TAoT Chapter 39: Chapter 39: Time to Deal with Feelings (Whether You Want To or Not)
Woof! Sorry for the wait. We wanted to post on Dannyās birthday (June 13th in our fic), but weāre a few days lateālife is a lot right now. But weāre still working on this story! Hopefully weāll have the next chapter out sooner, but no promisesāwe donāt want to jinx ourselves, lol.
This chapter is a bit of a lore drop, buuut itās needed. These two goofs need to talk. There should be some more exciting stuff happening next chapter, though. (Though it might just be another lore drop. But for a different character. ;3)
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Once they had made it back through the Fentonsā ghost portal and parked the Specter Speeder in the basement (making sure it was in exactly the same place as before so the Fenton parents would never know it had left), Danny and Tucker were quick to turn their attention to Sam and the envelope she was holding.
āWell?ā Tucker prompted.
āOpen it!ā Danny said eagerly.
Sam was already on it. She popped off the wax seal and opened the envelope, from which she pulled a small piece of parchment. Danny waited as patiently as he could (which wasnāt very patiently at all) as she held it up and began to read. Silently.
āWhatās it say?ā Tucker asked.
Sam shushed him. āItās in cursive. Give me a minute.ā
āLet me read it, then,ā Tucker insisted. āI can read cursive just fineāā
Danny slapped his hand over Tuckerās mouth and motioned for Sam to continue. As she read on, her brows furrowed, and then shot up almost all the way to her hairline as her eyes went wide with shock.
āNo wayā¦ā Sam mumbled under her breath.
Unable to wait any longer, Danny began to ask her what the note said, but Sam spoke first.
āDanny, youāre⦠youāre the Ghost King.ā
The instant those words hit him, it was like something clicked in Dannyās mind. Memories flooded back to him. Ones that he hadnāt even known heād lost. Back when he had first met Thanatos, the god had called him āthe King of the Ghost Zone.ā Hades had, too. And it had been brought up again, during one of his first training sessions with Thanatos. He also remembered now that he had tried to tell his friends, shortly before his trip to Camp Half-Blood.
But⦠somehow, he had forgotten. All of those moments had disappeared from his mind, and he hadnāt even realized it until just now.
āDude!ā Tucker exclaimed, just as shocked as Sam was. As Danny was. āYouāre the King of the Ghost Zone? And you never told us?ā
āI-Iāā Danny didnāt know what to say. āI didnātāā
But Sam interrupted him. āHe didnāt know, Tucker.ā
āWhat do you mean, he didnāt know?ā Tucker spluttered incredulously. āHow could he not know?ā
As an answer, Sam handed the paper to Danny, and Tucker leaned over his shoulder to read it as well. The note was written in a loopy script, with swirls and curves that Danny found annoying, and he wasnāt even dyslexic like Sam was. But as he read the message scrawled on the parchment, Danny realized that Clockwork had helped him in more ways than one.
Daniel is the Ghost King, and has been ever since his victory over Pariah Dark. But there are some who seek to take the throne from him and instate their own false ruler. They have silenced the spirits of the Ghost Zone, forbidding any to speak the truth of what has happened.
I cannot tell you who these people are, but I can tell you that they are powerful. Their false ruler has the ability to manipulate Danielās mind. Repeatedly, they have altered his memories, making him forget his title over and over again, so that he may not retaliate. So that he may not fight back.
But there is hope. They are strong, but their hold over him is not absolute. Please, do what you can to remind him when he forgets. With the help of his companions, Daniel will be able to reclaim his throne when the time comes.
Danny felt like he was staring right through the paper, his eyes not quite focusing on the words written across its surface. He heard the sounds of the laboratory equipment whirring and beeping, and the ancient water heater hissing faintly in the closet, but none of it seemed to register in his mind.
He⦠he was the Ghost King, wasnāt he? He knew that⦠he had known that. But someone didnāt want him to remember that. Someone was deliberately messing with his memories.
But why? If they wanted his throne, why didnāt they just come out and fight him? Why did they have to mess with something so personal? Something so terrifyingly important as his literal memory? How could they do that? Who could possibly have that power?
āMan⦠thatās crazy,ā Tucker breathed.
āUnderstatement of the year, Tuck,ā Sam replied, and then she turned her attention to Danny, her expression sympathetic. āBut that explains the memory loss that Clockwork mentioned.ā
āNo, seriously!ā Tucker continued as he threw his hands up in the air, clearly agitated. āThis is crazy! How do we know theyāre not listening right now? How do we know theyāre not going to wipe his memory right this instant?ā
In an attempt to prove his point, Tucker grabbed Danny by the shoulders and looked intensely into his eyes. āDanny, tell me what we were just talking about.ā
Danny frowned. āI-ā
āDo it!ā Tucker shook him frantically. āTell me!ā
āIāmāā
Tucker sighed loudly and hopelessly. āI bet you already forgot.ā
Irritated, Danny reached out and grabbed Tuckerās shoulders. āIām the Ghost King and someone is messing with my memories,ā he stated flatly.
