eyes close in bliss. That's when you feel him pull away, "It drives me crazy when you do that." "Hmmm?" You open your eyes to see him hovering over you. "Your lip biting, it drives me crazy. I don't even think you realize you're doing it half the time," his eyes roam your face and stops on your lips. You chew on your bottom lip a little longer before smiling at him. You wrap your arms around his neck and pull his lips down to yours, "Just kiss me," you mumble against his lips. It's not long until it's gotten really heated between you two. His shirt is somewhere on the floor. His hands are under your shirt, sliding over the bare skin of your stomach, leaving goosebumps. You feel him tug on your shirt and you know he is asking permission to take it off so you nod. You pull away long enough for your shirt to get pulled over your head and then you are kissing him again feverishly as his hands roam over your stomach and breasts once your bra is off. He pulls back and looks down at you. You look away unable to meet his eyes as they move back up to your face. "You're so beautiful," he whispers and your eyes slowly meet his, you can feel the warmth on your cheeks. You see nothing but love in his eyes as he looks at you which makes you smile. "You're sweet," you whisper as your eyes scan his exposed torso, "and extremely handsome." It is a little intimidating, you have to admit. You wrap your legs around his waist to bring him closer, your lips meeting his again. You let out a soft moan as he kisses down your neck and as he is kissing your collarbone that is when his bedroom door suddenly opens. You spring apart grabbing the duvet to cover yourself and Tom keeps himself in front of you, to shield you from view of the person who just walked in. "Oh, uh… sorry." Harrison mumbles and you peek around Tom to see him as he turns around to walk back out, "Please remember that I have to sleep in that bed tonight too," Harrison says as the door closes behind him. You pull the cover up over your face in embarrassment. However, you are happy Haz interrupted. You are not ready for that and it was quite possible that you would have got carried away just now. "Darling, you okay?" Tom asks, concern in his voice. You uncover your face to look at him, "Yeah I am good. Where is my bra and shirt?" Tom gets up and grabs them for you. "Here," he says handing them over. "Thanks," you take them, making sure to keep yourself covered as you try to put them back on. Even though he saw you a second ago with them off. Tom doesn't say anything about it though, which you are grateful for. "You wanna watch a movie?" You ask once your bra and shirt is back on. "Sure," Tom smiles and settles in the bed next to you. You snuggle into him, getting comfy as he puts a movie on the TV. *** The next two days are wonderful but go by way to quickly for your liking. As you are hugging Tom goodbye you are surprised to see Harry walk by with his bags. You pull away quickly and look at Harry. "Wait, you're leaving too?" You ask him sadly. You thought you'd still have him and Sam. "Yeah. Tom and I are working on a script together. I thought he told you?" "No," you pout at both of them, "is Sam going too?" "No, you're stuck with me." Sam says walking up behind you and that makes you smile. "Well at least you care enough to stay with me," you say to tease the other two who whine at you. "That's not fair Y/N. You know I have to go," Tom complains. "I know. I'm only teasing," you wave him off and hug Harry tightly. "I wish you would have told me you were leaving too," you whisper. You would have evened out your time between him and Tom but because you didn't know you mostly hung out with Tom. "Hey, don't worry about it. We can get together another time," Harry said giving you a squeeze before pulling away. "I'll hold you to that," you grin at him. Things have become more normal between you two which you are thankful for. You still wonder what was going on with him though you are pretty sure you know what it was about. Which makes you sad, you never wanted or meant to hurt him. He has always been like a brother to you. Everyone else says their goodbyes and before you know it Tom and Harry are gone. "So you are staying even though Tom has left?" You ask Harrison. He nods, "Yeah. A few more days, then I have to get going as well." You spend some time with Harrison until he eventually leaves too. The rest of your time at the beach house is spent with Sam and your brother but mostly Sam. When you are back at home, and later when you visit your dad, you and Tom facetime as much as possible but it proves difficult with the time difference. He is in the US while you are in the UK. It only becomes more difficult when you move back to the dorms and get back to classes once summer is over. You and Tom talk less and less as the days go by. You are sad about it at first but soon you are too busy with exams to have much time to think about it or him. You’re sure he is super busy with filming and such as well. You guys haven't officially broken up but you are sure it is over between the two of you. Summer is definitely over.