Tucker blinked. ā⦠oh. You do remember.ā
In response, Danny scoffed and knocked Tuckerās beret off his head. Tucker whined as he picked his hat up from the floor and dusted it off, but Danny paid him no mind as he turned his attention to Sam. She looked thoughtful, her hand resting on her chin as she stared at the shut doors of the ghost portal.
Before Danny could ask Sam what she was thinking, she spoke. āI think Iāve got it.ā She looked at Danny. āI think you lose your memory every time you enter the Ghost Zone.ā
It was a bold claim, but as Danny thought about it he realized that Sam was onto something. He did go into the Ghost Zone often, and if the people messing with his memory were residing there, kidnapping and silencing ghosts and generally being up to no good, then maybe that was the only time they were able to affect him. To get inside his head and make him forget.
āClockwork said the power these people have isnāt absolute,ā Sam pointed out. āMaybe they canāt affect him when heās in the human world.ā
āMaybeā¦ā Danny muttered doubtfully. Samās theory was a start, but there wasnāt any way to prove it. He couldnāt exactly remember when he had forgotten something, now could he?
āHey.ā Tucker reached over and squeezed his shoulder reassuringly. āDonāt sweat it, man. Weāll remind you as many times as we need to.ā
āAbsolutely,ā Sam nodded.
Danny gave both of his best friends a grateful smile, relieved beyond words that they were there to help him. āThanks, guys.ā
āHere,ā Tucker grinned as he glanced around, as if looking for something. āLet me grab a marker. Iāll write it on your forehead.ā
Danny laughed and gave him a playful shove. āKnock it off, dude.ā
āWe need to be careful. Even more than usual,ā Sam told them as she cast a wary glance around the lab. āLike Tucker said, you never know who might be listening. Just as humans can enter the Ghost Zone, ghosts can enter the human world. And we donāt even know who these people are.ā
Danny nodded. Sam was right, as usual. āAnd just to be safe, I should stay away from the Ghost Zone as much as possible.ā
Sam grimaced at the thought. āThatās not gonna be easy with your⦠hero work.ā
āYeah,ā Tucker agreed. āAnd how on earth will we find Ellie now? There are only two places she could be. Here in our world, or out there in the ghost world. That makes us lose half our search area!ā
āWe donāt have to find her,ā Danny revealed as he recalled what he had seen at Clockworkās tower. āI know where she is.ā
His friends looked at him, clearly confused and perhaps a little frustrated at his sudden change in demeanor. After all, he was the one who had been worried sick about Ellie in the first place.
āExplain,ā Sam ordered, her voice turning cold and hard. āBecause if we just went on that dangerous, hours long expedition for no reasonāā
āNo, no!ā Danny said quickly. āI didnāt know until we talked to Clockwork! He⦠he reminded me of something.ā
āHow?ā Tucker asked bewilderedly. āAll he said was that she was āsomewhere safe.āā
āShe is,ā Danny said. āSheās⦠under his protection.ā
The confused expressions on his friendsā faces only grew, so Danny rolled up his sleeve, revealing his apprentice mark (he had started wearing long-sleeve shirts regularly to cover his mark, since they brought up fewer questions and concerns than an elastic bandage did). He looked at the black lettering on his pale skin, and then up at his friends. āEllie is Clockworkās apprentice.ā
Both Sam and Tuckerās mouths fell open in surprise.
āSo⦠now thereās two of you?ā Tucker asked. āTwo Phantoms? Two apprentices?ā
āYep,ā Danny said as he pulled his sleeve back down. āWell, I mean, now that I think about it⦠I donāt know how many apprentices are out there.ā It wasnāt something he had ever thought to ask his mentor. Maybe he should.
If Thanatos would actually respond to him, anyway. Which was something he could focus on, now that Ellie was no longer at the forefront of his mind.
āBut how is she Clockworkās apprentice?ā Sam wondered.
āWhat do you mean?ā Danny asked her.
āArenāt apprenticeships, like, a godly thing?ā Sam pointed out. āDidnāt HaāI mean, the king of the Underworld have to officiate your apprenticeship?ā
She was right; Hades had been the one to do the whole apprenticeship ceremony thing. And now that Danny thought about it, that didnāt seem like something Clockwork wouldāve waltzed over to the Underworld to do.
So how did that work? Danny didnāt know. But there was someone he could ask.
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Danny knew that shadow-traveling by himself was dangerous. He had only done so once before, and had been scolded thoroughly for doing so by his mentor. But said mentor had not spoken to him in a week now, despite Dannyās repeated attempts to contact him. So that left Danny with only one option: to go to the godās home himself and refuse to leave until Thanatos spoke with him.
Was this a good idea? Probably not. But Danny had tried everything he could to contact Thanatos. He had even asked Sam for help, but she had refused. Apparently sheād had her own less-than-pleasant experience contacting the god in the past.
Anyway, Danny had done what he could to make contact with his mentor (like the good little apprentice that he was), and his mentor hadnāt answered. So technically, this was Thanatosā fault, not Dannyās.
At least, that was Dannyās reasoning, and he was going to stick with it. Would Thanatos be happy with his reasoning? Most likely not. But it was a little too late for Danny to back out when he suddenly appeared in the shadows that clung to the ceiling of the death godās home, and proceeded to fall a good twenty feet to the floor below.
āAAAAAHHHHHāā
Dannyās scream was cut short when he crashed into the mountain of pillows right next to where Thanatos was sitting, causing the god to jump back in surprise and crack his head on the cave wall behind him.
Whoops.
āDanny, why?ā Thanatos growled as he gingerly rubbed the back of his head.
Danny, after quickly making sure he hadnāt broken any bones, opened his mouth to answer. But he froze as he realized there was someone buried in the pillows, only a foot or so from where he had landed. The person rolled over, knocking some cushions aside as they did so, and Danny was surprised to see a young guy with pale skin, curly blonde hair, and a simple white chiton, still fast asleep despite Dannyās scream of terror. He also had little white bird wings behind his ears, which was⦠odd.
āUhhā¦ā Danny backed away from the stranger, who had begun to snore loudly. āSorry, whoā¦?ā
āThat is my brother, Hypnos,ā Thanatos answered, seemingly annoyed by Dannyās surprise visit. (Or maybe he was just upset about hitting his head.) āThis is his home, as well. And it is extremely rude of you to drop in unannounced.ā
As soon as the phrase left his mouth, Thanatosā eyes widened ever so slightly, and he facepalmed. āAnd no, I did not mean that as a joke.ā He looked up again, and it was clear to Danny that Thanatos was most definitely annoyed. (And not just because he had hit his head.) āWhy are you here?ā
āUhh, wellāā Danny stammered. He hadnāt meant to make such a⦠dramatic entrance. He had planned to, like, knock on the door or something. But he wasnāt that good at shadow-traveling just yet, and as such had ended up a little⦠off course. So whatever greeting or excuse he had been planning to say didnāt seem quite right to say now. āI-I was wondering⦠you havenāt talked to me in, like, a week now. And you were acting weird the last time I saw you, soāā
āHave you thought that, perhaps, it is none of your business, Danny?ā Thanatos interjected sharply.
For a brief moment, Danny was ashamed, but that feeling quickly turned into a frustration of his own. āWell, excuse me for worrying about you.ā
āYes, excuse you. I am a god, Danny. I do not needāā
A pillow whizzed by Dannyās head, so close that it nearly grazed him, and struck Thanatos squarely in the face. Danny didnāt even have time to turn around before another one whacked him in the back of the head, though with not nearly as much force.
Startled, both mentor and apprentice turned to see Hypnos slowly sitting up, his solid silver eyes heavily lidded with sleep as he glared at the two of them.
āYou two do know that this is the pillow cave, right?ā Hypnos yawned. āFor sleeping? Not arguing.ā
The god then turned his attention to Danny, and he rubbed his eyes before giving the halfa a nod. āNice to finally meet you, Daniel. Iām Hypnos.ā
āOh. Uhh, hi,ā Danny said sheepishly, his ears burning with embarrassment. āIām⦠really sorry for waking you.ā
āHe sleeps all the time, Danny. Heās fine.ā Thanatos grumbled as he picked up the pillow that had hit him and hurled it back at Hypnos, who caught it easily and flopped backwards into the mountain of cushions, hugging the pillow to his chest.
āYou two need to sort this out, but donāt do it in here,ā Hypnos mumbled as he dug a blanket out of the mound below him and pulled it over himself. āI need my beauty sleep.ā
Thanatos stood and shook out his ruffled feathers. āDanny. Follow me.ā
Danny waved goodbye to Hypnos (who had already fallen back asleep), and clambered down from the pillowy mountain, hurrying after Thanatos as the god made his way out of the cluttered room.