***

About four months back into classes you got the call that you expected. Tom called and explained that he has been busy and that it would be best that the two of you just remained friends. You agreed, of course and although you were a little sad at first because it was officially over now you are just grateful for the experience and the time you spent together. It's been a year now and summer vacation is back so of course that means it’s back to the beach house. You are excited about that and a little nervous. You haven't seen Tom since last summer but you also don't think he will be there. Last time you spoke to Harry he said Tom has been extremely busy which you knew of course. He has filmed two more movies after Spider-Man 3, not to mention press tours and the charity work he has been doing. You know Tom is doing a press tour now for Spider-Man 3, the world premiere for that movie is just two days away. "You sure you don't want to go to the premiere?" You ask Harry, who you're on the phone with as you finish packing for the beach. "I mean you usually go to all the premieres with him, right?" "Sort of but he is okay with me missing this one. Harrison and Tuwaine are with him. Plus he has Jacob and Zendaya at the premiere as well since it's their movie too. He will be fine without me," Harry says, "besides, I haven’t seen you since I visited you on campus in like December. I've seen Tom basically every day. So clearly you come first," he chuckles. You giggle, "Well I'm glad. I'll see you tomorrow, okay?" You say your goodbyes and put your phone up to finish packing for the trip. You barely sleep that night because you're so excited and early next morning you are at the airport with your mom and brother. When you get to the beach you run up to Nikki and hug her tightly. She giggles, hugging you back "It's good to see you too sweetie," she pulls back and looks you over, "you get even more beautiful every year," she smiles at you. "Oh stop, like my mom your opinion is biased but thanks anyways," you giggle as you grab your bags and head inside. Nikki yells after you, "They are not!" Which makes you giggle more as you walk upstairs. You put your bags down in your bedroom then you walk over to the twin’s door. You knock on the door and hear an "It's open!" Come from the other side. You gently push the door open and are met with the beaming faces of Sam and Harry. "Well at least you two are awake this time," you tease as they rush over. You are sandwiched between them as they hug you tightly. You spend some time with them catching up and then the three of you go down to the beach for the day. When you come back up the sky is starting to get dark and you sit at the table to eat dinner which is when you notice something. "Where is Paddy?" you ask Nikki. "He wanted to go to the premiere. Him and Dom should be here in a couple days," she smiles and you nod. After dinner you go up to your room to unpack but you end up falling asleep instead. Guess the flight and staying on the beach so long wore you out. *** A week passes quickly as you spend time with the twins, your brother, and Paddy. At the moment you are spending some alone time by the pool while the boys are down at the beach. It is exactly what you needed. You put your earbuds in your ears and start your music as you let the sun dry you off and work on your tan. You're laying on your stomach when someone pokes your side. "Stop Harry," you mumble without opening your eyes. Your side gets poked again and you swat the hand away. "I'm serious Harry," you say more firmly still keeping your eyes closed.  That's when you feel a weigh sit on the edge of your lounge chair and you open your eyes to see a torso that is way too muscular to be Harry’s. You pull out your earbuds as you turn around on your back to face Tom. "Wasn't expecting to see you here," you say and are happy to hear that your voice is even because your heart is trying to pound out of your chest. 