As Danny followed his mentor through the winding paths of the cave, he noticed small birds flitting about overhead. He vaguely remembered seeing them the last time he had been here, and he wondered why they were even here in the first place (as the Underworld didnāt seem like a place where birds would be). He almost wanted to ask, but his mentor didnāt really seem up to talking at the moment; he hadnāt said a word to Dannyāor even so much as looked at himāsince they left the pillow cave.
So Danny trudged along quietly behind the god as they walked through the entry hall and out of the cave entrance. And once they made it outside, Danny came to a halt as he was greeted by a field of wildflowers.
On the banks of the River Lethe was an assortment of different flowers. Danny recognized a few of them, such as lavender and poppies, but he didnāt know much about plantsāthat was Samās thing. Butterflies with vibrantly violet wings flew among the plants and around the cave entrance, and one even landed in Thanatosā hair. But the god didnāt seem to mind, or even notice as he leaned against the stone wall and closed his eyes.
Danny felt a pang of guilt as he looked at the god. The annoyance had faded from Thanatosā face; now he just looked tired. He had repeatedly ignored Dannyās attempts to contact him, which had upset and worried Danny more than a little. But maybe⦠maybe Thanatos had just wanted to be left alone.
Well, itās a little too late to leave now, isnāt it? Danny thought guiltily to himself. Iāve already invited myself in⦠and Hypnos kicked us out. So I guess nowās as good a time as any to talk.
Not wanting the let the uncomfortable silence stretch out any longer, Danny spoke first. āSo⦠you have a brother?ā
Thanatos took a long moment to answer. āMany,ā he said at last. āMany sisters, too.ā Then he opened his eyes and glanced over at Danny. āDid you not learn this at Camp Half-Blood?ā
āI mean, yeah, there was a Greek Gods 101 class at camp,ā Danny shrugged. āBut they didnāt really mention anything about the Underworld ones. Except for Hades and Persephone.ā
Thanatos shook his head, as if he was disappointed. āOf course not. I see not much has changed since ancient times.ā
At Dannyās confused look, Thanatos gave a dismissive wave of his hand. āItās nothing. And besides, that isnāt why you came here.ā
It wasnāt a question.
Danny folded his arms and huffed in annoyance as he turned away. āYeah, well, sorry for barging in or whatever. But ghosting me like that wasnāt cool, you know.ā
Silence followed for a few seconds. And then Thanatos spoke.
ā⦠what?ā
Confused, Danny looked at Thanatos, and saw that the god was even more confused than he was. In fact, he looked downright bewildered, as if Danny had just spoken to him in complete gibberish.
It was then that Danny realized Thanatos may not know modern slang.
āI did not turn you into a ghost,ā Thanatos told him earnestly.
Okay, Thanatos definitely didnāt know modern slang.
āThatās not what ghosting means,ā Danny explained. āItās, like⦠when you just stop talking to somebody without telling them why. Which is what you did. To me.ā
ā⦠then why didnāt you just say that?ā Thanatos asked him.
Danny facepalmed. āLook. I⦠Iām sorry,ā he said as he dropped his hands, letting them fall to his sides as he took a step back and leaned against the cool stone. āFor showing up unannounced. I didnāt mean to upset you.ā
Thanatosā voice softened slightly. āYou are not entirely at fault. I should have responded to your attempts to contact me. It is⦠understandable that you were confused by my earlier behavior.ā
Danny nodded, then looked over at his mentor. āI am sorry, though. I just⦠I wanted to make sure that you were okay.ā
A hint of a smile graced Thanatosā face. āThank you, Danny. That is very kind of you.ā
Though he was relieved that Thanatos no longer seemed to be upset with him, Danny wasnāt sure how long that would last. Especially with what he was about to ask.
āWhy did you call Danielle āDiantheā?ā
Thanatosā mood changed instantly, but not as strongly as before. Instead, his shoulders drooped as he looked away, and it seemed he was intent to just stare off into space and avoid this conversation completely.
But Danny wasnāt going to let that happen. āHypnos said we need to sort this out,ā he insisted. āWhich starts with you telling me whatās going on.ā
No response.
Annoyed, Danny pushed. āYou just up and left for a week, without saying a word! I think you owe me an explanation.ā
Thanatos scoffed and arched his brow as he glanced at Danny from the corner of his eye. āYou sure are one obstinate mortal, arenāt you? If you behaved this way with any other god, you would have been set on fire by now.ā
Danny paled at that information, but he didnāt back down. And after a moment of tense silence, Thanatos continued.
āSince you are likely not going to drop the subjectā¦ā Thanatos paused, as if to give Danny a chance to discredit the claim. Danny just stared at him expectantly, and Thanatos sighed in resignation. āI mistakenly called your⦠ācousinā Dianthe because⦠she looks exactly like her.ā
Danny had only heard the name Dianthe twice before: once during that strange dream heād had after his first training session, and just the other day, when Thanatos had called Ellie by that name. He didnāt know who Dianthe was, but as he studied the haunted look on Thanatosā face, Danny could only assume that she must have been someone incredibly important to him.
āWhoās Dianthe?ā Danny asked hesitantly. The last time he had tried asking who Dianthe was, Thanatos had shut down and left, much like he had when he met Ellie.
But this time, he didnāt leave. He didnāt answer immediately, but when he did, his voice was quiet, and he had a faraway look in his eyes. āShe was Hadesā first mortal child.ā
āFirst?ā Danny repeated, surprised. āLike, first first?ā
Thanatos nodded. āThe very first. In more ways than one.ā
That caught Dannyās attention. āWhat do you mean?ā
At last, Thanatos turned to face Danny, his expression one Danny had never seen on the godās face before. Melancholy, perhaps? āShe was my first and only apprentice. That is, before you came along.ā
Danny froze. Dianthe was Thanatosā first apprentice? As in, the apprentice that Thanatos never wanted to talk about, no matter how Danny tried to broach the subject?
āWow,ā Danny said lamely as he wondered how to proceed with this seemingly delicate subject. āThatās⦠cool.ā
Thanatos shrugged. āIf you say so.ā
āAnd Ellie⦠looks just like her?ā Danny asked.
āI never forget a face,ā Thanatos muttered quietly in response. And then he blinked. āHow⦠how is she, anyway? This⦠Ellie?ā
āOh. Uhh, sheās⦠fine.ā Danny rubbed the back of his neck as he looked away, the mere memory of his recent Ghost Zone adventure bringing with it a wave of exhaustion. āSheās, umm⦠itās a bit of a long story. But sheās okay.ā
Thanatos nodded. āAnd how exactly is she related to you? Because I highly doubt that you two are cousins.ā The god looked slightly disturbed. āShe didnāt have a soul.ā
Though surprised by that fact, Danny thought about it for a moment and realized that it made sense. āWell, sheās actually my clone. And though Vlad may be an evil genius, I donāt think even he would know how to clone a soul.ā
Now it was Thanatosā turn to be surprised. āSheās your what?ā
Danny proceeded to explain everything he knew about Vladās cloning attempts, from the bedsheet ghost attacking him at the mini-golf course to meeting Ellie for the first time. Though he left out the whole feeling-like-he-had-somehow-met-her-before thing, because it just sounded kind of crazy. Besides, maybe it was just a natural feeling that anyone wouldāve had when they met their clone for the first time. How was he supposed to know? He continued his tale with the Frankenstein-esque ghost attack that had followed, and Ellie revealing her powers, and then everything that had happened afterwards. It was a lot to go over, even when summarized, but Thanatos was a patient listener and waited until Danny had finished speaking before he asked any questions.
āWhy is this man so⦠obsessed with you, Danny?ā Thanatos asked him, clearly perturbed by Vladās⦠well, shenanigans felt like a severe understatement. Especially after the whole clones and kidnapping ordeal.
Danny shrugged. āIām not sure. Heās, like, super-obsessed with my mom and seems to think I would want to be his son, or something? Itās⦠another long story.ā
Thanatos hummed thoughtfully. āDo you need help dealing with him?ā
Danny didnāt know what Thanatos meant by ādealing with himā, but he couldnāt imagine that it meant anything good. āNo, I⦠I can handle it,ā Danny said with a chuckle. āVlad may be the definition of ācrazed fruitloopā, but heās not really that big of a threat. Most of the time, at least,ā Danny added as he thought back on the latest mess Vlad had put him through.
āHe kidnapped you, Danny,ā Thanatos reminded him flatly. āAnd made clones of you.ā
āYeah, wellā¦ā Danny ran his hand through his hair and sighed loudly. āI just donāt need any more trouble at the moment. Thereās Vlad, sure, but then I was worried sick about Ellie, so I went looking for her, and then I learned about some group of ghosts thatās trying to erase my memories, andāā
āWhat?ā
āHuh?ā Danny blinked. āOh, yeah. I donāt even know whatās going on there, but apparently someoneās trying to take my throne and make me forget about it, because apparently Iām the Ghost King! Did you know that? Wait. Yes, you did know that. Youāre the one that told me.ā
Danny dragged his hands down his face and groaned. Perhaps it wasnāt just Thanatosā radio silence that they had to talk about. Danny had a lot going on, too.