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Previously - Chapter 1

You get off the phone with your dad and put your phone away. It's been a few days since the pool incident and Tom has mostly left you alone. Just the casual chit chat here and there and he always gives you a weird look when he sees you with Harry alone. You heard him speaking to Harry last night, you couldn't hear what they were saying but you think you heard your name, you plan on asking Harry about it soon. "Y/N!" Sam knocks on your door. "We're about to go down to the beach. You ready?" "Yeah, I'm coming," you grab your beach bag and open the door. You follow Sam downstairs where you see Harry waiting. "Want me to carry that?" Harry asks, nodding to your bag. You shrug, "I mean if you want to but I'm perfectly fine with it." He just has a towel swung over his shoulder. When you stand next to him he takes the bag from you and puts his towel in it. You link your arm with his free one as you start walking down to the beach. You love the twins equally but you're just closer to Harry because you have a lot in common with him and you just get along with him really well. As you get closer to the water you see Tom and Harrison a little way out into the ocean. They look up and spot you, Harrison waves but Tom looks at your arm in Harry's with a frown. "What is up with your brother?" You ask turning to Harry. Harry and Sam both start laughing, Sam to the point he has tears in his eyes. "What?" You ask. "Tom? He just has a little green monster on his shoulder." Sam wipes the tears from his eyes. Green monster? Oh, he's saying Tom is jealous. What in the world could Tom be jealous about? "What is Tom jealous of?" You ask. "He thinks you and Harry are dating," Sam laughs again as he sits down in a beach chair. "Okay? Why would he think that and why would that make him jealous anyways?" You pull your swimsuit cover off and sit in the chair on Sam’s left and Harry sits in the one next to you after he puts your bag down and you lay back, getting ready to tan. "I told you he is crushing on you bad," Harry shrugs, "He asked me last night if we were dating. I neither confirmed nor denied it because I just really enjoy messing with him." Harry grins as he looks at you. "It's because we've been together a lot, that's why he thinks we're dating." You roll your eyes at him and relax. Harry and Sam tell you they're going out in the ocean. You nod and put your headphones in so you could listen to music while you work on your tan. You really could just lay out here all day. You love the beach. A little bit later you're on your stomach when you feel drops of water hit your back. You turn shielding your eyes from the sun with your hand as you look up to see Tom standing over you. You see his mouth moving but you can't hear him. You pull one of your headphones out and turn on your back to face him, "I'm sorry, what?" Tom sits in the chair next to yours. "I was just asking if you plan on just laying out the whole time," he grabs a towel and rubs it through his hair to dry it a little. "I was thinking about it." You pull out the other headphone and put them away. "Well do you want to play volleyball with us?" Tom nods over to where the twins, Paddy, Harrison, and your brother stands by a volleyball net. There's also a few people that you don't know, most of them being girls. You sit up and grab your swimsuit cover and pull it on, "Sure." You played volleyball in high school so this should be fun. "Cool," Tom smiles brightly, "you can be on my team." He stands and holds his hand out to help you up. You grab his hand and let him pull you up only he doesn't drop your hand as the two of you walk over to the group, "Y/N is playing," he calls out, "she's on my team." "No, you can't just claim her. She's my sister, so she's on my team." Will glares, "You just want her because you know she's good at volleyball." Tom laughs, "She's mine, besides I asked her to play and you already picked your teammates and my team is one short." Tom drops your hand as you reach the others. You're not sure why but you feel your cheeks warm up from the statement at the beginning of his sentence. She’s mine. "That was before I knew my sister was playing," Will complains. "Oh don't be such a baby William. We're pretty evenly matched." You tell your brother as you look at the two teams, you're going by the people you know. You have no idea how good the strangers are. The game was intense and you stayed even most of the time, but your team won with you scoring the winning point. Tom picks you up in a victory celebration and spins you around, laughing happily. You’re dizzy when he puts you down and you grab hold of Harry for support so you don't fall face first into the sand. "I knew Tom would win once he got you to play," Harry shakes his head with a grin in his face. "I'm surprised we won. The other girls on our team were more interested in getting close to Tom than the game." You whisper to Harry so hopefully they wouldn't hear. "Fans," Harry whispers back. Oh yeah, you almost forgot about Tom being an actor. Well a well-known actor, he had been trying to get in the business a while and he finally did that when he got the role of Spider-Man. "Right. I forgot." You let Harry go because you have your balance back. You feel a tap on your shoulder so you turn to see a girl, "Hey. I was just wondering if you are dating Tom?" She asks you, "you seem to know his family." Her eyes scan over Harry before they're back on you. "Uh, no. I just grew up with them." Not that it's any of her business. "Oh good!" She smiles and walks off back towards the other girls around Tom. You and Harry look at each other and roll your eyes at the same time which make both of you start laughing as you make your way back over to your chairs. You decide to go out in the ocean for a bit with Harry and Sam. When you come back out Tom is sitting next to your chair. Harrison and Will in the chairs to his left. His entourage gone now. You dry off a little and then lay back in your chair to let the sun finish the job. Harry and Sam take a seat in the chairs to your right. "Did Paddy go back up to the house?" You ask Tom. You hadn't seen him since the volleyball game. "Yeah, I walked him back up a little bit ago." You nod and grab your headphones to go back into your own bubble. Later when you feel you have completely dried off you sit up and pull your cover back on and that's when you notice it's just you and Tom. Tom has moved a big umbrella over so he is sitting in the shade. You know he burns pretty easy sometimes. Luckily, you’ve never had that problem. "Where did everyone go?" You ask pulling out your headphones. "At the house. We didn't want to leave you here alone so I said I would stay and wait for you to finish your tanning." Tom answers with a yawn. "I'm sorry. You didn't have to wait," you tell him as you pack up your stuff. "Oh but I did. Every guy that has walked by has checked you out and I'm sure some of them would have tried to do more than that had I not been sitting here." Tom stands and stretches, he put a shirt on at some point and it rides up as his arms reach above his head. Your eyes scan the exposed skin of his stomach before you look away. You feel your cheeks heat up, "Well, thanks but I can take care of myself," you assure him. You stand picking up your bag. "I know you can but it's always nice to have help." He winks at you and starts walking up to the house. You follow behind him. After a few steps he stops suddenly and you run right into him, "Dude! A little warning would be nice," you grumble. He laughs, "Sorry I didn't realize you would be that close." He waits until you start walking again and matches his steps with yours. "So, you seem to be really close with Harry lately." He says it nonchalant but as you peek at him you see the tightness in his jaw and can tell he really cares about how you'll respond to that comment. You grin and shake your head. Could it really be possible that Tom likes you now? "I've always been close to Harry, perhaps your head was too far up in the clouds to notice before." "My head has never been up in the clouds." "Yes it has, you've always wanted to be an actor. When I was like eight and you were eleven, I remember you always wanted to put on shows and you'd force all of us to help you. It was the only time you wanted us, the younger ones, to play with you." You nudge him playfully. "Sorry about that." Tom looks sheepish. "It's okay, you were never mean about it." You shrug. "Besides it’s a good thing your head was in the clouds cause look at you," you poke his side, "you finally did it." He smiles proudly, "I did." "It's weird to think that you have fans though," you admit. "It's still weird for me to think about too. Even weirder to think that I'm Spider-Man sometimes." He grins at you. "Spider-Man has always been your favorite." You smirk at him, "I remember when you use to run around playing with your Spider-Man doll." "Action figure!" He looks vexed which makes you giggle. "Whatever you say." He shakes his head, "So back to our earlier conversation.." he sighs, "are you dating my brother? I asked him last night but he wouldn't tell me." "No, we're just friends," you answer honestly. Tom nods, "That's good." He looks at you with a smirk. "Still have a crush on me?" You laugh, "You wish." You speed up and push through the door and head up the stairs to your room. You can feel your cheeks heating up and you didn’t want him to see you blushing. Your stomach is doing flips as you close your bedroom door. Damn, maybe you aren't over your crush.