Danny dropped his hands and gave Thanatos a tired glance. āI imagine you ādealing with himā would end up causing me some sort of trouble, yes?ā
Thanatos seemed to think about it for a moment before giving a vague shrug.
Danny sighed again. āI can handle Vlad. Honestly, heās the least of my worries right now, believe it or not. Heās probably busy rebuilding his lab at the moment, and Iām headed off to camp in less than a month. And Vlad doesnāt know that Iām leaving, or where Camp Half-Blood even is, so heāll be out of my hair for a whole summer while I train, and Iāll be able to kick his butt when I get back, just like I always do. Easy peasy.ā
Thanatos didnāt look convinced, but he didnāt say anything. Which was fine by Danny. Vlad wasnāt who they were there to talk about. āAnyway, about⦠Dianthe.ā
āWhat about her?ā Thanatos muttered quietly.
āWell⦠how did you meet her?ā Danny asked. He supposed that was as good a place as any to start.
Thanatos thought for a moment. āHades had me watch over her when she was little.ā
Danny found that to be a little odd. āWhy?ā
āShe was his first mortal child,ā Thanatos repeated. āHe was worried about her well-being.ā
āSo he sent the Grim Reaper to look after her?ā Danny deadpanned.
Thanatos looked thoughtful. āWell, when you put it that way, I suppose it is a bit strange.ā
āOkay,ā Danny hummed. āSo Hades sent you to keep an eye on her, but why did you take her on as an apprentice? You took me on as an apprentice so I could, like, help you with all the ghosts and stuff. Did she also have ghost powers or something?ā
Ā For a moment, Thanatos seemed to ponder how to respond. āItās a bit of a long story, but⦠I did it to protect her.ā
When he didnāt elaborate, Danny pushed. āYou gonna⦠explain that?ā
Thanatos said nothing.
āOkay, then.ā Honestly, Danny was surprised Thanatos had revealed as much as he had. For the time that Danny had known him, the god had been pretty secretive. And whenever the topic of his last apprentice came up⦠āWhy did you wait so long to take on another apprentice?ā
Thanatos looked down at his hands, and Danny could see the pain in his eyes. He didnāt honestly expect Thanatos to answer, but the god did. āI⦠it destroyed me, when Dianthe died. I did not want to go through that pain again.ā He clenched his fists. āI still donāt.ā
āOh.ā Danny thought for moment, before gently asking: āIs⦠every death hard for you? Even though youāre⦠yāknow. Death?ā
Thanatos shook his head. āNo. The passing of life has always felt⦠right to me, in a sense. It is the natural order of things. But her deathā¦ā His voice caught in his throat, and when he spoke again it was no more than a whisper. āIt was not right. It was not meant to happen. Not like that.ā
āBut⦠arenāt you the one that collects the souls and all that? That means you collected hers, right?ā Danny reasoned. āCouldnāt you have just⦠not collected hers?ā
Thanatos answered stiffly, as if it pained him. āThere are rules to death, Danny. I know that better than anyone. And even if⦠even if I had decided to break the rules, I was not the one who reaped her soul.ā
Danny was surprised to learn that. āBut⦠I thoughtā¦ā
There was a faraway look in Thanatosā eyes, as if he wasnāt quite there. But then he blinked as he seemed to focus in on the conversation again, and when he spoke, he spoke matter-of-factly. āThere are other psychopomps. I may be the overall god of death, but I am also the god of peaceful death. As such, I collect the souls of those who pass peacefully. There is also Ker, or the Keres, who collects the souls of those who pass in battle or an otherwise violent manner. There are Phonos and Androktasia, or the Phonoi and the Androktasiai. They help Ker gather the murdered and slaughtered, respectively. Then there is Makaria, goddess of blessed deaths. She gathers those who died valiantly and are more often than not destined for Elysium. And finally, there is Hermes. He is an Olympian, but he helps occasionally, when there is too much to be done by the rest of us. Such as in times of famine, plague, and war.ā
Danny had struggled to listen after the mention of the name Makaria, because the moment he heard it his core did a somersault in his chest and began thrumming so loudly he could barely hear his own thoughts. It was like⦠it was trying to tell him something.
But what?
He shook his head. Had he even heard that name before just now? He wasnāt sure. So what did it matter? His core was just⦠being weird again. That was all.
The thrumming of his core faded away as quickly as it had appeared, and as Danny pondered over what Thanatos had said, he noticed something that didnāt make sense to him. āWait a minute. You told me that you were the one who came to collect my soul. Personally, I donāt think that my⦠my death was very⦠peaceful.ā
Thanatos nodded in understanding. āI do not only collect souls who pass peacefully. I also collect the souls of all children. Being the god of peaceful death, I am one of the⦠kinder psychopomps.ā
āWell, I havenāt really met any other⦠psychopomps, so Iāll have to take your word for it.ā Danny said after a moment.