Chapter 3

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It's been four years since you've been to the beach house. You used to go every summer, but after your parents got divorced you've been going to stay with your dad every summer and your mom went to the beach house by herself. No, she wasn't alone there. She owned the beach house with her best friend, Nikki Holland, so of course she was there with her four boys. Going there every year was always the highlight of your summer but you couldn't say no to spending time with your dad, summer vacation was usually the only time you got to see him when you were in high school. You haven't seen Nikki or her sons; Tom, Harry, Sam, and Paddy, since you were sixteen years old. Tom is three years older than you, the same age as your brother, and he would always bring his best friend, Harrison, to the beach house too. So of course the three of them would always hang out together and try to leave the younger ones out, especially you because you were the only girl. It also didn't help that you had a huge crush on Tom, and of course your big mouth brother had to tell him so when he managed to find out. So mostly you hung out with Harry and Sam. They were like your best friends at the beach house. You're twenty years old now and you're over your little crush on Tom, he never treated you poorly growing up he was always kind to you, mostly he just didn’t let you play with them much. You aren’t that little girl anymore, you grew up and this summer is your first year back at the beach house. You hadn't seen Nikki in a while, so you wanted to see her again and your father understood that. Plus you're in college now, you didn't spend all summer with your dad anymore. You hadn't since you were eighteen, you usually just visit him for about a week. "Hey honey, are you done packing?" Your mom pokes her head in your bedroom door. You smile, "Yeah, I'm done." You zip up your suitcase and put it down on the floor. "Good." Your mom walks in. "I can't wait to get there. Your brother is going to meet us at the airport." She tells you. "I told Nikki you were coming, she's so excited to see you again." "I'm excited to see her too. I've missed her," you admit. "She's missed you too sweetie. She has always said you're like the daughter she never had." Your mom grins. "Yeah, I'm not sure how she handles four boys all the time." "Well, I'm sure it's easier now. Tom moved out last year. He got his own apartment with how successful he's been." At nineteen years old Tom got the part of Spider-Man in Captain America Civil War and many movies followed that. He blew up, it's pretty insane. Especially when you would over hear girls talk about how cute he is in class. Of course you never told anyone that you know him, even if you do have pictures to prove it if they asked, you just didn't care. He was just Tom to you. "I'm assuming that means he probably won't be there?" You ask, following your mom downstairs. "I'm not sure, he wasn't there last year. He was filming," your mom shrugs as you put your suitcase in the car. You nod, good. If Tom isn't going to be there, then that means no Harrison and that's two less boys to have to deal with. You and your mom sweep through the house one last time to make sure you didn't forget anything and to make sure everything is turned off. Now you're sitting on the airplane next to your brother, Will. You were surprised he was coming since you're sure Tom and Harrison won't be there. You catch up with your brother, telling him about your classes and he tells you how work is during the flight. *** When you get to the beach house, Nikki is waiting outside to greet you guys. "Y/N!" She smiles brightly and pulls you into a tight embrace. "It's so good to see you again. I've missed you the past few years." "I've missed you too." You hug her back tightly. "Your room has been untouched. Sam wanted to sleep in it last year but I told him no it was your room." She winks at you. The twins, Harry and Sam, shared a room and when Harrison came he shared with Tom, other than that everyone had their own room. "Thanks." You grin. "I'm going to go unpack." You tell her and head inside. You see Paddy, Nikki's youngest son, playing a video game and you give him a hug before heading upstairs. You poke your head in the twin's room to see both of them asleep, you shake your head disapprovingly, it's in the middle of the day. You open your door and smile, it is exactly how you left it, just a little dusty but you will fix that later. You start to put your clothes in your draws and hang your dresses in the closet when you hear a very familiar voice, "Will!" The rest is muffled as Tom continues to talk to your brother. You hear something about not seeing him in a year. You walk over to the door and open it. "Yeah, Haz is down on the beach. I just came up to get some sunscreen." You hear Tom say, his voice is clearer now that your door is open. "Let me get settled and I'll be there in a few minutes." Your brother says. "Okay." You hear Tom utter before you see him as he walks out of your brother's room. He is holding a bottle of sunscreen and he's in his swim trunks. He does a double take as he notices you. "Hello there, Y/N. It's been a while." You notice his brown eyes scan over your body quickly and you involuntarily shiver. "Hi, Tom." You lean against the door frame. "Nice seeing you again." He grins, "You were fourteen last time you were here. Right?" "Sixteen." "Oh, yeah. Well, you coming down to the beach with your brother?" He asks. "No, I was planning on reading for a bit." You admit. "That's too bad." You watch as his eyes scan your body one last time before he walks away. What was that about? Usually you had to fight to get them to hang out with you and now he asks if you are going down to the beach with them? You shake your head and close your door as you walk back in. You do a little dusting before you grab a book and sit on your bed to read a little. You needed this little bit of time to yourself. Especially since you'll have to deal with six boys for four weeks. Maybe it will be different now since all of you are older.