Thanatos nodded, and the two of them fell into silence. It wasnāt an awkward silence, it just⦠was. Like neither really knew what to say next. The Lethe burbled gently as butterflies flitted around the flowers blooming along the riverās banks. From within the depths of the cave behind him, Danny could hear the quiet chirping of birds. It was peaceful, and still.
Danny only wished his mind was as still as the scene around him.
He had too many questions, and asking them had only created more. Yes, Thanatos had finally opened up about his first apprentice. But at the same time, he had still been incredibly vague. Danny still didnāt know why exactly she had become Thanatosā apprentice in the first place, or how she had died, or what Thanatos meant by her death not being ārightā.
And if her death wasnāt right, but Thanatos hadnāt been able to prevent it⦠then what was the deal with Danny?
āWell⦠what about me?ā Danny asked quietly. āMy accident⦠and that weird transformation, during our first training session. Both times, I almost died. But you⦠saved me? I mean, kind of. If there are rules to death, then⦠why am I still here?ā
āBecause it wasnāt your time to die,ā Thanatos answered simply. āThe Fates have something else in mind for you. As for what that is⦠I suppose we will wait and see.ā
āWasnāt it the same for Dianthe?ā Danny asked, his voice growing louder with⦠what, he wasnāt sure. Fear? Frustration? Distress? āYou said her death wasnāt right, but you couldnāt do anything to save her. So why save me? Whyā¦?ā
Why do you care?
Woah. That⦠wasnāt Danny. Itā¦
It was that voice again. The one that had spoken to him back in that cave, in Danās timeline. He had felt inklings of it here and there since then, but it hadnāt spoken so strongly in a while.
Danny put a hand to his chest. It was ice cold, and it felt like his core was burning, but⦠not painfully. It wasnāt painful at all, yet at the same time⦠it ached terribly, like an old wound. Like he was⦠forgetting something.
Thanatos spoke then, startling Danny from his thoughts. āI could not do anything to stop Dianthe from dying, but⦠I could do something to stop you from dying.ā
Danny looked up at the god beside him, and the expression on his face was one Danny couldnāt quite place, but judging from the tone of his voice⦠it was hurt.
āIt may not be obvious to you, but I am not the most welcome of gods,ā Thanatos continued quietly. āEven among other gods. As such, the number of people who like me is rather few. And it is the same in return. I do not care for most people, be they god, mortal, or anything in between.ā
Thanatosā voice was barely above a whisper, and Danny felt terrible for asking those questions in the first place. He wasnāt even sure why he had asked them.
āI have not had an apprentice in a very long time,ā Thanatos went on. āAnd apprentices are⦠a very sacred thing. A god does not just⦠take one on and then cast them aside like⦠like a-a fish carcass!ā Thanatosā voice rose as he threw his hands up in exasperation. āAn apprentice to a god isā¦ā
Thanatos trailed off, seemingly frustrated as he struggled to word what he was trying to say. Danny just stared at his shoes, feeling absolutely awful over the turn the conversation had taken. He had wanted answers, but⦠he hadnāt meant to push Thanatos so much.
Thanatos took a deep breath; he seemed to have regained his composure (what little had slipped, anyway), but there was still a raw edge to his voice when he spoke again. āAn apprentice is not quite a godās equal, but it is perhaps the closest a mortal will ever get to being one. An apprenticeās duty is to assist a god in their work. For Hephaestus, that is someone who reads his blueprints and give insight on his designs. For Artemis, that is her lieutenant, who leads her hunters while she is away. And the Oracle of Delphi has always been an apprentice of Apollo.ā
Another deep breath. āDianthe, to me, wasā¦ā Thanatos paused, and after a moment of thought a sad, melancholy smile formed on his lips. āWhere do I start? There wasnāt much that she could do, as a mortal. She served as my head priestess, and performed funerary rites for those who had no one to do them. She represented me as needed in the mortalsā traditions. For festivals and the like. Butā¦ā Absentmindedly, Thanatos clasped his hands in front of him, interlacing his fingers as if he were imagining holding someone elseās hand. āMost importantly, to me⦠she was my⦠friend.ā His grip tightened, his knuckles turning white. āMore than that.ā
ā⦠oh!ā Danny blinked in surprise. āLike⦠a girlfriend?ā
Thanatos grimaced at the word. āThatās⦠not quite it.ā
Danny stared at Thanatosā clasped hands as he tried to think of another word. Wife, maybe? Could gods even marry mortals? ā⦠soulmate?ā
Thanatos didnāt seem to react at first. But then, from the corner of his eye, Danny noticed that the indigo and violet feathers along the bottoms of Thanatosā wings seemed to lighten in color. Just a touch. Had they always been that dark, though? He hadnāt noticed until now, but⦠they had been almost black when Danny had first dropped in.