Chapter 1 

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Previously: Chapter 3

You're sat in front of Nikki as she braids your hair. She has always loved playing with your hair and you don't mind. You love the feeling of it. You always loved it when your mom would brush your hair after a bath when you were younger. Tom and Paddy are sitting on the couch playing Mario Kart. You can't help but smile when you see the look of concentration on Paddy's face. You hear the winning chime as one of them crosses the finish line first, "Yes! I totally destroyed you!" Paddy's victory yell comes right after. "You did. Good job." Tom chuckles and winks when his eyes meet yours making you look away. "Is Dom not coming up?" You ask Nikki. It's weird her husband isn't here. "Yes, he's coming. Should be here in a couple days. He just had things to do." She pats your shoulder, "All done. You're free." "Thanks." You stand and smile at her. Even though she doesn't have any daughters, she's really good at fixing hair. "You're welcome, sweetie." She smiles, "Thank you for letting me play with your hair." "Always a pleasure." You giggle and turn to head up stairs but instead you run smack dab into a hard chest, "Oof." You pull away and see Tom looking down at you. "You know it's creepy to just stand behind someone like that. You could have at least made your presence known." "I was going to but before I could you ran into me, again." He sounds smug, "That's the second time you've ran into me. One might think you're doing it on purpose." You roll you're eyes. You really just want to kick him in the shin but you hold back. "More like you're making me do it on purpose." You push past him to the stairs. "Now if you'll excuse me. I am meeting your brothers at the beach."

After you have changed into your bikini, you walk down to the beach where Harry and Sam are waiting for you. You see Harry has his camera with him today, he is taking pictures of the ocean and objects on the beach. You know they must look amazing, Harry’s photos always do. He is like his mother in that way. You can tell he is really focused right now, he didn’t even notice you walk up. You decide to leave Harry alone and walk over to Sam, who is laying back in a chair.

“Hello you,” he smiles as you walk up.

“Hey,” you grin and sit next to him. “Harry is in the zone, huh?”

“Indeed, now would be a good time to sneak up behind him and scare the shit out of him.” He winks, “I’ve had to fight the urge to do it.” He shrugs.

“He would be so pissed if you made him drop his camera.”

“He would be, that is why I haven’t done it. If he would put the strap around his neck I would do it,” he grins at you mischievously. “I wouldn’t want anything to happen to his camera, he loves that thing and getting a new one wouldn’t be the same for him, even if it was the exact same one,” he shrugs.

“Very true. Wanna go out into the ocean with me?” You ask Sam.

“Sure.”

You and Sam talk as you are out in the ocean. It was nice having a chance to catch up with him finally. You guys even ended up getting into a heated water fight which was fun. You fix your hair by dunking under the water, because unfortunately you had to take out the braid Nikki put in earlier thanks to Sam messing it up. As you come up you notice Harry and his camera are facing you. You smile at him and then stick your tongue out as you see him taking pictures. You are happy to see his attention turn away from you as he snaps some pictures of Tom, Harrison, and Will as they make their way down to the beach.

“I need to reapply sunscreen before I start to burn.” Sam tells you and you head out of the water with him. As you are coming out you notice Harry is taking pictures of you again. You hold your hand up and show him your middle finger which makes him laugh.

“Y/N, can you put sunscreen on my back?” Sam asks you. You nod and walk over to him and apply some to his back, making sure you don’t miss a spot.

“Yeah, I need to do that too.” Harry says, suddenly standing next to you. When he gets to his back he holds the bottle out for you, making you giggle. He squirts some into your hand so you can put it on his back.

As you finish Tom calls your name and you turn around to face him. “Wanna help me out too?” he asks shaking his own bottle of sunscreen.

You shake your head at him but walk over to him nonetheless.

“Bro, I was gonna do that for you. The treachery!” Harrison says theatrically. “How dare you!” he continues to joke, smirking at Tom.

“Oh, fuck off!” Tom laughs, pushing Harrison away from him.

When you get to him he hands you the bottle and turns around which is a relief, you already feel your cheeks heating up. By the time you are finished, your cheeks are on fire from your hands touching his bare back. Why does he still have this effect on you? It simply isn’t fair. “Okay, all done,” you tell him and it makes you happy to hear your voice came out normal.

“Thanks,” Tom turns around to face you, “I can do you.” he pauses and thinks about what he just said. You notice his cheeks are pink tinged now. “I mean- you know the sunscreen?” he adds quickly.

“I’m okay,” you smile at him, “thanks anyways.” You turn and walk away, you seriously had to get as far away from him as you could right now. Your stomach was doing flips and your heart was currently trying to beat out of your chest.

You sit in a beach chair next to Sam and Harry, who finally put his camera away, and you talk to them as you calm down. The rest of your time at the beach is spent making sure you don’t even look at Tom because every time you do your heart rate speeds up. *** Later that night you're sat in your room, unable to go to sleep. So you change into your bikini and sneak outside to the pool for a late night swim. It's your fifth lap around the pool when a splash interrupts your peacefulness. You lift up your head to see Tom. "Are you stalking me? Do I need to get a restraining order?" You tease. Seems like all that time avoiding him today is now wasted. Of course he has to come out here when you’re here. He rolls his eyes, "No, I just couldn't sleep so I came out here. I was surprised to see you." You nod and continue your laps, letting it relax you so hopefully you'll be able to sleep soon. Swimming at night is so peaceful. When you feel your muscles start to get tired you get out. You dry off a little and sit in a pool side chair, listening to the waves off in the distance as you continue to dry off. Tom gets out of the pool and you have to look away from his bare chest. You can hear the chair next to yours creak as he sits down. "So what made you want to come back this year?" "What makes you think I only came back this year?" You retort. Your mom said he wasn't here last year, so how would he know if you were? "Last year my brothers said you weren't here." He laughs. Right. Harry and Sam would have told him. "I missed this place. It was my childhood. I also missed your mom and brothers. I wanted to see them again." You answer honestly. You look up at him and watch as he nods, "But not me?" "Of course I wanted to see you too. Even if you didn't always let me play with you while we were growing up." That's just how it is when you're younger. You don't want to play with your siblings. You want to be cool and hang out with people your age or older. It changes as you get older though. You see that in your brother and Tom. Will used to not want anything to do with you, now he enjoys the time you have when you catch up. You see how Tom is hanging out with his brothers and does his best to play with Paddy and keep him included. You sit up and wrap your towel around you so you can properly look at Tom, "I missed all of you." He smiles, "I missed you too." He seems to think about that for a second, "Will and your mom as well." He adds. You stand up, finally dry, "Goodnight Tom." It is never a good idea to be alone with him. Your heart is fluttering. "Wait!" He calls out. You pause and look at him. "Would you like to go to the board walk with me tomorrow? We can get something to eat, maybe ride the Ferris wheel?" He asks. "Are you asking me out on a date?" He scoffs, "Of course not. Just two friends goin-" he abruptly cuts himself off and sighs, "yes, I'm asking you out on a date. Is that okay?" "It's weird seeing you nervous." You grin at him. Tom usually oozes confidence so seeing this side of him is refreshing. "Yes, it's okay." You wink and walk inside without another word. *** Around dinner time you're getting ready for your date with Tom. You're feeling nervous but you're also really excited. You pull a dark purple off the shoulder dress out of your closet and put it on. It goes down to about mid-thigh but the back of it is a little longer. You look at yourself in the mirror and pull it off quickly, feeling like it's a bit much. You do this several more times before you finally just put on a cute gray t-shirt dress with some converse shoes. When you walk out you go into the twin's room. You're happy to see it's just Harry in there. You know Sam would tease you for asking. "Do I look okay?" You ask Harry. He looks up from his laptop and smiles, "Yeah. You look gorgeous. Why?" "I'm going out with Tom." "Oh." The way he says it throws you off. Almost like he isn't happy about it and you noticed how his smile disappears. "Oh? What do you mean, oh?" You ask him suddenly worried. "Nothing. It's great and you look great. I hope you have a good time." He smiles again, but it isn't genuine. You sigh and sit next to him, "Seriously Harry, what is it?" "It's nothing, really. I just thought you didn't like him anymore?" "I didn't. Or well at least I didn't think I did." You shrug and smile brightly at Harry, "I don't think my feeling for him ever left, I just pushed them away because I didn't think he'd ever like me but he asked me out last night." You can't help the excitement in your voice. You think back to when you were fourteen and he was seventeen. You would go wherever he would, hoping he would just notice you or just include you. Harry nods, "Well, I hope you have a good time." "You already said that." You ruffle his curls. "When I get back we can have a movie night." "Okay." He grins. *** You and Tom manage to get out of the house without anyone noticing. Neither one of you wanted to listen to the teasing. "You do realize we are going to a place with a high amount of tourists, someone will spot you," you tell Tom. You watch as Tom puts on a Monster's University hat and a pair of sunglasses. "Does that help?" "Um, a little but I can still tell it's you but maybe that's just because I know it's you," you shrug. When you get to the board walk you find a place to eat. You tell Tom how it's been going with your classes at college and he tells you about the last four years of his life. Which sounds crazy. You're not sure how he's done all of this, his life was very busy the last few years. After eating you walk around the board walk looking at all the things to buy, that's when you notice people are starting to stare at Tom, point, and whisper as you walk by, his hand entwined with yours. "Let's go ride the Ferris wheel." You smile at him and pull him towards the Ferris wheel. You get in line and sigh in relief when you are finally on it. "I don't think your disguise is working." You shake your head at him, "People are starting to stare and point as they whisper." "Oh, I was wondering why you were in such a rush." Tom nods. Unfortunately, it didn't help. Once you are off the Ferris wheel, a group of people surround you and Tom asking him for pictures and an autograph. You feel very claustrophobic so you push your way through them and find a place to sit while you wait for Tom, you know he's too nice to tell anyone no. As you wait you overhear some girls talking, well you are pretty sure they want you to hear since they aren't talking very quietly. "They were holding hands, I think they are dating." You hear one say. "No way! Why would he date her? She's nobody, she's not even that pretty." The other girl scoffs, "He can do so much better. I'm sure it's nothing. He's probably just being nice."