A soft, more genuine smile graced Thanatosā face as he quietly said, āI like that word.ā
A brief silence fell over them, leaving Danny to process what he had just learned. He⦠certainly hadnāt been expecting that. Nothing about Thanatos seemed to indicate that he was the āromanticā type of guy. Or god. But Danny supposed that it made sense why Thanatos had been so closed off about the whole thing in the first place. Danny wasnāt much of a romantic guy himself (he had only kissed a girl once (and that girl had been Sam, and she had been clear that it wasnāt a real kiss)), but⦠he imagined that losing someone that important was pretty hard to talk about.
āDiantheās deathā¦ā Thanatos began, drawing Dannyās attention away from his thoughts. āIt was my fault. I have never forgiven myself for it. So on the day of your first training session with me, when you⦠transformed, and started to die⦠I could not let that happen.ā Thanatos looked at Danny then, and his expression was strangely thoughtful. āI reason with myself that it is because you are not meant to die, as I had thought on the day I first met you. But sometimes I wonder if perhaps⦠it was just selfishness on my part.ā He looked away, his hair falling so that it obscured his face. āIt had been millenia since Iād last taken on an apprentice. I couldnāt let this one end⦠the same way as the last.ā
āSo why did you choose me?ā Danny asked him quietly. āIf you donāt want to risk losing another apprentice, then why take on another?ā
Thanatos brushed his hair aside, and Danny saw that thoughtful look on the godās face once again. āThat is a difficult question for me to answer, Danny. But I suppose the best answer I can give is⦠it was the right thing to do. Fighting oneās prophecy is never a tale that ends well. That, andā¦ā For a moment, Thanatos seemed to not know what to say. Then he reached out and, to Dannyās surprise, ruffled the halfaās hair. āI think⦠Dianthe wouldāve wanted me to be there for you,ā Thanatos said softly. āShe would have loved to meet you. And I think you would have liked her.ā
Still surprised by Thanatosā almost fatherly display of affection, Danny could only nod. āY-yeah. I⦠think so, too.ā
Thanatos nodded and dropped his hand, and a few seconds later Danny spoke again. ā⦠thanks,ā he said quietly. āFor talking to me.ā
After a moment, Thanatos gave a nod. Danny didnāt really know what to say next, but as he opened his mouth, a purple-winged butterfly suddenly fluttered over and landed on the tip of his nose.
āOkay, I gotta ask: whatās with the butterflies?ā
āThe Ancient Greeks believed that butterflies were the souls of the departed.ā Another butterfly landed on Thanatosā shoulder. āAs such, the butterfly is my sacred animal.ā
Danny couldnāt help but giggle at that. At Thanatosā questioning look, he blushed. āSorry, itās just⦠I dunno, death is supposed to be all dark and scary, but your sacred animal is butterflies?ā
Thanatos rolled his eyes, but when he spoke there was a hint of amusement in his voice. āDid you know that butterflies love the taste of rotting flesh?ā
ā⦠Iām sorry, what?ā Danny went cross-eyed trying to look at the butterfly on his nose; the feeling of its tiny legs on his skin was suddenly a little unsettling.
āYep,ā Thanatos said, popping the āpā. He leaned over and pointed at the insect on Dannyās nose. āThat one right there is known as the Purple Emperor Butterfly. Most butterflies just enjoy the taste of rotting meat, but this one actually eats it.ā
Even though they were quite a distance from the pillow cave, Danny was sure that his shriek of disgust woke up Hypnos.
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We promised ourselves we would never say āblinked in surpriseā again because itās, like, really dumb, but it really did describe Dannyās reaction just about perfectly here.
And as a heads up, we do have a solemn chapter coming up soon. In it, a child dies of leukemia and Danny collects his soul. We understand that itās a sensitive topic and it can be tough to read about, but it is somewhat essential to Dannyās future role in this story.
This story is about death. Danny is the apprentice to Death and as such will be dealing with a lot of death, not just old people or villains. There will be loved ones, children, men and women both old and young. Really heartwrenching scenes. If you find this difficult to read, weāre just letting you know now that this will be an overarching theme and will be central to this story.
Let us know what you think of this chapter, and thank you again for reading our story. We love you guys! See you next chapter!
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