Chapter 5 

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Previously - Chapter 4

You're lying in the bed with Harry watching a movie when Tom pokes his head in, "Hey, why did you leave all of a sudden?" He asks, walking in. He sits on Sam's bed on the other side of the room. "I just wasn't feeling well." You lie. You just couldn't be there anymore after hearing what those girls thought about you. You told Tom that you were going to the house and then quickly left, he tried to stop you but that's hard to do when so many people want your attention. Tom frowns, "I'm sorry about all that. I know it must have been awkward for you." He stands and walks over to you. "Do you maybe want to go swimming or watch a movie with me?" He asks. "I've already started a movie with Harry," you mumble, not looking at him. "Well Harry won't mind, right?" You look up to see Tom look at Harry and your eyes move to him as well. He shrugs, "Uh, n-no, of course not." He stammers and looks at you, "You can go with Tom if you want." You shake your head, "I've already got into this movie with Harry. Maybe another time?" You keep from looking at him, Tom doesn't say anything he just stands there a few more seconds and then walks out of the room. You don't mean to take it out on him, you know it's not his fault. You just don't know if you can be with him, knowing all of that comes with it. "Y/N?" Harry nudges you to get your attention and you look at him. "Are you okay? Did something happen?" "Oh, no I'm good. Nothing happened. I'm fine. You can start the movie back up," you tell Harry. He gives you a look that says, I don't believe you but he starts the movie and leaves it be for now. That's why you like Harry, he doesn't pry, he knows to give you your space when you need it. You'll tell him eventually anyways. *** The next day you are in your bedroom trying to avoid everyone but mostly just Tom. You're lying on your bed when you hear a knock on your door. "Yeah?!" You call out and the door opens. You expect to see Harry so you're shocked when it's Harrison closing the door behind him, "Hey." "Hey," you close your book and sit up, "what's up?" He grabs your desk chair and pulls it up close to the bed. "Just want to talk." He sits down, "So Tom is a mess and I know he took you out yesterday. He said you left suddenly and have been avoiding him since. Want to tell me what's up?" He leans forward, elbows on his knees, his full attention on you. You sigh, you were hoping to avoid this a bit longer, "I'm not avoiding him, I just want to be alone right now." Only part of that is a lie. "Really?" Harrison shakes his head, "When you were downstairs earlier you ran out the back door when Tom walked into the kitchen." Damn, so people did notice that. "I just really wanted some fresh air," you say lamely. "Seriously Y/N? If you don't want to talk to me about it at least talk to Tom. He thinks he did something wrong and that you hate him." Haz informs you. That makes you feel worse. It was like a punch in the gut. "I don't hate him and he didn't do anything." "Don't tell me that, tell him. He's in his room." Haz stands and puts your desk chair back where it belongs. "Talk to him. I'm serious," he adds before leaving the room. You sigh and lay back down before going back to reading your book. You can't concentrate on it though, you feel so guilty, so you finally get up and knock on Tom's door. You hear a muffled "Come in," from the other side. You take a deep breath and push the door open. Tom looks up from is cellphone and then sits up quickly as he sees it’s you. "Oh hi," he half smiles. You walk in, closing his door behind you. You hesitate for a seconds before you sit on the bed next to him. "Hi. I'm sorry about yesterday. It had nothing to do with you." "So if it had nothing to do with me then what does it have to do with?" He inquires. “I mean it feels like I did something. One minute we’re having fun and the next you’re running out of there. So can you tell me what happened?” "Nothing," you pick at your t-shirt. You don’t know why you just find it hard to tell him. You know he cares about his fans. "Then why have you been avoiding me?" Tom asks. "I thought things were going pretty well up until all those people came up." "Yeah," you shrug, "I just overheard some girls say some- well, just some not very nice things about me ‘cause they saw us holding hands." "Y/N," Tom sighs, "there will always be someone who has horrible things to say, don't listen to it." He takes your hand and gives it a squeeze so you look up at him. "I like you and nothing they say can change that, okay? I mean it and next time something like that happens, please talk to me about it." You nod, "Okay." You smile and wrap your arms around him. You give him a squeeze, "Still up for a movie?" You ask, pulling away. He nods and the next thing you know you're cuddling into Tom's side as he puts a movie on. It's very different from cuddling Harry. You feel this nervous energy around you but also excitement. Where your bare legs touches his, you feel tingles and warmth. It’s exhilarating. *** Later at dinner you and Tom sit next to each other at the table, you feel his leg casually bump yours every once in a while and you have to fight the smile on your face, your brother has already teased you because of how giddy you've been all day. No need to give him more reasons to tease. Dom has finally arrived and right now he was talking about work while everyone is eating. After dinner you go down to the beach with everyone, spending some time in the ocean holding Tom’s hand underwater so people wouldn't see. Of course Haz knew, he gave the two of you a knowing smile. You played another game of volleyball but this time it was just you, Paddy, and Will against Tom, Haz, and Sam. Harry kept score for the first game, then he switched out with Paddy to play the second game. The first game Tom's team won by one stupid point but the second game was your win and you destroyed him.

“That’s how it is done,” you tease Tom.

“Is it?” he grins at you. “Maybe one day you can teach me,” he winks. He has been very flirtatious while on the beach.

“Maybe.” You giggle and turn for a high five from Harry but he doesn't look at you as he walks away which makes you frown wondering what's going on with him. You watch him walk back up to the house. “Excuse me,” you tell Tom. You gather your things and head back up to the house a few minutes later. Once you throw your stuff into your room you go to Harry's room. "Hey," you mumble opening the door just a crack. "Hey." He mutters back looking up from his phone. You ease inside and shut the door, "Are you okay?" You ask cautiously. "Yeah, I'm good. Just tired," he shrugs. "Okay. Well when you want to talk about it. I'm here." You tell him because you know something is up. You will give him his space though, like he does for you. "Sure, thanks." He murmurs putting in headphones and you ease back out of the room. *** The next morning you're in the kitchen getting something to drink. Everyone else was still asleep, even your mom and Nikki, to be fair it was 5:30 in the morning. You have no idea why you're up right now. You choke on your water as you feel a tap on your shoulder and you whirl around coughing and spluttering to see Tom. "Shit I'm sorry." He says patting your back. You hold up a finger and when the coughing is done you take a deep breath. "Don't you know better than to sneak up on people like that." You shake your head and put your water down. "You're up early," you comment. "I could say the same thing about you." He smiles sleepily. "Sorry for scaring you.. and making you choke." "It's okay. No worries." You smile at him. He looks so cute right now all sleepy eyed and his morning voice? Gosh, it is driving you crazy. You want to kiss him but he has yet to even try that. You move closer and kiss his cheek. "Good thing you're cute, otherwise I couldn't possibly forgive you for nearly killing me," you tease. He places his hands on your hips and a shiver runs through you, "Hmm. That's the only reason you're forgiving me?" He grins and pulls you close. He rubs his nose against yours with a chuckle. "No, I also happen to like you, a lot." You whisper because you don't trust your voice. He's so close, you can feel his breath on you and you feel weak at the knees. "I like you a lot too." He pulls back and you see his eyes go to your lips before he leans in. His lips touch yours and you feel like you’re melting so you wrap your arms around his neck to keep you steady. Your fourteen year old self is screaming inside you. You're actually kissing Tom. Holy shit. One of his hands moves to cup your cheek while the other slides to your back as he pushes you closer to him and you part your lips with a gasp as you feel his tongue on your bottom lip and he deepens the kiss. You’re dizzy and feel flushed but you still hear a small crash that pulls you out of this euphoric state. You and Tom slowly pull away and you look around for what could have made that sound. You startle when you see Harry. It seems he ran into a chair when he walked into the kitchen. You can see that his cheeks are bright red and he's looking anywhere but at you and Tom as he fixes the chair. "Umm, good morning," he mumbles before exiting the room quickly. "I'll be right back," you whisper to Tom before following Harry upstairs. You catch him before he goes into his room. "Hey. Talk to me. I know something is up." He sighs, "I can't, this is one thing that I can't talk to you about. Okay, Y/N? Please just leave me alone." He goes into his room, closing the door in your face. You feel confused. You and Harry have always been able to talk to each other about everything. You go back downstairs feeling useless. "Something is up with Harry and he won't talk to me about it. He says he can't and I don't understand, we've always been able to talk to each other." You wrap your arms around Tom, needing comfort. You feel his arms wrap around you and he squeezes. "Give him a little bit and I'll go talk to him. I think it needs to be me. Brother thing." He kisses the top of your head. "I think I know what's going on."

Chapter 6 

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